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If You Could See Me Now

2.9  ·  Rating details ·  31 Ratings  ·  9 Reviews
When Michael Mewshaw receives a call from a stranger who says she has reason to believe he is her biological father, Mewshaw realizes he has been half dreading, half hoping for this to happen for over thirty years. Just like the young woman who wants to find the last piece to the puzzle of her life, he thinks it’s possible that in the same process he will discover the answ ...more
Hardcover, 240 pages
Published September 2nd 2011 by Unbridled Books (first published April 1st 2006)
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May 19, 2007 rated it it was amazing
This is a very complicated but fascinating story. The author writes of his relationship with a woman who becomes pregnant with another man's child. The child (a daughter) is given up for adoption. The daughter contacts the author because the birth mother listed him on the birth certificate as her birth father. Got that so far? While this book is probably slanted because of the cruelty inflicted upon the author, I found the mother to be the perfect example of a narcissist. The birth mother used a ...more
Sep 06, 2012 rated it it was ok
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Terry Perrel
Aug 10, 2009 rated it liked it
A memoir incited by a woman in search of her birth mother, the author's role in her pre-natal history, and the odd trinity involved in the woman's journey towards her genetic identity. An odd tale made more so by the behaviors of the birth mother, a prominent figure in the State Department and Republican politics.
Oct 14, 2007 rated it really liked it
Shelves: thenakedtruth
While the story takes a twist that makes it more about the author's relationship to his past than finding birth parents, it does make for an interesting discussion starter on nature vs. nurture. I also ended the book feeling that this man had a lot more unresolved feelings about the birth mother than her child did.
Dec 29, 2010 rated it liked it
The first chapter of this book totally sucked me in and I was a little disappointed that it didn't hold me like that for the rest of the book. Having said that it was a pretty gripping read, painting the woman, Adrienne, to be a selfish manipulative cow. Mewshaw may have had to write this book to finally get her out of his head 30 years after he'd stopped being her boyfriend.
Oct 16, 2010 rated it liked it
I didn't really love the characters but thought the story and viewpoints interesting. I'm glad adoptions are more open today, although I respect the privacy of birth moms of yore.
Sue Kozlowski
Aug 25, 2012 rated it liked it
Non-fiction. Good. He helped a girlfriend put a baby up for adoption (not his baby). Amy contacts him now in London. He tells about the past and finds his old girlfriend.
Jan 21, 2015 rated it it was ok
The story is told as if it is more interesting than it is. It shows a bit of skill on the part of the writer, but to me was over-wrought and romanticized.
Apr 19, 2007 rated it it was ok
Shelves: memoirs
This is not a typical reunion story. It has lots of twists, and it was actually disappointing in the end, even though the author seemed very much at peace with the way things turned out.
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Michael Mewshaw is an American author of 11 novels and 8 books of nonfiction, and works frequently as a travel writer, investigative reporter, book reviewer, and tennis reporter. His novel Year of the Gun was made into a film of the same name by John Frankenheimer in 1991. He is married with two sons.

Alan Cheuse, National Public Radio's longtime "voice of books," has called him "the best novelist
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