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I never knew what the consequences would be.
I say that like it’s a defense, an excuse.
It’s not. It’s simply the truth.
I never knew what he would become to me.
Through everything, he’s become everything.
My rock, my air, my love.
My everything.
And then….
Things changed.
Because it was wrong.
Because sometimes, our sons must pay for the sins of their fathers.
Or their mothers.
I’m afraid that I’m lost,
that I’m damned.
After you read this, you’ll probably agree.
Really, it doesn’t matter.
All that matters is that I save him.
Because he shouldn’t pay for my sin.
Judge me if you like.
But keep reading.
This is our beginning.
This is where the darkness truly starts.

68 pages

First published September 23, 2015

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Courtney Cole

43 books4,450 followers
Courtney Cole is a New York Times and USA Today bestselling novelist who loves to eat your emotions for breakfast.

She believes in the power of blonde hair dye and red lipstick, and that a well-timed smile can save the world.

Learn more about Courtney and her books at www.courtneycolecreates.com

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Profile Image for Jennifer Kyle.
2,338 reviews4,595 followers
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September 29, 2015
NO RATING DUE TO NOT UNDERSTANDING A SINGLE THING I JUST READ.

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I seriously can’t even rate this short novella. I have no clue what the hell it all means. What the continuous phrases mean…

”Save me and I’ll save you.”

”One for one for one.”

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Then the author throws in Salome, Judas, demons, incest, dreams, deaths… I HAVE NO CLUE WHATSOEVER!!!

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Overall, if you have a grasp of what I just read, I would love your summary!!

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633 reviews1,277 followers
September 24, 2015

I'm so confused.
I mean...I think I might have figured out something...fuck.
I really don't know what to think.
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I need answers...and it's seems like they are so close!!!
Argh!
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1,272 reviews1,909 followers
October 16, 2015
Genre: Mystery
Type: Book 2.5 of The Nocte Trilogy
POV: First Person - Female
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Like most people who read this novella, I had no idea what the fuck I just read hahaha! It started well and normal and then the last 2-3 chapters I was lost at what the point of the whole story and how it connected to the main books.

“He was the only good thing in my life,” I tell her, and I see red with my rage. “He never asked me for anything. He loved me for me, he didn’t love me for what I could provide him with, or for what I could do for him.”


The novella revolved around the life of Olivia who was Dare’s mother. She came to Whitley because she had to. By marrying Richard Savage, she secured her mother’s welfare even though she was in love with someone else – Phillip DuBray. However Richard was a monster with some sick depravity.

“You don’t even know what is real anymore, Olivia. That is the problem.”


And then things started to get strange…
There were stories about the dark root of her ancestry – of Salome and Judas. Maybe because I’m not familiar with the story I don’t really get the point. What I know is it has something to do with seduction, betrayal, sacrifice and revenge.

I’m still not sure how this all related to what happened in the main story. It could be because I’ve forgotten what happened in the first two books lol! Whatever it is, it’s definitely intriguing. I’m really hoping the final book will make sense of all these.


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Profile Image for Norah Una Sumner.
845 reviews447 followers
January 3, 2016
"She called herself the daughter of death, and she wore her ring proudly."

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-Salome with the head of St. John Baptist - Guido Reni

Ummm....okay.What the heck have I just read?This story was extremely messed up,I'm not even sure that I understand everything I've read.Also,I don't know why,but I don't really like Olivia and I just couldn't connect with her and her actions.Sorry,Olivia.I'm really looking forward to Lux because I desperately need answers.
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235 reviews54 followers
September 30, 2015
This is Courtney Cole, fucking with our heads



I have no clue what was going on and I'm still intrigued, there best be some answers to all this nonsense in Lux

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Author 11 books149 followers
September 27, 2015
Sabem aquela sensação de enxaqueca a chegar? Não? Então leiam Initium.
Teorias. Sou feita de teorias.
Algumas que tinha foram desfeitas com uma rapidez gritante quando li esta novella, outras permanecem no sonho de eu estar certa. E se acertar vou considerar - me melhor que Poirot.

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Vamos lá falar do que interessa. E a primeira coisa é que não dá para explicar o livro sem Spoiler, então vou deixar as perguntas que ficam no ar.

Initium é narrado no passado pela mãe do Dair, o nosso British mais misterioso, sobre a sua concepção dele, a entrada dela na família da Laura ( mãe da Calla) e o seu caminho à loucura.
Nestas pequenas páginas percebemos que Olivia é uma mulher apaixonada por Philipp DuBray, mas comprometida a Richard (tio da Calla): um sádico, louco, frio e abusador sexual com gosto por jovens rapazes. Alguém com tendências sexuais desviantes fruto da sua insatisfação sentimental e sexual por uma mulher proibida.
Para ajudar a sua mãe, Olivia aceita casar-se com ele, mesmo sabendo o monstro que é e tendo como sogra a mulher mais fria e macabra - a avó da Calla dá -me arrepios.
Entretanto o seu amor por Philipp é maior e ela entrega - se à paixão, ficando grávida semanas antes do casamento.
Até aqui nada de especial... e este foi o meu pensamento erróneo.

O que acontece depois da gravidez foi como puxar um pequeno fio da camisola e quando damos conta já puxamos tudo.
Numa inteligência que me deixou fascinada e aterrorizada (a sério, não sei em que mundo a autora mergulhou) Courtney Cole começa a desvendar o que está por detrás da loucura da mãe do Dair.
E se afinal houver ligação com a religião ou com a bruxaria?
Em que mundo a lenda de Salomé e Judas pode estar correcta?
E se os bons foram os maus? (Será, Laura?)
E se o Dair não for único?
O que se passou com o avô da Calla?
E se no final todos têm uma ligação maior do que poderiam imaginar?
E se o pedido de ajuda : Salva -me - que se repete - vier de há vinte anos atrás?

Initium termina com a ideia no ar: ninguém é o que perece e não podemos confiar nas palavras. Não é difícil iludir se forem bem usadas porque interpretamos de maneira diferente.

No meio disto tudo o único pensamento que tenho e que se repete é simples: Estou mais confusa do que nunca.

E se o início for apenas uma continuação?

Boa leitura.
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436 reviews59 followers
February 28, 2016
just :

HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


And in Vitale's manners...nons.... not yet ! I'm giving it the benefit of the doubt for the third book...there might actually be light at the end of the path....

Not sure how to rev this one but just like this :
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hope that's not the explanation 'cause then all the built expectations of the first 2 books would go like..
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So now I'm on the third book ...
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pretty much that's it!


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401 reviews426 followers
June 14, 2016

“Sons must pay for the sins of their fathers.”



I don't even try to write a review because I CAN'T !

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Each book manages to confuse me more and more and I don't know what is real and what is not! I'm a MESS!, For the sake of my feelings I hope that most things that happen in this short story aren't real.
This one has been the most Sickly :/
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2,119 reviews1,176 followers
October 2, 2015

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I LOVED IT!!!
such a perfect little novella!
It's about Dare's mom Olivia and his dad and the whole family in England - (most of them idiots ☺) - back around the time Dare was created.
This is such an amazing series - with every word - every page you read, you only get more #Confuzzled ☺

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This is the most mind-effed series ever!

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I don't have any idea what is happening at all! Well, ok - you get a few things here and there - but you just have NO idea how this series will end.
I NEEEEEEED to read Lux asap!!!


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1,298 reviews86 followers
September 25, 2015
Well I never expected that!

A prequel!

The story of how my beautiful Dare DuBray was brought into this world. And Laura is there too in England playing happy families with the Savages.

Whitley and Eleanor are as brooding and threatening as they are in Verum. Maybe even more so, scary creatures with fangs and claws and blood, Olivia, Dare's mum is vulnerable and weak. Desperately in love. Desperately let down.

My head is spinning. More confused than ever. I can't tell dream from reality. There are no answers. Just more questions.

Save me and I'll save you.
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2,754 reviews313 followers
September 28, 2015
So the mind fuck continues. I'm not sure whether I dated till Lux or not or has this just whet my appetite for more...I can't wait for the end of this series and this goes somewhat to explain the past but leaves you wondering even more about the present and future. Typical Courtney Cole...she loves to play with your mind!!
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2,976 reviews362 followers
September 25, 2015
Crazy crazy ride and while some things were answered, this added more questions more than anything! I loved the first few chapters of Lux though and can't wait to get my hands on it. It has been a long journey for this crazy messed up series!
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589 reviews247 followers
October 25, 2015
"You will live, and I will live, and we will always be"

So Courtney has done it again! After finishing Initium, I’m just as perplexed as before!! Hahaha, This novella take us back to the past and although it gave me answers to some question it also raises more. Therefore, I’m eager to jump right into Lux I can’t wait to see what Courtney has in store for us, as I just don’t know how it’s all going to end.
Profile Image for Christine (Shh Moms Reading).
1,293 reviews538 followers
September 25, 2015
Quick read to keep us in suspense...Initium takes us back to the beginning. But what is real? What is happening? I still don't know...but I can't wait to find out! Riveting and suspenseful, this series plays with the readers mind and I LOVE IT!
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375 reviews35 followers
March 20, 2016
I'm exhausted and excited! I got some answers, but now I have more questions! I don't want this series to end! I honestly have never read anything like it. Courtney Cole is a genius!
September 26, 2015
mind-bending, insanely addictive, wickedly evocative

Initium just confirmed for me why I've been so unbelievably anxious for the final book in the Nocte trilogy. Each dark and twisted installment unearths more clues, more secrets from the past, raises more questions and grips me from beginning to end. This story takes things back, twenty years before we were first introduced to Dair and Calla... to where their fates converged before they were even born. It answers so many questions left from Nocte and Verum and raises SO many more. Courtney Cole's writing is beautiful, so so stunning. I've loved her NA romances, but this series has impressed me beyond measure. Cole's ability to weave together a captivating story of mystery and intrigue, love and lunacy, treachery and deceit surrounding such thoroughly well-developed, yet utterly mysterious characters, and illustrated superbly with lyrical prose and perfectly authentic dialogue has floored me yet again. This novella is another mind-bending, insanely addictive, wickedly evocative piece of the puzzle that is the Nocte trilogy!!
Profile Image for Christine (Shh Moms Reading).
1,293 reviews538 followers
September 26, 2015
what the heck did I just read? I think I may have some answers but do I really?! well written and riveting...cant wait until the final book to finally learn what is going on!!
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705 reviews113 followers
September 24, 2015
JESUS H CHRIST GIVE ME ANSWERS WHICH WAY IS UP WHICH WAS IS DOWN COURTNEY?
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Author 8 books164 followers
September 26, 2015
spoilers ahead!!!! Review isn't of the book but rather what the book has left me thinking about.

I literally have no idea what the fuck I just read but I love it. After all this info are Dare and Finn twins or something? I know Finn is supposed to be eighteen but...that can be a lie. And Finn is supposed to be Calla's twin but... I DON"T FUCKING KNOW!!!

This novella didn't help me at all. I'm so confused, I'm thinking some incest shit is about to appear in book 3 and I'm kind of freaked out. Is Dare twins with Calla? O.O WHYYYYYYY?! I need answers!

Courtney Cole has this dark series down to a T! I've never read a book(s) like this and I'm so intrigued. If an author can have me mind-fucked this long, she's a keeper. ;) I need Lux on my kindle right this second. Courtney, please email me and TELL ME WHAT IS HAPPENING! I promise I won't tell anyone!!!! <3
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1,527 reviews180 followers
September 24, 2015
Where oh where do I start?!?!


Initium gives you small glimpse into the past. It gives you an insight as to why things are the way are but still leaves you with more questions.


We get a better understand of Olivia and what she went through. But damnit if I am still wanting to know more! And the Savages - oh that name couldn't be any more perfect!


Courtney does a fantastic job of giving us answers to one thing, but opens doors up to even more. She makes you think. She keeps you guessing. We are just pulled further and further into the rabbit hole and personally, I don't want to come out!


Bring on LUX!!!!
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1,071 reviews1 follower
November 22, 2015
Received from the author for a honest review. " That is what this is. A glimpse. A hint. Pay attention. Words are tricky." - these are the words from the author at the start of this novella and true to form, we get a glimpse of Olivia's past. It helped me fill in some blanks. Understand why it is a novella even if I'm not a fan. Best read right after book 2 Verum. I'm hoping Lux (Book #3 ) will finally tie all the pieces together and it can't come soon enough.
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771 reviews36 followers
October 4, 2015
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While reading this I was like Alice.



Nothing made sense, but very little did. The Nocte trilogy is just crazy.

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590 reviews3 followers
July 1, 2016
A very short novella. To be honest, I am even more confused by this little novella and story. I love what was revealed, but in this one but it was so difficult to link all that is being revealed to what we already know. I'll take it that all will be revealed in the last book, Lux.
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320 reviews25 followers
September 25, 2015
I am super frustrated that Lux is taking WAY too long to be released and then we get this....which leaves readers with WAY more questions than answers.
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884 reviews255 followers
October 16, 2015
My mind is gone. I do not know what is what anymore and I am so far down the rabbit's hole I think I AM CRAZY!!!!
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