IGNATYEVO FOREST
The last leaves' embers in total immolation
Rise into the sky; this whole forest
Seethes with irritation, just as we did
That last year we lived together.
The path you take's reflected in our tear filled eyes,
As bushes are reflected in the murky flood-lands.
Don't be difficult, don't touch, don't threaten,
Don't offend the forest silence by the Volga.
You can hear the old life breathing:
Clumps of mushrooms growing in damp grass -
Though gnawed to the very core by slugs,
They still inflame the skin.
All our past is like a threat -
Look, I'm coming, watch, I'll kill you!
The sky shivers and holds a maple, like a rose, -
May it burn still stronger - right into your eyes.
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'In childhood I fell ill'
In childhood I fell ill
From fear and hunger. Peeling
The crust from my lips, I licked them;
Memorised the fresh and rather salty taste.
And always I am walking, walking, walking,
I sit on the front stairs, trying to get warm,
I walk myself into delirium, like following
The Pied Piper into the river, I sit down on the stairs
Trying to get warm; I feel so shivery.
And my mother stands there, beckoning, she seems
Quite close, but I can't reach her:
I'm almost there - she stands seven steps away
And beckons; I'm almost there - she stands
Seven steps away and beckons. I've grown
So hot, I unbutton my collar and lie down, -
Now trumpets start to blare, light strikes
My eyelids, horses gallop by, my mother
Flies above the road, and beckons -
And then she flew away...
And now beneath the apple trees
I dream of a white hospital,
A white sheet covering my throat,
A doctor in a white coat looks at me
And at the foot a sister all in white
Is fluttering her wings. They stayed.
My mother came, and beckoned -
She flew away…
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'And this I dreamt, and this I dream'
And this I dreamt, and this I dream,
And some time this I will dream again,
And all will be repeated, all be re-embodied,
You will dream everything I have seen in dream.
To one side from ourselves, to one side from the world Wave follows wave to break on the shore,
On each wave is a star, a person, a bird,
Dreams, reality, death - on wave after wave.
No need for a date: I was, I am, and I will be,
Life is a wonder of wonders, and to wonder
I dedicate myself, on my knees, like an orphan,
Alone - among mirrors - fenced in by reflections:
Cities and seas, iridescent, intensified.
A mother in tears takes a child on her lap.