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Source of a River
Source of a River is an epic, moving tale of grit and love, of weathering the storms of trauma and loss while searching for that special connection that makes us feel truly alive.
A pensive eight-year-old boy is caught between parents grieving in different His fearful mother is overprotective, his father recklessly seeking adventure. When John, the boy, disobeys his mom and goes ice fishing with his dad, he ventures too far out—precipitating a new trauma . . .
Twenty years on and John has suppressed the trauma. Mired in a successful but joyless existence he meets Claire—a passionate, sensual, unpredictable older woman with a dream of finding the source of a river. She awakens John’s longing for something more but he struggles with Claire to form a committed, lasting relationship. When Claire challenges him to face his childhood trauma, John discovers a shocking new detail which heightens his growing anxiety about both life and death.
Will he overcome his fears and grief and choose to embrace—or rage at—life as it full of uncertainty, loss, love, and mystery?
A pensive eight-year-old boy is caught between parents grieving in different His fearful mother is overprotective, his father recklessly seeking adventure. When John, the boy, disobeys his mom and goes ice fishing with his dad, he ventures too far out—precipitating a new trauma . . .
Twenty years on and John has suppressed the trauma. Mired in a successful but joyless existence he meets Claire—a passionate, sensual, unpredictable older woman with a dream of finding the source of a river. She awakens John’s longing for something more but he struggles with Claire to form a committed, lasting relationship. When Claire challenges him to face his childhood trauma, John discovers a shocking new detail which heightens his growing anxiety about both life and death.
Will he overcome his fears and grief and choose to embrace—or rage at—life as it full of uncertainty, loss, love, and mystery?
480 pages, Paperback
Published April 12, 2024
About the author
Gary Morse
1 book16 followersGary Morse grew up in Northern California before living for years in St. Louis. He is the author of literary short stories and newspaper and magazine pieces. Gary, who holds a PhD in clinical psychology, has worked for more than 35 years in mental health. He has developed research-based programs for people who are homeless, for those with serious mental illness and substance use, for burnout prevention, and for happiness. He has also published more than eighty articles and book chapters on mental health. Source of a River is his first novel. He is currently at work on two nonfiction books and a new novel. He lives in the Pacific Northwest and St. Louis with his wife and their three dogs.
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January 19, 2025
Great read 📖📚Not a normal romance novel. Definitely shows the good and the bad, ups and the downs
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August 27, 2024 I won the book source of a river i never read book gary morse .It was really good he wrote in it and a papper about the and other stuff.It epic grit love grievingin different ways
June 21, 2024
Age old tale of childhood trauma, how it festers and grows, affecting him as an adult. In comes a person who stirs the past, helping him overcome those demons and try to make sense of his life, helping him come alive again! An extremely good book!
Thank you Goodreads and Gary Morse!
Thank you Goodreads and Gary Morse!
August 24, 2025
I don’t often write long reviews, but every so often a novel comes along that demands more than a few lines of praise. Source of a River is one of those rare books. It’s not just a story you read, it’s an experience that seeps into your bones and lingers long after you’ve closed the last page.
From the opening chapter, I was transported into John’s childhood world. Gary Morse has a gift for capturing the inner life of a child with uncanny accuracy. John’s eagerness to please, his quiet fears, and his innocent longing for adventure all rang true. The way his parents’ grief and tension shaped his early life broke my heart. It reminded me how perceptive children are, how they notice everything, even when adults assume they don’t.
The ice fishing sequence is the kind of writing that stays with you forever. It’s not simply suspenseful, though it certainly is, but emotionally devastating. The tension of the ice cracking, the father’s desperate attempts to save his son, the sensory detail of cold water swallowing them whole: I felt like I was there. I had to stop reading at one point to steady myself. Very few novels have ever done that to me.
What struck me most was not just the trauma itself, but the silence that follows. We see John twenty years later, outwardly successful but inwardly hollow, and it feels so true to life. Many of us carry wounds we don’t discuss, and they shape our relationships in ways we can’t always see. John’s avoidance, his tendency to bury the past, resonated with me personally. It was like holding up a mirror.
And then comes Claire. I don’t know how to describe her except to say that she felt alive on the page. She’s unpredictable, sensual, maddening, inspiring, the kind of person who blows into your life like a storm and refuses to let you stay the same. Her dream of finding the source of a river becomes so much more than a plot device; it’s a symbol of searching for meaning, of trying to trace one’s life back to its origin.
The dynamic between John and Claire is messy, imperfect, and deeply authentic. This isn’t a fairy-tale romance, but something far more real: two flawed people trying to love each other despite the weight of their baggage. There are moments of passion, frustration, tenderness, and misunderstanding, all of which made me believe in them as a couple. More than that, their struggles made me reflect on my own relationships, how love is often less about perfection and more about persistence.
Throughout the book, Morse weaves the natural world into the story in a way that feels almost spiritual. Rivers, mountains, forests, and ice are never just scenery. They reflect John’s inner life, his fears, and his longing for connection. The descriptions are vivid without being overdone; they ground the story in a reality that is both tangible and symbolic.
By the final chapters, I realized that Source of a River isn’t simply about John’s trauma, it’s about the choice each of us faces when confronted with life’s uncertainties. Do we rage against the unfairness of loss and death, or do we embrace the beauty and mystery of existence, despite its fragility? That question has stayed with me.
When I finished the book, I didn’t just think about John. I thought about my own father, about the people I’ve loved and lost, and about the parts of myself I’ve kept hidden. This book stirred me in ways I wasn’t prepared for. It’s not just a novel, it’s a meditation on grief, love, and resilience. For anyone searching for a story that can both break your heart and help heal it, Source of a River is a gift.
From the opening chapter, I was transported into John’s childhood world. Gary Morse has a gift for capturing the inner life of a child with uncanny accuracy. John’s eagerness to please, his quiet fears, and his innocent longing for adventure all rang true. The way his parents’ grief and tension shaped his early life broke my heart. It reminded me how perceptive children are, how they notice everything, even when adults assume they don’t.
The ice fishing sequence is the kind of writing that stays with you forever. It’s not simply suspenseful, though it certainly is, but emotionally devastating. The tension of the ice cracking, the father’s desperate attempts to save his son, the sensory detail of cold water swallowing them whole: I felt like I was there. I had to stop reading at one point to steady myself. Very few novels have ever done that to me.
What struck me most was not just the trauma itself, but the silence that follows. We see John twenty years later, outwardly successful but inwardly hollow, and it feels so true to life. Many of us carry wounds we don’t discuss, and they shape our relationships in ways we can’t always see. John’s avoidance, his tendency to bury the past, resonated with me personally. It was like holding up a mirror.
And then comes Claire. I don’t know how to describe her except to say that she felt alive on the page. She’s unpredictable, sensual, maddening, inspiring, the kind of person who blows into your life like a storm and refuses to let you stay the same. Her dream of finding the source of a river becomes so much more than a plot device; it’s a symbol of searching for meaning, of trying to trace one’s life back to its origin.
The dynamic between John and Claire is messy, imperfect, and deeply authentic. This isn’t a fairy-tale romance, but something far more real: two flawed people trying to love each other despite the weight of their baggage. There are moments of passion, frustration, tenderness, and misunderstanding, all of which made me believe in them as a couple. More than that, their struggles made me reflect on my own relationships, how love is often less about perfection and more about persistence.
Throughout the book, Morse weaves the natural world into the story in a way that feels almost spiritual. Rivers, mountains, forests, and ice are never just scenery. They reflect John’s inner life, his fears, and his longing for connection. The descriptions are vivid without being overdone; they ground the story in a reality that is both tangible and symbolic.
By the final chapters, I realized that Source of a River isn’t simply about John’s trauma, it’s about the choice each of us faces when confronted with life’s uncertainties. Do we rage against the unfairness of loss and death, or do we embrace the beauty and mystery of existence, despite its fragility? That question has stayed with me.
When I finished the book, I didn’t just think about John. I thought about my own father, about the people I’ve loved and lost, and about the parts of myself I’ve kept hidden. This book stirred me in ways I wasn’t prepared for. It’s not just a novel, it’s a meditation on grief, love, and resilience. For anyone searching for a story that can both break your heart and help heal it, Source of a River is a gift.
May 9, 2024
Source of a River took me through the life journeys of John and Claire. Their struggles with life, understanding death and trying to find love and happiness. Both grow during the book in both maturity and understanding. Themes of love, desire, suppressed memories and the endurance of the human heart. A deep and moving book.
January 16, 2026
Source of a River
Looking at other reviews, I feel I read an entirely different book. This story was so incredibly boring and the main character was so pathetic. Ugh, I don't even want to waste any more time on this book. An incredible waste of time.
Looking at other reviews, I feel I read an entirely different book. This story was so incredibly boring and the main character was so pathetic. Ugh, I don't even want to waste any more time on this book. An incredible waste of time.
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