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Black Shamrocks MC #5
Finding Nirvana
His darkness has consumed him.
Is she the light that he needs?
Joel O’Brien has been drafted into a fight he doesn’t believe in. While the Black Shamrocks MC is doubling down for the final battle in the war they’ve been waging with Thomas Taylor and the Mavericks of Mayhem, Joel dreams of a different life. One where his family is intact and the Club no longer exists.
Sascha Koswalski knows what comes from loving an outlaw biker. Pain. Suffering. A broken heart. She’s not willing to risk it again—no matter how intriguing she finds Joel.
As the end nears, and life changing secrets are revealed, Joel and Sascha find themselves drawn together by the cold, hard realisation that they are the key to the survival of the Black Shamrocks MC. In this final defence of their way of life, will the Black Shamrocks MC be the victors or the victims?
WARNING: This story contains triggering content and is not suitable for all readers.
Finding Nirvana is the final book in the International Bestselling Black Shamrocks MC Series. If you enjoy gritty, authentic, and sexy MC reads, then you’ll love Kylie Hillman’s unique take on MC romance.
Find out how it all ends today!
Is she the light that he needs?
Joel O’Brien has been drafted into a fight he doesn’t believe in. While the Black Shamrocks MC is doubling down for the final battle in the war they’ve been waging with Thomas Taylor and the Mavericks of Mayhem, Joel dreams of a different life. One where his family is intact and the Club no longer exists.
Sascha Koswalski knows what comes from loving an outlaw biker. Pain. Suffering. A broken heart. She’s not willing to risk it again—no matter how intriguing she finds Joel.
As the end nears, and life changing secrets are revealed, Joel and Sascha find themselves drawn together by the cold, hard realisation that they are the key to the survival of the Black Shamrocks MC. In this final defence of their way of life, will the Black Shamrocks MC be the victors or the victims?
WARNING: This story contains triggering content and is not suitable for all readers.
Finding Nirvana is the final book in the International Bestselling Black Shamrocks MC Series. If you enjoy gritty, authentic, and sexy MC reads, then you’ll love Kylie Hillman’s unique take on MC romance.
Find out how it all ends today!
284 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 25, 2016
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Kylie Hillman
51 books897 followers*DUE TO ONGOING HEALTH ISSUES, KYLIE IS TAKING INDEFINITE LEAVE FROM PUBLISHING*
Kylie Hillman is an Australian author who writes bloodstained love stories and erotic, psychological thrillers (as K. Hillman). She intertwines grit, sarcasm, and romance in her tall tales.
Wife to a Harley riding, quintessential Aussie bloke and mum to two teens, Kylie splits her non-writing time between reading, sharing memes, avoiding black jelly beans, and lamenting her inability to drink a cup of tea before it goes cold.
Kylie is represented by Sarah Hershman of Hershman Rights Management.
Kylie Hillman is an Australian author who writes bloodstained love stories and erotic, psychological thrillers (as K. Hillman). She intertwines grit, sarcasm, and romance in her tall tales.
Wife to a Harley riding, quintessential Aussie bloke and mum to two teens, Kylie splits her non-writing time between reading, sharing memes, avoiding black jelly beans, and lamenting her inability to drink a cup of tea before it goes cold.
Kylie is represented by Sarah Hershman of Hershman Rights Management.
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January 20, 2017
It was sad, happy and bittersweet. Loved the ending but I still wanted more! Saw there is a book coming on the 1st generation but I would love to see the next generation and what happens to the two younger brothers.
February 3, 2017
my eyes hurt from reading this story I'm really sad what happen to Benji like are you kidding me there was a whole book about him I grown a connection with him he was getting his happy ending and turning his whole life around with Lacey and his family I'm even more sad that the book is done I want to know more about Kyle and if Lacey would turn back to her old way or she'll find someone new and how Sascha and her mother rekindle their relationship a lot of things i want to know but let me stop with the negative talk because even though i was sad throughout this whole and that this is the final book I loved every minute of it, I Read book 1-2 like a month ago i don't remember why I didn't continue to book 3 but Once i started reading books 3-5 i couldn't put them down I think i read them in one or two days lol. I hope the author makes a BOOK SIX OR SEVEN to put me at ease but a girl can dream right lol
i will most def read more books from this author!!
i will most def read more books from this author!!
November 20, 2016
What a fantastic end to the Black Shamrocks MC series!!!!
While this is Joel and Sascha's story, it is so much more. Fans of this series have been waiting for a long time to see how Kylie Hillman would would wrap things up. And, IMO, she did a fantastic job. I wasn't far in when I was first in tears and that definitely wasn't the only time I cried in this book. There are many twists and turns but the author keeps things pretty well on track and she manages to tie up a lot of loose ends in this book.
The original download of this book was messed up and it took a while for things to get taken care of, through no fault of the author. It is still listed in Amazon as only 78 pages, but it is, in fact, the full 26 chapters plus the epilogue. It was more than worth the wait!!!!
Thank you, Kylie Hillman, for a fantastic wrap-up for a great series!!!!
While this is Joel and Sascha's story, it is so much more. Fans of this series have been waiting for a long time to see how Kylie Hillman would would wrap things up. And, IMO, she did a fantastic job. I wasn't far in when I was first in tears and that definitely wasn't the only time I cried in this book. There are many twists and turns but the author keeps things pretty well on track and she manages to tie up a lot of loose ends in this book.
The original download of this book was messed up and it took a while for things to get taken care of, through no fault of the author. It is still listed in Amazon as only 78 pages, but it is, in fact, the full 26 chapters plus the epilogue. It was more than worth the wait!!!!
Thank you, Kylie Hillman, for a fantastic wrap-up for a great series!!!!
November 27, 2016
I never wanted this day to come...to say that I finished reading this wonderful series. This series has been one high and one low...the most thrilling of all rollercoaster rides.
Finding Nirvana, is Joel and Sascha's story with so so much more! Joel, the cripple, the silent one redeems himself in this book! If you didnt already have feelings of love for him before, you will!!! Sascha, the Therapist that is going to fix Joel, already broken herself from a life of lies and now being a single mother... is trying really hard not to get involved with a notorious biker dude.
Loved how well Kylie tied up all the loose ends and we got the family tree explained for all... My goodness, the founding members of the Black Shamrocks sure were quite the players!!! But in the long run, the true meaning of the Black Shamrocks is Family...
Finding Nirvana, is Joel and Sascha's story with so so much more! Joel, the cripple, the silent one redeems himself in this book! If you didnt already have feelings of love for him before, you will!!! Sascha, the Therapist that is going to fix Joel, already broken herself from a life of lies and now being a single mother... is trying really hard not to get involved with a notorious biker dude.
Loved how well Kylie tied up all the loose ends and we got the family tree explained for all... My goodness, the founding members of the Black Shamrocks sure were quite the players!!! But in the long run, the true meaning of the Black Shamrocks is Family...
October 15, 2017
An explosive finale to the series. This book brings together Joel a character who until now has remained very much in the background of the series and a new character Sascha, who finds herself thrown back into "the bikers" lifestyle, a lifestyle which she wants to stay away from. Circumstances and the aftermath of book 4 throw Joel & Sascha together, you see the pair trying to avoid the attraction they feel for each other. Sascha just wants to do her job and is unaware of just who Joel is, and what his connection to her is. Joel, on the other hand knows who Sascha is and how important she could be to the future of The Black Shamrocks, and is a reluctant participant of bringing her into fight that The Black Shamrocks are facing. As the book moves forward the relationship between them develops and the secrets that have shrouded them and The Black Shamrocks other characters are slowly revealed. Joel & Sascha both struggle to accept the secrets that have been kept from them for so many years. All the relationships that have formed over the course of the series are now questioned as the book heads towards what was the inevitable conclusion to the series. I hate spoilers so i'm not going to say to much more but, the book does answer many of the unanswered questions that your left with from the earlier books, as well as leaving enough suspense within the various relationships for the inevitable ending to not be boring.
December 5, 2016
After the fourth book ended, I thought we could be reading more of Maddi's and Miks story. But that is not the case instead we get to read the story in Joel's point of view. Along with the newest character Sascha and I can honestly say that the first chapter to this book torn my heart out. Especially after everything that we have been through with the characters. But that is usually the case with dark romances. You don't read frilly romances with rainbows in the sky. You read a book that is dark and gritty to the core, and the only thing that can survive is love. I really do love the amount of emotion that the author tied into the story.
Since I do right honest reviews, I do have to say I was a little disappointed that we didn't see a lot of Jasmine (Sascha's daughter.) Well not as much as I would have like. So that kinda bumped a star from the book. But other then that, this book was great!
Since I do right honest reviews, I do have to say I was a little disappointed that we didn't see a lot of Jasmine (Sascha's daughter.) Well not as much as I would have like. So that kinda bumped a star from the book. But other then that, this book was great!
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March 27, 2021
Well I certainly wasn't prepared for what happened at the end of the previous book and certainly not what happened at the beginning of this book. I actually froze for a minute and couldn't believe what I was reading. It's especially heartbreaking because Benji had straightened himself out and was in love. It was also difficult to read because it was written in Joel's POV and I felt his anguish. There was also Smoke who we got to know better in Benji's story and he did not deserve what happened to him either. All this sorrow, death and mayhem due to the machinations of soulless men - Beast & Taylor. Then as if that wasn't horrifying enough we get to the funeral and its heart break continued. Beast's behaviour at his own son's funeral just proves what a sack of shit he is - not there was any doubt in my mind but really???? what he said to Maddi and Wendy leaving with him - arghhh!!!! We also meet Sascha & Jasmine - I liked both of them but because of the war between MC's it didn't seem enough. I wish there had been more about Sascha, Jasmine & Joel. The taking of a life is not small matter but as I've been growing my hate on for Beast & Taylor I felt nothing when they met their demise. All I could think was FINALLY!!! The next book is about Brendan Taylor who I hated from word go and I'm not sure I care enough to read from his POV but then again who am I kidding I like to complete series.
December 5, 2016
Review by: Melanie
(5 stars)
Finding Nirvana starts exactly where book 4 finished, with the club being attacked in a bloody, brutal, catastrophic way. I swear, I must have cried maybe six times just reading the first half dozen chapters. Heartbreaking. Nothing else to describe it really. Once the wounded are ready to leave hospital, the Shamrocks put together a plan of action to take down the Mavericks of Mayhem, their traitorous ex-president, and the man who has caused them nothing but grief for years, Thomas Taylor.
Along the way, we get Joel’s story of rehabilitation from his injuries the Mavericks caused him, and his falling in love with the beautiful physio; Sascha, who unbeknown to her is actually a huge part of their plan to take the Shamrocks’ enemies down.
I really liked this book. We’d known in previous books, just how bitter, and understandably so, Joel was about the club and everything that had happened to him because if it, so to see someone finally get through his walls like Sascha did was really good. The pair had great chemistry, and I think Kylie wrote them very well.
I think everything got wrapped up nicely and it was a fitting end to the series. I’ve really enjoyed the whole thing. Finding Nirvana gets 5 stars.
(5 stars)
Finding Nirvana starts exactly where book 4 finished, with the club being attacked in a bloody, brutal, catastrophic way. I swear, I must have cried maybe six times just reading the first half dozen chapters. Heartbreaking. Nothing else to describe it really. Once the wounded are ready to leave hospital, the Shamrocks put together a plan of action to take down the Mavericks of Mayhem, their traitorous ex-president, and the man who has caused them nothing but grief for years, Thomas Taylor.
Along the way, we get Joel’s story of rehabilitation from his injuries the Mavericks caused him, and his falling in love with the beautiful physio; Sascha, who unbeknown to her is actually a huge part of their plan to take the Shamrocks’ enemies down.
I really liked this book. We’d known in previous books, just how bitter, and understandably so, Joel was about the club and everything that had happened to him because if it, so to see someone finally get through his walls like Sascha did was really good. The pair had great chemistry, and I think Kylie wrote them very well.
I think everything got wrapped up nicely and it was a fitting end to the series. I’ve really enjoyed the whole thing. Finding Nirvana gets 5 stars.
December 18, 2016
Finding Nirvana starts exactly where book 4 finished, with the club being attacked in a bloody, brutal, catastrophic way. I swear, I must have cried maybe six times just reading the first half dozen chapters. Heartbreaking. Nothing else to describe it really. Once the wounded are ready to leave hospital, the Shamrocks put together a plan of action to take down the Mavericks of Mayhem, their traitorous ex-president, and the man who has caused them nothing but grief for years, Thomas Taylor.
Along the way, we get Joel’s story of rehabilitation from his injuries the Mavericks caused him, and his falling in love with the beautiful physio; Sascha, who unbeknown to her is actually a huge part of their plan to take the Shamrocks’ enemies down.
I really liked this book. We’d known in previous books, just how bitter, and understandably so, Joel was about the club and everything that had happened to him because if it, so to see someone finally get through his walls like Sascha did was really good. The pair had great chemistry, and I think Kylie wrote them very well.
I think everything got wrapped up nicely and it was a fitting end to the series. I’ve really enjoyed the whole thing. Finding Nirvana gets 5 stars.
Along the way, we get Joel’s story of rehabilitation from his injuries the Mavericks caused him, and his falling in love with the beautiful physio; Sascha, who unbeknown to her is actually a huge part of their plan to take the Shamrocks’ enemies down.
I really liked this book. We’d known in previous books, just how bitter, and understandably so, Joel was about the club and everything that had happened to him because if it, so to see someone finally get through his walls like Sascha did was really good. The pair had great chemistry, and I think Kylie wrote them very well.
I think everything got wrapped up nicely and it was a fitting end to the series. I’ve really enjoyed the whole thing. Finding Nirvana gets 5 stars.
September 20, 2018
After reading the first chapter my heart stopped and I almost didn’t want to go any further. After falling in love with these books and characters one by one, I didn’t think I’d be able to get further in the story. But needing to know what happens next had me turning pages anyway. This book had me to the edge of my seat, full of emotions and waiting for the next twist to pop up.
Kylie has done a phenomenal job with the last book in the series. It was what I hoped for and then some.
I loved the connection Joel and Sascha had and their interactions right form the beginning. I loved seeing them and the other characters get their happy ending, but it was sad knowing this was pretty much the end.
I would love to get more stories about the Black Shamrocks MC, about Matty and Lachie and the next generation.
Kylie has done a phenomenal job with the last book in the series. It was what I hoped for and then some.
I loved the connection Joel and Sascha had and their interactions right form the beginning. I loved seeing them and the other characters get their happy ending, but it was sad knowing this was pretty much the end.
I would love to get more stories about the Black Shamrocks MC, about Matty and Lachie and the next generation.
November 22, 2016
This is the final novel in the Black Shamrocks MC series. This book finalizes the culmination of all that has transpired over the entire series, even though it is Joel O'Brien's story. We were mildly introduced to Sascha in book 4, but we understand the pivotal role she plays in tying all the sub-plots together. This book, as with the others was very well written and a joy to read. This is a dark romance/erotica with some elements of violence. The main theme conveyed in all the books in this series is the notion of love overcoming all obstacles.
September 9, 2019
What a fantastic ending for the Blackshamrocks MC. Like the other books in this series it's gripping, full of danger, suspense, secrets, death, healing and love. Joel who's mentally and physically crippled finds Sascha, his physical therapist, just may be the answer to his loneliness and getting his body in better shape. Their love story along with Mad Dog and Lainey will have you in tears and laughter.
Kylie brought this series to an outstanding finale. Still hated to see it end.
Kylie brought this series to an outstanding finale. Still hated to see it end.
November 23, 2022
He never thought he would have a life of his own, not after they had ruined his hands and legs.
He didn't believe that he could get any use from his now dysfunctional body, with physical therapy.
So to ask him to move into this sting, to get his club members more access to the their target, he would have to swallow his pride, and approach the one woman that had caught his eye, since he had been maimed.
However, it was his saving grace!
He didn't believe that he could get any use from his now dysfunctional body, with physical therapy.
So to ask him to move into this sting, to get his club members more access to the their target, he would have to swallow his pride, and approach the one woman that had caught his eye, since he had been maimed.
However, it was his saving grace!
November 7, 2017
After war comes peace
Poor Joel he has been through so much and for what? His life is forever changed and he is struggling to get his head around the devastating effects of what has happened to his family. Sasha is a beautiful physio who is part of the end game to finish the was, but she becomes more.
Poor Joel he has been through so much and for what? His life is forever changed and he is struggling to get his head around the devastating effects of what has happened to his family. Sasha is a beautiful physio who is part of the end game to finish the was, but she becomes more.
August 9, 2018
Final Time.
Joel lives his life in pain & anger. He's never going to be the man he was. He meets Sascha when he goes to see if she can help him. There's raw attraction between them but Joel's one angry man. I have so enjoyed this series that I don't want it to end. Love this author & I sure will be reading more of her books. Thanks.
Joel lives his life in pain & anger. He's never going to be the man he was. He meets Sascha when he goes to see if she can help him. There's raw attraction between them but Joel's one angry man. I have so enjoyed this series that I don't want it to end. Love this author & I sure will be reading more of her books. Thanks.
February 20, 2019
Great read... Don't limit yourself and think you are unfixable because you are... sometimes it just takes the right person to first fix your heart then your body.
This whole series was fantastic...if you're looking at this book but haven't read the others you need to go back to the beginning to truly understand. I'm going to miss this series and just hope the spin off (the next generation ) is just as good.
This whole series was fantastic...if you're looking at this book but haven't read the others you need to go back to the beginning to truly understand. I'm going to miss this series and just hope the spin off (the next generation ) is just as good.
February 3, 2019
Another exciting reading experience that I'm glad I chose to read
This has been a very exciting series to read, and I'm hoping the rest will be just as interesting. Bravo Kylie Hillman
This has been a very exciting series to read, and I'm hoping the rest will be just as interesting. Bravo Kylie Hillman
April 12, 2021
What an amazing ending to a fantastic series!!! I really hope Kylie Hillmanbplans to write more in the BLACK SHAMROCKS.
I started this series like 2 years ago,got sidetracked and never finished. I amSO HAPPY I finished,Maddox,Maddie,Joel Benjie,Kyle,Timber..And BEAST WERE AMAZING CHARACTERS!!!!
I started this series like 2 years ago,got sidetracked and never finished. I amSO HAPPY I finished,Maddox,Maddie,Joel Benjie,Kyle,Timber..And BEAST WERE AMAZING CHARACTERS!!!!
August 25, 2017
wow I love this series so much, I can't read fast enough, can't wait to find out what's going to happen next!
November 22, 2017
It was a great read. It has a story line full of twist and surprises and answers to questions from earlier books in the series. It was well worth the read. Rated very good
January 1, 2018
Good read
June 7, 2018
Emotional Rollercoaster
This series is unbelievable! The Shamrocks took me on an emotional ride in each book. You will not be disappointed!
This series is unbelievable! The Shamrocks took me on an emotional ride in each book. You will not be disappointed!
January 23, 2019
Tear jerker
I shed a few tears with this book. Tji gbs happened I didn't see coming but I'm glad the book gave the chance for this character to grow and get a chance at love.
I shed a few tears with this book. Tji gbs happened I didn't see coming but I'm glad the book gave the chance for this character to grow and get a chance at love.
August 5, 2019
Absolutely loved this series. Well written. Story flows well. Characters are lovable no matter what they do. One of the best MC Series I’ve read
March 3, 2020
Thumbs up with a heart!
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March 14, 2017
Love Joel, he has a kind heart and all he wanted was to be loved and he found it. I have loved this series, I WISH that this wasn't the last book and I have to say goodbye to a family, but I have enjoyed all the books and I love Kylie's writing.
March 12, 2017
What an Amazing series!!! I'd heartily recommend this to anyone who likes a good story, lots of twists and turns and an author who doesn't hold back from making hard choices!!! I loved how dark matter wasn't glossed over, I felt satisfied by every conclusion, oh and the tragedy..: so well written!!!
December 8, 2016
This book was given to me for an honest review.
5 stars
This was final book of this series. I just have to say it was epic as all the other books in this series. If you had any doubt that it would not live up to expectations, you were wrong. This series has come full circle with this book and I am so glad that I got to read it. This is Joel and Sacha's pov, but it tells the story of everyone in this series. You get all the eye opening information that was told throughout the book. No more secrets are left, and finally everyone gets what is coming. Unfortunately, there are lives that are lost in this book that makes it very hard at the beginning to get through. I knew that there were going to be people that died in this series, the good guys, but it shocked me even when it happened. This whole series made this mc feel more like a family than a bikers club and I think that is why I loved it so much. You see everyone grow and adapt to the obstacles around them, it was amazing to me that this family unit was so strong even after all the lies and secrets that were left to figure out. You see everyone and how life has been. Although it is in Joel's and Sascha's pov it tells the story of everyone that is left from this club.
Sascha has a secret that the club has dug up. One that will put herself and her daughter at risk if she doesn't let them help. They send Joel in because he can pass to do therapy. There is an instant connection and that will only lead to trouble as the story goes you know. They fight the attraction, but don't succeed. What happens when Sascha's secret is known and Joel has to decide if he can handle the secrets that are told to him that will change his life forever. I loved both of these characters. They both felt like they didn't belong, but in the end it didn't matter as long as they had each other. Together they can conquer anything, apart would do more damage. But what do you do when the woman you love hates bikers? Will they be strong enough to figure it out?
You get to see Maddi and Mik, Timber and JJ, Benji and Lacey, Wendy and Patrick, and everyone else in the club. The struggles each go through to finish what Mayhem had started. What it will cost them in the end, what they will have to endure to get to where they need to be, and will it all be worth it. Every character has a special place with me and I have loved every step in this series. I want more from this author, because if this what she can do with a biker's club, I can't wait to see what else she has to offer. The ending gives you closure and you will fill complete at the end of this book.
5 stars
This was final book of this series. I just have to say it was epic as all the other books in this series. If you had any doubt that it would not live up to expectations, you were wrong. This series has come full circle with this book and I am so glad that I got to read it. This is Joel and Sacha's pov, but it tells the story of everyone in this series. You get all the eye opening information that was told throughout the book. No more secrets are left, and finally everyone gets what is coming. Unfortunately, there are lives that are lost in this book that makes it very hard at the beginning to get through. I knew that there were going to be people that died in this series, the good guys, but it shocked me even when it happened. This whole series made this mc feel more like a family than a bikers club and I think that is why I loved it so much. You see everyone grow and adapt to the obstacles around them, it was amazing to me that this family unit was so strong even after all the lies and secrets that were left to figure out. You see everyone and how life has been. Although it is in Joel's and Sascha's pov it tells the story of everyone that is left from this club.
Sascha has a secret that the club has dug up. One that will put herself and her daughter at risk if she doesn't let them help. They send Joel in because he can pass to do therapy. There is an instant connection and that will only lead to trouble as the story goes you know. They fight the attraction, but don't succeed. What happens when Sascha's secret is known and Joel has to decide if he can handle the secrets that are told to him that will change his life forever. I loved both of these characters. They both felt like they didn't belong, but in the end it didn't matter as long as they had each other. Together they can conquer anything, apart would do more damage. But what do you do when the woman you love hates bikers? Will they be strong enough to figure it out?
You get to see Maddi and Mik, Timber and JJ, Benji and Lacey, Wendy and Patrick, and everyone else in the club. The struggles each go through to finish what Mayhem had started. What it will cost them in the end, what they will have to endure to get to where they need to be, and will it all be worth it. Every character has a special place with me and I have loved every step in this series. I want more from this author, because if this what she can do with a biker's club, I can't wait to see what else she has to offer. The ending gives you closure and you will fill complete at the end of this book.
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