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Carry the Ocean

(The Roosevelt #1)

4.39  ·  Rating details ·  4,805 ratings  ·  977 reviews
Normal is just a setting on the dryer.

High school graduate Jeremey Samson is looking forward to burying his head under the covers and sleeping until it’s time to leave for college. Then a tornado named Emmet Washington enters his life. The double major in math and computer science is handsome, forward, wicked smart, interested in dating Jeremey—and he’s autistic.

But Je
ebook, 268 pages
Published April 7th 2015 by Samhain Publishing, Ltd.
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~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~
Billions & billions of stars


- Watch Carly's Cafe .

- Stream The Blues Brothers (1980) movie with Dan Akroyd and John Belushi (available on Amazon and Comcast On Demand, but not on Netflix). This is Emmet's favorite movie, and we have to support Emmet.

- Stock up on tissues (the soft kind). And wine.

- Set aside several hours to read. Do NOT pass Go; do not collect $200. Give your partner/dog/kid/mother the Big Mean Stink Eye if they interrupt. This is a HOLY experience and should b
Heather K (dentist in my spare time)
Are you ready to read Heidi Cullinan's best work to date? Are you ready to read something so special that you will have to devour it in one sitting? Are you ready to read something so captivating that it will broaden your scope of what M/M can be?

This is my 11th book by Heidi, and it's the first one that I've given 5 stars. That should tell you something.

I have a thing for atypical MCs. Give me a well-written book with a main character that is left from center, and I'm all in. I've read many b
Jul 02, 2021 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
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To those of us living with mental health challenges, we know it simply means your demons never take a day off.

I had my first depressive episode at the age of 11. Who would have thought that an eleven-year-old child would be experiencing suicidal thoughts? I was supposed to be carefree, living life like there's no tomorrow and worrying about what food the cafeteria would be serving us, whether it be cheese sticks or cheeseburgers. Yet there I was, feeling like a burden, wondering what
Jan 14, 2015 rated it really liked it
4 stars. Rating clarification see below. Full review posted March 5, 2015

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Rating clarification
5 stars for Emmet because, frankly, you can't not love the super-duper awesome Train Man and Blues Brothers impersonator Emmet David Washington.
4 stars for the writing.
2 stars for Jeremey with an extra 'e'. I'm sorry to say that I could not warm up to him.
Average rating: 3.66666667. I gave the book a straight 4-star rating…because…Train Man Emmet, right?

Emmet David Washington is nineteen. He’s studying c
Dec 29, 2014 rated it really liked it


“Everyone is different. Nothing in the world is the same as anything else, so how can anyone be normal?”

This book like its two main characters was pure and simple special. It was emotional, at times intense and one of the best YA I’ve read so far. This book is not only for those who love M/M or for those who enjoy reading about first love. No! This book is for everyone who wants to read about something REAL. But “Carry the Ocean” is so much more than that. It’s more than realistic fi
Nick Pageant
Jan 12, 2015 rated it it was amazing
There aren't enough stars in the sky or on Goodreads for this wonderful book! I'm bowled over and I'm crying nothing but happy tears.

I've got nothing, people, nothing at all. I'm just buzzing and walking on the clouds. I want everyone to read this book!

Dani wrote a great review if you need details.

Also, I have to admit that I was entertained by a quadriplegic getting punched in the face - that's good writing!
Kaje Harper
Sep 20, 2014 rated it it was amazing
This book exemplifies one of the things I love most about the M/M genre - the fact that "love is love" encourages us to expand our main characters to include such a wide range of people, many of whom are far from the perfect, gorgeous, alpha-male romance hero. But all of whom deserve a happy ending and can be a joy to watch getting there.

In this book, Jeremy is autistic, and Emmet has clinical anxiety and major depression, and each is a rounded individual with dignity and worth and insight, capa
Mar 21, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorites

What just happened here? I can’t wrap my head around the fact that the author gave us not ONE but TWO very distinct POVs representing Autism and Depression with a mind blowing result.

Dear author,

Thank you so much for this gift! Hats off for all research I believe you have done.
Thank you also for giving us hope, showing that people with mental illness can also be happy.
We could see it’s not easy but with family support, love and medical help it can be achieved.

What a bunch of unique, captivatin
“Remember having a panic attack isn’t a failure, and not having one isn’t a success. Success is not letting the attacks run your life”

5+++stars for the Audiobook

5+++++ stars for the story

-Iggy Toma narrated the hell out of this book and gave each character a distinct voice.

-The story is still great as the first time i read it.

- The writing is steller.

-Jeremey's parents are awful and people who think depression is something that you can just snap out of and that it is a weakness, should ju

“Sometimes I feel like everyone else is carrying a bucket of water but I’m trying to carry an ocean. It's very hard. Sometimes I would rather not carry my ocean, even if it meant I couldn’t be alive.”

The second book of this series will be out this month, so I want to recap Carry the Ocean as if I read it for the first time. This book was exceptional, unexpectedly awesome in spite of that typical start. A story about two neighbours falling in love and conquering their lives isn't something ne
* A Reader Obsessed *
5 Hearts!!

Phenomenal in its scope, this was at times heartbreaking and difficult to read, while at the same time, inspiring and uplifting. Cullinan definitely knows how to bring tough topics to the fore and make them relatable - giving them a life of their own, a voice to be heard, and a right to be seen.

Emmet is different to say the least. His autism renders him a mathematical savant but at the same time, he doesn’t quite process nor communicate as most people do, and thus he’s often mislabeled
Written April 29, 2015

4.8 Huge Stars - Fantastic, Amazing, Wonderful - A new YA favorite of mine

Yay, at last did I join a Monday-buddyread with —always Monday buddyreading— Barbara, Isabel and Eva. I'm so glad I joined them for this book. I'm grateful to be true. - THANKS Ladies!

Carry the Ocean is maybe this springs "talked" about new 'boys loves boys' book. Rightly!! It is the book every friend here recommends and seems to love. ~ So do I now, and I'm "silly smiling and happy-dancing" once aga
* Meli Mel *

♥♥♥ 5 STARS ♥♥♥

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'There is no normal, not really. Not a right and a wrong way to be. But there is belonging.'

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Ahh...this story!! I loved it so freaking much!! I honestly don't even know how to write a review for this because I know whatever I say won't do this story justice.

This story is about a young man named Emmet Washington. He is a very intelligent nineteen year old, who is studying at
When I was in teachers college, the instructor of my Introduction to Special Education course arranged for a guest speaker to come into our class for a presentation. This woman was the mother of not one, but two children with autism spectrum disorder. I remember that this mother gave a very informative and moving presentation, but the nugget that I'll always carry with me from that day was this: her children have autism; they are not autistic.

To anyone else, this might seem like a case of seman
C.G. Drews
This was such a sweet and quietly empowering book and I am all !!! about it! It was just really refreshing to read a disability book where it (a) was respectful, (b) the aim of the book wasn't to cure anyone, but instead to help them cope, and (c) it was super cuuuute.

It does hit you face-first with the dark sides of mental illness, but it actually spends most of the book building the characters. I find books like this usually spend the majority spiralling downwards. But it's 50/50 split and CA
*J* Too Many Books Too Little Time
Dec 04, 2016 rated it really liked it
Shelves: male-action
4.5 Stars!

Lots of great reviews for this one.

I was hesitant to read this one because of it's heavier theme. This one definitely wasn't my "preferred" type of read.

I spent the first half for sure just heart-broken over Jeremey and Emmet. And then I became more hopeful. And then I was just so damn happy for them.

Fantastic writing. Two root-worthy main characters. Lots of tears. But some laughs and smiles too.

Highly recommend.
☆ Todd
Feb 17, 2015 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition

Okay, so this time around, I'm "that guy" , so please hold off the flaming torches and pitch forks until the end. Thanks!

I really *liked* this book. Quite a lot, actually.


By the last page, I was fucking EXHAUSTED.

During the first part of the book, we got some serious insight into what it was like for Emmet to live day to day with his autism. It was very enlightening and I'm a bit ashamed to admit that I laughed as often and as hard as I actually did.

During the same part of t
Why have I not read this before now?

Normally I don't watch TV, but I ended up binge-watching Atypical and The End of the F**king World and then I NEEDED more.
Sometimes I get too caught up in the "perfect" romances (because I love reading about happy endings and people being fucking nice to each other; I need that a lot, with the world as it is right now), but I also think that's why these two shows caught my attention, because they are so off beat and sort of crazy, but they made me laugh, they
Kat Kennedy
This book was so much and more. Other than kind of meandering toward the end, it was a near perfect read for me. Stunning, beautiful and so amazing to read. I highly recommend this book to other readers.
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Let me begin by saying that there is nothing that I can write that would do justice to this book. This book is up there as an all time favorite- best of the best- unforgettable. This was as perfection. In this book we have two main characters who are dealing with heavy struggles in their lives. Emmet, has autism spectrum disorder, and Jeremey, has depression and anxiety. Subject's heavy and at times difficult to read. There was some ugly crying for me in this book. It was so heartbre
Apr 13, 2015 rated it it was amazing
Re-read March 19 2016

Still so good.

Wow. This was awesome!

I especially LOVED how it was emphasized over and over again that there is no normal. That is so true! What is normal? No such thing exists. Everyone is different, some just more than others.


Emmet, autistic. Jeremey, depressed. And they were so good for each other.

Emmet is autistic, he is also brilliant. When he sees his new neighbors he just knows he has to get to know Jeremey. Jeremey, who looks so sad all the time. They immediately hit
Updated 06/01/2017 for Audiobook narrated by Iggy Toma.

I was really impressed with Iggy Toma's performance. I thought he did a good job portraying Emmet's ("almost robotic") and Jeremey's (sometimes anxious) particular tones of voice.

I loved the audio. Sure, it's definitely an extension of the love I feel for this story (which topped my faves of 2015 and remains one of my favorites of all time), but I think even if you hadn't read the story and only listened this still completely works.

I was a
cal ☁️
Jul 10, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorites
one of the best books that i have ever read. i wish i could say more than that. this story broke me first then mended me.
Trisha Harrington
This is not my first book by Heidi Cullinan. I love Dance With Me and it's easily one of my favorite books. But this one is hands down my favorite of hers to date. I'm not sure I can properly describe how much I love this book, these characters and this story. It's amazing. Beautiful. Emotional. It made me feel.

Jeremey broke my heart. He suffered so much. His parents didn't understand, they didn't want to understand either. They wanted him to be "normal". They wanted the perfect son. The son the
Mirjana **DTR - Down to Read**

***5 Stars***

Easily one of my FAVORITE reads of the year!

If I can urge you to read any book this year, this would be it.

I don't know how to adequately write a review that could even touch on the blinding beauty that is this hopeful and thought provoking book.

Everybody needs somebody to love. I'm an everybody. I get a somebody.

This book deals with autism, severe depression and social anxiety in very real and honest ways. It could have been preachy, but it 100% is not. Heidi Cullina
Dec 09, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: m-m, 2015
4.5 Stars

There is no normal, not really. Not a right and a wrong way to be. But there is belonging.

This story is the journey of two people who are dealing with serious issues, Emmet who has autism spectrum disorder and Jeremey (yes with an extra e) who has major depress disorder. One needs order and rules and don’t know emotions, the other one reads emotions, has anxiety and can be overwhelmed by life so easily. The story talks about the hard life of them and the difficulty of their lives. The d
Emma Sea
Jan 17, 2015 rated it really liked it
Shelves: to-be-released
couldn't put it down until i finished it. made me cry and laugh.

Dani's review said it all.

Mar 24, 2015 rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: Everyone.
Everybody, needs somebody/everybody needs somebody to love” The Blues Brothers.

Reading this amazing book I was always just a sniff away from a good cry. How I actually managed to see what I was reading I don't know, because for pretty much the entirety of the book my vision was blurred with tears constantly welling in my eyes, but as much as I was teetering on the edge, I also found myself grinning like a fool; delighting in the eccentricity and magnetism of 'Train Man' Emmet David Washingt

I am normal. I belong. I have a friend who can kick ass from a wheelchair. I live independently and get good grades. I’m an excellent lover. Like I said. I’m awesome. I’m Emmet David Washington. Train Man. The best autistic Blues Brother on the block.

This was mind-blowing, tender, poignant, gut-wrenching beautiful, heart-breaking, emotionally satisfying,… I could go on and on until I’ll run out of adjectives.
“It’s like Elwood Blues says: everybody needs somebody to love. I’m an everybody.
☆☆☆~Bev's World of Books~☆☆☆
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Has gone straight onto my Awesome Audio Narration bookshelf, I think it's the best thing Iggy's done [that I've listened to]....other than Nowhere Ranch and the Love Lessons series. His interpretation of Emmet was spot on....slightly stilted, quirky and with underlying humour. Jeremey was also wonderful, softly spoken, tremulous at times when he got really nervous. David was exactly right....well, let's cut to the chase shall we?? Just everything about it was magnificent. An outstanding
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