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260 pages, ebook
First published July 26, 2014
Perfect love does not exist. Love is one big imperfection.
Redemption is not meant for men like me. Only a constant stream of retribution is what lies in my future.
I’m breaking rule after rule. I’m taking too many chances. Everything I do is for her. For Fallon.
In this vital moment, we stare at each other, both realizing our entire relationship has changed forever. Never will be go back to just being Luca and Fallon.
He whispers dirty words in Italian as he takes me hard.Mmmm. Yes please. Don’t get me wrong, I love lots of sexy times in my books, but this had a great balance. It didn’t overtake the story. I rated this a 4-4.5 instead of a 5 only because the beginning started off a little slow for me. Otherwise, I had no issues. It was a fantastic story!
I’m not deserving of her love, but I need it. I want it. I will not give up on us.















"Love must not suffocate, but breathe on its own."

"You never know what truly goes on behind someone's façade."

"I will do anything to keep her. I'm prepared to do anything to protect her."
"I’m breaking rule after rule. I’m taking too many chances. Everything I do is for her. For Fallon."

"I'm not deserving of her love, but I need it. I want it. I will not give up on us."






I finish my salad and order another tea. My tea arrives. «Thank you.» I don’t want to stop reading, so I don’t even look up at the waitress.
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«Fallon, always with your face in the book. Do you know how sexy that is?»
I want in that apartment because my instinct is screaming to check it out. «I’ll just grab a bottle of water, and I’ll be on my way.»Forget the fact that this happened not even 30% into the story, the chick was in the neighborhood and was thirsty, that automatically gave her the right to barge in without calling him first.
»I crave her presence after I leave our fucked up world at the end of the day. She’s given me back some of my humanity, but I’m also conflicted sometimes - conflicted between being Luca, her ‘normal’ boyfriend, and Luca the underboss. How long can this go on? Whit her I can just be.» I lay my white towel on the bench lying on it.Ah, so emotional and so dramatic.
»I bash the dough continually, which is fun. This could be a good anger control. When you’re angry, just bash some dough. I laugh at my own thought.»
I’m trained to notice everything unusual.It sounds like he wants a pat on a back for that.
I wore my sunglasses to prevent her from seeing the alarm in my eyes.First of all, she walked by the place by a complete accident, so there was no way he could’ve been prepared to see her. That’s why him saying that he wore his sunglasses to prevent her from seeing the alarm in his eyes is a complete and utter bullish*t. Plus, he lied to her about his whereabouts that day.
My gun was in the inner pocket of my suit jacket, and I aimed it at father Eli, giving him two weeks to report back.Suits are usually made out of a pretty thin material, and the pockets are in the upper left or right side of the suit jacket. I can only imagine how weird he looked, pointing a gun from that angle. Unless the suit is custom made, then the inner pocked could have been somewhere around his waist. But even then, he would have looked like he was having a boner while talking to a priest, because the gun is not a small object to carry around.
Here is the thing, she is not trying to kill him, she simply walks to where he stands.
«I’ll help you into a cab,» he pronounces,»
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»Luca provides me a bored look.»
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«I close in on him standing next to the kitchen island.»
He lifts his head and looks down his nose to stare at me, shocked and amused.»
»Our dance has blown away the tension in his body.»
»He has a scar on his right eyebrow - find out who he is.»
«I will do it today,» Adriano confirms."
»Fallon gets up quickly and bolts to the bedroom, almost tripping in the hall while she grabs the doorframe to turn towards her room.»I re-read this sentence twice before I understood that she wasn’t trying to hulk-turn the doorframe. And one other thing: her room? They are in her apartment, she lives alone. Wtf «her room» is all about? The whole place is her’s!
»She wets her lips and flicks her thumbs over her rosy nipples. «This is about us.» She pouts her lips,(…)She moans noisily(…). My little screamer.»You can’t get more pornish description than this. And how does one moan noisily and scream at the same time anyway?
»Fallon swallows and groans loudly.»Mentions?? This is the first time she tells him she loves him! Try and make a little bit bigger deal than that.
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«I love you.» she mentions the three words I’ve wanted to hear as she slides down easily.»
»My eyes penetrating tantalizingly deep,»How does he know that his eyes are «penetrating tantalizingly deep»? Isn’t that for her to decide?
»I point to my nipples, making sure he notice my sideway grin. (…) He smirks as his right hand cups my left breast underneath the dress, and he groans. «It makes me hard in a split second when you don’t wear a bra.» (…) «After I lay our towels, I remove my dress to reveal my bikini underneath(…).Number one: she points at her nipples, but wants him to notice her grin? Second: bikini top is not a bra, but the scene in the car implied that she wasn’t wearing anything under her dress. So wtf?
My head snaps up. «People are going to see.» I look around suspiciously, but nobody is within a few feet of us.Does author knows how far away «within a few feet» is? People are practically hovering over them in a public beach!
«No, relax. I’m blocking you with my body. I would never allow anyone to see you come.»
Adriano accompanies me to the car.»Here is the thing: they aren’t on a f*cking date! Luca just beat a dude to a pulp and his fellow mafioso is simply following him back to his car.
»Will you be gone the entire day?»They seemed to be having a good day and a pleasant conversation. There was no information provided that would give him a reason to react severely to anything she said. Disappointed, maybe. I’m guessing author was fishing for a fancier synonym and ended up not making much sense.
«Probebly.»
Luca’s considering his reply. After another silence, he asks in a severe manner, «What do you have planned?»
Returning to her seat, she announces excitedly, "You definitely had a wet dream about him." She leans in closer and continues conspiratorially.
Looking back at me confidently, he announces, "I'm calling myself." And he holds my phone up again suggestively.I swear to god there were so many scenes where I expected a red carpet to roll out and hear the trumpets fanfaring. What the goddamn... Jesus!
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"Have some fun, Luca. I'm going to enjoy Camilla," Adriano announces (...).
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"I'm taking you to my place. Pack some clothes," he announces seductively.
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"I want to use the pasta machine," I announce while rinsing my hands.
»You know what I mean. Don’t play coy with me now. How well do you know her?» I’m asking if he slept with her.
He slows his pumping. «Look at me, or I slow down.» Luca hoarsely demands.Wait, what? You can’t threaten her with slowing down if you have slowed down already. I imagined her snapping her eyes open happened fairly quickly, when did he picked up the pace? Or did he ever? What do these two consider as a slow pumping :)?
My eyes snap open to look up at him as he’s pumping furiously into me, changing his angle.»
Luca and I slept in the Grand Suite at the ideally-located Peninsula, and we have to check out at noon.»Author had a perfect opportunity, use the park to create some suspense. Unfortunately, all I got was the next sentence where:
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We eat Spanish tapas in a small dining room near our hotel,»
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The park is fairly busy, so I run to a more secluded area and pass by several churches where I decided to take a break.
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Meat me at the park, all the way in the back.
Adriano joins me on the bench (…)»No descriptions of him getting there, or how the place looked like.
I caught Luca twenty minutes from here at the church,And that supposed to give me a picture of Chicago?
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A few streets further down the club,
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I give Luca an unplanned visit after I’ve had a meeting with a client three streets from his penthouse.»
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I was going to meet a friend two streets from here,»
I found it vague that he isn’t on Facebook.Fuck me sideways. That’s what made her suspicious?
































I fell in love with a man I don’t know at all. I fell for what I thought he was. I’m in way over my head in a world I never realized existed so close to me, and he brought me into this dangerous world.











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'I will do anything to keep her. I'm prepared to do anything to protect her.'
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"Ti amo. Esisti solo tu per me." I love you. You're the only one for me.
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'I'm not deserving of her love, but I need it. I want it. I will not give up on us.'
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