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Taking National Poetry Month's poem-a-day challenge one step further, for her fourth collection, Trista Mateer has not only compiled a chapbook of her 2016 '30 for 30' poems, but she has also chosen to include nearly everything else written in the month of April. This comes in the form of handwritten notes and poetry fragments, iPhone note poetry, tweets, Craigslist ads, a ...more
Published October 9th 2016 by Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
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Apr 05, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Every airport poem smashes into my heart. Which is to say, Trista is one of the most accessible, emotional poets writing today.
Tania Duarte
Feb 24, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: poetry
I'd read Trista before, but I'm honestly in love with this book. In love with how raw and honest her words come across, and also how many of them hit very close to home. Something that caught my attention, in the best way possible, was the way she made poems out of such "21st century" things like tweets and e-mails (that e-mail poem? Your e-mail apology doesn't mean shit? Mind!!! blown!!!). So clever, so beautiful, so heartbreakingly real.
Nov 19, 2017 rated it it was amazing
"Redacted" is the most personal book of poetry I have read. Trista shows a certain sense of vulnerability by allowing readers glimpses into her personal life - iPhone messages and notes, inner contemplation, and late night musings. A beautiful stand alone, "Redacted" showcases why poetry is still very, very much alive.
Feb 22, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: poetry
Trista's poems are always brilliant, but these felt particularly like a conversations she was having with herself - examining and interrogating poet, poems and public persona - in a way I don't think she did so much in her previous collections. This isn't self-critical as a hollow disclaimer, the poems feel genuine and charming - soft and difficult and beautifully messy, as so many of us find our 20s to be.
Feb 23, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Raw, real, wonderful.
Kira Schumacher
Apr 07, 2018 rated it it was amazing
As far as character inspiration goes, I always find it in Trista Mateer's books and this one just has been full of heart-wrenchingly honest feelings and thoughts and relationships, and just the whole package. This has been a direct improvement to my saturday. And my own writing, in that matter. ♥
Luna Margo Valentine
she tells a good story, i always enjoy trista mateer's work but this might just be my favorite, i even ended up writing a poem while reading.
Caitlin Conlon
Dec 07, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: signed-books
JESUS this was good. Holy shit. The mixed media, the words, the everything. Everything about this touched me so intimately.
Sam Blondell
Feb 21, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

Wonderful poetry written to strike a match in your heart and gut. Reminding you of your own history of love
Kelley Cantrell
Jul 24, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Raw, honest, and beautiful.
Apr 07, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2018, bi-books, lgbtqia, poetry
the poet knows the exact taste of regret and never tries to wash it out of her mouth. the poet holds onto grudges until her fingers bleed.

God, I LOVED this. This collection is EVERYTHING - and it's currently FREE in the Kindle store in honour of National Poetry Month/NaPoWriMo, as this collection was written during NaPo a few years back. So go and pick it up right now, you have no excuse not to.

there's a reason our star sign looks like a wishbone.

This collection was super interesting. It was a
Aug 01, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
A very enjoyable read

Something a bit different. The style of writing is different from what I’ve become accustomed to of poetry books and something I quite enjoyed experiencing. It’s always quite a privilege when somebody bares their soul to you and allows you to see who they are. I feel like the author did that again and again throughout each poem and it made the poems hold so much more weight. If you’re looking to understand others or even understand yourself more, then this is definitely a go
Dec 30, 2017 rated it liked it
Sometimes I say that a book was like reading the poet’s diary. Here I almost want to take out the ‘like’ – this book is the epitome of honesty and openness. It seems like a book dedicated to apologising to everyone Trista feels she has ever hurt in person or via her poetry (and in places explaining to some, that if her words hurt them, good!) I did find it captivating but not as a ‘poetry’ book but simply as the story of the writer – it includes tweets and phone entries and intimate conversation ...more
Shannon O'Connor
Sep 02, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2018
Effortlessly amazing

Once again Trista has left me breathless with her words. She never shys from speaking the truth and being blunt about how she feels and deals with things. Her poetry is so raw and beautiful I am once again in love with her books. She touches upon all her past romances and lovers the struggle of letting go, but reminding the reader that it is okay to hold on until you’re ready to let go.
Apr 09, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2018
Trista Mateer is one of my favorite modern poets, and is, in my opinion, vastly underappreciated in comparison to other "instagram poets." Her work is honest and specific in a way that makes it feel nitty-gritty and down-to-earth, and she experiments with format and theme in interesting and deliberate ways. [Redacted] is currently available FOR FREE on Kindle, so you should definitely go give it a read-- it's a great and very quick introduction to her work if you haven't read any before.
Brandy Shark
Apr 10, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: poetry
I'm so lucky to keep finding poets whose voice is similar to mine in experience and longing. Like Amanda Lovelace and Rupi Kaur, many of Trista Mateer's poems are poems that I could have written myself, if only I had had the words. Trista speaks for me, though we do not know each other, she echoes my experiences of love and men as if she has been by my side through it all.

I'm very excited to read more of her work.
Apr 15, 2018 rated it really liked it
[redacted] is a wonderful, powerful collection of poetry about womanhood, healing from trauma, queer identity, heartache, and mental illness. Mateer is a strong poet who mixes media in this book--some poems will be screenshots from her Twitter feed, others will be scanned, hand-written poems with dried flowers on the page--making it nearly double as an art book. Highly recommend. It's a quick read, but you will want to go back through it.
Apr 09, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

Really enjoyed this collection - I love Trista's work! So gorgeous and infinitely re readable. Recommend this to anyone who enjoys poetry and beautiful stringing together of words
McKayla Debonis
Jul 19, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

Tell me how this book is filled with heartache and yet everything about it is beautiful? I am at a loss for words.
I felt this book pierce my heart and stitch my wounds back together.

I loooooooove this collection so freaking much!!!
Moriah Conant
Apr 08, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition

As a poet, I relate to a lot of the things that Trista said and expressed. Does the person I’m thinking of read my poems? Should I have shared that? Am I romanticizing the bad days?

Would definitely recommend.

Warning: contains some graphic sexual poems.
Anne Chivon
Apr 08, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition

Yes please... I wasn't sure what to expect, but it worked out all ok in the end. Loved this a lot.
Mar 05, 2017 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
review tk
Laurel May
Jan 04, 2018 added it
Shelves: poetry
The titles are the best parts.
Apr 07, 2018 rated it liked it
Very short poetry collection filled with a lot of meaning and emotions. Not my favorite thing in the world, but overall very enjoyable!
Feb 25, 2017 rated it it was amazing
A collection of poems whose forms are as different as night and day, from classic formats to prose to lists to tweets, but that share their honesty, rawness, heartbreak, feeling.
Emma Whipkey
Feb 25, 2018 rated it it was amazing
I am a huge fan of Trista Mateer’s art and poetry. It is always honest and powerful and this book was just incredible. I can’t wait to read more of her work
Jul 30, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
So good and sad and absolutely wonderful!
Fida Islaih
Apr 10, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: poetry
This felt like reading a diary. I felt the hurt in it.
Vanessa Santos
Apr 07, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: poetry, soul-shakers
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Sep 08, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Don't mind me, just devouring every poem Trista Mateer has ever published at 4am. Her poetry is so addictive and I cannot get enough. Keep them coming please, Trista!!
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Trista Mateer is a writer and poet from outside of Baltimore, who could be living anywhere by the time you read this. She believes in lipstick, late nights, and cheap air fare. Known for her eponymous blog, she is also the author of three collections of poetry. More of her work can be found at:

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it was supposed to.”
“every dream I have about kissing you
ends with blood on my hands.”
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