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History Is All You Left Me

4.03  ·  Rating details ·  44,468 ratings  ·  7,387 reviews
Griffin has lost his first love in a drowning accident. Theo was his best friend, his ex-boyfriend and the one he believed he would end up with. Now, reeling from grief and worsening OCD, Griffin turns to an unexpected person for help. Theo's new boyfriend.

But as their relationship becomes increasingly complicated, dangerous truths begin to surface. Griffin must make a cho
Paperback, 294 pages
Published March 1st 2017 by Simon & Schuster Children's UK (first published January 17th 2017)
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Emily May
Dec 05, 2016 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
People are complicated puzzles, always trying to piece together a complete picture, but sometimes we get it wrong and sometimes we’re left unfinished. Sometimes that’s for the best.

I stayed up late last night to finish this book and, I confess, I had chills down my spine as I came to the final page. History Is All You Left Me is a deeply sad book, perfectly in tune with human nature and yet never manipulative as it explores love, friendship and grief between four boys.

Perhaps Silvera is just
Hailey (Hailey in Bookland)
This was absolutely beautiful. Love love LOVE.
Emma Giordano
Dec 11, 2016 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

I sincerely do not know to start this review because I just finished reading 5 minutes ago and to be honest, I'm having trouble breathing because I'm so overwhelmed. History Is All You Left ME was nothing less than a masterpiece; it's enticing, it's thrilling, it's reflective, it's heart-breaking. It's everything you could possibly want it to be and more and I cannot recommend this book enough to you a
Jul 06, 2016 rated it really liked it
Shelves: owned, queer
"Just because someone is forgiving, it doesn't make asking for forgiveness easy."

History Is All You Left Me is Adam Silvera's second novel, and it may be even better than his debut More Happy Than Not. Silvera tells a story of love, friendship and mourning in face of loss.

Griffin loses his first love, best friend and ex-boyfriend Theo in an accident. Left behind and feeling lost and lonely in his grief, he recounts their history, their relationship, first-times, happy times and not-so-happy
"I mean it: Promise me." "I promise you: I'll never die."

History Is All You Left Me follows Griffin, a guy who is suffering the loss of his ex-boyfriend Theo, who just died in a drowning accident. On top of grieving the death of Theo, is he also struggling with his OCD getting out of hand, pushing away the other member of their 'squad", Wade, and finally meeting Jackson. The boy who stole Theo away from him. HIAYLM follows events from both present and "history" weaving together and leading
Apr 12, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favourites
‘we were something, but history isnt enough to keep something alive forever.’

once again, adam silvera has created a story that radiates gentle love and pure tenderness. and i had no idea how much i would be able to relate to this on such a personal level. i think anyone who has ever had a difficult time letting go of history could benefit from reading this.

4.5 stars
C.G. Drews
[read 2 | June 2020]
I finish my reread with a complicated knot of feelings. There is always a risk, when coming back to a book you loved years ago, that it won't hit the same ways. That did happen here. This time I was hyper aware of the intense level of problematic obsession Griffin had with Theo (and tbh Theo was self absorbed the whole time) and while I want to give space for messy teens and the way mental illness (Griffin has OCD) can dig into your life and leave wounds -- it wasn't deeply a
✨    jami   ✨
history is all you left me literally fucked me up in 12 dimensions. this book moved me and effected me on such a deep level I really don't know what else to say about it. I read this book as part of a book club, and while I vaguely knew the plot, and had heard lots of good things about Adam Silvera - I didn't know what to expect exactly.

this book absolutely destroyed me I read it three months ago and I swear I think about it every day. It really touched me, and had such a big impact on me both a
4.5/5 Stars

I'm sorry, but please don't be mad at me for reliving all of it. History is all you left me.

Hey you!

Yeah, you.

Do you like happiness?

And living?

And having your heart be perfectly okay?

Then this is not the book for you, but I think you should still read it anyway.

Now, I have a confession, I read this book back in January. According to Google, 178 days have come and gone with this book existing in my life. And in those 178 days, I've lied to everyone stating this review was coming
Alex ✰ Comets and Comments ✰
“You and I loved riding the L train together, always wondering if whatever car we were in was the exact car where our own history began, the prologue to what should’ve been an epic love story.”


Very rarely do you come across a book that has the ability to snatch the air from your lungs, pull your heart straight out your ribs, plant a twinkle in your eye through the tears, and root itself so deep in your nervous system, that every-time you move - you move with the story.

Please, please - if y
Larry H
Jan 21, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I'm at about 4.5 stars with this one.

Oh, man, this book...

Theo was Griffin's first love. They were best friends first, and then one day, Theo surprised Griffin by expressing his feelings for him, especially since they had never discussed either of them being gay. (This was Theo's secret; Griffin's was revealing to Theo that he knew he was suffering from obsessive-compulsive disorder and he wasn't quite sure what to do about it.)

"It's going to sound stupid, and I wouldn't ever say this out loud,
Sep 20, 2018 marked it as dnf
Shelves: lgbtqia
DNF at page 121.

Well, that took a turn that I wasn’t prepared for.

My history with Adam Silvera:
More Happy Than Not — 3/5 ⭐️
They Both Die At the End — 4.5 ⭐️
What If It’s Us - 4.5 ⭐️

So, I knew going into this, it could’ve been a hit or miss for me. As soon as I started reading it, the writing style was already jarring me and the change between the past and the present wasn’t helping.

100 pages in, I thought I was getting used to the writing style, but there was just no excitement in picking t
destiny ♡⚔♡ [howling libraries]
“I'm sorry, but please don't be mad at me for reliving all of it. History is all you left me.”

Oh, where to start with this one. I have a lot of feelings about this book, and I guess I’ll just go ahead and get this out of the way: despite the fact that I still gave it a decent rating, I’m tremendously disappointed, because I thought for sure that this would be a 5-star read for me. I adored Adam’s most recent release, They Both Die at the End , to the degree that I put him on my a
Elyse  Walters
Feb 02, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
"I don't know if I can stand hearing about your happiness with him, but maybe it'll
help me understand you better. Maybe it'll help me add pieces to the puzzle of your life."

Theo and Griffin - best friends since grade school - became 'boyfriends' when they were sixteen. Both with wonderful supportive parents...I laughed when Griffin's dad said..."That's wonderful, but no more sleepovers".
Soon, in a very funny scene, Griffin and Theo run into Griffin's dad while in a drug store. Busted, Griffin i
I had a feeling before I started this that it wouldn't be my thing. I don't read a lot of YA, and especially don't read a lot of YA contemporary. But I wanted to give it a chance because it was part of my 2017 BookTube Recommends project. However, after reading 25% of the book I know it's not my jam. I couldn't click with the writing style, especially the switching back and forth of the 1st person and 2nd person tenses between chapters. I might've been able to spend a few more hours and finished ...more
Hari ~Brekker-Maresh~
Edit: 7.25.17

Ok here I am, like two-ish days after I read the book... And I'm still dead.

This book was amazing.

If you aren't crying by sentence number one I'm sorry, I'm gonna have to ship your ass to Area 51 cuz you are not. Human.

I dare you. Read the next sentence without crying, or least without feeling the urge to cry.

You’re still alive in alternate universes, Theo, but I live in the real world, where this morning you’re having an open-casket funeral.

Could you do it?? Doubt it.

I've add
Sabaa Tahir
Apr 11, 2016 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
A compelling and cerebral exploration of friendship, young love, OCD, grief, healthy relationships, damaged relationships, broken hearts, broken people and selfishness--all from the point of view of an endearing but fascinatingly unreliable narrator. A completely different read from Adam Silvera's first phenomenal book, MORE HAPPY THAN NOT, and yet just as powerful. Absolutely a 5-star read. ...more
Whitney Atkinson
I started this book because I wanted a book that would get me in my feels, and although this got me teary a few times, it wasn't as sad as I was expecting it to be.

There was actually a lot of depth to this that I wasn't expecting. All the characters are so flawed and it was really refreshing to not be a typical loss story. It was so much more complex than I thought it would be and I was really refreshed and impressed. Even though Griffin makes questionable choices, you still root for him. It was
Reading_ Tam_ Ishly
I didn't like the storyline, the plot was messy and somehow problematic and, yes, it deals with death and grief. And I did not like any of the characters.

When I woke up this morning, the book was under my bed. I don't know what happened but I guess I got exhausted crying for every alternate chapter ever since the very first chapter.

This is one of those books which I would think twice before recommending it.

But I cried my being out while reading the first 70 percent of the book so much that I t
Jun 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: feels-like-home
“I'm sorry, but please don't be mad at me for reliving all of it. History is all you left me.”

Everyone had a purpose in life, as said by that preachy camp counsellor back when summer camp was a thing. Adam Silvera's, apparently, is to make sure that I cry vehemently to his books to the point that I drown in my own tears (he succeeded yet again, folks).

History is All You Left Me was a surprising hammer and glue to my heart. I didn't expect to love it as much because the writing style
Jan 15, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
There isn't a day when I don't think about this book and cry for it...
Just going back and remembering the moment my life stopped making sense.

Happy Pride Month!
I know nobody will ever read or see this post/review, but as there's no one else on my life who would hear me either, I just had the ne
Jan 27, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
OMG this book absolutely my favorite book of 2017 until 20100 it's just so sad and beautiful and unique and of course Adam silvera such good author to give us something beautiful like that ...more
4 stars!


“History is nothing. It can be recycled or thrown away completely. It isn’t this sacred treasure chest I mistook it to be. We were something, but history isn’t enough to keep something alive forever.”

History is All You Left Me is my first book by Adam Silvera, and let me tell you… it packed a punch. It was a compelling, heartbreaking, and beautifully written story.

This is the story of Griffin. It’s told part from present day, and part from the past. In the present, Griffin’
Mar 17, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I really can't review this I'm sorry, just read it. ...more
Korrina  (OwlCrate)
There's nothing quite like an Adam Silvera novel.

Both of his books are so heartbreakingly raw, real and beautiful. The entire time I was reading this I felt like I was truly experiencing things through Griffin, and it caused me to relive some tough memories from my own past. I also lost a friend to a drowning accident when I was a teenager and it's something you can never truly 'get over'. Anyways, I felt all of Griffin's anxiety, grief, guilt, happiness and longing as I took this journey with
Melissa ♥ Dog/Wolf Lover ♥ Martin

Well, that was sad 😕

Mel 🖤🐶🐺🐾
Mar 01, 2017 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: young-adult, fiction
Perhaps my love for Adam Silvera's debut novel More Happy Than Not gave me unrealistic expectations for this book, but I was honestly expecting to like History Is All You Left Me a lot more than I did.

Just because Griffin is no longer dating his first love, his best friend Theo who moved across the country for college, doesn't mean that he's stopped loving him. Griffin is confident that he and Theo are the end game, and that Theo's new boyfriend Jackson is just a distraction. But then Theo dies,
Feb 28, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
A poignant, heartbreaking read about grief and romance and the space between loving someone and losing them. History is All You Left Me follows Griffin, whose ex-boyfriend Theo died in a drowning accident in California. Griffin experiences sadness and guilt in almost equal measure, and he complicates the situation by seeking out Jackson, Theo's current boyfriend at the time of his death. Jackson, a California native and Griffin look-alike, may not be the best person for Griffin to confide in. Bu ...more
Elle (ellexamines)
**Minor spoilers ahead, but I'm not naming any names.

Ignore my rating, because I am full of mixed feelings right now.

It's not that this was a bad book by any means. Maybe my expectations were too damn high. Maybe I just wasn't in the mood to have my heart totally broken. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that when I picked up this book, I was expecting a significant romantic aspect. Well... it's there. And it's good! Until the end. And then it freaking sucks and ruined this book for me
JV (semi-hiatus)
"You kept me alive when we were apart. I promise I’ll always do the same for you."
To forget the past is to forget a part of ourselves that has defined us what we are in the present. For some of us, history is just a mere memory of things gone by. Some desire to go back in time to change things that we wished didn't happen or something that we could prevent — painful experiences, sorrow, heartbreaks, deaths, estranged relationships, missed opportunities, lost friendships, you name it. An inna
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Adam Silvera is the New York Times bestselling author of More Happy Than Not, History Is All You Left Me, and They Both Die at the End. His next book What If It's Us is co-written by Becky Albertalli (Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda) and releases on October 9th, 2018.
He writes full-time in New York City and is tall for no reason.

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