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Because I Was Lonely

3.61  ·  Rating details ·  221 ratings  ·  65 reviews
Meet Rachel. She is caught in a spiral of endless crying, dirty nappies, and sleepless nights. She fears for her sanity and the safety of her children.

She's lonely.

Meet Adam. Suffering from the pain and trauma of a terrible accident that he blames himself for, he stays at home, unable to bring himself to leave the house.

He's lonely.

So when Rachel and Adam rekindle thei
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Published March 2nd 2017 by Red Door Publishing Ltd
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Nov 22, 2017 rated it really liked it
* 3.5 stars

Because I Was Lonely starts off introducing every character in great detail, with a chapter entirely dedicated to each of them in Part 1, giving the reader a sense of intimately knowing the flawed and very human characters before the story starts moving along. This in-depth character detail did slow down the pace of the book however, and I had to encourage myself to push through, but I'm glad I did as the book kept getting better and better the further along I got.

The disturbing trut
Feb 15, 2017 rated it it was amazing
I think that Hayley Mitchell is an excellent author writing about characters that I really cared about, that is why I am now following Hayley Mitchell on Goodreads.
Rachel is a woman who I can identify she has a baby that cries non stop and my first daughter was the same to the point where I was exhausted.
Rachel's husband David takes her to the doctors where she is diagnosed with depression and given anti- depressants.
Their marriage might not seem all it should, but David starts talking to Emm
Joanne Robertson
Feb 14, 2017 rated it it was amazing
I had seen some stunning reviews of this book before I picked it up to read so I was rather worried after the first forty or so pages that it wasn’t going to be for me! The description of Rachel and her descent into mental illness, a severe case of post natal depression, was so achingly lifelike and realistic that I found it very hard to read and my own mood dipped accordingly. Added to the mix was my pure rage and frustration at David and his inability to cope with, or even really see, what was ...more
Alice-Elizabeth (marriedtobooks)
Feb 12, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: read-in-2017
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Because I Was Lonely is Hayley's debut novel about old school friends Rachel and Adam getting back in touch with each other after a period of absence. During this time, both have married and have children. Rachel is dealing with the struggles of depression and securing a stable marriage while Adam is re
Nov 18, 2017 rated it it was amazing
This was a perfect look at how social media can influence, disrupt, and corrupt a marriage even when people believe it's a harmless distraction from the realities of everyday life. Take two marriages, four discontented adults, and throw in Facebook and watch the tension escalate! I loved how the author showed the once-innocent flirtation take on an ominous tone as both Rachel and Adam--initially only friends--begin an online relationship as Rachel shows signs of depression after being a stay-at- ...more
Suze Lavender
Apr 06, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Rachel and David used to have a lot of fun together and they were very close. After starting a family and having two kids things changed. Rachel is no longer the confident woman she used to be. She's depressed, doesn't care about her looks any longer and is struggling with the care of two small children. She's on her own as David has withdrawn himself from their family. He works long hours and doesn't support his wife at all. He comes home every night, but isn't really there in spirit.

Adam used
May 03, 2018 rated it liked it
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Mary Snaddon
Feb 03, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2018
Really good debut novel. Two couples, two failing marriages. Rachel and Adam were friends back in the day and rekindle their relationship on Facebook. Texting soon becomes sexting. This book is about four peoples perspectives and I found myself empathising with them all. At first in thought this was going to be too chick-kitty for me but it went much deeper than that. I really enjoyed this book.
Grass monster
Feb 21, 2017 rated it really liked it

The Blurb :
Meet Rachel. She's trapped in a sleep-deprived world of misery and grief. She used to love being a wife and mum, but now life is a grown-up mess.
Meet Adam. He's trapped in a world of grief and confusion. It wasn't always like this, but since the accident, things have never been the same.
Rachel and Adam used to be friends, back in the days before marriage and babies… in the days before loneliness set in. Then along came Facebook. So when Rachel and Adam rekindle their online friendshi
Feb 03, 2017 rated it it was amazing
The first three pages of this novel are terrifying! I think my heart practically stopped at one point. It certainly grabbed my attention from the get go and I found myself fully immersed in this story from start to end.
The story is told from multiple viewpoints, but mostly from Rachel's and Adam's.
Rachel is a stay-at-home mother of two children, Maisie and Jamie. She thoroughly enjoyed motherhood when Maisie was born, but has found things more difficult since having Jamie. She is suffering from
Feb 19, 2017 rated it really liked it
Finished this last night and it was for sure a special read. It’s Hayley Mitchell’s debut novel with Red Door Publishing but it will not be her last. The first chapter had me sitting with my chin on my chest, scared to read the next page. The best opening to a book I have ever read. The intense build up has you screaming at Rachel!

The book is in two parts and I have to say there is a subtle change in theme between the two. Part two of the book threw me a little, I was expecting it to take a diff
Feb 25, 2018 rated it liked it
This is one of those books that, as I read it, I kept thinking, "I don't really like this." But yet I could not put it down.

Hayley Mitchell delivers four characters who are immensely difficult to like. Well, one of them is sort of likable, but that's more because the other three are so awful that this one kind of wins by being only slightly less awful.

Yet ... I couldn't stop reading. I had to know what happens.

Mitchell gives Rachel and Adam believable, relatable issues. Rachel is recovering from
Mar 21, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Oh how we love our social media! Are people really as happy as they appear? Did the amazing egg omelet they made with love and care for their oh-so-perfect spouse/child/parent/friend really taste as good as the edited picture they took made it look? How are we ever to know? At the end of the day we can't. We can only take with a grain of salt that the online persona of the people we follow is the truth at face value. Why is it so easy to get lost for hours in the lives of people that aren't us? ...more
Nicki Southwell
Nov 14, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: my-reviews
Wow. A psychological novel with a difference. Interesting for sure.

Rachel is finding motherhood difficult resulting in her marriage suffering as well. Her second child was not a sleeper. Exhaustion became insurmountable. With her mother dying at about the same time, she had post natal depression. It took time for her husband Dan to take it seriously and go with her to their GP.

Adam has his own demons, depression and PTSD as a result of a car accident which killed both parents. The fact he was dr
Wendy Del Toro
Jan 26, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This is a character heavy book and the author did a skillful job of breathing life into each of the four main characters. The story demonstrates that even if we are surrounded by people, even if we are anchored in a relationship, we still can be overwhelmed by loneliness. The third person perspective showcases how damaging it can be to live inside your own head, to not apportion a part of yourself to your spouse. When 2 of these characters reconnect via Facebook their dialogue is very authentic; ...more
Mar 21, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Please write a sequel!

Well... I am always dubious about unlimited kindle titles because why are they free?! Does that mean nobody else wants to read them?! Not at all. I would read this book again and again and recommend it highly to others. All four characters completely imperfect but so completely relatable. Every story needs a weaker character and a stronger character, I suppose like a marriage. I loved every minute. My only annoyance that there was no resolution to it. So please write more 😊
Beverley Cragg
Mar 29, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

I can't believe it has just ended like that!!! What happens next, is there a second book?! I'm in too much shock, I need more closure!!!!
Mar 06, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Rachel is your typical suburban housewife who is underpaid and under appreciated. She is looking for love from her husband but doesn't quite get it. After their second baby was born and Rachel stopped sleeping, her life has become one big sleepless night with no help at all from anyone.

Adam is lost. A tragic event happened four years ago and changed his life forever. Although he has two beautiful kids, a wife who is working her ass off to help in every way she can, he still can't let himself st
Feb 25, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: kindle
I’ll be honest and admit that I found the first part of this book – where we get to know Rachel, and watch her, sleep-deprived and with her life falling apart – very difficult to read. Nothing to do with the writing – it’s a wonderful insight into someone very close to the edge – but it really wasn’t the right book for me when I really needed my reading to be a little lighter.

But then came the introduction to Adam, and I found the pages turning more quickly – despite his situation, suffering wit
Lori L (She Treads Softly)
Because I Was Lonely by Hayley Mitchell is a recommended domestic thriller about four people/two couples and their unhappy marriages.

Rachel is suffering from postpartum depression and sleep deprivation. She's unable to cope and gets little reprieve from taking care of the kids 24/7. She also never had time to properly grieve the loss of her mother. David is married to Rachel. He's tired of her inability to cope. He's taken her to the doctor. Now he wants to come home to a clean house, clean kids
Feb 16, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Life and all of its complexities and complications are deftly and beautifully dealt with in this gripping novel about human emotions. We meet Rachel and Adam, who briefly knew each other when they were adolescents, who reconnect online at a pinnacle point in their adult lives. They are both suffering from deeply traumatic events in their lives, trying to recover some semblance of normality and control for the sake of their families and their own sanity - trying desperately to reach outside of th ...more
Nov 23, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: ebook, netgalley
This was actually a frightening book, not because I was scared.....but because in reality I can imagine this scenario happening a bit.

Rachel has been suffering from postnatal depression since the birth of her second child. This was most likely exacerbated by the death of Rachel’s mother prior to his birth. Her husband David has been distancing himself because he can’t cope with her moods/depression. His effort to help her is to take her to the Dr! And he’s also attracted to the younger barmaid w
Apr 11, 2018 rated it liked it
This book starts with introducing Rachel. She is a mum for the second time with a new baby and is deep in post natal depression. Her husband David is withdrawing further away from her whilst she spirals further.

Rachel connects with an old college friend on Facebook; Adam. The man she never had a relationship with but always wondered what could be. Adam is a damaged man. He's been unable to work for 4 years since a horrific accident that killed his parents.

Rachel and Adam embark on what can only
Jan 29, 2018 rated it it was ok
Thank you to Hayley Mitchell, RedDoor Publishing and Netgalley for providing a copy of this book in return for an honest review.

Meet Rachel. She is caught in a spiral of endless crying, dirty nappies, and sleepless nights. She fears for her sanity and the safety of her children.

She's lonely.

Meet Adam. Suffering from the pain and trauma of a terrible accident that he blames himself for, he stays at home, unable to bring himself to leave the house.

He's lonely.

So when Rachel and Adam rekindle t
Victoria Goldman
Nov 01, 2017 rated it liked it
Because I Was Lonely reads like a book of two halves.

The first half is an introduction to the characters, with every detail of their lives put under the microscope. The author certainly has a knack for in-depth characterisation. I really felt like I knew each character by the time the story itself began.

Because I Was Lonely highlights post natal depression and the loneliness it can cause, especially if there's a lack of help when it's needed most, and how this can impact on relationships. Rachel
Saarah Niña
Dec 12, 2017 rated it liked it
A Whirlwind of a Book

Hayley Mitchell writes a fascinating story, it ended just when it became creepily good. The tale is that of two couples: Rachel and David's marriage is on the rocks. Rachel is depressed, has been ever since the birth of her second child and, David just doesn't get it. Then there's Julie and Adam: they're pretty stuck too. Adam is stuck in the past, in obsessive routines, Julie has left him in the dust. Rachel and Adam are old friends, who lost touch but they find each other
Pauline Davies
Feb 03, 2017 rated it it was amazing
I would have read this book within 24 hours if I didn't have to go to work. As early as 40 pages in, I knew that I was going to enjoy it. It is well written, with characters that I found it easy to identify with. The relationships were very authentic, painting a picture that allowed you to see both how the couple had first been attracted to one another and how this attraction and/ or connection might have changed or been lost since then. The day to day relationship and family dynamics are very r ...more
Nov 29, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2017
Oh my. I'm not quite sure what just happened, but I'm quite certain I enjoyed this book!
Rachel clearly has some severe Postpartum Depression and overwhelming grief.
Adam has a bad case of PTSD and overwhelming grief.
David - Rachel's husband - gave an effort. He tried to get her help, but he's kind of half-cocked about everything he does it seems.
Julia - Really tried to help Adam and then just went back to putting herself first.
Everyone kind of wants to image of the perfect marriage, perfect l
Feb 27, 2018 rated it liked it
Three and a half star rating.
Two couples, Rachel/David and Adam/Julia with marriage problems. None of them talk to each other much or are in any way helpful. So when Adam and Rachel who knew each other years ago rekindle their friendship on Facebook, they are delighted. At last someone who will actually listen and understand - oh dear! Told from four points of view and there's LOTS of details about their lives in the first part which almost put me off going any further but I did and am glad as t
Louise Sullivan
Passed a couple of hours

"one dangerous but inevitable climax'

Would have enjoyed this book without the hype. Would not describe this book as a thriller. This book is ok if you're not reading it on the pretence of it having a thriller-esque ending... the book just ends and lets you decide yourself, which is frankly a bit of a cop out. Good points, the book flowed well and the characters kept you guessing.

Five star review for a follow up book with the ending it needs.

Will read more from this autho
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