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Xander Part 1

(Rockstar #12)

4.55  ·  Rating details ·  877 ratings  ·  170 reviews
We met at the age of eight. That day on the playground was a turning point in my life. She stole my heart with just a glance as she sang off key.

But nothing’s perfect.

I figured out pretty quickly she was too good for me, so I let her go.
I thought I was doing the right thing--until I realized I wasn’t.
She was my everything and without her I was nothing.

When we reunited, my
Published April 29th 2017 (first published April 2017)
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May 10, 2017 marked it as nope
This human being is a disgusting pos. He has the guts to say his wife was right, that he really needed to fuck ow. But I think everything is fine, because he was thinking about his wife wishing it was her he was doing it with.
Homem nojento, asqueroso, sujo. Vagabundo

I really don’t know what kind of story is that and how in this world that will be a reasonable explanation for his actions and how is even possible for this human being be redeemable. His wife could have said for him to leave, to g
Nana Pickrell
As much as I like this series, I'm not sure if I will read this book. Zander is not one of my favorite characters. Especially after reading the Xmas stories & his dreams of a threesome with Jesse & Lucy. That just made me dislike him even more. Then to find out he's married! Sorry I don't believe he's in love with Tera. Not after all his sexcapades in earlier books. It doesn't ring true for me. If you cheat on your wife, you never loved her in the first place. I'll probably get it becaus ...more
May 22, 2017 rated it it was amazing
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4.5 stars

I loved Xander throughout the whole series so I couldn’t wait for his story. We find out he’s married to Tera. You get to see how their relationship develops from the beginning at the age of eight years old.

I don’t just love you. I am so deeply in love with you I don’t even know how to handle it sometimes

I just love Xan even more! But I was not expecting to get my heart broken on such event that occurred to Tera.

“My heart-it’s broken for my girl. So broken. Just as she’s going to
Rachel K
May 05, 2017 rated it did not like it
Stupidly, I read it.

Lu Bielefeld **
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description Please tell me this isn't a joke. Tell me it's real and you're not going to disappear from my life again."
"You're the one who pushed me out the door, Xan."
"I thought it was best for you, but what the f__k do I know?"
"You don't know sh*t if you think that was what was best for me. God. Don't you know you're what's best for me, Xander Mackenzie?

With each book that is released the Rockstar Series become a bit darker when compared to the initial books and relationships a bit more tangled and c
Melissa Mendoza
May 02, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
"'You'll always be my heart.' 'As you are mine.'"

5+ Xan the Man stars!! Anne has done it again... she's made me fall in love with another character....

I don't even know where to begin with my review. I finished this book days ago, but it's taken me this long to get my thoughts together to write a review, well that and dry my eyes from all the crying! This book touched me on so many levels! I've been waiting for years to get Xander's backstory and now that I have it, I'm in utter shock and awe! E
Renee Entress
5 star

The story has laughs, pain, anger, suspense, and heartbreak.

If you have not read the below I would recommend reading those books first.
Falling Down (Rockstar series #1)
Blush (Rockstar, #2)
A Very Xander Christmas (Rockstar, #2.5)
Amplify (Rockstar #3)
Interlude (Rockstar #4)
Ballad (Rockstar #5)
Lullabye (Rockstar #6)
Kadence (Rockstar #7)

This is Xander’s story. This is the beginning of Xander and Tera’s story. All the questions you have had since the beginning start to get answered. You know
Penny Layne
May 01, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This is the REAL Xander...and I love him

Who finds their soulmate on the elementary playground at 8 years old? Xander and Tera, that's who.
We have all loved Xander from the very beginning, from our first look at Falling Down.
Xander was crazy, off the wall, anything goes, care free (the list could go on) but during the AVXC (A Very Xander Christmas novellas) we had seen that life isn't always as it appears! And with this, now we know why. We know their past, their history, their lives...and it e
J.A. Low
May 18, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Love this series !!!!
amanda reardon
May 03, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Anne does it again

I wanted to give this book 5 stars. I really really did. It was spectacularly written and really made you feel. Hello ugly cry. It was much anticipated and well worth the wait. Anne Mercier can write Rockstar romance like no one's business. I can't wait to continue Xander and Tera's story in part 2.

I know you are reading this like this chick is crazy she's telling you why this book is a 5 star book but only giving it 4. I know some might say this is being too picky but here i
May 03, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Oh my freaking damn!!!! I thought I loved Xander before. Boy was I wrong. This book gives you so much more of Xander and how sweet, awesome, loving, and amazing he is!!! Actually that goes for every single character in this entire series. We get to see the whole group of guys from Jesse, Ben, Kennedy, Ethan, Linc, and so on. These boys, they have this one special and amazing girl named Tera's back. They would do anything for her and they love her. They just, this book solidifies my love for this ...more
Xander has been a much-anticipated story for me since I started reading Anne Mercier's Rockstar series. He's goofy, silly, funny as hell and has the biggest heart of all of the guys so I knew his story would be one I'd never forget and Mercier did not let me down with the first part of Xander's story. It takes us back to 8 year old Xander, when he first meets the love of his life, Tera, and progresses through until the present where we get a cliffhanger until part 2 of the story is released. It ...more
Meghan Murphy
May 08, 2017 rated it it was amazing
5 Stars

OH MY GOSH!!! This book is hands down my FAVORITE Anne Mercier book EVER!!! It was so worth the wait! The emotions I felt while reading were wide-ranging from laughing to balling my eyes out. There really are no words to describe how I feel but I shall try my best...

"Don't you know you're what's best for me, Xander Mackenzie? Why do you think there's anything better than you, I just don't understand."

Xander by Anne Mercier is the ninth book in the Rockstar series and Part One of the two b
Jun 24, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
OMG, this book!!!

I loved how Xander and Tera met, loved that Tera and Link were absorbed by the group and treated like everyone else. How cute were all of these kids at 8!! As they grew up it was interesting to see how the dynamic changed, with the group and with the couple. I was glad that all of the kids had Xander's dad and the housekeeper and her husband as good adults to look up to, to go to with issues, to provide them a safe place.

Part of me hated when Xander didn't go after Tera when he
Shelly Wexell
May 03, 2017 rated it it was amazing
There is a reason why we call Anne Mercier our Queen. She can write a story and make it feel so real that you feel all the emotions she does when writing it.
I wanted to reach out and hug everyone that was hurting in the book. Wanted to take a fricken ball bat and club the bad guys in the book and wouldn't even give a F**k if I went to jail. I know it's fictional but those are the feelings I get when you read her books, you want to protect the characters. You want to party with them, your on the
Jamie H
May 03, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

I have been waiting for Xander's story like a kid waiting for Christmas, and every word was worth every second of it. If you are a Xan Fan you know and adore the goofball drummer of Falling Down, you know that he's waited forever for his heart to come home and wondered why she wasn't already with him. That all changes with this book. You'd never guess the struggle and heartbreak they have endured, the patience and understanding only true love can overcome, the difficult circumstances
Oh My Xander!!

Oh Xander, my Xander. Anne didn't take it easy on you and Tera did she? I have loved Xander since the very first rockstar book. There was just something about him, the cheeky, happy go lucky drummer boy that you couldn't help but love. Who knew what pain he had been keeping hidden inside of himself??? And Tera?? There has been hints of a special lady in his life in previous books but no-one has ever said why Tera was so important, well I now know and can't wait for Tera to join the
Apr 30, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Readers have fallen in love with Xander and the infatuation started in the very beginning of the series with Falling Down. He is this goofy, happy go lucky guy who loves his friends and band dearly. At long last we finally get his story after his secret was revealed in A Very Xander Christmas 3.

It's always been hinted that Xander has a girl and it came out that her name is Tera in Ballad. But, this is their story and how everything including the band started.

Nothing could have prepared me for th
Apr 30, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Readers have fallen in love with Xander and the infatuation started in the very beginning of the series with Falling Down. He is this goofy, happy go lucky guy who loves his friends and band dearly. At long last we finally get his story after his secret was revealed in A Very Xander Christmas 3.

It's always been hinted that Xander has a girl and it came out that her name is Tera in Ballad. But, this is their story and how everything including the band started.

Nothing could have prepared me for th
wendy Shelton(obsessedbybooks)
EEEEK!!!!! I m so excited to get the back, back story of Xander and Terra. I knew he loved her but had know idea how hard and true. Xander and Terra started as childhood friends but Xander knew his feelings for her were different, we're changing but would she still want be his friend? Terra knew she would always love Xander but knew he didn't want her, so when the truth comes out on how they feel for each other the fight they show for thier relationship is beautiful, but Xander being on tour mak ...more
Estela Miranda
Apr 30, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

This book, it's just WOW... I've read all your books in this series and let me tell you, this one is by far the best in my opinion. I knew that Xander's book would be my favorite just by his personality in the rest of the books and you didn't disappoint me. It's like he said when you love, you love fiercely, he went all in. Then there is Tera, let me just say bravo. She went thru so much and at the end she came out stronger then ever. I just know that their second boo
Tera Chastain  (Co-Creator of The Book Bistro)
My heart...

Wow...truly an emotional read...We've all waited for Tera and Xander's story and here it is all its gut twisting ...heart stopping ...epic-ness ...These two meet at a young age and pretty much know...they are IT for each other's just gonna be a long and hard road to getting there ...

~~Losing myself to my art is what keeps me sane. I just paint everything I need to say.~~

If you've read the other rockstar books (which I'm sure you have if you're reading this one) kn
Love this series and these rockstars!
It was awesome to go back in time and see the guys when they were young. It just added even more to their already strong and loyal friendship.
As soon as I knew there was a 'Tera' I was curious as to how she and Xan met, and how she would fit in with the rest of the group. I loved that she met all the boys when they were so young, and had such a great friendship with all of them, but always had that extra special connection with Xan. Tera is kickass and can ho
May 02, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Xander!! Xander has been one of my favourite book characters for a long while, I've loved his energy and I couldn't wait for this book. Oh man, I wasn't disappointed - Xander's back story blew me away. Anne Mercier has done a fabulous job of making every emotion come to the surface as the story unfolds.

The one thing that I hadn't expected was to put the book down thinking a whole lot less of Xander. I'm not going to put in any spoilers because this book is too good to wreck and it is probably j
Rhonda Ziglar
May 03, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Xander Book 1 by Anne Mercier.......Wow, I am still trying to catch my breath. This book was like being on a emotional roller coaster, so have your Kleenex ready. I could not put it down until I finished it. Xander and Tera have loved each other since childhood, they went from friends to lovers. Tera has went through so much and it has made her into the most beautiful strong woman. Anne Mercier know how to turn these characters into real life, you feel all their emotions. I highly recommend this ...more
May 01, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

I truly don't have any words for this book!!!!

First and foremost, I ABSOLUTELY loved it!!!! Having had glimpses of Xander and Tera's relationship from the previous books, I knew there was a huge reason why they weren't together but I NEVER EVER EVER expected to be what it was!!!! I cried so hard for Tera and for Xander. I have a better understanding of why Xan does the things he does and I absolutely love him more for being the man he is. Mad respect to Tera!!!! Impatiently pati
Lisa Kolb
May 01, 2017 rated it it was amazing
OMG!!! I don't have the words to do this review justice but I'll try my hardest!!! PHENOMENAL!!! It all makes sence now!! Why Xander is like he is! Why he's married for 10 years but they don't live together. Why Tera has to be 'ready' to join Xander in LA. Why Falling Down are Brothers not just friends ect!!!! Such hard subjects so BEAUTIFULLY written!!!! Anne Mercier continues to give us her heart and soul in every book she writes!!! I truly wish more then 5stars were possible because 5 stars i ...more
michelle Shelly
May 04, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Worth the wait.!

So worth the wait! I knew Xander's story was going to be phenomenal. Its sweet, touching, emotional and sexy. He and Tera have a true love and their story is gripping and real. My heart broke for these people and my love for the guys grew more than I thought it could. I really enjoyed reading about the band starting out and how the guys met. Now I want to go back and read all the books again. So can't wait for part two of this story, just hope my heart survives.
Stacy Sullivan
May 01, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Long wait!!! ( But for good reason!!!) So amazing!!!😀

This book was just so good couldn't but it down. This book took me like 5 hours to finish!!! This book had me hooked from the first chapter to to last chapter. That's why I gave this book 5 stars. Anne rocket this book oh yeah pun intended lol.
This book had me laughing and then crying, it just had all the feels. To be tell you the truth I think even my mom would love this book and cry just as much as I did. I would so read this book over and
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Anne Mercier is the International Bestselling author of adult contemporary romance, new adult contemporary romance, and mature young adult romance. She was born and raised in Wisconsin and still lives there today.

When she's not writing she enjoys reading amazing books, listening to music, keeping up on all things Avenged Sevenfold and Milo Ventimiglia, chatting with readers and friends, and bingi

Other books in the series

Rockstar (1 - 10 of 20 books)
  • Falling Down (Rockstar #1)
  • Blush (Rockstar #2)
  • A Very Xander Christmas (Rockstar #3)
  • Amplify (Rockstar #4)
  • Interlude (Rockstar) (Volume 5)
  • Ballad (Rockstar #6)
  • Lullabye (Rockstar) (Volume 7)
  • A Very Xander Christmas 2 (Rockstar #8)
  • Kadence (Rockstar) (Volume 9)
  • A Very Xander Christmas 3 (Rockstar #10)