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Not After Everything

3.91  ·  Rating details ·  3,133 ratings  ·  454 reviews
A gritty but hopeful love story about two struggling teens—
great for fans of The Spectacular Now, Willow, and Eleanor and Park

Tyler has a football scholarship to Stanford, a hot girlfriend, and a reliable army of friends to party with. Then his mom kills herself. And Tyler lets it all go. Now he needs to dodge what his dad is offering (verbal tirades and abuse) and earn wh
Kindle Edition, 245 pages
Published August 4th 2015 by Dial
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Georgina ☽ themalf0ydiaries
This was good until that freaking end..

Alex ✰ Comets and Comments ✰
May 29, 2017 rated it did not like it
Recommends it for: No one. (Really)
Shelves: dnf, young-adult
Brushing your teeth with minty toothpaste, and then going and chugging a glass of orange juice.

That is the feeling I had while reading this, the bitter taste and the shudder that goes through your body just telling you that something is not right. Not After Everything felt like a hit or miss kind of book when I started reading it - it was a definite miss for me.

I put it down after Chapter Twenty One. My brain was on overdrive and it was screaming "You're not going to read on! Not After Every
I think this book would work for a lot of readers, but I just had a lot of run-ins with Not After Everything that prevented me from truly enjoying it.

Okay, so one of my biggest pet peeves are unlikable narrators, and guys I just really disliked Tyler. He is such a huge jerk! "Snarky, angry, mad-at-the-world" narrators are so hard for me to connect with, and Tyler takes the cake at being at the top of that list. He always has some derogatory comment to add to just about everyone he runs into:

A w
Arch Bala
I am not exactly sure how I really feel about this book yet – I guess, I’m still trying to absorb the way the author chose to end it. Some would say that it has a hopeful ending for our main character Tyler, whose last year in high school was marred by the suicide of his mother for which he blames himself and everything in between was just a cacophony of hurt, betrayal, discovery, recovery and most importantly, love.

I loved the fact that despite the heavy plot lines in the story and the too ang
Merphy Napier
Jul 31, 2018 rated it really liked it
TW Depression, Suicide, and Abuse. (BIG trigger warning. It gets graphic)

This is an extremely honest, raw, and moving picture into grief, love, and growing up. I absolutely loved this story and it's one that will stick with me. Tyler was an extremely realistic and flawed main character who (despite his many faults) had my heart. I absolutely loved this story.

The only reason it didn't get five stars was because the ending (while realistic) was a bit unsatisfying. After reading several goodreads
Aug 11, 2015 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2015-releases
***Review posted on The Eater of Books! blog***

Not After Everything by Michelle Levy
Publisher: Dial Books
Publication Date: August 4, 2015
Rating: 4 stars
Source: ARC sent by the publisher

Summary (from Goodreads):

Fans of Eleanor and Park, The Spectacular Now, Willow, and Perfectly Good White Boy won't be able to put down this gritty but hopeful love story about two struggling teens.

Tyler has a football scholarship to Stanford, a hot girlfriend, and a reliable army of friends to party with. Then h
Dec 01, 2014 rated it really liked it

I was going to wait to review this book until my head and heart settled down. But I can’t. Not after everything. I need to get it out on the page now when my heart is still a mess of emotion. Not After Everything shows the brutality and awfulness in people. There is so much ugliness here, but a lot of hope and love as well. Teary-eyed hope.

Tyler Blackwell’s Mom killed herself. Committed suicide leaving him alone with a father who only communicates with head games, guilt, punches and verbal abus
Zemira (Kylo Ren fangirl) Warner
Sep 30, 2015 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Zemira (Kylo Ren fangirl) Warner by: Glass
Trigger warnings: suicide, animal(!!!!) and child abuse. Don't read if you can't stomach reading about helpless animals being hurt. I have to admit, I started crying when the dog was hurt. I can handle when people are killed but if someone touches an animal I am ready to kill a bitch.

Bless Michelle Levy for gracing us with this realistic ending and 'boo' to all those people rating it down because of said ending. It's not every day you see authors writing about what comes after the fairytale. No
Tayler Steele
Apr 04, 2016 rated it really liked it
I decided to read this book because the description mentioned that Eleanor & Park fans would love it. Well, while I did really like it, it was nothing like E&P.

This novel deals with some really difficult subjects, but I felt that it dealt with them in the most honest way possible. Tyler's narrative is definitely harsh, rude, and venomous at times, but considering what he'd been through, it felt right. Sure, he wasn't the hero most of us are accustomed to experiencing, but his honesty about his s
Annie Brewer
Dec 05, 2014 rated it it was amazing
4.5 starting over stars!

This was amazing! Tragic, but holy shit, Tyler's story broke me and slowly pieced me back together. Mostly. I hated his fucking father something fierce. He was such a piece of shit, the way he treated his only son. Only child for that matter. I wanted to stick my hand through my kindle, grab his throat and cut off all his air supply. Fuck. His mother was selfish for doing what she did. Part of me really hated her, almost as much as his dad. But Jordyn...oh sweet Jordyn.
Charlotte Huang
Apr 26, 2015 rated it it was amazing
I just finished this book but I can already tell the characters are going to stay with me for a long, long time. Not After Everything is a gritty, emotional, unputdownable read--heart-breaking in all the best ways.
Tanja (Tanychy) St. Delphi/James
Thank you for realistic ending!
Sep 26, 2015 rated it really liked it
Shelves: ya
You know those books that are so realistic that they make you love and hate them simultaneously? Yeah, this is one of those.
Mar 23, 2018 rated it did not like it
Shelves: nope
There are so many things wrong with this book I just can't....
Firstly, I hate how it shows that you just need somebody that you can't just stand the hell up on your own feet. Tyler lives in an abusive household, hates everyone, beats up literally everyone who talks to him but Jordyn is the "angel" who just 'talks' him out of his miserable life. Tf? How much does a 17 year old know?? And I don't understand how Tyler is also shown a good student like he literally doesn't study shit, for all I kno
Tyler had it all: a hot girlfriend, football scholarship to Standford, plenty of friends. He was king of the school Then his mom kills herself and he turns his back on all of it. Getting too close to people means they might find out his secret: that his father is abusive and refuses to pay for anything Tyler needs - including food. Tyler finds a job working in a photo studio and it's a great job. The only problem is Jordyn, a girl he used to be close friends with who now seems to hate him also w ...more
Paige (Illegal in 3 Countries)
See more of my reviews on The YA Kitten! My copy was a hardcover I got for review from YA Books Central.

Diversity Rating: 1 – Tokenism

1 (Jordyn is half-Malaysian; womanizing black best friend)
Disability: 0
Intersectionality: 1 (Tyler is low on the economic ladder)

Warnings for child abuse and animal abuse in Not After Everything

As a feminist, I recognize that men suffer due to the patriarchy too. They are given an impossible ideal of masculinity to live up to: a guy with
Rachel 007
Sep 09, 2014 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Disclaimer: Do not read if emotional/physical abuse or animal abuse is distressing to you.

Now that we've got that out of the way...I am always wary of book comparisons in blurbs. THE SPECTACULAR NOW is one of my favorite YA novels and often when it's used as a comparative title, it's not right. That is NOT the case here.

NOT AFTER EVERYTHING by Michelle Levy is about seventeen-year-old Tyler, who just doesn't have give a sh*t anymore. Similar to THE SPECTACULAR NOW and PERFECTLY GOOD WHITE BOY,
Natalie (Never trust a duck)
Oh look, there's a piece of my shattered heart over there.
Laurence R.
Jan 10, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Such a heartbreaking book! I don’t often read novels narrated by teenage boys, so it was an interesting point of view.
Robin Reul
Jun 11, 2015 rated it it was amazing
Every once in a while a book comes along that guts you, and Not After Everything is one of those stories. The characters are so raw and honest, and the emotional frequency is turned way up in this brutal portrait of a young man whose life is so broken and finds healing and friendship from an unlikely source. From the dialogue to the description, I was immersed in this story from the first page to the last. Highly recommended, but I suggest having tissues nearby.
John Clark
Sep 09, 2015 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Oh, what evil we do to our children in the name of love. Tyler's removed himself from everything he cared about except for his dog. It wasn't that long ago when he was alive with optimism, had stellar grades in all AP classes, was star of the football team and had a hot girlfriend. All that went up in flames the day he came home from practice to get dry socks and Advil, only to find his mom had killed herself in the bathtub. She left no note, just incredible pain and guilt, plus an alcoholic and ...more
Christine Alibutud
Dec 28, 2015 rated it really liked it
Cowards die many times before their deaths; the valiant never taste of death but once. Of all the wonders that I yet have heard, it seems to me most strange that men should fear; seeing that death, a necessary end, will come when it will come.


Thought-provoking and emotion-evoking, to give it straight, this book was nothing short of honesty and authenticity. It deftly brings to the conscious mind that these certain heavy life issues tackled in the book are issues that most people tiptoe arou
Nov 06, 2015 rated it it was amazing
Rating 4.5 of 5

I should have been better prepared for the heartache captured within the pages of this book. Not After Everything involves suicide, verbal and physical abuse, and bullying, and even knowing these things prior to starting the book, I still wasn't prepared for all of the emotions I would experience. Once I started reading it, I didn't want to stop because I had to know that Tyler was going to make it out okay.

Not After Everything shows that we all deal with grief in different ways.
I liked this one a lot - great boy POV, very unrestrained, and for the most part, very realistically messy and...unidealized, for lack of a better word. I think every single fan of Carrie Mesrobian's books, especially Perfectly Good White Boy, which is my favorite of hers, should be picking this one up. I say "for the most part" above because there were these random things that felt overly and unnecessarily unrealistic and neat, which seemed like a strange fit in a book that was so admirably rel ...more
Jul 30, 2015 rated it it was ok
Shelves: owned
I'm a bit disappointed. The characters weren't anything special to me. I didn't really like them... The romance to me was just blah. But I was hooked to the story and I couldn't stop reading. I just really wish the characters were more likable.
Nov 09, 2015 rated it it was amazing
Heartbreaking and compulsively readable. Loved this book and couldn't put it down. About love and loss and the definition of family. Highly recommend.
M.  [storme reads a lot]
I wanted to like this book.
But the narrator was really rude.
And the ending left me like what the fuck.
May 03, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Finally book with realistic ending!
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Michelle Levy was born and raised in Littleton, Colorado, where she memorized books before she was able to read, tricking her parents into thinking she was a genius. At eighteen she moved to Los Angeles, to pursue a career in the entertainment industry. Michelle always secretly harbored a desire to write. She spent many insomnia-filled nights dreaming up stories that she never thought to write dow ...more

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