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(Black Lotus #1)

4.20  ·  Rating details ·  10,360 ratings  ·  1,769 reviews
They say when you take revenge against another you lose a part of your innocence.
But I’m not innocent.
I haven’t been for a very long time.
My innocence was stolen from me. Taken was the life I was supposed to have. The soul I was born with. The ruby heart embedded in a life full of hopes and dreams.


I never even had a choice.
I mourn that life. Mourn the wha
Paperback, 418 pages
Published May 9th 2014 by E.K. Blair LLC
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Lady Vigilante (Feifei)
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This is another one of those times where I honestly don’t know how to rate a book. I could be a bitch and rate it 2 stars because I didn’t really enjoy it, or I could be lazy and just rate it 5 stars because I thought it was brilliantly written and ignore the other not-so-pleasant feelings running through my head. But I’m not going to do either – I’ll just write what I thought & felt and you can decide if this is th
~ Becs ~
Mar 26, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Oh my GOD!

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Talk about blown away and traumatised!! This is actually my first read by EK Blair and I was really keen to try her work I don’t think anything could have prepared me for how profoundly this book affected me. It was totally not what I was expecting but that’s not a bad thing – very few books have the ability to grip and consume me quite like this one and to truly shock me. And this one’s a shocker!! It’s bold, it’s brave and it’s completely addictive. Once you’ve begun, it’s almost imp
5+ Bangin' Stars!!!

OMG!!! I finished this book an hour ago and have been literally stunned into silence!!!!!

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I loved this book....I hated this book!!!!! I have never read anything like this! Dark, twisted, emotional, and the steam goes to a WHOLE new level of kink that I had never experienced! More than dominance... pure animalistic possession!! This is one of the best books that I have ever read in my entire life!!! The author does a fantastic job of conveying the true depravity of these cha
Jun 08, 2014 rated it liked it
Recommended to Christy by: Jennifer Kyle
3 BANG stars!!!


I am at a loss on what to say about this book… That was a wild ride. I can’t say I’ve read anything quite like this book. Some of these characters give the word ‘damaged’ and entirely different meaning. I can’t tell if I loved this book, liked it or hated it. My mind is still all over the place. I don't want to talk too much about the story, but I will talk about the characters.


No one can ever hurt you if you can’t feel, so I don’t.

Nina has turned off all her
Hulya Kara Yuksel
May 14, 2015 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Hulya by: Brendy
Review Updated

WARNING: This is a non-traditional M/F ROMANCE with a non-traditional ending. If you're under age 18, please think twice and then you read this book.

If you like to read dark / erotica / disturbing stories go ahead read this book, but trust me after you finished it you’ll never be the same person… But take that risk and give a chance this book.

First of all I wanna thank BRENDA. My sweet friend thank you so much for mentioning me this book… I read it and loved it so much. And congra
AMAZING!!! There are not enough stars to give this book. E.K. Blair has created a literary masterpiece!

I won't even attempt to summarize the book contents, because I know that, without a doubt, I could never do it justice. It is a tragic, beautiful story and I've never read anything quite like it.

This book had me captivated from page 1 and had my rapt attention all the way to the end. I felt angry, sad, elated, shocked, enamored, conflicted and heartbroken while reading this book. You name an em
✰ Liz ✰
“The heart is a weapon—a self-inflicting weapon—that if not trained properly, can destroy a person.”

Bang is the first book in the Black Lotus Series. This is a dark and twisted read that will leave your mind spinning and your heart in a vice the entire time. I was on pins and needles from the very first moment until the very last!


Nina Vanderwal is an adoring housewife who lives a luxurious life in Chicago. Bennett, her loving spouse, does everything he can to keep his wife living
Jessica ❥Chatterbooks Book Blog❥

What. The. Fuck? I don't even know what to feel right now. Damn you, Sonya! 😂

*Update* A week later and I still don't know. 🙈
Pearl Angeli
Jan 21, 2015 rated it really liked it
Recommended to Pearl by: Beatrice Masaluñga
"Sometimes, for some people, there's no such thing as happily ever after."

This book is dark, gritty, and completely hard to put down...

Picture this: You were still a child when your father-- who's the only family you had, was taken away from you and was put into prison. You grew up in a foster home and were eventually led to a new family that brought you an even more traumatic experience. You were raped, degraded, and your life became simply a thing you despise. And then you met someone who
Patty ~ Wrapped Up In Reading Book Blog
*****FIVE STARS*****
(BR with Melissa)

This book was totally not what I expected.
I've never read any of E.K. Blair's books before, but after having read this one, I am definitely a HUGE fan of her now!
"Bang" is quite different from anything I have read before.
It's a story of incredible loss, despair, lust, revenge, the ugliness that people are capable of, and also hope & LOVE!!!

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Nina & Bennett Vanderwal have been married for several years. They are a very wealthy and powerful couple in Chicago.
Jennifer Kyle
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E.K. Blair delivered a dark, intense, guaranteed page turner with this story. I enjoyed the Alice in Wonderland vibe that was incorporated. This story was entertaining and very fun to chat with friends who have or are currently reading.

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I did however have some issues with the characters throughout the story…

Issues with Pike:

”Pike has given up so much these past few years while I’ve been married to Bennett.”

”Everything he’s given up for the past few years while I
May 14, 2014 rated it really liked it
* * * * 4 ____ Stars * * * *

At 5 years old Elizabeth’s life is changed forever.

"And that’s the moment when you realize that hopes and dreams are as fucked up as the fairytales."

Her loving father is arrested, and she is placed in foster care. Elizabeth goes through multiple foster homes before she ends up with Carl and the duck lady.

Carl and the ducky lady...

This is where she meets another foster child named Pike, 3 years older than Elizabeth he becomes her protector. To say Elizabeth’s chi
Aleatha Romig
Bang is a dark twisted tale that will leave you reeling and begging for more. In the Black Lotus series, Ek Blair has created a cast of intriguing characters that will forever lurk in the corners of your mind. One moment I despised their actions, the next I couldn't get enough. Hot. Suspenseful. This dark tale of thriller meets romantic suspense is a do not miss!

Genre: Dark Erotic Suspense
Type: Book 1 of 3 from Black Lotus series
POV: First Person - Female

Nina grew up with less than ideal past. With only one friend growing up, together they’ve been each other support. She wanted to avenge of what she lost, no matter who or what in the way. But sometimes she forgot, there were certain things one cannot control.

Before starting the book, I didn’t have much idea what it’s about and I’m glad I went in blind because that’s the best way to enjoy

I honestly don't even know where to start with this one. It made me feel a lot of feelings. Most of them not good. Bang is a dark and twisted book - equally horrifying and heartbreaking.

“Fairytale is nothing but a fancy word for a lie used to deceive little kids…A false perception of reality used to give them hope in a hopeless world.”

Secrets. Lies. Love. Hate. Revenge. Suspense. Lust. Deceit. It was one hell of a ride. I didn't know what the hell was going on most of the time, or what to ex
JaHy☝Hold the Fairy Dust

No disrespect to the author nor my friends who loved Bang. There are numerous reasons why this did not work for me, the main one being the heroine and the motive behind her vendetta. I'm sure Declan is screaming "TELL ME , TELL ME. I need to hear you say it, Damn it!" . Well, I didn't care for his character, so ...Boo-You Boo-Boo , I'm not TELLING YOU squat.

I am undoubtedly in the minority here (No biggie, I'm quite use to it) PLEASE fol
❥ KAT ❥ Kitty Kats Crazy About Books
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SERIES: (Black Lotus #1)
GENRE: Dark | Contemporary | New Adult
RELEASED: May 9th, 2014
MY RATING: ★★★★★

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I originally rated this 4 stars but then I sat back and thought about the plot, the writing, the uniqueness of the story and I had to put this at 5 stars!!Because in all honesty once I started this I devoured it, I didn't sit there looking at how many pages were left, how many chapters I had to get through to the end, and that's why this deserves my 5 s

My reactions during the final few chapters of this book:

And in the end, I was left speechless... My thoughts are all over the place so I'm going to need some time before I can come up with a proper review. Just know that this book has a lot of disturbing situations and that you'll probably want to throw your e-reader at a wall towards the end. BUT, still, I could not put this book down once I started it and if you're intrigued by the blurb, I'd say give it a shot and find out for yourself what i

Elizabeth Archer was only five years old when her father was taken away. From that moment, Elizabeth’s life irrevocably changed as she was shuffled from foster homes for three years until she was 8 yrs old. At that time, she arrived at her most permanent home and met another foster child named Pike. Elizabeth and Pike became brother and sister and Pike always promised to protect and keep Elizabeth safe. What they endured together strengthened their bond, as they could only trust and rely upon ea
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WOW IT'S FREE 4/8/16

reading book one and two in anticipation for book three release!! Let's do this...

"I'm ready to take back what I was always meant to be mine. Vengeance is what I seek to reclaim what was viciously ripped from me."




They say when you take revenge against another you lose a part of your innocence.
But I’m not
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DNF @ 14%

The premise of BANG sounded really great, although the Goodreads blurb doesn't tell you that much. My friend, Lady Vigilante, wrote a much more detailed review that's way more helpful about letting you know what you're getting into.

So why did I put the book down?

I didn't like the writing style at all. It's got a very clunky, bulky feel to it and the author uses a lot of big words in strange ways that gave me the impression that
Jun 01, 2014 rated it really liked it


Dark, twisted, insane and deadly, I was hooked immediately!


You don't need to know anything before reading this book, just that Nina is on a mission to destroy the man who had an input when her dad was taken away from her and her life become hell.

"My purpose is clear, and no one will stand in the way of me righting the wrong."

Nina really reminded me of Emily Thorne from 'Revenge' and I couldn't be more happy about it. She was a very strong heroine, I don't even know how was she still f
MELISSA *Mel Reader*
May 02, 2014 rated it it was amazing
5 "I'm Gonna Make You Believe In The Fairytale Again" Stars!
(BR with Patty)

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Nina Vanderwal is a 28 yr. old woman living a lie. She is married to Bennett Vanderwal, one of the wealthiest men in Chicago. Her husband absolutely worships her, and treats her like a queen. Nina plays the part of the perfect high society wife while secretly planning out her vengeance. We don't know much except she hates her husband, and is plotting her revenge. As the story goes on we find out why Nina i
Mar 10, 2017 rated it really liked it
Oh my Goodness!
Stunning thriller.
I wasn't expected that much good, it has gone better.
" I hate my life."

Exceptional emotional novel !
Excited to read next,I've in my shelf.
Great job, E.K. Bliar.
Jun 21, 2015 rated it really liked it
3.5 - 4 Exhausting Stars!
**Due to the dark and explicit nature of this book, it is recommended for mature audiences only as some scenes may be particularly disturbing.**
The warning above should be taking seriously before you read this book.

Elizabeth is five years old when her father gets arrested and she is sent into foster care. She's moved around several times. Until finally at eight years old she comes to live with Bobbi, Carl and Pike. Pike is also in foster care. Carl is a drunk and when h
3.75 -Revenge is not so sweet- stars

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Life's cruel, and I'm its bitch.

Bang is book that will keep you on your toes until the bitter end.

Nina has been married to her husband Bennett for the past 3 years. She doesn't love him. In fact, she despises him. Her only reason for marrying him is to fulfill her revenge. It's been a long con, but Nina finally has found someone to carry out the vicious act to end his life.

With her foster brother Pike by her side, she is going to manipulate her mark,
Sharon ∞❥ is an emotional book junkie ❥∞
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To say that Elizabeth's had a hard life would be an understatement. She's literally been screwed over by life in more ways than one. And what's really sad is that her life started with such potential. Unfortunately, her view is now skewed and her focus is singular, that is, until something changes.

This story is told in the past and present and from Elizabeth/Nina's POV so it takes a while to figure things out. Even then, things aren't always what they seem.

It was h
ARC provided by author in exchange of honest review

☆ ☆ ☆☆ 4.5 BANG STARS ☆ ☆ ☆☆


BANG …. E.K. Blair is a freaking evil brilliant genius.. Literally, this book started off with a bang and ended with a BIG BANG!!! Hold on to the edge of your seats, Ms. Blair will take you on one hell of a dark twisted suspense filled ride that have you guessing and holding onto your breath on what will happen next. Expect the unexpected and know that no one is innocent. Forget the HEA because there
May 19, 2014 rated it liked it
3 to 3.5 stars....I did find this ridiculously entertaining but I had one big problem with this story that kept me from rating this higher.

My big problem with this book was that the reasoning behind Nina's revenge is so motherfucking STUPID! (view spoiler)
Chris- Bookaddict
Mar 28, 2014 rated it it was amazing

 E.K. has brought us a story so different from her other’s.

This woman knows how to write a story, and she keeps you guessing from one minute to the next with BANG.

 E.k. has asked that no spoilers be posted about the book, which I myself completely agree with. YOU NEED to go into this book knowing as little as possible to fully FEEL this story.

 Bang is full of secrets, lies, deceit, revenge, suspense and so many twists and turns you will be saying WHAT.T
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