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"Our love may have been forbidden, but that didn't stop me from giving him my heart."

When I was born I met the man who would destroy my life.
When I was sixteen I met the boy who would help me put it all back together.

Nicholas Rossi was the best thing that ever happened to me. He protected me, loved me, and in the face of all my life had become at home, he gave me hope that maybe someday hell would turn to heaven and everything would be okay.

Then one day he was gone, sending my life into a tailspin I never thought I'd be able to pull out of.

Now, seven years later he's returned, and he's definitely no longer a boy.

The kid everyone used to refer to as Saint Nicholas is all grown up, and only one thing stands in the way of us being together again...


Saint Nicholas is a standalone novel.

174 pages, Kindle Edition

First published September 5, 2015

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Jamie Deschain

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Jamie Deschain (aka James Melzer) is an award-winning novelist and short story writer.

He currently resides in Pennsylvania with his wife and son.

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Profile Image for SueBee★bring me an alpha!★.
2,417 reviews14k followers
August 15, 2017

★★★★! Saint Nicholas (stand-alone). A heart-tugging tale of first loves, youth’s regrets & second chances!

“I fell hard for the girl who’d become my everything.”

Saint Nicholas (stand-alone) is a captivating, beautifully depicted coming-of-age tale of first loves and second chances.

High school students Sarah Danniels and Nicholas Rossi, Nick aka Saint Nicholas met as teenagers. She was the quiet girl no one noticed until Nick. They called him Saint Nicholas for his noble ways. Raised in a one parent home he had stepped up to be the man of the house and now Sarah’s knight.

Together they got to be each other’s firsts in many ways. They both thought it’d last would forever. But life had other ideas. Hiding behind the façade were secrets of abuse and hopelessness.

It’d be years before their paths would cross again. Will they be able to piece together the could-have-beens of their once rose-colored view of life, happiness, love and ever-after?

Six words to describe Nicholas Rossi, Nick aka Saint Nicholas: Noble, nurturing, caring, naïve, loyal and possessive.

Eight words to describe Sarah Danniels: Meek, secretive, impressionable, kind, broken, odd, reserved and misunderstood.

Saint Nicholas, told from dual POVs, is a beautiful and heartbreaking account of the innocent of youth, first loves, heartaches, violence, abuse, hopelessness and second chances. I was captivated by the time in their youth. The second half felt rushed at times. Story ends on a high, but I’d welcome an extended epilogue.

Lyrical story-telling! Melt-your-heart hero! Engaging plot! Excellent debut!

“Nicholas Rossi was the one thing I’d never been able to let go of.”

Hero rating: 4.5 stars
Heroine rating: 4 stars
Sexual tension rating: 4 stars
Sex scenes rating: 4.5 stars
Sex scenes frequency: 4 stars
Plot rating: 4 stars
Dialogue rating: 4.5 stars
Storytelling rating: 5 stars
Story ending rating: 4 stars
Overall rating: 4+ stars

Would I recommend this book: Yes.
Would I re-read this book: Maybe later.
Would I read future books by this author: Yes.

Read during Male Authors in Erotica & Romance week on Shh…https://goo.gl/B5YSlr Thanks everyone!
Profile Image for ✰ Liz ✰ .
1,349 reviews1,262 followers
April 12, 2016
"Meet me on the roof."

St Nicholas is the tender romance of Sarah and Nicholas. It's a story of what happens when the roadblocks of life try to tear love apart!


Sarah is a young woman from Hells Kitchen. While overcoming the awkwardness of managing school, making friends, and finding her purpose in life, she faces abuse daily from her father. Simply surviving the day is her only focus. And then, she meets Nicholas.

Nicholas is a spunky teenager who loves his mom and his little sister. He aspires to become a writer and enjoys life. When he meets Sarah, it is love at first sight. The two form a fast friendship, and Nicholas does everything he can to protect Sarah!


The two experience young love in the sweetest form. Stolen kisses, sneaking out to the movies, and spending time with their friends give them unforgettable moments in time. However, when the circumstances of life tear them apart, it seems their love wasn’t meant to be. Fast forward to several years in the future, Nicholas and Sarah might just have the opportunity to find their love again.
"Guilt was my girlfriend now. Holding my hand everywhere I went. Following me around like a lost puppy day and night, waiting for me to feed it, which I always did so it'd stick around longer."
"I'd proven to myself that letting her go was the biggest mistake of my life and somehow, some way, I had to get her back."
Told in dual POV, St Nicholas is a tender read that explores young love, addiction, abuse, and learning to love and trust again. The characters are complex, and their circumstances were quite realistic. The story is fashioned in both "the past" and "the present". The tempo of the dialogue was well paced, and the love between Nicholas and Sarah was quite tender and beautiful to experience. This read evoked a plethora of emotions. I felt sad, happy, and even regret. I felt conflicted with some of the choices the characters made and yet, in the end, I appreciated the beauty of the journey!
"It's okay. Don't be scared, I got you. I'm her now, baby. I'll take care of you, okay? I'll take care of you."

Overall, St Nicholas is a tender-hearted read that packs quite an emotional punch! I applaud Mr. Deschain for exploring such complex life situations and bringing these characters through this journey! I certainly look forward to reading more from this author! Bravo Mr. Deschain! Bravo!

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Profile Image for RJ.
654 reviews340 followers
September 21, 2015
I loved how crazy the H was for the h from the start but I can't say I enjoyed the direction the book went in.

I hate separations in my books and we have a 7 year separation in this one. I also didn't like the decisions the h made and just wish things had been a little different.

That was super vague and if you want spoilers...

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Profile Image for Naomi.
1,303 reviews58 followers
February 5, 2016
Original Review @ Naomi’s Reading Palace

3.5 Stars

I picked up Saint Nicholas when it was on sale during the month of its release. I must admit, the cover drew me in and I thought it sounded ok in the description, so I 1-clicked it! The story was pretty fast paced and was a bit of a difficult adventure. It touches on some difficult issues like abuse and drug use and how it can tear families and relationships apart.

The story was told in four parts, and I was able to get the perspectives of both Nicolas and Sarah. I liked seeing each of them, understanding their feelings and the issues they were going through.

Part 1
I enjoyed meeting Sarah and Nicholas, I could see that they had a connection from the beginning and I liked how ruthless Nicholas was to be part of Sarah life. My heart broke for Sarah as I learnt her story. It was difficult for her to have a normal life, she was always scared. A lot of the story was told to me, so I didn’t get to see the interaction between the characters and I was unable to connect with them fully.

Part 2
My heart shattered! I didn't think that! What the hell is going to happen now? It was such a huge jump in time too... and only lasted a chapter.

Part 3
Another huge jump in time. It began ok, but I was like WTF! What mother does that and for that long! It obviously didn't help, just made things harder. I liked seeing the relationship develop slowly, even though there were a few hurdles. Both of their lives have changed drastically. Sarah and Nicolas had a lot to face and I was happy to see them to do so together.

Part 4
This final part made me happy! I was so glad that they were able to find true happiness!

Overall, Saint Nicholas was a good read. There were a few moments in the read that I couldn’t wrap my head around, and that is why it dropped in rating. This was Jamie Deschain’s debut novel, and I think this was a solid start to her writing. I’d be interested to see what she will publish next.
April 27, 2016
This is one heartbreaking book. I don't often cry when I read books but this one had me. Jamie is a new romance author and if his next books are written as good or better than this, he definitely has a future in romance.

I wanted to hate Nicholas for keeping her secret, but I understand that he had to keep Sarah's trust. I hated his mom even more for most of the book. Sarah's father was beyond redemption if you ask me.

This book has all of the elements I look for in a romance novel: young blossoming love, hidden pain and suffering, the ability to nurture, heal and forgive. Does it also have the happily-ever-after we romance junkies crave?
Profile Image for Carlene Inspired.
930 reviews244 followers
April 8, 2016
3.5 Stars
Read during the Shh..Male Authors in Erotica event.

Saint Nicholas is on sale for just $0.99 and it does not disappoint.

"Who was I to question a young girl’s attractions, even if it was to someone who was as damaged as I was?"

Sarah Danniels is the girl that goes by unnoticed; she goes to school, she goes home, and she tries to do what her father asks of her. Nicholas Rossi, Saint Nicholas to his friends, has stepped up as the man of his household, helping take care of both his mom and younger sister. When the two meet it's like fate brought them together, it's easy to be together and they share many of their firsts together. While both hope they can have forever, their pasts and secrets threaten to tear them apart.

"I’ll take care of you. My jaw tightened as a pang of regret jolted my heart. I’d tried for so long to live up to that, like it defined me. Now I had nothing, and I felt lost. Like I didn’t know what to do with myself. Before it felt like I had a purpose."

When I finished this book I said a lot of positive words that I couldn't string into a sentence if I tried, because it's the kind of book that leaves you with so many emotions swirling around. Filled with angst and hope, Saint Nicholas is a story of love in all sorts of ways; Love of self, love of others, and finding that forgiveness is a part of that love. Told from dual POV's, the teens experience first love in its most innocent form, however the darkness is always seeping into their joy. Jamie Deschain managed to write two characters you couldn't help but love and feel for, they were easy to connect with. Though the events they went through were not easy, I felt like I was experiencing it all alongside them. As their innocence fades away, the two find that love isn't easy and we see a fast forward sequence of their lives spent apart for 7 years. Jamie did an incredible job of capturing the feelings of youth, angst, and even coming of age. Though the story is not a light one, the strength of love carries it through.

"In a way those events were what shaped us, and in the years that followed I’d spent every waking moment holding onto them and trying to escape them all at once."

Broken into four sections, Part 1 was an incredible showing of Jamie's skills as an author, it is incredibly hard to capture the feelings of a teenager and I was so impressed with the chapters. However, the fast forward sequences during Parts 2 and 3 felt rushed and I found myself feeling like I had missed some incredibly important events. The plot, though strong, needed some more strength during the 7 years the characters were apart. I found myself missing the Nicholas we knew as a teen and though he had grown up in hard circumstances I felt like he was a completely different person an an adult. Some of the hurdles he faced alone, especially relationship wise with friends and family, really threw me for a loop and did leave me fairly confused at times. Part 4 made me happy though, proving that the 7 years, and a bit of struggling reading, was totally worth it.

"I welcomed him and the beacon he'd become in the fog of heartbreak."

Saint Nicholas was a lot more than I expected it to be and I was incredibly impressed with how well Jamie Deschain captured emotions and made scenes come to life, both those that were heartwarming and those that made me tear up. My feelings were so strong while reading this book and I highlighted so many pages; I always love a good book filled with feels and quotable lines. Saint Nicholas is a fantastic, stand-alone debut from Jamie Deschain. If you are the kind of reader who likes a dose of reality and angst in your romance, this book is for you.

P.S. Did anyone notice my book boyfriend just got a plus one?
Profile Image for Meka♥books.
506 reviews3 followers
April 8, 2016
This was my first time reading a book by Jamie Deschain and boy did it pack a punch (no pun intended). I used the text-to-speech feature on my Kindle and listened to this gut wrenching story while at work and several times I had to stop work and focus on the storyline because some things hit close to home and I wanted my attention on this young couple dealing with grown up problems.

Saint Nicholas is a lovely debut book where characters learn about themselves, gain strength, and transform over time and overcome obstacles like . This book has some pretty amazing quotes too.

Saint Nicholas is written in four sections, first person, dual POVs. Parts I & II are strong and lay the foundational work for character and plot building. In these sections I adored and felt for the main characters and their friends while quickly detesting others. Even though these sections for the most part I categorize as strong, there a some mishaps in key points for me. The last two parts felt rushed and a bit disjointed. It almost felt as if a different author wrote these sections.

What I loved the most about this book is the authenticity the author achieved on how teens feel when they experience first love. The way the author tapped into the mind/soul of a teenager was superbly written. I too remember feeling in awe of my first love and an all consuming feeling of love. I also appreciated his version of love found, lost, and discovered again which spans the main characters adult life. My heart rate was all over the place.

This is a solid read I would rate 3.5 stars. For me personally, because of some early on mishaps and the all over the place later parts that need to be tighten up a bit in my opinion I decided to rate this read a bit lower. If you like love stories you can relate to with angst then Jamie Deschain’s Saint Nicholas is for you. I will definitely be picking his next book, All We Can Be

I read this as part of the MAE F(BR) on Shh…

Profile Image for Corinne.
390 reviews30 followers
September 20, 2015
An amazing debut novel filled with undeniable emotion and angst and the kind of love we all dream about.

It's a story of abuse, friendship, love, pain and acceptance.

A must read. Congrats on your debut.
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101 reviews11 followers
April 12, 2016
@ 44% I'm going to have to shelf this one... The h is bout to become an heroin addict and start jonesing and doing crazy shit to score. I ain't got time to read that shit, when I can drive downtown and see it. I wanted fictional romance not junkies and rehab.
Profile Image for Lenna  Wright-Berry .
3,058 reviews35 followers
March 22, 2018
Full story of their life on how they met, the abuse Sarah went through as a kid by her father’s hands and how her mother was not helpful and how Nick found out and tried to protect Sarah as best he could for a 16/17 year old could, and her addiction and him giving up. Then catches up with Nick 3 years later and how he’s been and living his dream until his mother told him something than he left life go. Then again 4 years later how Nick became so bad he did something he should have did years prior, look on Facebook. Will his second chance be shot before he could tell Sarah about his feelings or will their paths continue on the destiny that they see in each other??? What about the dark past that lead Sarah into the life he has when he come back and seeks forgiveness???
Profile Image for Debbie Loader.
1,018 reviews
April 15, 2018
Loved this book. Yes I cried and cried again. It's told in parts switching between a very damaged Sarah and a desperate Nicholas who needs to accept and forgive himself.
683 reviews9 followers
October 11, 2015
Very good story.

Yes, I ugly cried. This book will do that....UGLY! CRY! It unleashed so many emotions and held me so captive that I didn't watch any football Sunday, and during football season that's unheard for me. Read this book because everyone needs a good cleansing cry every once in a while. Good for the soul. Makes you realize how human you are. Luckily as much as it breaks you down, bares your soul, unleashes your deepest emotions, and grips your heart in a vice grip, it will then turn and put everything back in place nice and neatly. But you will break before that happens, and it won't be an easy break. My suggestion is be in the mood for a good cry and a heartbreak before you read this. I wasn't expecting this story to go this route. I wasn't expecting the emotional mess it drags out of you. I wasn't expecting to become so invested in these characters that I'm sucked into their every emotion, but the writing is just that GOOD.

Now you're probably wondering, after all this praise, then why only four stars. It's something I searched for and never got. It left so many unanswered questions about the characters. They had a seven year separation. Both were virgins when the went their separate ways. When they get back together it becomes very, very apparent that they are no longer virgins, but we get nothing about their previous relationships before they're reunited. I needed that for some reason. She was such a mess when he left, and I was left wondering who she had relationships with. It's just never mentioned, and considering the state of her life at the time, her past "relationships" didn't give me any warm or fuzzy feelings at all. I got the heebie geebies wondering how she lost her virginity, and nope, no good feelings there. And same for him. In those seven years who had he been with. Just nothing. For some reason I needed the questions answered. For the rest of the read it was there in the back of my mind. It's something that I felt like needed to be there. Not enough to hate this book, and certainly not enough to tell EVERYONE, at some point, read this book. So I'm left with these questions still in my mind. I don't feel that I got the WHOLE story, but boy did I get a good story.

Don't let this one little blip detour you from reading this. You may not even miss it. It may just be me. Of course, I'm trained to be picky and tear things down to the bones. My creative writing students will attest to that. No rock unturned. No questions left unanswered. No doubts of reliability, rationality, or reality. Even if the story is paranormal, supernatural, or science fiction it is up to the writer to convince me there is plausibility that it could be true. If I cannot enter into the world of the characters as I read, then I'm at a level of disconnect to the story, and that is something a writer wants to avoid. I want the full story every time no matter how ugly or painful it might be or even if it's too pretty, and yeah that's a thing. Not every thing is roses and not everything is crap, but still it is pertinent to the story. But like I said, READ THIS BOOK.
Profile Image for Nicole.
856 reviews
October 3, 2015

There is something about reading a love story where the only thing that gets in the way is life. No lies, cheating, scheming or those other outside forces that make everyone miserable. Just...LIFE.
I LOVED this book. Everyone deserves a Nicholas Rossi in their life. What an amazing character to experience. A strong lead character with an amazing heart. It helps that he was good looking too...lol What can I say about Sarah? Her life was hard. I mean, really hard. But, she is strong. I admired her strength in this book, even dealing with what she dealt with.
More than anything, I loved Sarah and Nicholas together. You knew from the moment they met that this was a love that was just meant to be. The only thing that would have given them problems...was LIFE. And it did, just like it does to all of us.
This was an AMAZING book by Jamie Deschain. I cannot wait to see what she puts out next. You better believe I will one-clicking whatever it is. :)
Profile Image for Carrie.
3,089 reviews25 followers
December 14, 2015
This is a unique story that I really wanted to like - but I just didn't. *sigh* There are some things going on in the story that I just didn't like AT ALL, and they made it difficult for me to get into the relationship between Nicholas & Sarah.

I typed that first paragraph out & my stars were at 2.5. And then I decided to go back to about 60% and read again to see if I could get some different feelings. As I said, this story is unique. The way Nicholas comes back into Sarah's life was really something I liked. And after reading through the last half of the book again, I did feel a spark for these two. There are still lots of things I DIDN'T like, but the writing pulled me back in. So... it didn't turn into a favorite, but it did give me some smiles & warm fuzzy feelings, and I'm willing to read more by this author, so I'll give it that. : )
Profile Image for Belinda Visser.
410 reviews4 followers
October 12, 2015
I absolutely loved Saint Nicholas. This story brought me to a lot of tears and so many unleashed emotions. Saint Nicholas is a beautiful love story, it's about second chances, pain, heartache, forgiveness ( that was a hard one for me to get pass on the forgiveness part of the story) and strong love bond that's meant to be between to beautiful couple Nicholas and Sarah. What Sarah went through was heartbreaking, her life was hard without a doubt but I admired her strength, willingness and strong to get through life. Nicholas, I love him. He's strong, loving and I admired his love he has for Sarah. Nicholas also had a rough stage through his life but I'm glad it work in the end for him. I love Sarah and Nicholas together.
This was an AMAZING book by Jamie Deschain.
Profile Image for Spunky N Sassy.
4,947 reviews102 followers
November 7, 2016
SNSBAH Rating: 4.0

~~~~~~~~~~Shar's ★★★★ Review~~~~~~~~~~

Sarah and Nicholas meet as teenagers and end up going through a ton of ups and downs together and apart. Growing up in Hell's Kitchen can be tough to begin with but add in coming from a broken home and that's where the difficulty gets harder. This is a story less about romance and more about the struggles of growing up and becoming the person you want to be. Character development was good. I really found myself liking both of the main characters but I loved Carter. The writing is done well and the story was interesting. I felt that it just lacked a little "zip". I liked it overall but it was not a page turner for me.

This is a stand alone and does have an HEA.
Profile Image for Andrea Britton.
1,623 reviews25 followers
October 11, 2015
Saint Nicholas is so damn swoon worth

Sarah is going through hell. She has a rough life and one day she meets Nicholas. Everything changes and she's happy but her hell is about to get worse. Sarah is on a downward spiral. Nicholas can't do it anymore, he can't let her waste away in front of him.

Years have passed and while one was getting better stronger, the other was in a darkness because of a lie that was told to him. All it took was a FB message to start the light shining on both their lives. Is there a future with forgiveness? Read to find out!

I would recommend to every romance lover .
5 reviews22 followers
September 20, 2015
Rollercoaster of emotions!

Best book in a very long time. I think the story of Sarah and Nicholas surprised me by heading in a different direction than I thought it was going every time I got my feelings with them settled. Great characters with a fantastic storyline ! Amazing new author! Really looking forward to experiencing everything yet to come ( and with Jamie.. you can't be sure )
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271 reviews11 followers
April 6, 2016
This was exactly the book I was thinking it would be .I liked it, but will I re-read it again no. It did not stand out to me. There were some moments I just wanted to skip because it became a little boring. I did love the relationship the H and H had..

The Cover (While hot, I def appreciate a hot half naked guy ;)) and the blurb for me were a little deceiving.. it is not a gritty and angsty as I believed it to be..

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176 reviews2 followers
September 20, 2015
What a great debut novel

What a great story!! Nicholas oh maaaaaan do I want a Nicholas in my life. The story of Nicholas and Sarah was beautiful and raw. I can't wait to see what else is this new author has in store for us.
Profile Image for Tina.
447 reviews
April 11, 2016
Ok so I really liked this however I thought it could have been an epic read Imo.
I thought what wAs written was great but had the book gone into more detail about her life during those years and maybe even had a little bit more back story would hAve made this book amazing. But just my opinion
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