If I Was Your Girl
My name is Amanda. I’m 18. When you look at me, you might see that I’m pretty and popular; you might think my life is easy. But being me has never been easy. Because I haven’t always been Amanda. When I was born, I was named Andrew. Now, at my new school, I finally feel like myself. But do I owe my new friends the truth about my past?
“You can have anything,” she said “once you admit you deserve it.”
If I Was Your Girl is an important book. It fills a gap that needed to be filled. It will make many people feel better abo ...more
Instead, it’s important, eye-opening, thought-provoking and emotional.
It all depends on what you want. If you want to read a book that you’ll breeze through while laughing and smiling and just having a great time, If I Was Your Girl is not the right pick.
This is the type of story you read because you want to learn more about the LGBT community, want to support them in an indi ...more
[TW for sexual assault & domestic abuse.]
It has been brought to my attention that the author has been accused of raping and abusing her spouse, a crime she has seemingly confessed to over email yet publicly denied. This is the source; you can also find her booking information, and a much better article here (thanks to Catherine for this information). This article points out that though Russo has accused her ex-spouse of being a terf, they are in fact nonbinary and married to a trans woman ...more
This is definitely a cute, sweet book that finds an equal balance with some intense subject matter. It was a lovely reading experience to be able to be smiling with giddiness one moment, but feeling heartbroken and wanting to cry the next. Definitely a book with a whirlwind of emotions!
If I Was Your Girl was the first book I've read with a trans main character, and I'm definitel ...more
Still, in my eyes, there are two major obstacles that prevent this from being a truly great book rather than "just" a solid/worthw ...more
"It's easy to act like my past never happened, but it feels like I've put up this wall around my heart that stops me from being really close with him."
"You know walls are there for a reason though, right?… They keep things safe and they keep things from falling apart."
reviewing this book in terms of whether it is "good" or "not good" is almost irrelevant, because it's one of those books that needs to exist for rea ...more
I was going to not post anything in my review space and make some sort of disclaimer instead stating “sometimes you just probably shouldn’t write anything at all,” but then I saw my friend Rachel had already done that and I didn’t really want to get sued for plagiarism, so here I am. Instead of leaving nothing, I’m going to use the author’s own words . . . . .
“I have, in some ways, cleaved to stereotypes and even bent rules to make ...more
Read this book.
This book is excellent.
This book is important.
This book is emotional.
I read this in June 2018 and never reviewed it because I couldn't. I couldn't put into words how impactful and moving this is.
I want more people to read it and talk about it.
Meredith Russo has a newer book, Birthday, that released in 2019 and I hope once more people discover how insanely tender and beautiful her writing is, they will go back and read this one as well.
In conclusion, read this book.
Thank you fo ...more
Amanda is a teenager who has transitioned from a boy to a girl. She moves from her mother's to her somewhat estranged father's town to start over in a new school. While ...more
[update: the rumor is true!]
This book is everything. I hope it becomes the game changer that it's poised to be. Amanda is an incredibly real, fully-fleshed girl with a tremendous heart and tremendous hope, even when she questions it. This is a story that isn't about transitioning in the sense of changing from male to female; it's a book about transitioning into the next places, where you find your footing, where you're having a n ...more
I read this book in 2 days, which is rare for me. It's a debut novel and therefore I found some writing elements to be weak, but this story is SO. SO. IMPORTANT.
I think anyone, regardless of their age or identity would get something valuable out of this book. This book is intended for readers who are cis, trans, and anyone in between. You may see yourself in Amanda, or you may see yourself in her peers or parents.
This would be such an ...more
Edit and Update (a serious note)
In any other situation, I would be shouting this book from the rooftops because it is, quite frankly, life changing.
In short - it's the story of a young MTF teenager living in the south and trying to find new beginnings. This story is powerful. It is incredible.
However, after becoming aware of serious spousal abuse allegations against the author, it's honestly hard for me to write a full review for this book, knowing that people could read this review and buy a bo ...more
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Absolutely adored this book, even if it did manage to rip my heart out a few times.
Trigger warnings for this book are: suicide, bullying, and rape.
If I was Your Girl follows a young transwoman who has is going to live with her estranged father because of the relentless bullying at her ol ...more
"I should have been born a girl."
First and foremost, I should mention I am a cis woman. My review is limited by my own experiences, which has unfortunately not included actual face-to-face contact with a trans person.
Now that that's out of the way, I did think If Was Your Girl was a teensy unrealistic. But, BUT— *dodges flying tomato* not the kind you think. My beef is with how easily Amanda is accepted into the social fold. First day at school and she's already got two male admirers and fou ...more
Thank you Flat Iron Books for the free review copy!
This would have been a four star book because I thought it was a well-rounded story about Amanda becoming confident in herself and transforming into someone brave and self-assured, but I took off an entire star because the way that she was outed was so cruel and unnecessary. I could feel it coming from early on in this book so it wasn’t shocking—other than the fact that it was really obnoxious and ...more
This is not that.
I legit loved it, from the dedication to the author's note to the book itself, and will be rec-ing the shit out of it for the next year and beyond. So happy to finally have a trans book by a trans author in YA from a big publisher, and the fact that there's even trans rep on the cover is just the perfect icing. ...more
This is an ownvoices book about a transwoman called Amanda who moves schools in order to live with her father. It follows her becoming situated in the town, and trying to navigate high school life, whilst not outing herself as trans to those she meets.
I think this was definitely a strong debut, the prose really carried me through this book and so it was a quick and easy read ...more
What's new from this book for me is that now I got to see how a fully transgender people like Amanda socializes at high school where no one knows her story. ...more
I can't even think properly right now, because this book .... THIS BOOK guys.
The story was amazing, I really like the dual-time aspect because it helped me to understand Amanda a lot more, to see where she's coming from and how much she went through.
I loved the romance, the way Grant and Amanda just 'clicked' like she said so well, the Stars Wars references, the cute moments, this ...more
"I wasn't sorry I existed any more. I deserved to live. I deserved to find love. I knew now - I believed, now - that I deserved to be loved."
I cried a grand total of 4 times during this book, not counting the tear I shed at the Author's Note at the very end.
It is very brave to be transgender in this world, and it's even braver to write a book about a transgender character based on your experiences as trans. I know nearly everyone who's ...more
I love being a woman. It is a huge part of who I am, and I would be devastated if tomorrow someone told me I had to be a man because that's who I really was. My heart breaks for trans people when I think about the incredible amount of difficulties they face, simply for being themselves. And the amount of people who can't be themselves due to fear for their own safety.
As many more before me ...more
first of all, i would like to thank meredith russo for writing this incredible book. it was quick and easy to read while still tackling important topics, and the way it was done was just amazing. you could really be laughing and smiling at the occuring events one moment, but feel broken at the heart-wrenching things the next moment. it’s important to mention that this book has been written by a trans woma ...more
On other levels it is a pretty "typical" teen novel, in the sense that Amanda discovers that she is not the only one with secrets, not the only one living with high stakes should those secrets be uncovered, and the surrounding ...more
Meredith's debut novel, If ...more