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Madness: A Bipolar Life

4.02  ·  Rating details ·  11,311 ratings  ·  732 reviews
An astonishing dispatch from inside the belly of bipolar disorder, reflecting major new insights

When Marya Hornbacher published her first book, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia, she did not yet have the piece of shattering knowledge that would finally make sense of the chaos of her life. At age twenty-four, Hornbacher was diagnosed with Type I rapid-cycle bipolar,
Hardcover, 299 pages
Published April 9th 2008 by Houghton Mifflin Harcourt (first published January 1st 2008)
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May 29, 2008 rated it did not like it
Recommends it for: Nobody. Read _Noonday Demon_ instead.
Hornbacher's _Wasted_ is probably the most perceptive book ever written on eating disorders, so I went ahead and bought the hardback of this "sequel" in which she describes her diagnosis and subsequent grappling with bi-polar depression. Unfortunately, while the book might be a photo-finish accurate portrayal of what it's like to be bi-polar, the problem with the book is that it's a photo-finish accurate portrayal of what it's like to be bi-polar. The first 50 pages are a series of vignettes of ...more
Apr 10, 2008 rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: em.
i have to say, she totally won me over. it was amazing because i wasn't sure if Marya Hornbacher could do it, but she redeemed herself by being more honest and upfront and REAL about her illness and willingness to get better than she was in Wasted, and more than Elizabeth Wurtzel ever, ever did.

this is best example of mania i have ever read. it is so true to life, and so true to form. it's really impressive how much insight she has into her illness when she lacked so much before - but it's l
Jun 13, 2008 rated it liked it
Hornbacher's stories terrify me. And ashamedly, the entire time that I was reading 'Madness', all I could think about was how glad I was that I am not that crazy. It also proves the fact that human beings can be very resilient, tenacious fuckers. Having also read 'Wasted', I can't believe this woman is still alive. She's like an extreme-condition crash test dummy.

I've struggled with rather severe anxiety for years, with derealisation, panic attacks and so on - and each time I've had these episo
One of the most touching memoirs I have ever read. I can't get enough of Marya Hornbacher's writing. Not only that, but I'm continuously tempted to keep checking up on her to see how she is faring.

Having a friend whose sister has a personality disorder has made me almost morbidly interested in mental illness. This is the first book that has actually helped me understand her sisters behaviour. In fact, it's nearly impossible to understand considering it doesn't make sense to someone who does not
Apr 06, 2008 rated it really liked it
I read Hornbacher's first memoir, Wasted, a decade ago and was impressed by the strength of her voice then. But while she'd managed to fight back against her eating disorder, it turns out that she hadn't even begun to deal with her alcoholism and, more fundamentally, had only just begun to confront her bipolar condition. This memoir deals with that story, with an even stronger personal emphasis than I recall from her first book. Like her first book, it's definitely not a feel-good memoir, nor a ...more
May 12, 2011 rated it really liked it
What needs to be said about Marya, is that she suffers from one of the most severe cases of Bipolar disorder, type 1 (which includes full on mania and psychosis that can last for years untreated), with rapid cycling. It's not like Bipolar II where you experience hypomania and depression (where the depression can be more in play than hypomania).

She suffered wild psychosis and mania for a long time, and addiction is a big part of people diagnosed with Bipolar. I understand that this is a memoir,
Nov 12, 2012 rated it really liked it
Shelves: disturbia, 2012
Marya Hornbacher is better known for her memoir ‘Wasted’, which she wrote, no, published, at the age of twenty two , and which went viral, in which she spares no gruesome detail of her frankly horrific ‘altercation’ with anorexia and bulimia, and in which she drops to just 52 pounds, almost dies (hmmm, obviously), but emerges triumphant (well, barring infertility, osteoporosis and some other organ failure residuals, I forget which), to beat the disease, finish off college and publish a book, did ...more
Paula Dennan
Jun 02, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
By her early 20s Marya Hornbacher had written and published a memoir about living with and beginning to recover from anorexia and bulimia. That book, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia became an international bestseller. Hornbacher was subsequently diagnosed with bipolar I disorder, something which had likely gone undetected since childhood. Undetected in the sense that it was undiagnosed, but as Madness shows Hornbacher has been living with mental illness from a young age.

Hornbacher doesn
Jan 01, 2009 rated it really liked it
Madness: A Bipolar Life is a riveting memoir about the most severe form of bipolar disorder called: Rapid Cycling Type 1. She describes her struggles with the demons she faces every day, wavering between madness and deep bouts of depression.

As early as the age of 4 Marya Hornbacher was unable to sleep and night and talked endlessly. Once she was in school, other children called her crazy. By the age of 10 she discovered alcohol helped her mood swings, and by age 14, she was trading sex for pills
Rebecca McNutt
From the time she was a little girl, Marya always felt different from the other children around her and from her parents as well. A little "crazy" as her friends from school would call her. As she grows up though and spends her life in and out of mental institutions, with different husbands and psychiatrists and moving back and forth from Minneapolis to California constantly, it becomes apparent that something serious is going on. To get her life back in order is difficult, but she's determined ...more
Aug 29, 2009 rated it liked it
At the age of 24, Marya Hornbacher was diagnosed with Type I bipolar disorder. This realization of why she thinks and behaves the way she does did not come at the outset of her disease. Rather, it came after years and years of cycling through incessant mania and debilitating depression. Hornbacher recalls moments from her childhood, such as her terrible insomnia and inability to stop jabbering flying from topic to topic with no coherent train of thought. She tried to poke fun at herself as all t ...more
 Sarah Lumos
3.5/5 stars

Hornbacher bears her soul on these pages. She talks about her madness with unflinching honesty and bravado. This book gave me a true insight into the mind of someone who copes with Type I rapid-cycle bipolar disorder. Throughout her life, she is forced to keep some pretty painful skeletons in her closet. She develops an eating disorder, which mental healthcare professionals assume stems from depression. But for Hornbacher, her eating disorder was a way to have some control over her
Jocelynne Broderick
Apr 13, 2008 rated it it was amazing
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Jessie Cross
Aug 23, 2014 rated it really liked it
Shelves: english, 2014
I read this book because I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and it was actually recommended to me by my psychiatrist. I nearly went crazy (hehehe not funny!) at the beginning of the book where Marya is literally bouncing from one place to the next. It created such anxiety in me that I even had nightmares. Then the recognition of some moments. I am definitely not such a rapid bipolar sufferer but when I am in what I call a good place, I now realize that I am always a somewhat hyper. And ...more
May 31, 2012 rated it it was amazing
I'm fairly familiar with Marya Hornbacher - only a week before picking up this book, I read her first memoir entitled "Wasted", an autobiographical account of her 10-year struggle with anorexia and bulimia. Shocked and stirred time and again by her ingenuous chronicles of induced vomiting coupled with radically self-imposed starvation, I thought I'd reach the apex of stupefaction. However, I was hit over the head yet again by her impressive, candid and unflinching examination of her mental illne ...more
Oct 08, 2011 rated it it was amazing
After a recent diagnosis that directly relates to the content of this book; I decided to pick it up again. Maybe I was more engaged because it is more relevant to me, whatever the reason I could not put it down. Marya offers a very honest, un sugarcoated look at her life with Bipolar Disorder. And she really captures what it is like to be manic, AND how debilitating the inevitable depression is.
I saw a lot of my own symptoms in her experiences. That was comforting, because it made me realize th
Oct 20, 2011 rated it really liked it
Shelves: nonfiction
I think people who write "this book isn't Wasted" or "this isn't my/ my friend's/ my cousin's roommate's brother's experience with bipolar." Like many other people, I read this book because I read Wasted a long time ago and liked it. Actually I heard an urban legend that the author died of heart trouble after writing that book, and then saw some of her other books listed, and so was curious. This book is fundamentally a description of the experience of bipolar disorder. Yes, duh, this makes it s ...more
Jan 24, 2011 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favorites
I could not put this book down. It is a fascinating account of a lifelong struggle with bipolar illness and the effect it has not only on the person diagnosed but on her friends and family as well. Marya (pronounced MAR-ya) Hornbacher is an incredible writer and I was constantly amazed at the idea that she could hold together the life she did and be a successful writer while struggling so desperately with this overwhelming illness. I was at turns hopeful then despairing then back to determined h ...more
Dec 17, 2008 rated it really liked it
No, I'm not bipolar. Not that there is anything wrong with that. Although clearly thinks that I am after this purchase, based on the recommendations I'm now getting fast and furious. :)

I read Hornbacher's first book, Wasted, when a friend of mine was suffering with an eating disorder. She is a brilliant writer and I was pleased to see she had another book out, in addition to a novel she wrote a few years back. This one, like Wasted, is a compelling, disturbing read about what it is l
Feb 21, 2011 rated it it was amazing
I really like these types of books. Memoirs....but any kind of memoirs....I like the one where the person has been through something rough, harsh, extreme and they share it with you. It gives you a better understanding of what people go through. Much more personal then reading a textbook or watching tv...

Marya has been cursed with bipolar disorder since she was young, but wasn't properly diagnosed until she was older. The doctors kept telling her that she had other issues and she went through so
Aug 25, 2008 rated it did not like it
"Read" may be too strong a term for what happened with this book, although I did read several chapters.

The book opens with Marya cutting deep into her arm -- a scene that nearly had my squeamish self retching. We follow her to the emergency room and the hospital, where she eventually manages to talk herself out of being committed.

We then journey back to her childhood, where her mania takes on proportions hitherto imagined only by the likes of James Frey. She's more manic than any manic depressiv
Debra Lynch
Mar 03, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Amazing memior by an amazingly strong woman. I actually CAN imagine what it's like to live with Bipolar I, because Marya Hornbacher bring you along on her journey with painful honesty in her usual intense style. The beat of the book follows the beat of her moods. When she is low, the pace of her writing is dark and thick. When she is manic, her writing reaches a fevered pitch of vivid descriptions of taste, sound, visceral feelings, fear, panic, giddiness, and delusions bordering on full blown p ...more
Audrey Caldwell
Aug 07, 2011 rated it it was amazing
Hornbacher has outdone herself. It is hard to understand mental illness, let alone to feel what it is to be in the psychotic mania and the deepest despair of bipolar disorder. But this book shows (not just tells) with surprising clarity what it is to be insane. It takes you into a mind of madness with true artistry of words that is not too abstract as to alienate you in this alien world yet fantastical enough to capture you: mind and all. The book is well balanced between events and explanation ...more
Jan 16, 2010 rated it it was amazing
This is the first time that I read about someone with manic–depressive disorder (/ bipolar disorder) and it certainly opened my eyes. In Madness, the author details her journey of living with the illness, from her emotionally unstable childhood to the diagnosis of her illness and finally to her acceptance of the fact that the illness will stay with her for her whole life.

It gets very repetitive in the process as she went back and forth in the progress of controlling her disorder, her experiencin
Jan 18, 2010 rated it liked it
Hornbacher does a great job of conveying the internal experience of bipolar disorder. It's a very good book, but I gave it just 3 stars because I can't quite say that I "really liked" the experience of being inside that world with her. One interesting thing she does is to remove the specific content of her thoughts and just describe the moods themselves -- she says she feels rage, for example, but often doesn't detail the things that are setting her off, what she's raging about.

My own experienc
Jennifer Meyer
Jan 14, 2018 rated it really liked it
I really liked the content of the book, as well as Hornbacher’s writing style. But do yourself a favor and do not listen to the audiobook. The narrator was captivating when she was talking/reading, but the editing is terrible. She constantly took these huge breaths and it sounded like she was constantly gulping water. It was very distracting (and sounded pretty gross) and could easily have been edited out.
Aug 16, 2011 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
I absolutely loved Marya Hornbacher's first book, Wasted. I looked forward to reading Madness, and had great expectations. In comparison, Madness was terribly disappointing. It was downright annoying to read, so much so that I skimmed probably close to 33% of the book. There seemed to be no real continuity, and the thoughts were rather spaced. The only good bits were in the epilogue and "Bipoloar facts."
Sep 28, 2009 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
I must admit, I gave up on this book feeling it just wasn't worth my time and energy. I thought it would be interesting, getting an up close and personal take on bipolar disease since I know people who suffer from it.

I got about half way through and had enough. The story tells of the author's experience with the disease, suffering, unknowing, discovery, treatment and the "ups and downs" she goes through.

It wasn't that the book wasn't well written, but reading this story became so tedious that I
Camilla Kristensen
Madness is such a powerful book. There were many times when I had to lay the book down for a moment, just because it was so strong. Marya Hornbacher has no self-pity at all, a thing that can be annoying when you're reading memoirs about mental illness and sometimes she even made me laugh, just because the situation was described so funny, even though it was a horrible one.
I'm wondering how things are going with her now - she truly deserves a great life.
Thom Dunn
There being no shortage of memoirs on the subjects of bipolar disorder and addiction, this reviewer is pleased to mark this one Best in Show for detailed first-person narration of hospital intake, broken thought processes, and emotional states. If it seems odd to you to say I found this ENTERTAINING, give me a shout and we'll.....what, talk? blog? message? --We'll write notes back and forth about the whole megillah why don't we ?
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Marya Hornbacher published her first book, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia (HarperCollins Publishers, Inc.), in 1998, when she was twenty-three. What started as a crazy idea suggested by a writer friend became the classic book that has been published in fourteen languages, is taught in universities and writing programs all over the world, and has, according to the thousands of letters Mar ...more
“When you are mad, mad like this, you don't know it. Reality is what you see. When what you see shifts, departing from anyone else's reality, it's still reality to you.” 432 likes
“Soon madness has worn you down. It’s easier to do what it says than argue. In this way, it takes over your mind. You no longer know where it ends and you begin. You believe anything it says. You do what it tells you, no matter how extreme or absurd. If it says you’re worthless, you agree. You plead for it to stop. You promise to behave. You are on your knees before it, and it laughs.” 258 likes
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