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What It Looks Like

4.06  ·  Rating details ·  468 ratings  ·  123 reviews
Eli Bell is the only son of a police chief inspector and a forensic scientist. He's grown up wonky in a world that only deals with the straight and narrow -- and his new boyfriend isn't helping.

Rob Hawkes is six feet of muscle, tattoos, and arrest warrants. A career criminal and a former guest of Her Majesty's Prison Service, he'd rather hit Eli's parents than
ebook, 264 pages
Published August 20th 2016 by JMS Books LLC
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5 Stars.

Absolutely LOVED it.

I haven't come across this Author before
Heather K (dentist in my spare time)
*4.5 stars*

I have SO much to say about this book. SO MUCH.

Frankly, it wasn't at all what I was expecting. From reading a few reviews, I already knew that this book had a trans MC. Before you ask, no, I don't think that detail should be considered a spoiler. For one, it is an important aspect of the book that is revealed early on, and it is exactly what drew me to the book in the first place. I actively seek out books with trans MCs, and they are not exactly easy to find. Matthew J. Metzger is a new-to-m
One of my favorite reads of this year. This book is awesome. Period.

My first reaction when reading the first pages of this book was feeling the irresistible temptation of hitting myself in the head with a rock.


Yes, I’ve always been a little extreme.

See, Metzger is not a new author for me. I read one of his books a long time ago, Vivaldi in the Dark, and fell in love with his style. But, for some stupid reason, I didn’t stay true to m
Kaje Harper
A wonderful, realistic, well-written story about two guys figuring out their relationship, with several strikes against them. This book has solidly cemented Matthew Metzger as an auto-buy author for me. I love his guys - their edge of attitude and snark, their realistic conversations, the warmth down under the person they show the world. His main characters are complex, imperfect, and highly relatable, and I just went out to buy all of his books I had not yet read. And I'm glad, in my confidence ...more
Nov 03, 2016 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition

It's been a couple days since I read "what It looks like" and I still find myself thinking about Rob/Eli this two guys and what a journey their story was.

Their relationship was so raw and gritty but so honest and real their issues in some ways were difficult and some others so basic. Some of their problems coming from Eli's family that didn't like Rob, at all. Which part of me understood he had a criminal background but they also judge him by his appearance. Then also came their own ind
Nov 06, 2016 rated it really liked it
BR with my best partners in crime : Karen and Josy

4.5 stars

I don’t think I would have read this book (the blurb didn’t inspire me more than that) if not for doing this BR : a real shame. Thanks Josy for the push !!

And the blurb is quite deceptive imo. Because this book is more than just the son of a policeman having a relationship with a tattoed ex-con. So much more…
I suggest to read this book without knowing what’s it’s really about. However, for more details
Mar 11, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: lgbtq, erotica
Intense, emotional and something beautiful.... I had not expected the depth of emotions from this book, but wow - what a perfect example of not judging a book by its cover. I haven't read many Trans books, but this gave me such a painful insight into the transition process. I applaud Eli for his courage and adore Rob for his ability to see past the physical....a fabulous book
Nov 07, 2016 rated it it was amazing
4.5 stars rounded up to 5 because still no 1/2 stars here on GR and because sometimes things just aren't 'What It Looks Like'.

First off this was an excellent book to read and...

an absolutely perfect book to buddy read. I truly and highly recommend reading this one with a friend or two. I did and I have zero doubt that the reading experience was made all the better for having done so. Yes, this was another read with my buddy read besties, Christelle and Josy. So thank you ladies once again for a fun
This excellent, excellent book finally broke my long, dry and excruciatingly dull book slump. I loved Eli and Rob and their messy, extra dirty relationship and would love to read more about them.

These are my favorite kinds of characters to read about: flawed, argumentative, interesting, kinky as fuck, sarcastic, volatile. Yes, there could have been a bit less arguing between Eli and his parents but I'm sure in real life the arguments would go the same exact way.

You know what was als
Jenni Lea
Oct 02, 2016 rated it really liked it
Shelves: trans

Simply marvelous.

I'm too tired to do a proper review. It says something, though, that I stayed up until 4am to finish this.

Highly recommend.
* A Reader Obsessed *
4.5 Impressed Stars!

What it Looks Like is hardly what it seems, and that’s really the genius of it.

I didn’t know much going in despite the tags pretty much giving the main gist away, but it’s so much more than those labels. This did a slow unveiling in intensity, in revelations, and definitely in the proclamations. The wait was worth it.

There’s not a lot of plot here. Eli and Rob are already in a relationship - albeit a relatively new one. However, they’re still testing their bou
Chris, the Dalek King
The first time I read anything by Metzger was a couple weeks ago when I ended up reviewing his YA story, Spy Stuff. I was totally taken in by his wonderful writing style, his awesome trans character, and the easy way he made me feel so many things all at the same time. When I found out that his newest book would be releasing not long after my review of Spy Stuff I was excited to see what Metzger could do with a more adult-centered story. While the themes of What It Looks Like are definitely more mature than hisof ...more
Aug 15, 2016 rated it really liked it
4 stars

Fans of the author should know that this is a lot different from his other stories. This is very much an adult book. However, like his other stories, this felt authentic and real, especially what Eli was going through and the prejudices that Rob faced. I really liked that and I liked that the structure was more unique for a romance in that Eli and Rob were already together at the beginning. I have to say though that this wasn't my favourite Metzger story - maybe a little too much sex, swe
Aug 26, 2016 rated it liked it
Another good book by an author that's on his way to joining my list of faves.

What I liked

+ Eli/Rob

As individuals, neither of them is perfect (their tendency to lose their temper is one example) and that adds some nuances to the story. The exploration of their relationship was done in a really cool way.

When the book opens, they've been together around 6 months. So, the relationship is still new, but they're past the 'figuring out each other's quirks' moments.

Nov 08, 2016 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Ariana by: Judith
Shelves: bdsm
*4,5 stars*

Wow, this was not only brilliantly written, but in many ways unique!

First, we meet the MCs when they are already in a relationship. Eli and Rob have been seeing each other for six months when the book starts. If you think that's odd,well, it is a pretty ingenious ploy of the author because (view spoiler) ...more
Eli Bell is the son of conservative parents, his father being a policeman. There is a chasm between them that Eli can't seem to hurdle. Bad feelings, constant rows, seem to be the every day norm. Part of the toxic atmosphere, is caused by Eli's boyfriend, Rob Hawkes.

Hawkes has been into petty crime since a very young man. It was the way he kept him and his brother afloat, with a family life that was the stuff of nightmares. The push-pull of trying to keep Rob and his family in his life, is te
20% - I can't with the angst here. I'll pick this up again later.
Tamika♥RBF MOOD♥

I want to start off saying bravo Metzger!!! This was my first book by him, and I learned so much and really enjoyed it as well. I mean, my first props goes to the realistic feelings that I felt the author was able to get across the pages. This was also my first Transgender book. I didn't even know it was the case, because I just brought and read it on the strength of the cover. I was a little surprised, but then I learned so much and a lot of my questions were answered when reading this. I loved
Karen Wellsbury
Sep 22, 2016 rated it really liked it
A fierce, passionate and uplifting slice of one couples relationship and the issues that surround it.
I loved much of this, the authors voice, the northerness of the setting and dialogue, Eli and Rob's dynamic and the versatility of it, Rob's love for Eli.
I liked more: Rob and Eli's relationships with their siblings, Rob's extended family, the very real feel that Rob and Eli's arguments had, and how very sex positive the book is.

What let it down, for me, was that the resol
This book started when the MCs Eli and Rob were already six months in their relationship. So instead of the usual first-get-to-know and come-together plot, the story focused on Eli's desire to live his love for Rob in peace, without losing his family.
Eli, early twenties, still lived with his conservative parents. His father a police chief inspector and his mother a forensic scientist. While Eli's parents surly loved him and cared for him, they weren't able to accept, let alone understand him, w
Joyfully Jay
Oct 31, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: jay
A Joyfully Jay review.

4.75 stars

Ok, I’ll admit that this was one of those books that grabbed me from the cover. It just looked so hot and brooding and dirty that I was drawn in immediately. And to my delight, that description fits this story quite well. There is a grit and intensity to Rob and Eli’s interactions, not to mention a crazy heat, that I totally loved. But even better, underneath all of that is a sweet tenderness that pulls it all together so nicely.

This is a book where
Sep 07, 2016 rated it liked it
This is my first book from this author and I really enjoyed it. I must say that I was thrown for a loop while reading it (if you've read it you know what I mean) and it left me a little shocked for a moment lol

I really loved Rob, but Eli would get on my nerves from time to time. His family dynamic was crazy (at least to me). I'm giving Eli the benefit of the doubt as I know that the tension between Rob and his family weighed heavily on his mind. Everyone definitely spoke from the hea
My Secret Santa is the best, thank you!! xx

4.5 stars, I loved this, and it deserves a much better review than I feel like doing right now, so better review later. But I did want to mention once more how much I appreciated the gift from my Secret Santa! ❤
Mar 25, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I decided to read this book based on Judith's review: and I am so incredibly glad I did.

I had to wait a day before I wrote this review, I wanted to be at my keyboard not using my Kindle so I could properly articulate what I wanted to say without having to mess about with a touchscreen!

Wow, just wow. This is book is quite simply staggeringly good. It looks at so many different aspects of a relationship and parses them all into a coherent story of two imperfect perfect people, Eli and Rob,
Mónica BQ
This was a solid 5 star read up until the last 20% or so.
But still, superb writing. Superb story. Superb characters. Superb plot.
Sep 23, 2016 rated it really liked it
I enjoyed this novel to no end.
It is deliciously british - northern at that. The language was real and pulled no punches.
The dynamics of an established couple were a joy to witness and the sex positive message empowering and very profound.
If there is any doubt - and there shouldn't be because COME ON - about the validity, strenght and significance of own voices this book most certainly squash said doubts and should be on the required reading list for all.
There were issues
Feb 12, 2017 rated it it was ok
2.5 Stars
I think it was my problem not the book, since I know many reviewers have enjoyed it immensely beforehand. I pretty appreciate the style of writing here and I enjoyed it while I didn't enjoy the book in general. The characterization started so good but it gradually seemed dull and lost the freshness I'd felt at the beginning. The plot didn't help too, I thought many scenes were too similar and repetitive and the main character's problem with his family seemed like unending and unsolvable a
Jul 25, 2018 rated it liked it
4.0 for great writing (you really feel you are there), own voices and solid representation. Minus .5 points because what the what? Why would a trans adult stay in a home where his parents have been so dismissive of his truth that they denied him puberty blockers? Or where they have been so dismissive of his partner that it takes an extreme situation for them to recognize that partner’s worth?

I get that parents can be difficult. But why would you live with them and risk your (great) r
Nov 25, 2016 marked it as to-read
Thanks, The Gallic cheesy elf, for gifting me this book! (and making me laugh, because that name!)
Helena Stone
Review to follow. For now all I'll say this book is really, really good. Extra special even :)

Full Review:

Normally when I finish a book I open a word document and write my review straight away. This book is different. A few hours have passed since I read the epilogue and I’m still going over the story in my mind and trying to figure out how to best put all my thoughts and feelings into words. And the longer I allow my thoughts to flow freely through my mind, the more dept
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Matthew is an asexual, transgender author from the wet and windy British Isles. He is currently lurking in the Bristol area, but has lived all over, and has a special fondness for Yorkshire.

Matt writes LGBT novels, both adult and young adult, and particularly enjoys digging into the weird and wonderful diversity of people all across the sexuality and gender spectrums. When not writing,