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A moving story of grief, honesty, and the healing power of art—the ties that bind us together, even when those we love are gone.

Melanie and Damon are both living in the shadow of loss. For Melanie, it's the loss of her larger-than-life artist mother, taken by cancer well before her time. For Damon, it’s the loss of his best friend, Carlos, who took his own life.

As they st
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Kindle Edition, 272 pages
Published April 4th 2017 by Philomel Books
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sunny
TRIGGER WARNINGS: homophobia (some strong offensive and gross language and "you can be cured" shit) and suicide.

this was a really good story about grief and losing people you love and care about. Melanie is grieving over her mom, who died from cancer and Damon is grieving the loss of his best friend, Carlos, who commit suicide. Damon takes Carlos' camera to a park to try and understand him better and sees a girl (Melanie) crying. he snaps her picture and after an awkward meeting, scurries out of
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Cale Dietrich
Jul 10, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: swanky-17s
This book is BEAUTIFUL.

It’s also incredibly powerful, and moving, and stars a trio of characters that are so instantly lovable that I was hooked instantly. The characters in this are so great, and so effortless, that even though I’ve finished the book I find myself thinking about them all the time. Also, I have gone back a few times to read quotes, which is usually a sign that I LOVE a book.

At its core, this is a book about grief, and the ways that people live with it. Both POV characters (whi
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Anna Priemaza
Mar 17, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: reviewed
I want to swim in the depths of this book. I want to wrap its words around me like a blanket and hold them tight. Because SPEAK OF ME AS I AM is overflowing with some of the most gorgeous writing I've read. Reading it, I felt like I was reading a poem written on a tombstone under a tree bursting with pink apple blossoms.

It's not flowery or inaccessible, though. Sonia's words are jam-packed with beautiful emotion, but they're still completely down to earth. Her characters speak beautifully, but a
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Emily Murphy
Aug 07, 2016 rated it it was amazing
SPEAK OF ME AS I AM is a moving, meaningful, beautiful book. It pulses with heart, with grief, with the messiness of healing in the wake of loss. You can tell, even before you reach the author note at the end, that this book has deep roots, that the words on the page are personal and weighted, in a way that makes this story so intimate and so beautiful. The writing sings in its descriptions and in its realistic dialogue. I loved lines like this one: "If there was one thing my mother taught me an ...more
Olivia Chanel's Stories in Space
Thank you, Philomel Books and NetGalley, for my advanced review copy of Speak of Me as I Am!

Be aware that Speak of Me as I Am deals with death, cancer, suicide and has some offensive language. All of this is discussed down below in my review. There will be spoilers in this review so consider yourself warned.

Speak of Me as I Am is a story about two teenagers, Melanie and Damon, who have both dealt with an immense loss but in different ways. The story made me cry and there were several scenes I en
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McCall Hoyle
Jul 19, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Thank you, Sonia Belasco, for the opportunity to read an advance reader copy of SPEAK OF ME AS I AM. I absolutely fell in love with your voice and with Damon and Melanie. And Tristan! Teenagers (and adults) who want a story and characters they can emotionally connect with will love this tender and gritty realistic read. Kudos!
Renata
Feb 08, 2020 rated it liked it
Shelves: stand-alone
“Grief is complicated. People who see the grieving process as a path toward closure are missing the point. Grief is not about closure; it is about coping in the present. We may spend our entire lives grieving for someone, and this can still be a way of coming to terms with that loss.”


“We’re a society of pretenders,” Melanie murmurs.”
Jeff Giles
Nov 28, 2016 rated it it was amazing
This is a gorgeous book, written by a deeply talented writer and storyteller who embraces all sorts of people and asks only that we embrace each other. As other reviewers have said, the book is "about" grief, but if that sounds upsetting keep in mind that grief is made out of love and memory. Melanie and Damon, who cross paths after they've each lost a loved one, are moving, fully real characters. (And their pushy mutual friend, Tristan, is so funny and endearing that he threatens to steal the s ...more
Sara
Oct 17, 2015 rated it it was amazing
I don't have words enough to describe how beautiful and touching and important this book is. It's a book about grief and living beyond loss and learning to let others really see you. So much truth in these pages. So well done, such gorgeous, vivid, emotion-filled writing. ...more
Hazel (Stay Bookish)
SO EMOTIONAL AND AMAZING BUT TOTALLY UNDERRATED SO I WILL BE BOOK-PUSHING THIS ONE TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY
Ash Rocketship
Oct 17, 2015 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2016
Two warnings about this review: 1. it's based on an advance uncorrected galley I received from the author and 2. I can't really divorce this beautiful book from the beautiful person that made it. Luckily, it's so good, I don't need to.

This is a lovely, smart, moving story with teenagers who sound and feel like teenagers who have teenager-y experiences while processing acute, fresh grief without removing themselves from the world around them. The writing is lyrical without ever being excessive an
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Carlie Sorosiak
Aug 02, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Speak of Me as I Am is such a gorgeous, important book. It portrays the grieving process with such profound clarity and realness, and I would just like to live in this beautiful writing. This is a rare book: one that is just as profound as it is accessible, and it never feels overwrought. It feels like a poem that you can float in.

I love these characters. I love how unflinchingly human they are and the way they see the world. I have no doubt that readers will deeply connect with them and care a
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Amanda
Jun 20, 2017 rated it it was ok
Marked as could-not-finish at page @ 67 pages.

An author I saw at a panel said that you shouldn't write YA if you don't understand young adults, and I'm not sure this author does. Her voices felt all wrong: the teen characters scoffed at things teens love like an adult would. Almost every paragraph contained a long, poetic simile and sometimes it wasn't even the quantity of similes that bothered me but the fact that the repetition of them disrupted any sort of flow there was as my brain reset to
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Abby Hargreaves
When Melanie and Damon meet, they're both dealing with overwhelming grief. Melanie has lost her mother after cancer ravaged her body and their lives and Damon has lost his closest friend to suicide. Now, both of them are trying to go on with their mundane high school lives, untethered and without direction as the after effects of grief seep into their days. But finding each other just might mean easing the grief as they share their pain.

Speak of Me as I Am takes place in Washington, DC. With the
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Natalka Burian
Mar 03, 2017 rated it it was amazing
I loved this book. It captured that thing about first grief--that experience of a profound, first grief at a young age--that feeling that can knock a body down, so perfectly. I loved that this story explored the complexity of loss, but also the astrophysics-difficulty of enduring it and living past it. So, so beautifully written, too.
Bree Barton
Oct 05, 2016 rated it it was amazing
This isn't just a book—this is a lifeline. It is a life raft for people who are drowning. It is also a gorgeous piece of prose, an absolutely bewitching story about two characters ravaged by loss and their slow and painful journey toward one another. But make no mistake: this book is going to save lives.

SPEAK OF ME AS I AM is the story of Melanie and Damon, both of whom are living with excruciating loss. In alternating narratives, Sonia paints an exquisite picture of two lives in turmoil; these
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KTReads
Aug 15, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Confession: I am a sucker for great sentences, so this book had me SOLD from page 1. The writing is simply stunning. And not just in a superficial way. There are lines that eviscerate emotionally and others that hit on truths (about grief, love, and friendship) in such a fresh way that I found myself pausing and reflecting often. Brief pauses, though, because the story was too compelling to slow down for long. Damon and Melanie had me by the heartstrings, flipping pages to find out if they'd be ...more
Sally
Nov 05, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 17s
Damon and Melanie are teens whose young lives have been riddled with grief -- Melanie lost her mother to cancer, and Damon, his best friend to suicide. When they find each other, it's the beginning of a path to -- if not actual 'healing' -- you don't "heal" from grief -- to understanding. To learning how to ride it out, each in their own way, supporting each other and drawing strength from their growing bond.

I thought the characters were beautifully drawn. The dialogue was natural and lovely, an
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Amy Giles
Oct 27, 2016 rated it it was amazing
The path to healing is steeped in pain, but Melanie and Damon find each other in their time of need, both of them still reeling from devastating loss. I loved Melanie’s complicated love for the parent she lost, by a daughter who often felt eclipsed by her mother’s larger than life presence. Damon’s struggle to come to terms with his best friend’s suicide is palpable on every page. You know there’s more to the story; you just don’t know what until the end. Gorgeous writing, Shakespeare, and roman ...more
Allie
Nov 19, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2017
Anger, grief, regret, and love is portrayed into the book, "Speak Of Me As I Am' by Sonia Belasco. As teens Melonie and Damon are finding their way in the world, they experience the loss of a loved one. As regret and grief sink in they find comfort and love in each other. Each with their own set of talents find their way into the school's play of Othello, in hopes of a diversion. As challenges come, they fight together and grow an inseparable bond.

I absolutely loved this book, and the way that S
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cate
Mar 02, 2019 rated it did not like it
Children, authors, repeat after me: sexualities aren't plot devices . Are we good? Yes? Okay.

Carlos here was a victim of the dreaded Bury Your Gays trope. Trevor was nothing more than the token gay friend in a book that shows conversion therapy as a viable option (in case you don't know, it isn't) and suggests that homosexuality can be cured, therefore implying heterosexuality is the norm and everyone else is just 'deviant'. That, along with the abundance of homophobic language throughout the
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Elisabeth T.
Oct 09, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Sonia Belasco’s book Speak of Me as I Am is beautiful and extremely touching. This book caught my attention the most because first, I’m a sucker for books in the romance genre. Second, the summary on the back of the book left me wanting to know more about Melanie and Damon, the protagonists of this novel. Both Melanie and Damon are suffering the loss of two important people, Melanie’s loss being the one of her mother who lost her battle to cancer, and Damon’s being his best friend who took his o ...more
Jill Cd
I hover between a 3.5 and 4 rating. This book deals with the tough issues of grief and loss in two separate families with teens as the main characters. It peels back the layers of emotions and you feel “with” the protagonists . There is A LOT of profanity so I would definitely gear this to High School. A solid book with a good message.
Diverse Reads
Liv @ Glaxay of Book's review discusses the uses of homophobic and ableist language throughout this book, as well as food analogues to describe skin colour. It also utilises the 'bury your gays' trope.

Trigger warning for suicide.
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Tori Zeigler
Oct 12, 2017 rated it liked it
“Speak of me as I am” is a very moving book. It doesn’t hold back on the emotions and grieving process of losing a loved one. It was a pretty quick read in my opinion since it’s not very long however, sometimes you just have to put it down because the sentence structure and emotions that the characters show can be hard to understand. I gave the book a three not because I didn’t like it but because since it is such an emotional book it can be hard on others.
vatana 🤡 who is bad at reading
That was moving and beautiful.
Riima M.
Mar 28, 2020 rated it it was amazing
A heartache.
Valerie
I think this brings up important topics, but I don't know, I wasn't really feeling the characters or the story? This is probably more of a me thing. ...more
Jean Baxter
Jul 28, 2018 rated it really liked it
Endearing characters in a story about loss and healing. It took me a while into the book to become truly invested, but glad I stuck it out.
Kama Post
Sep 06, 2016 rated it it was amazing
I had the privilege of reading the Advanced Reader Copy of this book. It was high on my list because of the theme: grief. Both Melanie and Damon have recently lost a loved one, so their lives are weighed down by the grieving process. Throughout the novel, this grief guides their thoughts and decisions. When they meet each other and start to establish a relationship, they find their common ground both brings them closer and pushes them apart. Based on the Author's Note, Belasco is intimately fami ...more
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