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3.62  ·  Rating details ·  1,404 Ratings  ·  180 Reviews
Good Girl. Obedient Wife.

Porn Slave.

Deep Throat Was Only The Beginning…

Linda Boreman was just twenty-one when she met Chuck Traynor, the man who would change her life. Less than two years later, the girl who wouldn�t let her high school dates get past first base was catapulted to fame she could never have imagined in her wildest dreams�or worst nightmares. Linda Boreman

Paperback, 288 pages
Published January 1st 2006 by Citadel (first published January 1st 1980)
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Yesterday, I reviewed Inside Linda Lovelace, one of the books Lovelace wrote while she was still inhabiting the personality of the sex-toy 60s porn star. I consider I am honour bound also to review Ordeal, the book she wrote after leaving the porn industry. It's a very disquieting read. Lovelace completely denies all her earlier testimony. She says that, for years, she was regularly raped and brutalised by her partner, Chuck Traynor. Traynor controlled every aspect of her life and forced her int ...more
Yasmin Butt
May 24, 2012 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Possibly the most upsetting autobiography I've ever read.

I read it when I was in my teens and it appalled me the life this poor woman led. I'm not anti-porn at all, but I am 100% anti-coercion and exploitation. Love and sex are gifts, not means of abuse. Rating this as 5 stars to say I really liked it feels all kinds of wrong. I didn't like it, it messed me up for a while, but reading it was eye-opening and it blew my mind, that a man, Chuck Traynor, was capable of doing this to another person.
Sabrina Rutter
Jan 31, 2010 rated it really liked it
Shelves: i-own, sex-workers
I couldn't put this down! This is the first memoir I have ever read about someone in the porn industry. Is it an amazing story? No, not really, but it was definantly interesting. If what she says is true then she definantly titled this book correctly because that was definantly an ordeal.
I for one would have let the perverts kill me before I would submit to some of the things Linda did. She says that what happened to her could happen to anyone, but I disagree. I would have never allowed someone
Jan 16, 2012 rated it really liked it
Shelves: memoirs, women
I heard about this book years ago and wouldn't have read it except that a friend of mine wanted to know what I thought of it. This has to be one of the most compelling memoirs even written. In a recent article in Poets and Writers by the son of Mike McGrady (the writer who helped Lovelace with the book), he described how terribly his father and Linda were treated after the publication of the book See, It wasn't until feminists such as Gloria Steinem and ...more
Travis Hutch Belushi
Jul 15, 2015 rated it it was amazing
Ordeal' such confronting reading.

I never heard of Linda Lovelace until I picked up her book 'ordeal' and read the blurb, it sounded like an interesting story however I didn't realise how shocking it would be. I really do feel for Linda Lovelace and the book at times was very hard to read. After finishing the book I was inspired to do more research and soon found there were many mixed opinions about Lovelace and the 'real' story of what actually happened. From my research I do believe that 'ordea
Rachel T
5 out of 5 for this reader folks!

How does one even begin to review a book like this? I think this had to be the saddest, most emotional biography book I have ever read. I felt physically ill at certain times through this book at the abuse this woman went through. To come out, and live somewhat a normal life as she did and to be brave enough to put these words out there for people to read renders me speechless.

This is the biography of Linda Lovelace. Linda's pornography film "Deepthroat" was the
I happened to be reading this harrowing memoir of the now-deceased '70s pornstar, Lovelace, at the same time I was reading Sir B.H. Liddell Hart's history of World War II, and it occurred to me that if space aliens had gotten hold of both these books and done the same reading they might easily conclude that Lovelace's sexually abusive and violent Svengali husband/exploiter, Chuck Traynor, was a far worse human being than Adolf Hitler.

There's been a lot of scuttlebutt throught the years about the
Edwina Callan
Dec 01, 2014 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: library-book, 2014
Reading this book is like coming upon a house on fire or a wreck on the highway, you don't want to look and yet ... you can't look away.
Your heart is racing while your eyes are desperately seeking some sign of life, searching for a survivor amidst all the blood and destruction.
And Linda survives, not only does she survive but she thrives.
After years of living in a nightmare world from the deepest pits of hell, she escapes.
She finds a man who loves her for her, not for the Lovelace Legend.
She has
Bert Zee
Apr 07, 2017 rated it really liked it
Reading Ordeal by Linda Lovelace was indeed just that, an ordeal, honestly this would have to be one of the most traumatic experiences I’ve ever had reading a book. I like to think I’m tough as nails when it comes to extreme things but deep down I’m a real softie and reading about stuff like this really breaks my heart.

Much of what she has written in this book has been reputed to be false, many of the people who know/ knew her say that she’s lying and this seems to be something that you hear abo
Jan 27, 2017 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: varia-scripta
Dość wstrząsająca książka. Opisująca życie kobiety, która wbrew sobie stała się ikoną pornobiznesu i bohaterką "kultowego" pornola.
Niestety całość napisana jest tak, że momentami traci na wiarygodności i sprawia wrażenie literackiej zemsty na biznesie i ludziach, którzy ją wykorzystali i porzucili bez grosza. Relacja o głębokiej więzi z Bogiem, który pomógł jej przetrwać pornoniewolę brzmi dziwnie. Tak czy inaczej wygląda na to, że ta zemsta się należała.
Jul 30, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: dv
I found out about this book from the documentary, "The Real Linda Lovelace" (which I also highly recommend!). The most moving aspect was that "Linda Lovelace was not a good actress." Nevertheless, "you had to be a good actress to fake her reactions." It is a heartbreaking story about abuses that can simply happen to anyone (and if you think otherwise, you need to educate yourself on the seasoning process). And it is even more heartbreaking to consider that stories such as this are either disbeli ...more
Dec 20, 2015 rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: those who can handle the truth
This book was brutal to read. It is 10 PM. I have just finished reading Ordeal and I am speechless. This book lives up to the title in every single way. I was disgusted at so many intervals of this book, I was shocked to my very core. After reading this book you grasp the agony that Linda lived with for years, you understand that she was not the woman who revolutionized the porn industry. She was an abused, traumatized (emotionally and physically) for so long that she forgot that she was a human ...more
Feb 21, 2011 rated it it was ok
Recommends it for: porn theory graduate students
I have pretty mixed feelings about this book. I've read my share of porn autobiographies (Traci Lords, Jenna Jameson) but I figured I should head to the source of these memoirs to the original. I don't want to cast aspersions on what Linda Lovelace said she experienced but it's difficult to believe some of the level of detail that she or her ghost writer went with in this book. Particularly as she makes a point of saying early in the narrative that she doesn't remember huge hunks of time while s ...more
Feb 21, 2008 rated it really liked it
A trash classic. It's a little sad just how earnestly Gloria Steinem, Andrea Dworkin, Catharine MacKinnon & Co. took it. Ladies, you kinda missed the point.
Hasnain Bahleem
Aug 10, 2013 rated it really liked it
The minute i stopped reading this book, my first thoughts were!
" we people are sick, not sick with disease but sick in mind! Without our humanity
We are no more than downright animals. "
This was probably the most depressing autobiography I have ever read. The title ordeal suits perfectly. U might be thinking what inspired me to pick up this book out of the whim,well yesterday i was searching for a suitable movie to watch and i stumbled upon, a movie which was called as 'love lace,' sure Amanda
Rachael Seow
Sep 15, 2012 rated it really liked it

ATTENTION! If you're under 21 y-o, please do not read this review. It contains explicit and graphic sexual descriptions that might be offensive.

I've read many porn stars and ex-porn stars memoirs, but nothing can beat Ordeal. It's the most sadistic and disturbing book I've ever read. 

The story begins when Linda Boreman had a car accident. She met Chuck Traynor who seemed so sweet. Later, Linda found that Chuck is a monster who physically, verbally, and sexually abused her. From then on, her nigh
Jean louise Finch
Nov 24, 2013 rated it liked it

Sorry this review is a little all over the place as I attempt to get my thoughts together.

I am really trying very hard to get through this book. I watched the movie Lovelace, it doesnt even scratch the surface, and I will tell you, Ive seen Deep Throat and I am terribly uncomfortable at the thought of having watched this movie with the star being violently abused and forced into pornography...

If she was: rumor has it that the abuse she details is over h
Aug 24, 2013 rated it really liked it
Shelves: non-fiction
I suppose I am very much in the minority with this. I had never heard of 'Linda Lovelace', until I read there was to be a film made about her. It prompted me to search online. This lead to a documentary on you-tube about her life and this book.

Linda Lovelace was a woman who starred in a porn film in the 1970s. It became mainstream and she became well known worldwide. She was represented as the face of hedonistic sexuality and met film stars and the strange Playboy tycoon Hefner. However there w
Matt Williams
Apr 28, 2015 rated it it was amazing
I picked this up at my Mum’s friend’s house and I read it in an entire sitting; I just couldn’t put it down. This is such a tragic and moving story that really shows more than just the corruption in the porn industry that is still prevalent today. I really felt reading this that it spoke more about the human race than it did about the porn industry; so many people around her knew what was going on but no one was willing to try and help. Then there is Chuck; a frequent male figure seen in all soc ...more
Nov 23, 2013 rated it really liked it
I first heard about Linda Lovelace in the tabloids when Lindsey Lohan was going through her addiction issues and was replaced by Amanda Seyfried for the role of Linda Lovelace in the "Lovelace" film. The Lovelace story caught my attention so I decided to read more about it, and found this book somewhere along the way.

My reaction when I first began reading this book was probably the same reaction many people had: "Why didn't she just get away? She could've told someone. Called the police while he
Dec 17, 2013 rated it really liked it
This is one of those stories that while it's totally fascinating and gripping, you feel a deep burn of guilt the whole way through - because everything that happens to Linda Lovelace is true. This is a memoir, written by Linda Lovelace - known as the porn star in Deep Throat, a movie that shot the porn industry into even more acclaim. Linda was manipulated and physically and emotionally abused by her boyfriend, and then husband, Chuck Traynor. She was forced at gunpoint to become a prostitute an ...more
Mar 27, 2014 rated it liked it
Shelves: abuse
When I finally got to the last page of this memoir, I wanted to do exactly what Linda had said she was going to do. Clean.

This book left me feeling tired, used and just all around dirty. I can't say that I've been happier to finish a book, just so I can hand it off to someone else.

While I understand her experiences were awful, dark and traumatic and she just wanted to explain what really happened during that time in her life, readers should take caution because there are a many graphic details
Jan 21, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2014
I feel wrong giving it 5 stars and saying I really enjoyed the book when Linda went through such terrible things.
But I did enjoy the read. I thought it was written well. It had a nice flow to it making it easy to read.
I found I had to keep reminding myself everything I was reading was real. It's hard to imagine these things happened to her and maybe happening or might happen to others beside her.
I feel bad for the things Linda had to go through in life. It makes me grateful, but fearful. Gratefu
Jan 16, 2014 rated it really liked it
I read this book after watching the recent Lovelace film. I did not expect the book to contain such horrific horrors as it did. In contrast, the film is a very tame Hollywood-ized account of Linda Lovelace's life. It does not even the scrape the surface of the humiliating experiences which she endured. The book, at times, is difficult to read as Linda chronicles her nightmare years with the abusive Chuck Traynor. She suffered extreme exploitation and degradations. The power and control Traynor h ...more
Feb 21, 2016 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: biographical, 2016
The first time I heard about this version of Linda Lovelace's story was in one of Gloria Steinem's essays and I knew I had to read Ordeal.
This book was horrifying and very hard for me to read so I read it in tiny bits. The most terrifying bit of all is that I really can see that it CAN happen to any girl, none of us are essentially shielded from this. This theme kept popping up throughout. It is a book every young woman (and man) must read, obscenities and all.

I haven't seen "Deep Throat", I am
May 23, 2015 rated it it was amazing
I've heard about Linda Lovelace, of course, like pretty much everyone else of my generation. I heard that she had been abused. I read that she was a porn star. This book is one of the saddest I've ever read. Linda went through hell on earth. Some of it, especially the part where she gets punished by Michelle for trying to escape Chuck, made me sick. This poor girl endured so much. I've read comments by people who don't believe her story, who believe that she "loved" sex and "loved" being a porn ...more
Jan 07, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: bio, relevant
5 out of 5 stars. This is the kind of book which makes ignoring the stupidity of programmers difficult: for Goodreads this ranges from "I don't like it" which is okay to mark disapproval to "it was ok", moving up to "liked it", than "really liked it" and finally "it was amazing". And you have to be sick to give such labels to a story like this one.

This is a story of an abuse. And that makes it culturally relevant. Maya Angelou at one time started on the same path, but with help from a determined
Oct 15, 2014 rated it liked it
In total there have been three "memoirs" of Lovelace' s experience - one written by Chuck Traynor, one a composite of the truth and what would sell, and this. I imagine this is as close to the truth as we will ever get, as horrifying as it is.

In reading this, you don't want to believe it - you don't want to believe that anyone could be as brutal as Chuck Traynor or as victimized as Linda Lovelace. You want to believe that she, to some extent, took part in her life. That any normal, sane person
Dec 27, 2013 rated it really liked it
The recent movie is like a walk in the park on a Sunday morning compared to the horrific reality the real "Linda Lovelace" had to deal with day-in day-out while living with, or rather *under*, the sadistic psycho pervert Chuck Traynor; who ruled over her with an almost literal rod of iron. Linda came from a family in which little love was shown and physical abuse was an everyday occurrence. And when she met Chuck she hoped to have found a means of escape from her parents. But what she really fou ...more
zoe nicol
Sep 05, 2007 rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: everyone
This book stands as a record as to why so many of us are terrified of the implications of modern pornography. Deep Throat, a movie viewed by just about everyone I know, documents the worst of the sex industry--women who performed under coercion. While the book doesn't make a specific political commentary, it's a reminder that all sex workers deserve much more than mere dollars and amplifies the voice that the profession should be a choice.
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Linda Susan Boreman, better known by her stage name Linda Lovelace, became famous after starring in the 1972 hardcore porn film Deep Throat. She later became a spokeswoman for the anti-pornography movement.

Deep Throat was notable for beginning a brief fad of porn chic; it was also the inspiration for Bob Woodward's name of his secret Watergate source, W. Mark Felt. Boreman later stated that she re
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“When someone needs help, that’s the time to help. Not the next day. Not when it’s safe.” 9 likes
“Everyone that watches "Deep Throat" is watching me being raped. ” 6 likes
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