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288 pages, ebook
First published September 15, 2015
Holding her tighter I lean down and kiss the top of her head. Yes, I’m going for it, and I really think I can do it this time.The above situation happens more than once, but their relationship eventually does progress. And just when you think that they are heading toward that happily ever after I really want for them (because they are the most perfect couple ever), they are brought back to reality. And in the most horrible of ways. Everything Charlie was afraid of comes to light, but it is actually much worse than he could have imagined. The twists and turns in this book were nothing like I expected.
I’ve loved every second with her and haven’t felt any fear since she’s been here. I know I’m totally falling for this chick and that’s all it was. I can do this…
Allison’s breathing hardens as she slowly moves her head, looking up at me, directly into my eyes. I lean in and kiss her softly before moving back and looking for her reaction. She gives me a kiss-me-now look and I lean in again, kissing her, slowly moving her down so she’s on her back and my chest is on top of her with my legs lying to her side.
I stop kissing her and pull back once more just to look at her. I still can’t believe that someone, this beautiful woman, can make me feel so whole, so happy.
I move her hair out of her face, giving her a warm smile before I kiss her again. The passion grows between us with each breath. I reach underneath her shirt, wrap my arm around her back, feeling her soft bare skin before grabbing the bottom of her shirt and slowly pulling it up over her head, taking it off and throwing it on the floor beside us.
She reaches for my shirt, pulling it up over my head as well. We are skin to skin, feeling each other’s heartbeat as we continue to explore one another.
Allison reaches for my pants and starts to unbutton the top button and there it is again. That scared feeling I felt before, making my stomach turn and my heart leap into my throat. I try to push it out of my mind, not understanding what’s going on or why this is happening. My heart beats harder and harder until I can’t breathe and I have to stop kissing her, dropping to my back so I’m lying beside her. What the fuck?
My breathing is so strained I have to focus on breathing slowly, in through the nose, out through the mouth, to try to calm it down.
Why am I so nervous? It’s like I’ve never done this before. Then it hits me.
That’s why. I’ve never done this before. Every time I’ve had sex it was with a client. I’ve never had feelings for anyone I’ve been with and the realization is overwhelming.
Allison leans to her side and I can tell she’s concerned, “Charlie, what is it?”
“God, Allison, I wish I could explain it to you.”
Putting her hand on my face, she whispers, “So try…”
I take a deep breath in, letting it out veryslowly and covering my eyes, “I can’t…” I pause before I put my arm down and look into her eyes. “But please stay here with me. Stay the night and sleep here with me.” I know I can’t hide the pleading coming out from deep within and I hope I don’t sound too pathetic.
She smiles, turns her back to me and curls up in my arms, grabbing my hand and pulling it up to her lips, kissing it saying, “Ok.”
Nothing else is said and we fall asleep wrapped in each other’s arms.