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Now I See You: A Memoir

3.79  ·  Rating details ·  2,257 ratings  ·  299 reviews
At nineteen years old, Nicole C. Kear's biggest concern is choosing a major--until she walks into a doctor's office in midtown Manhattan and gets a life-changing diagnosis. She is going blind, courtesy of an eye disease called retinitis pigmentosa, and has only a decade or so before Lights Out. Instead of making preparations as the doctor suggests, Kear decides to carpe di ...more
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Published July 14th 2015 by St. Martin's Griffin (first published June 24th 2014)
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Connie Curtis I think it's more for adults. She uses foul language enough and the story of not for children.
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Now I See You is a memoir written by Nicole C. Kear. Fresh into adulthood, Nicole was diagnosed with retinitis pigmentosa, a degenerative eye disease. In her book, she discusses life, work, love, motherhood, and her emotional journey in general since receiving her prognosis of blindness within ten years’ time. One thing I loved about Nicole’s story is the humor she adds while discussing random experiences that people with healthy vision often take for granted. Although humor is likely her own persona
I could only imagine what I would do if I was ever given the same diagnosis Kear was given. I would run around looking at all and everything I could. Plus camp out at my local library and buy every book that even peaked my interest in a tiny bit. Losing your eye sight has got to be one of the scariest senses to lose if to lose any. This memoir was written in great detail and I believe very honest. Nice job!
May 14, 2014 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition

Thank you to Goodreads Giveaways and St. Martin's Press for the chance to discover this book.

Self-deprecating, unflinchingly raw and ultimately quite moving, this memoir was surprisingly hilarious and devastating at the same time. Given a life-changing diagnosis and told that she is ineluctably going blind, a kick-ass and gritty nineteen-year-old decides to literally "rage, rage against the dying of the light" and fight the odds with all that she can muster.

An incredible story of st
Connie G
I would never have guessed that a memoir about going blind from a degenerative retinal disease could be so full of humor. At the age of 19, Nicole Kear found out she had retinitis pigmentosa, an eye disease where she would first lose her peripheral vision, and eventually be blind in 10-15 years. With a "seize the day" attitude, she decided to travel, have a series of one-night stands, finish a degree in drama at Yale, and search for acting jobs in California and New York. She only told her famil ...more
ARC for review.

Blindness. A fascinating topic. However until I read the incredible [book: Blindness}
by Jose Saramago (which was more dystopian versus blindness-centered) my experiences with blindness in literature were pretty much limited to Mary Ingalls and the Helen Keller biography that I believe every 1970s female elementary student used for a book report (I swear the only biographies with female subjects in my elementary library were that one and one on Amelia Earhart, so I'm defini
May 01, 2014 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2014-reads, arc
Now I See You: A Memoir is the story of a young woman who is diagnosed with Retinitis Pigmentosa, a degenerative eye disease that causes her to slowly go blind.

I loved this book. I almost didn't start it, because I wasn't really in the mood for anything too serious and I was afraid it might be kind of a somber read. I was so wrong! I thoroughly enjoyed reading about her life. I was fascinated to hear about her struggles and how she would eventually overcome them. I laughed out loud at her very relata
Carole (Carole's Random Life in Books)
This review can also be found at Carole's Random Life

I received an advance reader edition of this book from St. Martin's Press and Net Galley for the purpose of providing an honest review.

4 Stars

I do not read this type of book very often. I am really more of a fiction reader because my reading goal is simply to be entertained. Every once in a while a book outside of my usual fiction reading catches my attention as this book did. A book that tells the story not of so
Jun 02, 2014 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: arc, netgalley
First, the positive.

Thank you NetGalley and St. Martin's Press for the eARC of this book for me to read and review.

Now for the negative.

I don't do self-depracating humor. This book is full of it. It makes me completely non-sympathetic and negative towards the author, who obviously had a very difficult medical diagnosis thrust on her at a very young age.

There was a ton of repetition in the book of her being afraid to face her diagnosis and to DO anything posit
Most folks have deal-breakers for reading matter: gratuitous violence, F-bombs, and the like. One of mine is a memoir where the couple, or in this case protagonist, gets all TMI about a need to have kids, or in this case, another one.

"In the middle of our carnal embrace, David paused for a prophylactic and I stopped him. 'Don't use one,' I whispered." I actually stopped reading early next chapter with her telling her toddler son, "It doesn't hurt. I'm just working hard to grow a baby in my bell
Kimberly McCreight
Hilarious and profoundly heartwarming, Now I See You is about living under the weight of a life-altering secret and finding the courage to brave your own truth. You’ll be drawn in instantly by Nicole C. Kear’s witty worldview and compelling voice, but it’s her indefatigable spirit that truly keeps the pages flipping. Ms. Kear’s triumphs will inspire you. And Now I See You will change the way you see the world.
Kathy Cunningham
Nicole C. Kear's NOW I SEE YOU is a funny, sad, terrifying, and uplifting memoir about her very personal battle with a degenerative eye disease. Nicole was nineteen when a doctor diagnosed her with retinitis pigmentosa (RP), an untreatable genetic condition that would render her blind within fifteen years. She went from being a normal college student fretting over things like boyfriends and disappointing jobs to worrying about what would happen to the rest of her life - would her condition mean ...more
Judy Collins
A special thank you to St. Martin's Press and NetGalley for an ARC in exchange for an honest review.

NOW I SEE YOU, by Nichole C. Kear, an uplifting, emotional, and humorous journey—a memoir about a courageous young woman and her personal battle with a degenerative eye disease—retinitis pigmentosa (RP).

She was told by her doctor, no one in her family has it. Essentially the photoreceptor cells in her retina, the ones that turn light into electrical impulses for the brain are dying. The night vision goes
May 01, 2014 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: memoir
In fourth grade, my class had a discussion about whether we would rather be deaf or blind. If asked today, I'd give the same answer I did then: I'd rather be deaf. Since I was born deaf, I don't know any different, but that could be a blessing.

In Nicole Kear's case, she was born with sight, so she knew what she would be missing. But I can't imagine being in this world never having seen any of it. And if I had been born hearing and lost it later in life, that would be a tough adjustment, as it w
Jan 22, 2015 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I'm so glad I read this! It's a funny, fresh and frank memoir of self-acceptance-- in Nicole Kear's case, accepting and navigating vision loss. At 19, she was diagnosed with retinitis pigmentosa, an inherited eye disease causing gradual retinal degeneration, eventually leading to blindness. She takes the news as a shameful secret to hide, and also as a personal dare: seize the day! Forget her doctor's exhortations: don't drink, don't smoke, stay close to home. She travels, studies at clown colle ...more
Nov 22, 2014 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I liked this book. But then again, I love memoirs. I am always curious about how other people live their lives. And this one is particularly interesting: The author is a mother of three who has Retinitis Pigmentosa, a degenerative eye disease. She is diagnosed at age 19, and this is her story of denial and refusing to accept her diagnosis and its increasing limitations as she gets older. She is smart and funny, and so is her writing. Never in the story does the reader feel sorry for her, and whi ...more
Apr 21, 2015 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
This book was a train wreck. That's all I have to say!
Aug 05, 2015 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Mostly I laughed my way through the book. On a couple of occasions I reached for tissues (especially the Green Eggs and Ham part). Kear's story is very captivating and one that will stay with me.
Oct 25, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Very funny and entertaining. I listened to the audio book. Lots of unnecessary swearing which was too bad. I had to be very careful that my kids were not within earshot.
Sep 16, 2014 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Having the same same eye condition as Nicole Kear, I was intrigued to read this book. In fact, a coworker brought it to my attention and suggested we purchase it for the library (I am responsible for purchasing books for our local library). Anyway, reading this book was like looking at my life experiences in may ways. One of the things about slowly losing your vision is that you adapt to the unnoticeable changes along the way so there really is no reason to tell anyone - you just do things a lit ...more
Jessica Jeffers
Aug 26, 2014 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: biography-memoir
When she was just nineteen, Nicole Kear was diagnosed with an eye disease that would gradually rob her of her vision and would likely leave her blind within a decade. At first, she responds the way you might expect a nineteen-year-old to respond: by living it up, determined to experience as much as she can while she can.

As she's closing in on her 30th birthday, Nicole is a new mom with a significantly decreased field of vision. She's trying to teach her kids to read words that she herself can n

Memoirs are not exactly a go-to genre for me but after reading Nicole Kear’s Huffington Post article, Reading After Dark, and some of her blog posts I felt compelled to pick up her book. I’m happy to say Now I See You was all I wanted it to be and more. It almost feels wrong to say this in response to a memoir about going blind but this was one of the most entertaining and fun books I’ve read in a long time. Kear has a gift with words and her writing style lets her personality shine thr
Liz Willard
This was a tough one for me. As a human being and a mom of young kids, I really wanted to read this book, to get insight into what seems like one of the scariest things that can happen to you - going blind. And this book will give you that... sort of. It was difficult for me to relate to the author and her continued insistence on refusing to tell people about her deteriorating sight, despite pratfalls, inability to drive, and complete loss of a social life. Her secret causes problems in her marr ...more
Jamie McQuiggan
Jul 22, 2014 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2014
I liked her writing style and voice - it was interesting and light and touching. It's a quick read and I enjoyed it... mostly.

I had some serious problems with HER (like her handling of her disability, and her family's too... honestly.) and I'm not sure how that should impact the star rating. I am horrified when I think about how her denial impacted the safety of others... not just her kids and herself but society at large as she was driving at night to avoid having to admit she couldn't see at
Jul 08, 2014 rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
A two star rating for "Now I See You: A Memoir" is a gift. I know that the author, Nicole, is a real person who got a bad break in life. But frankly, her whining coupled with her refusal to ask for help got tiresome. Everyone struggles - honestly, I have depression that makes it challenging to get out of bed each and everyday - but I power on and have become a very accomplished person with many successes in my life. It seems like Nicole spent wayyyyyyyyyyyy too much time crying into her coffee c ...more
Gisselle Malespin Estevez
I decided to read this book because it's a memoir of a girl name Nicole that is diagnosed with and eye desease called Retinitis Pigmentosa, a desease that causes people to loose their ability to see. It is a desease that runs in my father's side. I wanted to know more of this and how this girl's life is changed when she was diagnosed at the age of 19. Its incredible how her life changes and how she starts to view life in a different way, living it like it was the last time she could see. It's am ...more
Aizel (One Page at a Time) Macaldo
I read an ARC. :)

I loved it! I don't read memoirs much because I'm afraid I might find them boring and dragging, but not Nicole's memoir, Now I See You.

I really liked her style of writing. I did not find any boring parts at all. Despite her RP and inner struggles, she was hopeful. Yes she was in denial for a long time, but her love for her children won. The fact that she was able to write her story in a light manner made me admire her. She's humorous and very inspiring. :)

I also li
Now I See You: A Memoir, by Nicole Kear

Kear's memoir of how she deals with her devastating Retinitis Pigmentosa diagnosis at age 19 is often laugh-out-loud funny. She discusses her almost pathological resistance to her illness and much of the book details how she refuses to come to terms with her impending blindness. Even as a young mother, Kear is still unable to share her misfortune and ask for much needed help, often putting herself and her children in danger. This was where the b
Jan 26, 2015 rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: memoir, humor
I wish there were half stars- 2.5 for this. I found the writing easy to read, and the humor made the topic very approachable. I was at 3 stars, but I got frustrated reading over and over about how she wouldn't share her diagnosis of eventual blindness with anyone other than a handful of people thereby bringing on so much extra drama and hardship. It got old. The humor failed to cover for the tedium of reading, yet again, that she hadn't told so and so that she was quite literally almost blind an ...more
Jun 04, 2014 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This memoir was honest, funny and so thought provoking. Imagine being a young woman who is progressively, slowly, inexorably going blind. She is in denial for a long time, and really, who wouldn't be? But she comes out to confront her realities, and tell her story, and offer hope to others even though there is no cure for RP.
Dec 12, 2014 rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: w-book-club
(I skimmed through the last 1/2 of the book) This memoir had so much potential, but felt short. The author is witty and a good writer so i don't understand why she felt like she had to resort to so much profanity. I'm not a prude but it got to be too much and made her writing feel immature.
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Nicole is the author of the new memoir Now I See You (St. Martin's), chosen by People magazine and Amazon as a Best New Book, and by Glamour, Redbook, Fitness and Martha Stewart Living as a Must-Read. Her work appears in the New York Times, Good Housekeeping, Psychology Today, Parents, American Baby, as well as Babble. Salon and xoJane. Her column, “Dispatches from Babyville,” has been running con ...more
“Sticking your nose in a book might seem like the very opposite of grabbing life by the balls, but reading had always been one of my great loves, and it was one of the things I was most terrified to lose. Sure, there were always audiobooks, but the holy communion of bringing your eyes to paper and sweeping them across the page, left to right, left to right, left to right, the rhythm of that dance, the quiet of it, the sound of the page turning, the look of crinkled covers stained with the coffee you were drinking when you read that chapter that changed your life--you didn't get any of that when listening to an audiobook, and I wanted as much of that as I could get, while I still could.” 3 likes
“Despite the fact that I hadn't been a child in a decade, my mother still acted like the deed to my life was in her name and I was just some renter she had to hand the keys over to who'd probably fuck the place up beyond repair.” 2 likes
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