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Jamie Godwin thought she was ready. She'd fantasized and planned, daydreamed about bringing her wildest fantasy to fruition. When her wish to become a man for a day comes true, Jamie steps into a world of new possibilities - a world that threatens everything she thought she knew about herself and pushes the boundaries of friendship past where even she dared to dream.

Warning: This novella contains crazy best friends, romance novel logic, impossible wishes, spicy Thai food, wish-fulfillment fantasy, internet argument rehashes, bathroom cruising, a sexy guitar player, movie spoilers and a love that defies physical form. And that's just the first half. But it's not anyone's definition of a traditional romance story.

89 pages, ebook

First published May 9, 2014

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Sara Winters

19 books243 followers
I read. I write. I talk too much and don't blog nearly as much as I should. And my muse consists of several voices in my head with a moody ringleader. Don't be scared of the voices. They mean well (most of the time).

I write romance, erotic romance, fantasy, mainstream fiction and the rare spiritual fiction.

You can find me at my website, facebook (profile)/ page, and twitter.


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How I rate books:

5 stars - Loved. With a passion. These are books I probably stayed up all night to finish. They made me cry, laugh, stop breathing or a combination of the three.

4 stars - Liked a great deal, but something (maybe something small) kept me from giving it another star. Still amazing books.

3 stars - Some of these I like well enough, but don't love. Some I have mixed feelings about, but don't want to give 2 stars.

2 stars - I tried to like it. I may have forced myself to finish it. Major issues with plot, characters, editing or all of the above kept me from rating higher.

1 star - I'm trying to stay away from giving these out, but these are for books I felt wasted my time and/or money. There may be a few I didn't finish, but those are rare. Mostly these are books that not only didn't resonate with me, but I hated them after a certain point for multiple reasons.

Unrated - I wrote it.

Or, the book was unusual in some way (characters or plot). I don't want to give it a low star rating because the writing wasn't bad, it just didn't appeal to my particular tastes.

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Profile Image for Lisa.
2,583 reviews109 followers
December 25, 2014
This book was given to me for free by the author an honest review.

It's strange because my friends here on GR and I were having the same discussion the other day. How would we spend the day if we were suddenly able to become men for 24 hours and that is the premise of this book.

Jamie, a girl, wants to experience what it would be like to be a man for 24 hours. One morning she does indeed wake up male. Her goal is to find out what it would be like to have gay sex. She enlists her gay friend, Brian, to guide her through the maze of being male.

The book is laugh out loud funny in parts, especially when Jamie has to use the men's room and doesn't know the etiquette whilst standing at the urinal. To look or not look and the enema before they go out.

Jamie becoming male, sends Brian into a spin about his sexuality and whether he is actually bi.
At the end of the evening, Jamie doesn't meet a man at the club and ends up back at Brian's where they end up in bed and Jamie experiences gay sex both as a top and a bottom.
However, when she wakes up in the morning she is a woman again.

I loved this book. I think it addressed what a lot of women wonder about what it is like to be a man. I would like a sequel though to find out what happens to Jamie and Brian in the future.
Profile Image for Anna Goerlitz.
950 reviews41 followers
May 31, 2016
3.5 stars

I received a free copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.

Warning: The following may contain spoilers. Couldn't get everything I wanted to say out without them! So, yeah, sorry!

umm... This is difficult. This was certainly unique and different. I am not sure... There is homoerotic content in this book, but I am not sure I would classify it as MM... so, yeah... difficult...

Jamie and Brian are in their mid twenties and have been friends for years. Both are single and oh yeah, Jamie is a girl by the way... Brian is a boy and gay. But Jamie is definitely a girl. With boobs and flirty pouty girlish behaviour.

Jamie reads gay romance and erotica and watches gay porn and - like we all do - wonders what it would feel like to be a man and gay. And yes, her wonders about this is mainly about the sex. What does sex feel like, if you are a man?

After a night out with Brian, her wish somehow comes true and she wakes up as a man. This story revolves around the 24 hours Jamie spends being a gay man, trying to navigate with the help from best friend Brian.

I am very unsure how to rate this story. It was different certainly and had some interesting pointers and questions about stereotypes and behaviour, both in gender and sexuality.

Jamie creates a bit of a stir whereever she goes, as her mindset has obviously not changed and she is still her pouty flirty girly self on the inside, used to getting better service, reduced prices and smiles along the way if she uses her looks and her boobs on the men she encounters. She doesn't get into conflict, but she may as well have...

I liked the book and I thought it had some interesting points. I enjoyed Brians' rant about women seeing gay men as objects, walking talking sex toys, and he may be right up to a point. But this is a very multi faceted point. Obviously I can only speak for myself, but to me it's really about safety I think - in real life that is. Gay men are safe! I can be as outrageously sex-kittenish as I like, I know he is not going to think I was "asking for it"... Because he has no interest, ergo he is safe.

Porn? well it's hot. And porn is sexual objectification, that is what it is. No matter your gender or orientation. Straight men watches lesbian porn for the same reason straight women watch gay porn. Romance books? The social stigma adds another layer to most of the stories that makes them so much more interesting than MF romance - and again, the sex is hot!
But the fact that I get extra mushy and go aaaawww if I see men kiss out in public has nothing to do with sex, I am not sure I can explain it, but it makes me warm and fuzzy inside. It makes me happy. Love is love and it's wonderful to witness.

So yes, Brian may have a point about the objectification and I did actually enjoy his rant - and I kind of felt that Jamie deserved it at the time. But realistically speaking: She only had 24 hours to work with. There was no way she was going to be able to fully experience what it means to be a man and gay in our society. So I can't really blame her for just wanting to embrace the things she could experience: namely the sex.

The ending ruined the book a bit for me unfortunately. I didn't feel it was right. After Jamie's monologue about taking the chance and accepting what you can have - for however short a time - it felt wrong to leave the book thinking that there was a chance between the two down the line... I would have much preferred if that was it: One encounter, a once in a lifetime opportunity which they took and yes it will leave them changed, but a long the way it would make them grow closer as friends.

Sex and love are two very different things. The fact that Brian loves her does not make him straight or even bi. To insinuate that he could change sexual preference due to love makes the story what? Straight for you? As I said in the beginning, I was having a hard time defining this.

But whatever it is, I did enjoy it and found it an interesting and recommendable read.



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307 reviews
September 6, 2016
I was given a free copy of this book by the author in exchange for an honest review.

When I first read the blurb for this novella I was like hmmm not sure if this is something I want to read. Mainly because I couldn't figure out how it could be classified as m/m romance. Well it is, with a nice little twist!

Oh this was a really good novella and I really wish it was a full length novel; I would like to know what happened the next day.

This story was funny and very thought provoking in my opinion a must read for female lovers of m/m romance. I know for myself when reading some m/m romances I've felt or thought the same way Jamie has...what would it be like to be a man...a gay man. Jamie's best friend Brian tries to convince her it isn't as easy as she thinks it easy.

This story takes us through Jamie's day as a man. She learned flirting like she did as a woman isn't going to get her what she wants and that picking up a guy for a one night stand isn't as easy as it sounds. She also test the boundaries of her and Brian's friendship.

I would love for Ms. Winters to write a follow up to this novella because I really want to know what happens to Jamie and Brian.
Profile Image for Gaby.
339 reviews5 followers
July 24, 2014
3.5 Stars

I received a free copy of this book in exchange for an honest review in the "Don't Buy My Love" in the M/M Romance group.

I have to say that I actually liked this book. However I have a bit of trouble with fully placing this book in the M/M Romance category. I'll try to explain myself a little better.

This book introduces us to a girl called Jamie, who is an avid M/M Romance reader, and gay porn fan - While I was reading this book I couldn't help but identify myself A LOT with her, and I dare say that the same thing will happen to any woman around here who reads this book, and read M/M.

To all my girls around here: What would you do if you could be a man for 24 hours?. I confess that I've thought about that possibility MANY times. Well, this book revolves around precisely that.

Jamie makes a wish. Her wish is to be a man for 24 hours... Turns out that her wish comes true. One morning she wakes up to find that she is, indeed, a man. After the shock (and the excitement) she calls her best friend Brian, who happens to be gay. They are very close and have been for a very, very long time. Brian pays her a visit and confirms that his friend has really turned into a man.

I have to say that the story has some really, extremely funny moments. I found myself laughing out loud more than once, which is something I widely appreciated.

Anyhow. Jamie decides that since she's got this golden opportunity, she's going to try and experience as much as she can in her new-but-not-for-long body. She knows that the magic will wear off eventually, so she makes up her mind and decides to go after a man and hook up, just for the sake of experiencing. When she voices that thought to Brian he gets annoyed. He's not happy. As a reader I found it particularly difficult to face Brian's thoughts, and I couldn't help but wonder (not for the first time, to be honest) if Brian's thoughts actually reflected a reality within the gay men community. I don't wanna say more, you'll have to read it.

Long story short, they go out and Brian helps Jamie to find a suitable partner so she can experience what she wants. Turns out that things don't go well and in the last minute Jamie simply couldn't do it.
She goes back to Brian's flat. In the end, Jamie gets that experience with the only man she really wanted. That man was Brian. The only problem is that in the aftermath they both confirm/realize that their feelings for each other might run deeper than they thought. The thing is: nothing lasts forever, and Jamie wakes up the next morning to her old self. She's back to being a woman and they now have to face the changes in their relationship.

The book ends without a real closing to the story, which makes me thing that we might be getting a follow up here. I wouldn't mind.

So going back to my original comment on whether I could place this or not in the M/M Romance category, I'd say that yes, partly. Physically there were two men there, but the feelings and emotions that really developed all through the story were between a man and a woman.





Profile Image for Veronica of V's Reads.
1,528 reviews41 followers
May 24, 2014
I received a copy of this book via the Goodreads' Don't Buy My Love program in exchange for an honest review.

Jamie is a 25y/o woman who adores gay men. She loves reading gay romance and watching gay films--not only porn. Her best friend Brian is a gay man. They have been close ever since she jumped into a mob of kids bashing Brian in high school. Now, ten years later, Brian is confused about his feelings for Jamie--he loves her dearly, and wishes he could meet a man just like her. Jamie has an infatuation with gay men, and Brian in particular. But, it's more than that. She wishes she could experience life as a man--a gay man.

When given the chance, Jamie/James opts to make the most of it.

I really loved the intricacies of this story. For a change it's not an instalove--nor is the MC irresistible. Jamie/James is almost ridiculous as a gay man, because s/he still has all her female mannerisms. Brian coaches her, but he's struggling with his own attraction--know that acting on the impulse to have Jamie/James will only mess up his head further where their friendship is concerned.

I loved Brian's insight regarding the fetishization of gay men in our culture. Scenes in the gay bar of Jamie/James trying to pick up a man were bittersweet. I was so glad that there was some happiness, but the realistic ending was, again, bittersweet. Kinda like life, we can't always get what we want--and maybe Brian and Jamie will work it out. I hope so!
57 reviews
December 31, 2014
A free copy of this book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.

First off, I must say I don’t really think this is an M/M book. Why? The main protagonist is a woman who makes a wish to be a man for a day. Hence, she is not really male, though she has all the man parts. So yes, this book did rouse certain conflicted thoughts, but regardless of that, I LOVED IT.

Five stars is the highest I can go, but I’d give it ten if there was such an option. I absolutely, utterly adore this book. I don’t think I have ever enjoyed a read as much as I enjoyed this one. Once I started, I couldn’t put it down. It’s a fast read but it served a feast on every page. It’s funny, it’s witty, it’s a little illogical and very sexy. I honestly cannot come up with a single thing about this book that I didn’t like.

Sometimes in M/M romance stories there’s the annoying, nosy, pushy female best friend of one of the gay main characters. That character type is a bit of a cliché but at times necessary. Jamie is that annoying, nosy, pushy female best friend. IMO she likes to think she knows what’s best for her gay best friend Brian. I think she genuinely wants to help, just that her view of things is light years away from Brian’s.

Jamie’s world seems to revolve around everything gay and male, whether it’s prying on Brian’s social life (or the lack of it) or feasting herself with M/M books and movies and then one night, magically, she becomes a man. It’s after this strange incident that the story really kicks into gear and the reader gets to see Jamie wobble her first shaky steps as a man thinking like a woman.

Regardless of the some difficulties down the road, Jamie’s determined to take full advantage of this once in a lifetime opportunity. She drags Brian along for the ride, apparently oblivious to the fact that Brian does not want to witness her using her newly-found manly goodies to widen her personal horizons. Turns out their relationship isn’t quite as simple and easy as she’s always thought and the complexity of true feelings rocks her world.

The ending leaves a lot of loose ends. It’s clearly stated this is now how their story ends, and I really really really wish the author would write either a full-length novel where we’d get to see what happens to Jamie and Brian or a sequel. Either way, the way this book ended, it cannot be the end of their story. It just can't. I need more.
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1,739 reviews70 followers
June 1, 2014
Contains Spoilers!

I hate giving out low reviews for books that I read so I will review it just to explain why it wasn't for me.

I liked the concept. I would imagine most women have wondered what it would be like to be a man for a day. The fun you could have with a different set of genitals and how other men and women may appear to you.

When Jamie makes this wish it actually comes true, she wakes up with what she thinks are monthly cramps but discovers a flat chest, facial hair and a penis! All she wants to do as a he is to go out have some fun and some hot man sex.

The complications arise when she discovers that her best friend who she loves dearly and he also loves her has been crushing on her. This is where is got awry for me. Brian is a gay man. GAY. Not bi, not bi - curious but very definitely gay.

They go out have fun and before you know it is evening and they are hitting a nightclub so Jamie can find a man to work out her deepest fantasy before changing back to a woman. Men flirt with Jamie all night but nothing feels right. Brian leaves, Jamie follows and after a little bit of soul searching they end up in bed together.

The sex is everything Jamie and Brian had dreamt and wished for BUT and this is a huge but for me and where IMO the story fails. The next morning Jamie is back to being a female and the story ends where they stare into each others eyes and are convinced because they love each other that this is not the end.

This just left me uncomfortable. No matter how much they love each other Brian is still a gay man. At no point, no matter how much he loves his best female friend, has he eluded to anything else. It gives the idea that you can pick your sexuality if you love someone enough and I just cannot believe that. Sexuality is not chosen.
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2,295 reviews33 followers
April 7, 2015
This is.... different. And weird. and WTF with the ending?!
Warning::: Woman transformed into man for ONE day and see things through a guy's eyes

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2,160 reviews37 followers
February 1, 2015
I still don't know how I feel about this book. It was both beautiful and kind of disturbing. But while I didn't love it, I sure did think about it and probably will continue to do so for quite a while.
Profile Image for Karen.
236 reviews7 followers
January 18, 2015
This was an odd little story about a straight woman and her gay BFF. Jamie is a believer that everyone needs to have that someone special, and she has been looking for someone for her friend Brian. She has been reading gay romances, and watching gay porn for her own amusement, which leads her to have a discussion with him one night about how she wishes that she knew what it was like to have a penis and be a man. She casually makes a wish on an eyelash that she could be a man for a day, and wakes up in the morning, yes, a man.

She immediately has to share this with Brian, as he is the only possible one who will believe her. And she tells him that she has only one day, and wants to experience being a man and using that penis, specifically to top another man (I found it interesting that at no time did she voice any interest in having sex with a woman). They go out for coffee, then for lunch, where she hits on other men, or gets hit on herself, and there are some interesting new insights she has about gender roles, how men and women use their sexuality for gain or manipulation, and how the whole genre of gay romance written by women for women is quite artificial and possibly demeaning to gay men. That part I enjoyed. But Jamie as a man or a woman seems to be incredibly shallow and self-centered and despite being aware that all her talk of a casual hookup with a man is distressing to Brian, she proceeds with her plans anyway. He admits that he thinks he may be in love with her, but is 100% gay so had no interest in being with her sexually, until this moment.

So I was left thinking WTF?? Because of the discussions Jamie and Brian had during the day, I thought this was going to be a book to enlighten the characters and the readers about the artificiality of gender roles, and how two people could be platonically in love, etc, and this was the end? Clearly Jamie learned nothing from her day as a man other than foreskins are fun. Or maybe the whole point of the book is that Jamie always has been and always will be shallow and selfish, and Brian is a masochistic doormat who will never move on to something better. Either way, a disappointing read even with an interesting premise.
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636 reviews28 followers
May 31, 2014
I got this for free in exchange for an honest review.

This book was unusual but really good I really felt the struggle of Jamie who wishes to be a man for one day adjusting to the changes. I thought it hilarious that she tried to do things like she always did.

When Brian, who is her best friend, and Jamie get together for sex it is hot and romantic.

My major problem with it was that there were words missing and other grammatical errors that distracted yet not bad enough to throw me off stride.
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1,757 reviews12 followers
August 4, 2016
I received a copy of this book via the Goodreads' Don't Buy My Love program in exchange for an honest review.

This is a must read for female fans of M/M romance. It gives you a completely different perspective.

This story starts out with best friends, Jamie (F) and Brian (M), sharing dinner. After Jamie's wish to be a man for a day comes true it is Jamie's goal to experience sex with a man.

I really enjoyed this story and would love to see a continuance of it in the future.
Profile Image for Penumbra.
883 reviews7 followers
June 6, 2014
I was given this book by the author through the M/M Romance Group’s ‘Don’t Buy My Love’ program for an honest review. This story is told in first person through the eyes of Jamie Godwin, a girl who gets her wish to experience life as a male for a day. I’d classify this as a realistic, contemporary story with a magical twist. Jamie has a best gay friend, Brian Cook, who’s she crazy about and he for her. This is the story of what happens when Jamie gets her wish and how it affects their relationship.




Profile Image for Dee.
1,952 reviews46 followers
December 25, 2014
Interesting concept. Well enough written but nothing outstanding.

Recommended for a light easy read; a bit of an escapism. One person's idea of what it would be like to live as the opposite sex for a day.
Profile Image for Angel.
450 reviews1 follower
January 3, 2015
As a woman and someone who is bisexual, I am uncertain just exactly how I feel about this story. I can't fault the writing, though.
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