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Teach Me to Forget

3.97  ·  Rating Details ·  290 Ratings  ·  72 Reviews
This is the story of Ellery, a girl who learns how to live while waiting for the date she chose to die.

Ellery's bought the gun, made arrangements for her funeral, and even picked the day. A Wednesday. Everything has fallen into place.

Now all she has to do is die.

When her plans go awry and the gun she was going to kill herself with breaks, she does the one thing she has co
Hardcover, 287 pages
Published December 2nd 2016 by Merit Press
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Erica Chapman
Dec 20, 2016 Erica Chapman added it  ·  (Review from the author)  ·  review of another edition
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Thank you so much for stopping by the TMTF page ;o) Please feel free to ask me questions. I love talking to fellow readers!

Please understand that while I add a good mix of humor and sarcasm into Ellery's character, TMTF does have triggers such as suicide, depression, and loss of a loved one. Please read and discuss this topic with someone you love. Read other books that deal with similar subjects like Kathleen Glasgow's GIRL IN PIECES, or books by Jennifer Niven, and countless others. Tell someo
Brenda Drake
Oct 14, 2015 Brenda Drake rated it it was amazing
I was lucky enough to read an early version of TEACH ME TO FORGET. Erica can write emotion and multi-layered characters so well. I found myself crying and laughing while reading. This story has so much heart and all the feelings. I couldn't put it down until the end. So amazing!
Karen Hattrup
May 29, 2016 Karen Hattrup rated it it was amazing
TEACH ME TO FORGET is a poignant and unflinching look at Ellery, a teenage girl who has suffered serious trauma and wants to take her own life. Written with honesty and care, it’s a story that is deep with compassion and sympathy for its protagonist, even as it examines – through other characters – the repercussions that suicide has on those left behind. This is dark and difficult subject matter, but it’s handled with a deft touch, and, best of all, is driven by a wonderful narrator. Ellery is w ...more
Dec 27, 2016 Amy rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
When Ellery's plan to commit suicide are thwarted by a broken gun, her classmate Colton tries to change he mind. He couldn't save his his brother from killing himself, and vows to do better.

TEACH ME TO FORGET is an irresponsible, possibly even dangerous story about what teenagers should absolutely not do if they are concerned about a suicidal friend.

When Ellery notices similar suicidal tendencies in a childhood friend, she tries to talk to Dean and checks up on him when he misses school. Folks,
May 27, 2016 Kerri rated it it was amazing
One of the most heart wrenching, funny, beautiful, dark, swoon-worthy, and hopeful stories I've ever read. This masterful debut features cracks of light that not only shine through, but shatter the darkness of depression and living through loss. I loved and rooted for Ellery the entire book. Chapman's writing is poignant and infinitely readable. I will be fangirling over this for a long time to come. This is a must-read, now and always.
Jay G
Dec 29, 2016 Jay G rated it liked it
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3.5 Stars

When Ellery had her suicide all planned out. She knows the day, she hired a cleaning crew she even made funeral arrangements. She definitely was not anticipating that her gun would break. She tries to return the gun, only to find that she has the wrong receipt. Just her luck, the security guard who stops her is a boy from her English class, Colter Sawyer. Realising what she wa
Melanie Hooyenga
Oct 02, 2016 Melanie Hooyenga rated it it was amazing
I read an early version of this book and my first reaction was "everyone needs to read this." Erica has an amazing ability to create characters who make you laugh and cry and want to hold them close. This story has stayed with me long after I read it and I encourage anyone who wants a book that will knock them off their feet to give it a try.

EDIT: I've now read the final version and love it even more. THIS IS A MUST READ.
Dec 09, 2015 Jude rated it it was amazing
A beautifully haunting novel, with a funny & smart narrator. I read this back in 2012 and I still think about Ellery and Colter to this day, three years later!
Adriana Mather
May 23, 2016 Adriana Mather rated it it was amazing
This heart wrenching story of a high school senior is beautifully and delicately written. Chapman is masterful in her treatment of 17-year-old Ellery and her struggles with guilt and depression following the death of her younger sister and the breakdown of her parents' marriage. Ellery captured my heart and I found myself pulling for her to heal from her trauma. Brava!
Lisa Mandina
Dec 12, 2016 Lisa Mandina rated it it was amazing
If you read and appreciated Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher, this is a book that to me is just as good. It's about a girl who is going to commit suicide. It's done from a different aspect than Asher's book. This is told as the girl is going through her actual plan.

This book is so good. The way Ellery feels is described very well. Her being so set on the whole idea was heartbreaking, but you could kind of see her reasoning, or at least why it made sense to her. I have had my own issues with de
Lily Grant
Nov 16, 2016 Lily Grant rated it it was amazing
5 / 5 stars

I savored the words, processed the phrases and slowly fell deeper into the characters. A moment separated her from life and death and in-between those moments, I stood at the edge alongside her.

Trembling hands held firmly onto sanity that occasionally mixed with reality. My pulse danced alongside my heart as the ache from Ellery's heart pierced into mine.

Instances of humor lit my face on fire with bursts of laughter.

Colter and Ellery were each others opposites as well as each others e
Melissa Robles
Dec 02, 2016 Melissa Robles rated it it was amazing
*This review can also be found at The Reader and the Chef! Thanks to Merit Press for sending me a copy in exchange of my unbiased opinion.*

Oh, my heart. I just finished reading Teach Me to Forget and I. Can't. Stop. Feeling. All of the emotions. Love. Hate. Anger. Frustration. So much sadness. Ugh. But I loved this book. So darn much.

I have to be honest with you guys and tell you that despite my love for contemporary books, I tend to stray far away from emotional reads. Not that they are not goo
Tabitha Lord
Jan 17, 2017 Tabitha Lord rated it it was amazing
Ellery Stevens plans to kill herself. Her sister’s tragic death, for which she blames herself, still haunts her, and the weight of guilt and loss seems never to abate. But Ellery’s plan fails, and she’s forced to live just a little longer. Laced with equal parts tragedy and humor, Teach Me To Forget compassionately and bravely tackles the subject of teen suicide. Ellery’s voice is authentic and her pain heartbreaking. But the book also finds hope and joy blossoming amidst the angst. Read my inte ...more
Dec 17, 2016 HelEinir rated it did not like it
This book wouldn't have a plot if someone had cared to get Ellery a good grief-counselor and made sure she stuck with him/her until they were certain she was alright (The fact that someone as transparent as this girl managed to fool her therapist into thinking she was "fine" is beyond me).

It's been a while since I last read a book that tried so hard it gave me second-hand embarrassment so badly that I almost gave it two stars out of pity. The writing, the characters, the plot (which although not
Wayne K
Sep 16, 2016 Wayne K rated it it was amazing
I was going to read this with my 17 year old daughter...but she devoured it overnight... So I ended up reading out of pure enjoyment. Erica does a masterful job of story telling. She pulled me in and reminded me of childhood memories I had long forgotten and wanted to leave that way. By the end of the book I was vocally cursing Ellery for her antics! A worthwhile read... if you are going to read with your children, I recommend reading it before you give it to them... once they start...they canno ...more
Jul 13, 2016 Hannah rated it it was amazing
Where to begin... I've witnessed this book grow from its earliest stages into what it has become now, and I have to say, I love, love, love what it has blossomed into! Erica is really good at blending the lighter and darker elements in the story of Ellery's life, and that balance worked to evoke a large array of emotions from me. She had me laughing out loud a few times, and sniffling and teary-eyed a decent amount of times. The characters Erica creates feel so real, I feel like I personally kno ...more
Dec 19, 2016 Jenn rated it really liked it
Recommends it for: fans of Thirteen Reasons Why
I went into this book knowing that it dealt with very harsh subject matter. Depression and suicides are nothing to be taken lightly so I was interested in how Chapman would present this. And while I didn't agree with the actions of certain people in the book, there was a good amount of realism present.

The book opens with Ellery about to kill herself. She has everything planned out - right down to hiring the cleaning service to take care of the mess so her mother doesn't have to. But when the sh
Dec 08, 2016 Roxanne rated it really liked it
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Thank you to Merit Press for sending me a copy of the book in exchange for a fair review.

Erica wants to die, she has a plan, but when the gun doesn't work after several attempts she decides she has to return it and make a new plan. However, she mistakenly returns to Kmart instead of Walmart and she ended up having to talk to the security who just happens to be Colter, a boy from her school. Colter knows something is off, and he sets off to figure out what is going with Ellery.

Ellery makes a new
Oct 27, 2016 Amelia rated it it was amazing
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Note: I received an ARC from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review. Thank you to Merit Press and F+W Media.
4.5 Stars.

TEACH ME TO FORGET is the only Young Adult novel that handles teen depression and suicide correctly.

Ellery Stevens is depressed and has a perfect suicide plan in place. She knows the day, has the gun, hired a cleaning crew, and has every last detail in place. But she doesn't plan for the gun to jam and in a frenzy, she tries to return it. To the wrong store, and she's dragged
Jan 11, 2017 Teenreadsdotcom rated it it was amazing
Most teenagers look forward to their birthdays, proms and vacations. Ellery looks forward to the day she has chosen to commit suicide. After battling depression for a year, she has decided she just wants it all to go away. But when the gun breaks during her attempt to use it, all her plans go down the drain. Frantic, she drives to the Kmart nearby in order to return the defective gun for a new one. Only one problem: she has the wrong receipt and is caught by the security guard who just happens t ...more
A. Musquiz
Dec 28, 2016 A. Musquiz rated it really liked it
3.75 stars. I was sent a physical copy of this book from Merit Press in exchange for an honest review.

I really liked our main character for a few reasons, one being that Ellery is dealing a huge weight of guilt and grief that she carries on her shoulders as the story pans out and we really get to see what goes on inside her head. She pretends to be happy on the outside, even calling her non-self by the name of "Happy Ellery" while on the inside, her mind is waging a war against itself. She feels
Daniel Aceves
Jan 16, 2017 Daniel Aceves rated it really liked it
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Going into this book I didn’t know what to expect. This debut novel by up-incoming author Erica M. Chapman, was a breath of fresh air. Though the subject matter was very dark and about suicide, I believe the author covered the topic (which is literally the whole book) with a respectful and serious tone. Nowhere in this book did I feel like she was making a joke or over exaggerating the topic in any way.

*Minor spoilers ahead*
I’m not gonna mark this as a spoiler because it’s not that important to
Dec 21, 2016 Madison rated it really liked it
( THIS IS A CRAPPY REVIEW) Let me start out first by saying that after reading the blurb I was attracted to this book, because it's not everyday you come across a book with this storyline. I felt this book so deeply. I have also struggled with wanting to continue living, and still do. I cried at just about every page turn. Ellery is unknowingly vivacious . I felt her tiredness, I was also very hurt reading this book. I hurt so bad knowing she had no will to live. Colter was a saint for her. It t ...more
Mandy Zheng
Jan 17, 2017 Mandy Zheng rated it liked it
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Amy Christiansen
Dec 07, 2016 Amy Christiansen rated it it was amazing
This is a deep dive into the world of depression and suicidal ideation. Chapman writes a heart-wrenching story of a girl who is overcome with grief and depression over the death of her young sister, and a boy named Colter who is compelled to save Ellery from herself. This is a must-read for parents of teens to share and discuss with their teens. Oh, and grab your tissues.

Thank you to Merit Press for the opportunity to read this book early in exchange for my honest review.

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Dec 14, 2016 Briana rated it really liked it
I feel like this was a tragic story but told in a way where you are put into the characters shoes versus just feeling sad for them. I know suicides are a very real thing that happen everyday, but this book goes beyond that. It gets into the heads of those who see no way out, I felt their pain and the struggle they encountered everyday in their life. It has opened my eyes to empathize that much more for those struggling with this inner battle they have with themselves. I hope and know that this s ...more
Jan 11, 2017 Anna rated it it was ok
This book is a difficult read for many reasons. I became frustrated with the story at several points, but I concede it is something that realistically can happen. However, the end resolution was so unsatisfying. While perhaps the ending is not the point of this book, I feel like it's something that could have been more heavily emphasized. I must admit that I was also disappointed that the publisher (or author?) did not include a single page on resources for young readers who may be experiencing ...more
Dec 25, 2016 Gabrielle rated it really liked it
Wow this book was pretty heavy and emotional. We get to know Ellery very well, her deepest, inner thoughts, and then the front she portrays for othesr. I think it gave a really realistic feel on what suicide can be like for a person. I love howthe author made sure that Colter is not the one that is "curing" her. He helps and wants to be with her, yes.

I fell in love with Janie and Jackson too.

Also wow fuck her dad LOL. What a utter asshole.

I did feel like the epilogue could have been stronger...
Jan 05, 2017 Mary rated it it was ok
I liked the idea of this plot but the (female) characters are all stereotypes that I'm tired of seeing in YA books: the girl with only guy friends bc "girls are dramatic," the bitchy ex girlfriend whose only quality is malice, the popular girl who turns out is nice and loves shopping and gives good fashion advice.

It was a quick read and I was entertained, also has a nice cover, so there's that.
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Erica M. Chapman writes dark, emotional YA novels with a burst of humor, and lighter contemporaries with smart-ass protagonists. Her first novel, TEACH ME TO FORGET will be published by Merit Press in December 2016. She's a member of SCBWI & Sweet16s, and a lifetime Lions and Michigan football fan who loves alternative music. She loves to tweet and watch various CW & Freeform shows while t ...more
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