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Loving All Wrong #1
Jahleel
This. Book. Is. About. OBSESSION
It is NOT a traditional romance.
It deviates from the norm.
It defies...EVERYTHING.
This. Book. Is. About. OBSESSION
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A TRUE-ly fabricated story about Love & Obsession...
I’m an idiot.
I’m too stupid to be human. Too stupid to live.
I lack common sense.
I used to be a normal human being. Until the guy in the red hoodie. Just a glance, and I was owned. Enslaved.
What’s worst? He didn’t even notice me.
Yep. You guessed right: I’m delusional. I’m obsessed. I’m a stalker. A martyr. A masochist.
I’ve allowed my obsession to lead me down into a deep, dark pit, selfishly hurting everyone around me, and only his requited love can pull me out of it.
But I won’t apologize for it. I won’t apologize for being in love with Jahleel Kingston.
I’ve loved him at first sight. I’ve loved him for five empty years. I’ve loved him through all his bullcrap and asshole-isms.
I love him even now.
My name is Saskia Day. I’m British. I’m famous. I’m stinking rich. And this is my pathetic story.
Read at your own bloody risk.
It is NOT a traditional romance.
It deviates from the norm.
It defies...EVERYTHING.
This. Book. Is. About. OBSESSION
__________________________________________________
A TRUE-ly fabricated story about Love & Obsession...
I’m an idiot.
I’m too stupid to be human. Too stupid to live.
I lack common sense.
I used to be a normal human being. Until the guy in the red hoodie. Just a glance, and I was owned. Enslaved.
What’s worst? He didn’t even notice me.
Yep. You guessed right: I’m delusional. I’m obsessed. I’m a stalker. A martyr. A masochist.
I’ve allowed my obsession to lead me down into a deep, dark pit, selfishly hurting everyone around me, and only his requited love can pull me out of it.
But I won’t apologize for it. I won’t apologize for being in love with Jahleel Kingston.
I’ve loved him at first sight. I’ve loved him for five empty years. I’ve loved him through all his bullcrap and asshole-isms.
I love him even now.
My name is Saskia Day. I’m British. I’m famous. I’m stinking rich. And this is my pathetic story.
Read at your own bloody risk.
357 pages, ebook
First published April 7, 2014
About the author
S. Ann Cole
28 books393 followersI LOVE too much.
I READ too much.
I DREAM too much.
That about sums me up.
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READ TO ENJOY, NOT TO DESTROY.
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January 1, 2018
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️! Jahleel (stand-alone). One-of-a-kind story of obsession - games – seduction – love – lies – secret – betrayal!
“In that moment, it dawned on me that even if I won him, I wouldn’t be able to contain him. He was a beast, and I didn’t have the skills to tame him.”
Jahleel (stand-alone) is a unique story spanning close to a decade. It deals with obsession, stalking, secrets, games and betrayal.
After a 5-year obsession keeping tabs, watching every move and positioning herself to cross paths with her target, British music super star Saskia Valencia Day, Kia aka Sassy is finally going to get her chance with American dance choreographer and performer Jahleel Giovanni Kingston, JK.
But before you judge her, you have to meet Saskia.
She has come a long way from trying to make ends meet and being forced to raise her younger siblings. She is strong, charismatic and I’d say very patient. Saskia may desperately want Jahleel, but she will be cool about it every step of the way. Since shooting to super stardom she has an entourage like a fortress around her. But so does Jahleel. In fact, his walls are not only made by people, but by his aloof, non-committal, unapproachable a-hole personality.
And I loved just about every aspect of him even his mistakes and secrets.
This is a hot-cold cat-and-mouse game of mixed signals and sexual tension overload that will come to a blow, a full-on explosion only to crash and burn with the worst kind of betrayal. This is about obsession; about forcing events, going after the wrong guy and the aftermath of that.
“His golden gaze narrowed as he studied me for a minute too long, not lusting, no, just scrutinizing. “I’ve cancelled on you three times before, and I might do it again”
Eight words to describe Jahleel Giovanni Kingston, JK: Aloof, a-hole, non-committal, enigmatic, secretive, conflicted, selfish and complex.
Eight words to describe Saskia Valencia Day, Kia aka Sassy: OCD, cool, patient, determined, nurturing, protective, genuine and charismatic.
Jahleel is told from Saskia’s POV, allowing Jahleel to remain an enigma. There are no words to fairly describe their story. Saskia was in over her head and so was I, swept away in a game of manipulation, seduction, lies, secrets and betrayal. At one point there was an extended epilogue available, but even though I was given the opportunity to read it I was happy how their story ended.
“Jahleel was like a heavy-current river you can’t get around, and if you tried crossing it, its depth and wild, swift rush will swallow you up whole and whisk you off to somewhere beyond your control, taking the final decision of your destination out of your hands. No woman stood a chance with him.”
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Hero: ★★★★★
Heroine: ★★★★★
Plot: ★★★★★
Storytelling: ★★★★★
Sexual tension: ★★★★★
Sex scenes: ★★★★★
Story ending: ★★★★
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OVERALL RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Angst: | MEDIUM FOCUS |
Darkness: | LOW FOCUS |
Humor: | MEDIUM FOCUS |
Kink: | LOW FOCUS |
Romance: | MEDIUM FOCUS |
Sex frequency: | MEDIUM FOCUS |
Suspense: | MEDIUM FOCUS |
August 11, 2016
JAHLEEL is a patient read.
Intense, emotional, insane, but patient.
If you’re looking for an insta-sex, bunny-humping, BDSM-sprinkled story—stay away.
If you have the patience for a slow-build
If you are allergic or intolerable to TSTL (too stupid to live) heroines—stay away. (Read the blurb, dudes!)
If you can’t stand asshole heroes—stay away.
If you’re looking for the popular theme of boy meets broken girl/girl meet broken boy, insta-love, rich alpha boy chases and bosses around girl until girl gives in etc.—stay away. (There’s chasing going on in this one alright, but it aint the boy who’s chasing…)
JAHLEEL is a story about obsession. Not love. Or is it? Is obsession love? Is love obsession?
This story is exasperating. Sexually frustrating. Heart-aching.
It is character driven, not plot driven. No high drama. No action. Just pure, raw emotions. It’s not the story that you just race through. It’s the story you settle into, getting to know the characters, feeling what they feel.
As aforementioned, this is a patient read, deliberately unhurried, and most definitely won’t be everyone’s cuppa tea. I’m realistic, so I expect DNFs and low ratings. No two people read the same book, and we can’t love them all. I know.
But if you wanna give JAHLEEL a try, I suggest reading the sample before purchasing. That’s usually the best way to find out if a book is for you. Saskia Day is the kind of heroine that not many readers can tolerate. So, please read the blurb, please read the sample.
Whatever the outcome, hit or miss, JAHLEEL will always be a special story for me, as this is based on true events. And believe me, I’ve fabricated it not to make it better, but to tone it down, because the real story was just…wow…pure fucking insanity. Too much to put on paper.
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Ann
March 9, 2016
1 disappointing star
Here's the story line:
•girl sees the most attractive boy in the entire fucking world
•insta-love
•changes herself for the boy
•follows the boy around like a damn puppy (that gets kicked)
•gets misused/abused by said boy & still loves boy
•boy leaves girl, & she leads on another male character who clearly loves/likes her
•tries to kill herself when said boy leaves her
•boy saves girl, and declares he cannot live without her.
•they ride off to sunset on a fucking unicorn.
Holy fucking hell! See that story line somewhere?
*gasp* B-bu-but thats..
yes *nods vehemently*
that is.. *gasp* TWILIGHT!
Hell yes! That is Stephanie Mayer's entire Twilight series mashed in one book. I never wondered, you know, after reading Twilight that is, what would happen if someone were to do it all in one book.. and golly me! I never have to after this! Sheesh, this took pathetic to a whole new level.
OK, let me clarify, for those who loved this book, I have/had no problem with the insta-love. An author needs something to kick start a story right? And if obsession with a stranger is what's going to kick a story off, then I'm all about it. And when I say I abhorred this book, I don't say it because of that. I have read books that have stemmed from instant obsession, and I've loved them. (See: Twist Me by Anna Zairs.)
Now to begin, we have Saskia, an upcoming singer who sees a backstage dancer, and falls instantly in love with him. She practically stalks him, to get noticed. The story was good till there, Saskia was an interesting character, until she just made me hate her and this book. Vehemently.
Why you ask? Here, I've listed them all down:
1. Judgmental: God this idiot was so judgmental, it was not funny. She was a world famous singer, and could have anyone on her entourage, but she kept people she didn't trust. Why? Because "keep your friends close and your enemies closer". Dude! You are filthy rich! Whats the problem with you! Just kick them out if you hate the people close to you so much and get other people. And then there is the fact that she calls everyone.. and I mean, every girl who wants to sleep with Jahleel a slut. Which brings me to the next point..
2.Hypocritical slut shaming: She continuously keeps saying how this girl or that girl is a total slut, whore, hoe.. bla bla bla for sleeping with Jahleel. Because Jahleel is hers *eyeroll*. Look dude, I can actually sympathize with you about seeing the entire world sleeping with your love interest... but only when you don't act like the entire female population that does that! All she kept saying the entire book was how much she wanted to be the one sleeping with Jahleel. How the hell does she even think she is any different from any girl she hates, when herself just keeps 'begging' him to sleep with her. Tsk tsk little girl, be a good sport in this competition for his dick. Wait for your turn..
3.Continued portrayal of weak women: Look, that norm, that a woman could not function without a man was left by the human race, back in the medieval ages. And for a reason. The feminists have fought, the women in the world have struggled just to give women rights as equal to men. Because we are equal to men. Not any less. But this book just might have shot every feminist between their eyes. Saskia is so dependent on Jahleel, that she just can't function without him. She falls off the wagon, and just looses herself. That is not cool dear author. That is so not cool.
4.Unnecessary arsehole: OK why was Christian Grey the way he was? Why was he an abuser? We get a reason right? He had a really traumatizing childhood. We can empathize with that. A little. Now, why was Jahleel Kingston an abuser? I don't know. According to him, men are born arseholes, which in this book seems to be the code word for abuser.
Now just change every 'asshole' with abuser, and see how scary the entire thing suddenly becomes. I don't have to say anything else to that.
5.Instant forgiveness when the "i love you" is used: After Saskia attempts to commit suicide, Jahleel goes to her and tells her that he loves her. And everything, I mean everything is forgiven. His abusing her, his cheating on her after promising exclusivity, his attacking her boyfriend, everything. Look I don't expect a model perfect couple. Real life is raw and gritty, so if you are going to try raw and gritty, you have to stick to it. Her instant forgiveness of Jahleel, once he say those three words made me nauseous. Books like these make you hate every single "i love you's".
6.Rock version of Bella Swan: OK Twilight fans, this point is not for you, but since I am not one, I am going to say I hated Bella's character. You know why? Because she had none, and Saskia was just Bella Swan in tats and ripped jeans.
7.Twilight ripoff. I rest my case.
Seriously, it's been a long while since I hated a book this much. I couldn't stand it. So many times I just wanted to DNF it, but it took me literally ages to finish it. I am thoroughly disappointed with it. Nothing else to say.
Do I recommend it to anyone?
Hell no.
Here's the story line:
•girl sees the most attractive boy in the entire fucking world
•insta-love
•changes herself for the boy
•follows the boy around like a damn puppy (that gets kicked)
•gets misused/abused by said boy & still loves boy
•boy leaves girl, & she leads on another male character who clearly loves/likes her
•tries to kill herself when said boy leaves her
•boy saves girl, and declares he cannot live without her.
•they ride off to sunset on a fucking unicorn.
Holy fucking hell! See that story line somewhere?
*gasp* B-bu-but thats..
yes *nods vehemently*
that is.. *gasp* TWILIGHT!
Hell yes! That is Stephanie Mayer's entire Twilight series mashed in one book. I never wondered, you know, after reading Twilight that is, what would happen if someone were to do it all in one book.. and golly me! I never have to after this! Sheesh, this took pathetic to a whole new level.
OK, let me clarify, for those who loved this book, I have/had no problem with the insta-love. An author needs something to kick start a story right? And if obsession with a stranger is what's going to kick a story off, then I'm all about it. And when I say I abhorred this book, I don't say it because of that. I have read books that have stemmed from instant obsession, and I've loved them. (See: Twist Me by Anna Zairs.)
Now to begin, we have Saskia, an upcoming singer who sees a backstage dancer, and falls instantly in love with him. She practically stalks him, to get noticed. The story was good till there, Saskia was an interesting character, until she just made me hate her and this book. Vehemently.
Why you ask? Here, I've listed them all down:
1. Judgmental: God this idiot was so judgmental, it was not funny. She was a world famous singer, and could have anyone on her entourage, but she kept people she didn't trust. Why? Because "keep your friends close and your enemies closer". Dude! You are filthy rich! Whats the problem with you! Just kick them out if you hate the people close to you so much and get other people. And then there is the fact that she calls everyone.. and I mean, every girl who wants to sleep with Jahleel a slut. Which brings me to the next point..
2.Hypocritical slut shaming: She continuously keeps saying how this girl or that girl is a total slut, whore, hoe.. bla bla bla for sleeping with Jahleel. Because Jahleel is hers *eyeroll*. Look dude, I can actually sympathize with you about seeing the entire world sleeping with your love interest... but only when you don't act like the entire female population that does that! All she kept saying the entire book was how much she wanted to be the one sleeping with Jahleel. How the hell does she even think she is any different from any girl she hates, when herself just keeps 'begging' him to sleep with her. Tsk tsk little girl, be a good sport in this competition for his dick. Wait for your turn..
3.Continued portrayal of weak women: Look, that norm, that a woman could not function without a man was left by the human race, back in the medieval ages. And for a reason. The feminists have fought, the women in the world have struggled just to give women rights as equal to men. Because we are equal to men. Not any less. But this book just might have shot every feminist between their eyes. Saskia is so dependent on Jahleel, that she just can't function without him. She falls off the wagon, and just looses herself. That is not cool dear author. That is so not cool.
4.Unnecessary arsehole: OK why was Christian Grey the way he was? Why was he an abuser? We get a reason right? He had a really traumatizing childhood. We can empathize with that. A little. Now, why was Jahleel Kingston an abuser? I don't know. According to him, men are born arseholes, which in this book seems to be the code word for abuser.
“That’s the thing with you women. You always think there’s some psychological explanation for why a dude acts the way he does. You always think you can ‘save’ him, ‘change’ him. But really, most men come into the world as jackasses and assholes and will die as jackasses and assholes. Hard as you try, they can’t be saved by some girl, no matter how good she can ride or suck a cock.." -Jahleel Kingston
Now just change every 'asshole' with abuser, and see how scary the entire thing suddenly becomes. I don't have to say anything else to that.
5.Instant forgiveness when the "i love you" is used: After Saskia attempts to commit suicide, Jahleel goes to her and tells her that he loves her. And everything, I mean everything is forgiven. His abusing her, his cheating on her after promising exclusivity, his attacking her boyfriend, everything. Look I don't expect a model perfect couple. Real life is raw and gritty, so if you are going to try raw and gritty, you have to stick to it. Her instant forgiveness of Jahleel, once he say those three words made me nauseous. Books like these make you hate every single "i love you's".
6.Rock version of Bella Swan: OK Twilight fans, this point is not for you, but since I am not one, I am going to say I hated Bella's character. You know why? Because she had none, and Saskia was just Bella Swan in tats and ripped jeans.
7.Twilight ripoff. I rest my case.
Seriously, it's been a long while since I hated a book this much. I couldn't stand it. So many times I just wanted to DNF it, but it took me literally ages to finish it. I am thoroughly disappointed with it. Nothing else to say.
Do I recommend it to anyone?
Hell no.
July 29, 2016
4.5 Obsessive Stars!
I needed to take a moment after reading this book cause I was that emotionally transfixed.
Saskia Day, rich, beautiful, talented and famous, she can have anything she wants except that one thing she really wants, Jahleel Kingston or JK. He became her obsession since the first time she got a glimpse of him, yes, with just a glimpse! While JK shrug her off like she is nothing.
It's like this for the most part, JK couldn’t be bothered by Saskia, while Saskia tries to reign in her obsession for sometime with the help of her career that kept her busy. But even that did not last. She moved from UK to the US to follow him and even changed her hair colour for him!
I really wanted to hate Saskia but despite her only weakness or insanity that is JK, she is really a strong, feisty and loving person. She takes care of her siblings, and is very protective specially with her brother. And they call her “Ma” which I thought was really sweet.
But when it comes to JK, all her brain goes out the window. A lot of times I wanna shake her till she wakes up!
The more so when she got close to JK…. This OBSESSION turned LOVE which turns to Obsessive Love…. an unrequited love that has completely gone wrong.
I seriously hated JK for most part of this book, he knows how Saskia feels and it felt like he is playing with her emotions. But you can also sense there is something seriously wrong with JK. He is, as what you’d call, a “broken” person. He is so mysterious. What I didn’t know is that this book is a spinoff of Billionaire Brother’s series “I choose You” and since I have not read that book, I don’t know much about JK’s background. Just that he seems to have this strong issues with his parents and that he seems to be pining over his adopted sister Krissy. Then despite all his crazies, he does something that makes you love him too.
Then there’s Chad… he is everything that is perfect for Saskia… and he wants Saskia to choose him…
Did I not mention this book is emotionally frustrating? Not to mention all the sexual frustration too!
It drove me crazy really, yet I couldn’t put it down… except that time when Saskia listened to “Say Something” by A Great Big World and Christina Aguilera, and I stopped reading to listen to the music and lyrics… then cried with her.
Intense, edgy and heart wrenching. This is the first book that I’ve read by S. Ann Cole, and definitely not the last!
Written under Saskia’s POV.
Review also posted and shared here :
http://slitsread.wordpress.com/2014/0...
https://www.facebook.com/SLiTsReaD
I needed to take a moment after reading this book cause I was that emotionally transfixed.
This. Book. Is. About. OBSESSION
It is NOT a traditional romance.
It deviates from the norm.
It defies…EVERYTHING.
This. Book. Is. About. OBSESSION
Saskia Day, rich, beautiful, talented and famous, she can have anything she wants except that one thing she really wants, Jahleel Kingston or JK. He became her obsession since the first time she got a glimpse of him, yes, with just a glimpse! While JK shrug her off like she is nothing.
It's like this for the most part, JK couldn’t be bothered by Saskia, while Saskia tries to reign in her obsession for sometime with the help of her career that kept her busy. But even that did not last. She moved from UK to the US to follow him and even changed her hair colour for him!
I really wanted to hate Saskia but despite her only weakness or insanity that is JK, she is really a strong, feisty and loving person. She takes care of her siblings, and is very protective specially with her brother. And they call her “Ma” which I thought was really sweet.
But when it comes to JK, all her brain goes out the window. A lot of times I wanna shake her till she wakes up!
The more so when she got close to JK…. This OBSESSION turned LOVE which turns to Obsessive Love…. an unrequited love that has completely gone wrong.
“If I let go of him, I’ll let go of life.”
I seriously hated JK for most part of this book, he knows how Saskia feels and it felt like he is playing with her emotions. But you can also sense there is something seriously wrong with JK. He is, as what you’d call, a “broken” person. He is so mysterious. What I didn’t know is that this book is a spinoff of Billionaire Brother’s series “I choose You” and since I have not read that book, I don’t know much about JK’s background. Just that he seems to have this strong issues with his parents and that he seems to be pining over his adopted sister Krissy. Then despite all his crazies, he does something that makes you love him too.
Then there’s Chad… he is everything that is perfect for Saskia… and he wants Saskia to choose him…
Did I not mention this book is emotionally frustrating? Not to mention all the sexual frustration too!
It drove me crazy really, yet I couldn’t put it down… except that time when Saskia listened to “Say Something” by A Great Big World and Christina Aguilera, and I stopped reading to listen to the music and lyrics… then cried with her.
Intense, edgy and heart wrenching. This is the first book that I’ve read by S. Ann Cole, and definitely not the last!
Written under Saskia’s POV.
Review also posted and shared here :
http://slitsread.wordpress.com/2014/0...
https://www.facebook.com/SLiTsReaD
September 2, 2016
Let me start by saying that I don't want to offend the author or any reader who greatly enjoyed the book, but I need to share my utter disappointment and disgust after reading it.
One of the worst romance novel I've ever read. Reason being, the freakin' annoying and stupid characters. I can barely believe this isn't a parody.
Saskia
I cringed so many times. I would think, "no, she is not possibly going to say or do thaaaat" ... and then she would!
And then the hero……I just can't fathom such selfish, moronic, naive imbecile of a human being!
But I was good: I skimmed right through the end!
And you mean to tell me that her story continues on in further books? Hmmm, shall I continue on to find out what happens to our lovely h\h?
Thinking about the other one makes me cringe.
One of the worst romance novel I've ever read. Reason being, the freakin' annoying and stupid characters. I can barely believe this isn't a parody.
Saskia
I cringed so many times. I would think, "no, she is not possibly going to say or do thaaaat" ... and then she would!
And then the hero……I just can't fathom such selfish, moronic, naive imbecile of a human being!
But I was good: I skimmed right through the end!
And you mean to tell me that her story continues on in further books? Hmmm, shall I continue on to find out what happens to our lovely h\h?
Thinking about the other one makes me cringe.
April 2, 2018
I'm so torn writing this review
On one hand I liked the book and the writing.
On the other hand I could not understand this girl's obsession until way past 50% of the book which should have been a DNF. Right? Somehow I kept wanting more and readin' on
I'll salute Ann Cole's talent on this one. I didn't even "like" Jahleel until the last few chapters.
#wondersnevercease
On one hand I liked the book and the writing.
On the other hand I could not understand this girl's obsession until way past 50% of the book which should have been a DNF. Right? Somehow I kept wanting more and readin' on
I'll salute Ann Cole's talent on this one. I didn't even "like" Jahleel until the last few chapters.
#wondersnevercease
April 10, 2014
What the hell did I just read?? I don’t know if I farken LOVE this or hate it!! I am torn. Honestly it is one all the other, stay with me her people this is going to get a little ranty.
Synopsis
A TRUE-ly fabricated story about Love & Obsession...
I’m an idiot.
I’m too stupid to be human. Too stupid to live.
I lack common sense.
I used to be a normal human being. Until the guy in the red hoodie. Just a glance, and I was owned. Enslaved.
What’s worst? He didn’t even notice me.
Yep. You guessed right: I’m delusional. I’m obsessed. I’m a stalker. A martyr. A masochist.
I’ve allowed my obsession to lead me down into a deep, dark pit, selfishly hurting everyone around me, and only his requited love can pull me out of it.
But I won’t apologize for it. I won’t apologize for being in love with Jahleel Kingston.
I’ve loved him at first sight. I’ve loved him for five empty years. I’ve loved him through all his bullcrap and asshole-isms.
I love him even now.
My name is Saskia Day. I’m British. I’m famous. I’m stinking rich. And this is my pathetic story.
Read at your own bloody risk.
What I Thought!
This is my reaction when thinking about Saskia Day
Saskia farken day is a bad person, she is a self-absorbed, selfish twat waffle and I hated her. She cared nothing for anyone else and was so up her own arse I’m surprised she didn’t smell shit everyplace she went, but wait….. Oh that’s right her shit didn’t stink. She really was unbelievable. She is the type to pull the “do you know who I am “card she honestly thought she was better than everyone else all the farken time I really hated her with a passion.
She was upset Chad thought she was fake??? She was fake even by her own admission, the first time Chad had meet her she was being fake, and you know she is in the bloody dance studio under false pretenses in the first place. Later on she goes on about how well trained she was at being fake, it really was no surprise at least one person could see it!!
She goes off about people treating her brother like shit when she is the worse at it, one part she says to her friends that if they say anything about him she is done with them,…then 5 min later they text shit and she does nothing??? What an awesome sister she is!!
So dysfunctional and messed up I really just didn’t see why anyone liked her at all, let alone having a couple of guys love her even. And Jahleel wtf everything he said and did had me going.
then the next second I was confused as hell.
I’m not going to go over all there was just too much, ill just say I hated him too!! Neither of them did anything remotely good to make up for being such douche canoes!
Also on a side note, when Saskia and Lion talking about cheating and how she just has to deal with it.
But with all that going on you have to give credit where credit is due!! S. Ann Cole did a awesome job at this and the reason I didn’t give this 1 star is because I honestly think this was all on purpose. I think I was meant to hate these people. This is the first in a series so I can’t wait to see where this goes!!
This got 4 stars from me for the simple fact is S. Ann Cole caused emotion in me. I haven’t hated a character this much since Voldemort, I went to bed with this book and when I put it down I was thinking about it, when I woke up I was thinking about it. When I wasn’t reading it I was thinking about it. No, even though my feelings weren’t all good, I do believe that is a mark of a good book. If something stays with you after you put it down then I’m sold!!
Synopsis
A TRUE-ly fabricated story about Love & Obsession...
I’m an idiot.
I’m too stupid to be human. Too stupid to live.
I lack common sense.
I used to be a normal human being. Until the guy in the red hoodie. Just a glance, and I was owned. Enslaved.
What’s worst? He didn’t even notice me.
Yep. You guessed right: I’m delusional. I’m obsessed. I’m a stalker. A martyr. A masochist.
I’ve allowed my obsession to lead me down into a deep, dark pit, selfishly hurting everyone around me, and only his requited love can pull me out of it.
But I won’t apologize for it. I won’t apologize for being in love with Jahleel Kingston.
I’ve loved him at first sight. I’ve loved him for five empty years. I’ve loved him through all his bullcrap and asshole-isms.
I love him even now.
My name is Saskia Day. I’m British. I’m famous. I’m stinking rich. And this is my pathetic story.
Read at your own bloody risk.
What I Thought!
This is my reaction when thinking about Saskia Day
Saskia farken day is a bad person, she is a self-absorbed, selfish twat waffle and I hated her. She cared nothing for anyone else and was so up her own arse I’m surprised she didn’t smell shit everyplace she went, but wait….. Oh that’s right her shit didn’t stink. She really was unbelievable. She is the type to pull the “do you know who I am “card she honestly thought she was better than everyone else all the farken time I really hated her with a passion.
She was upset Chad thought she was fake??? She was fake even by her own admission, the first time Chad had meet her she was being fake, and you know she is in the bloody dance studio under false pretenses in the first place. Later on she goes on about how well trained she was at being fake, it really was no surprise at least one person could see it!!
She goes off about people treating her brother like shit when she is the worse at it, one part she says to her friends that if they say anything about him she is done with them,…then 5 min later they text shit and she does nothing??? What an awesome sister she is!!
So dysfunctional and messed up I really just didn’t see why anyone liked her at all, let alone having a couple of guys love her even. And Jahleel wtf everything he said and did had me going.
then the next second I was confused as hell.
I’m not going to go over all there was just too much, ill just say I hated him too!! Neither of them did anything remotely good to make up for being such douche canoes!
Also on a side note, when Saskia and Lion talking about cheating and how she just has to deal with it.
But with all that going on you have to give credit where credit is due!! S. Ann Cole did a awesome job at this and the reason I didn’t give this 1 star is because I honestly think this was all on purpose. I think I was meant to hate these people. This is the first in a series so I can’t wait to see where this goes!!
This got 4 stars from me for the simple fact is S. Ann Cole caused emotion in me. I haven’t hated a character this much since Voldemort, I went to bed with this book and when I put it down I was thinking about it, when I woke up I was thinking about it. When I wasn’t reading it I was thinking about it. No, even though my feelings weren’t all good, I do believe that is a mark of a good book. If something stays with you after you put it down then I’m sold!!
April 17, 2014
4.5stars.
WHO THE F--- IS JAHLEEL? Well, you just have to read it.
This book: it was a mess sometimes. At times, juvenile and over the top. If you're looking for depth and moving storylines and complex characters: skip this.
IT'S NOT THE STORY. THE PLOT. THE MINDFUCK. THE LYRICAL PROSE. THE PERFECT PACE. NOR THE GREAT CHARACTERS. AT CERTAIN TIMES, YOU JUST FALL IN LOVE WITH A BOOK BECAUSE OF THE FEELS THAT IT GIVES YOU. AND JAHLEEL GAVE ME PLENTY OF THAT. Kind of a throwback to Beautiful Disaster and Remy. Those books weren't literary masterpieces, but they gave you that feeling - just like Jahleel. HAVING SAID THAT: THIS WILL OBVIOUSLY BE A BOOK THAT PEOPLE WILL EITHER LOVE OR HATE - NO IN BETWEEN.
If you want the slow burn. The full-on angst that makes you consume alcohol for breakfast (maybe that's just me), you need to read this book. I couldn't put it down because I was forever anticipating. I was on edge. I also hurt for Saskia - too much. Jahleel - you'd absolute LOVE to HATE him.
And that blurb is only part of it. Yes, it was about obsession. But that was only Saskia's role in all of this. Jahleel is the other half. And he is the ultimate arsehole. HE WAS A C-NT TEASE.
That about sums up Jahleel being an asshole and a tease for the most part. But there is more to the story and well, you just have to pick it up. As for me, I'm obviously itching to get my hands on that novella. June, really? At least, I can read https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1... for now. Here's to hoping it's not going to make me question Jahleel's long-term devotion...
WHO THE F--- IS JAHLEEL? Well, you just have to read it.
This book: it was a mess sometimes. At times, juvenile and over the top. If you're looking for depth and moving storylines and complex characters: skip this.
IT'S NOT THE STORY. THE PLOT. THE MINDFUCK. THE LYRICAL PROSE. THE PERFECT PACE. NOR THE GREAT CHARACTERS. AT CERTAIN TIMES, YOU JUST FALL IN LOVE WITH A BOOK BECAUSE OF THE FEELS THAT IT GIVES YOU. AND JAHLEEL GAVE ME PLENTY OF THAT. Kind of a throwback to Beautiful Disaster and Remy. Those books weren't literary masterpieces, but they gave you that feeling - just like Jahleel. HAVING SAID THAT: THIS WILL OBVIOUSLY BE A BOOK THAT PEOPLE WILL EITHER LOVE OR HATE - NO IN BETWEEN.
If you want the slow burn. The full-on angst that makes you consume alcohol for breakfast (maybe that's just me), you need to read this book. I couldn't put it down because I was forever anticipating. I was on edge. I also hurt for Saskia - too much. Jahleel - you'd absolute LOVE to HATE him.
And that blurb is only part of it. Yes, it was about obsession. But that was only Saskia's role in all of this. Jahleel is the other half. And he is the ultimate arsehole. HE WAS A C-NT TEASE.
"You don't seem to care about protecting your emotional state or what I could do to it. See, I'm an asshole, and I know I'm an asshole, and I wanna get the most out of you as a person before I fuck you and end up doing or saying some fucked-up shit, as I tend to do. Because when I do, you'll want nothing more to do with me. And that will be that. But at least I'll have memoriles like what I've tried to create today to hold on to. I wanna know the moment I slide my c inside you, you'll know whose c is inside you, you'll know whose c is inside you. Not just my name. But absolutely everything about the man who's on top of you. Fucking you. Sharing himself with you."
That about sums up Jahleel being an asshole and a tease for the most part. But there is more to the story and well, you just have to pick it up. As for me, I'm obviously itching to get my hands on that novella. June, really? At least, I can read https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1... for now. Here's to hoping it's not going to make me question Jahleel's long-term devotion...
April 10, 2014
Jahleel (Love All Wrong)
Okay so here it goes! I truly have a love hate thing going on with this book. I love it because it was a damn good read, I honestly took my time (and I'm a normally a fast reader), even with that being said the book ended too quickly. I couldn't get enough! I laugh, I cried and I got mad. I hated Jahleel and then I love him. Saskia made me want to slap her then hug her. I do recommend this book to everyone. Also you should read S.Ann Cole other books The Billionaire Brothers. Again great read!!! can't wait for the next installment #OneLove
Okay so here it goes! I truly have a love hate thing going on with this book. I love it because it was a damn good read, I honestly took my time (and I'm a normally a fast reader), even with that being said the book ended too quickly. I couldn't get enough! I laugh, I cried and I got mad. I hated Jahleel and then I love him. Saskia made me want to slap her then hug her. I do recommend this book to everyone. Also you should read S.Ann Cole other books The Billionaire Brothers. Again great read!!! can't wait for the next installment #OneLove
January 9, 2017
“Jahleel” by S. Ann Cole
5 out of 5 stars
This book is intense with a capital “I”! Cole has done an amazing job of reaching into the depths of her characters’ souls and wringing every last drop of emotion out on the page. This is one you will not be able to put down, so relax and dig in.
Saskia is on the brink of big life changes. She has lined up a gig opening for the musical mastermind, Lion T’mar, and once she hits that stage her life will never be the same. After an amazing show, she heads backstage to meet the man and comes face to face with her destiny. Jahleel is Lion’s best dancer and despite her efforts he acts as though she doesn’t exist. In that one moment, Saskia’s life shifts and she is forever changed. She spends the next several years trying to get close to the one man who holds her heart, conquering America’s musical charts in the process. When she finally finds herself in Jahleel’s presence, once again, an epic journey is begun. Can she convince him to give her a chance or will all her years of longing be wasted on a man who doesn’t feel the same?
Saskia is just a little bit crazy. Believing she has fallen in love in the span of a moment, she spends YEARS just trying to be in the same room with Jahleel again. She uproots her life and family in an effort to do just that. It’s almost as though that one meeting with him broke her. She only remains grounded by the group she surrounds herself with in the form of her brother Ferbie, her best friend Amanda, her mentor Lion, her quasi-friends Amy and Jamie, and a few bodyguards. To her family, she is fiercely loyal and attributes her drive and ambition to creating a better quality of life for those she loves. She is hugely talented and has reached the top but still feels hollow.
Jahleel, despite his laid back attitude, is beyond complex. Believing himself in love with his adopted sister, he refuses to let anyone else beyond the walls he builds around himself. It’s obvious that he has undeniable feelings for Saskia but won’t allow himself to explore a true relationship with her.
Together these two are dysfunctional, complicated, and yet so incredibly right for one another. Jahleel holds her emotionally hostage and Saskia hammers at his walls incessantly. They fight, they come together, they fight again, and the cycle continues. They damage one another and then realize that they can only find healing together. It’s like watching a train wreck and not being able to look away. Their relationship is insane and raw, but combustible and real at the same time. I loved watching the magnetic pull between them and seeing them find their way back to each other again and again.
Somehow or another, Cole has taken something that shouldn’t work and made it believable. With each page I was more and more invested in their relationship. I felt every bump in the road along with them and ached for them in turn. This story is achingly beautiful and haunting. Cole’s style flows from the page and the book is hard to walk away from. Even as I read the past page, my head (and heart) was still fully committed to the characters and I didn’t want to leave them behind.
This book is one I would shout from the rooftops to recommend. You’ll be doing yourself a favor by giving it a read and then passing it on to your friends. You won’t regret clicking the “buy” button on this one.
*I was given a complimentary copy by the Author/Publisher in exchange for an honest review.*
Shannon, My Secret Book Spot
5 out of 5 stars
This book is intense with a capital “I”! Cole has done an amazing job of reaching into the depths of her characters’ souls and wringing every last drop of emotion out on the page. This is one you will not be able to put down, so relax and dig in.
Saskia is on the brink of big life changes. She has lined up a gig opening for the musical mastermind, Lion T’mar, and once she hits that stage her life will never be the same. After an amazing show, she heads backstage to meet the man and comes face to face with her destiny. Jahleel is Lion’s best dancer and despite her efforts he acts as though she doesn’t exist. In that one moment, Saskia’s life shifts and she is forever changed. She spends the next several years trying to get close to the one man who holds her heart, conquering America’s musical charts in the process. When she finally finds herself in Jahleel’s presence, once again, an epic journey is begun. Can she convince him to give her a chance or will all her years of longing be wasted on a man who doesn’t feel the same?
Saskia is just a little bit crazy. Believing she has fallen in love in the span of a moment, she spends YEARS just trying to be in the same room with Jahleel again. She uproots her life and family in an effort to do just that. It’s almost as though that one meeting with him broke her. She only remains grounded by the group she surrounds herself with in the form of her brother Ferbie, her best friend Amanda, her mentor Lion, her quasi-friends Amy and Jamie, and a few bodyguards. To her family, she is fiercely loyal and attributes her drive and ambition to creating a better quality of life for those she loves. She is hugely talented and has reached the top but still feels hollow.
Jahleel, despite his laid back attitude, is beyond complex. Believing himself in love with his adopted sister, he refuses to let anyone else beyond the walls he builds around himself. It’s obvious that he has undeniable feelings for Saskia but won’t allow himself to explore a true relationship with her.
Together these two are dysfunctional, complicated, and yet so incredibly right for one another. Jahleel holds her emotionally hostage and Saskia hammers at his walls incessantly. They fight, they come together, they fight again, and the cycle continues. They damage one another and then realize that they can only find healing together. It’s like watching a train wreck and not being able to look away. Their relationship is insane and raw, but combustible and real at the same time. I loved watching the magnetic pull between them and seeing them find their way back to each other again and again.
Somehow or another, Cole has taken something that shouldn’t work and made it believable. With each page I was more and more invested in their relationship. I felt every bump in the road along with them and ached for them in turn. This story is achingly beautiful and haunting. Cole’s style flows from the page and the book is hard to walk away from. Even as I read the past page, my head (and heart) was still fully committed to the characters and I didn’t want to leave them behind.
This book is one I would shout from the rooftops to recommend. You’ll be doing yourself a favor by giving it a read and then passing it on to your friends. You won’t regret clicking the “buy” button on this one.
*I was given a complimentary copy by the Author/Publisher in exchange for an honest review.*
Shannon, My Secret Book Spot
April 10, 2014
My Rating - 4.5/5
As soon as I finished I Choose You I was dying to read Jahleel's book. Frankly I had certain expectations regarding this book, I knew it would be angsty, and some readers may not be okay with that, but for me it was bloody brilliant.
Saskia Day is a British singer who falls instantly to the point of obsession for Jahleel (JK) who at that time was a backup dancer for Lion T'mar. Five years later Saskia moves to SF, Jahleel is a big dance choreographer now, a bigger manwhore and the biggest arsehole! Their journey can be described in one word tumultuous!!!!
Saskia, I totally have a girl crush on her! She stole the book from Jahleel. She is loyal, fiery girl. She was unapologetically in love and lust with JK. She literally begged JK for scraps but she never lost herself except the bomb before the end!!!!
Jahleel, what a complex man! He has commitment issues, fucks around a lot. When he started a platonic relationship with Saskia, it was raw, gritty and truthful.
Coming to the secondary characters I adored Saskia's BFF Amanda, Chad (I want his book!!!!!) and Lion was a pretty good pseudo- father figure.
There were some minute grammatical mistakes that I noticed because I am a nit picky reader. This is an emotional read told from Saskia's POV, but everyone should put their big pants on and go for the ride because it is so worth it! You will hate Jahleel and crave him! It's a long book (I just checked in my iPad, din't even realize it) but not even once you will feel disconnected. Till the last page you are engaged and the author has done a very commendable portrayal of an obsessive romance.
Now, I am waiting for the novella! I want my Jahleel fix!!
April 7, 2014
I have to say that at first I wasn't sure if I was going to like this book. I loved the cover but the idea of loving someone and he not even acknowledging you is kind of a no no for me but I am so glad I read it because what I got from this book was so much more than I expected!
Saskia Day is in love with Jahleel Kingston. She does everything she can to be around him and get his attention. She moves her family in order to be around this guy. I mean who the hell does that???????? Well she does and she is willing to do and say whatever to be with him. But Jahleel acts like Saskia does not exist. He has walls so high and strong that no matter she says and does he will not deter from what he is doing.
The push and pull from these two was amazing. I mean I could not get enough of them they were so hilarious and at times I was screaming at my kindle like WTF you know you like her take the leap and just give her a chance. But for years Jahleel keeps saskia at arms length and never wavers until things start to change and Saskia looks like she is giving up but is she really or is she just ready to move on and be friends?
Will these two find their happily ever after or will Jahleel's stubbornness win and they go their separate ways........
Saskia Day is in love with Jahleel Kingston. She does everything she can to be around him and get his attention. She moves her family in order to be around this guy. I mean who the hell does that???????? Well she does and she is willing to do and say whatever to be with him. But Jahleel acts like Saskia does not exist. He has walls so high and strong that no matter she says and does he will not deter from what he is doing.
The push and pull from these two was amazing. I mean I could not get enough of them they were so hilarious and at times I was screaming at my kindle like WTF you know you like her take the leap and just give her a chance. But for years Jahleel keeps saskia at arms length and never wavers until things start to change and Saskia looks like she is giving up but is she really or is she just ready to move on and be friends?
Will these two find their happily ever after or will Jahleel's stubbornness win and they go their separate ways........
April 16, 2014
I'm not much of a book Reviewer...I have a full time job at a hospital. I'm a full time wife and mother of 2 little girls. I just don't have time to write my thoughts down after every book. However, you can always tell which books are my favorites bc I do manage to at least give it a shout out. And if any book needs a shout out, it would be this one. This is probably one of the best books I've read so far this year! I was up until 3 finishing it and I'm dragging ass at work right now but it was SO worth it. I can't wait for the follow up novella and Cole's previous Billionaire series just to read extra scenes. I love these books about love bordering on obsession...in the end it leaves me slightly obsessed too! If you are looking for a slow build, love/obsessed, heart breaker of a story then gobble this up!
August 18, 2014
If I like a book I give it 5 stars....if I love the book I leave a review....
I was looking at the reviews and I saw that some rated it low because how stupid the heroine for the hero.....
I love that the book portrayed the heroine just as we are some time.....so so stupid for the men we love... we forget at one time or another we have been absolutely stupid in love.
call me sick but I love how unapologetic jahleel was...so many times we read a bad boy/alpha story only to read on and find out that he was never really a bad boy/Alpha...
Now please allow me to vent...
I hate when the author give specific instruction as to what you will be getting yourself into when reading the book rather it be cheating/Bdsm/heroine stupidity/rape/graphic content ect....and people still find it OK to rate the book low because of it......
I Loved this book can't wait to read more from the author
I was looking at the reviews and I saw that some rated it low because how stupid the heroine for the hero.....
I love that the book portrayed the heroine just as we are some time.....so so stupid for the men we love... we forget at one time or another we have been absolutely stupid in love.
call me sick but I love how unapologetic jahleel was...so many times we read a bad boy/alpha story only to read on and find out that he was never really a bad boy/Alpha...
Now please allow me to vent...
I hate when the author give specific instruction as to what you will be getting yourself into when reading the book rather it be cheating/Bdsm/heroine stupidity/rape/graphic content ect....and people still find it OK to rate the book low because of it......
I Loved this book can't wait to read more from the author
April 7, 2014
I am a freaking mess over this book. I definitely have a love hate thing going on right now! I can't believe the roller coaster this story took me on. Lets start off with the characters. Very well written and life like. I was captivated from the very first page. I can't get over some of their flaws. I think this might e why I enjoyed the read so much too. These characters made their lives very hard to live for a while and do some seriously screwed up crap to each other in the process.
A great read but emotionally draining. Haven't really read a story like it before. Like I said caught me on page one and I couldn't put it down. I loved all the characters, but I really enjoyed the side characters. They brought the story to life.
A great read but emotionally draining. Haven't really read a story like it before. Like I said caught me on page one and I couldn't put it down. I loved all the characters, but I really enjoyed the side characters. They brought the story to life.
August 26, 2016
4.5 stars
When I saw reviews that it had a Beautiful Disaster feel to it, I knew I had to read it. This book was about Obsession. Based on a true story. It was addicting. I couldn't put it down. I had the feels. I could feel her obsession, frustration, pain and heartbreak. This book had great build up, sexual tension and angst, all things I love in books. My only complaint would be that some of the reveals was out there.
The ending left me with some questions so I skimmed through I Choose You and now have a better understanding of what happened. I think it's better to read Jahleel first to feel the full impact of the story.
When I saw reviews that it had a Beautiful Disaster feel to it, I knew I had to read it. This book was about Obsession. Based on a true story. It was addicting. I couldn't put it down. I had the feels. I could feel her obsession, frustration, pain and heartbreak. This book had great build up, sexual tension and angst, all things I love in books. My only complaint would be that some of the reveals was out there.
The ending left me with some questions so I skimmed through I Choose You and now have a better understanding of what happened. I think it's better to read Jahleel first to feel the full impact of the story.
July 15, 2014
Hated the female lead she was such an obsessed clingy woman who really didn't care about anyone apart from the male lead. I did not feel his love for her at all and found his character too cold and contradictory.
March 15, 2015
3.5 - 4 INTENSE STARS.
I'm not sure how I feel about this book. I'm torn between hating it so much I could rip my hair off and loving it so much I just want to re-read it over and over again. It all started with an obsession. Intense obsession. I cannot stress over how unhealthy that is -- the whole time I was reading this book, I was like, You have got to be kidding me! But alas, I was hooked. From start to finish. And if it weren't for the fact that I have basic needs to attend to, I would have finished this one in one sitting.
I have a love-hate relationship towards Saskia and Jahleel -- love the names -- and I went back and forth throughout the books.
Saskia, well, she lived up to her nickname Sassy that Jahleel gave her. She's sassy, unapologetic and driven. Once she set out to do something, she got it fucking done! That's what I loved about her the most. She started out as nothing -- with two drunkards as parents and two siblings to care for -- and now she's this huge singer and I couldn't be more proud of her. Even if one of the motivations was Jahleel Kingston. Still, she gets it done.
One of the things I'm just blergh about her:
How selfish she was most of the time. She didn't think before she acted and most of her actions affected other but NO. She didn't care. and I hated how she made Ferbie felt inferior. I have an autistic brother and I'd rather kill myself than make him feel that way. Real talk.
Her obsession on Jahleel. I know, I know. I should have seen that coming -- it's the main theme after all. And it's also the reason why I I picked up this book. I was curious. At first I just laughed at Saskia's obsession on JK. I thought it was cute and entertaining and I didn't think much of it. But as the book progressed, I began to realize the depth of her obsession on Jahleel. Saskia Day was batshit obsessed with Jahleel Kingston. And she embarrassed herself a lot because of this obsession. (second-hand embarrassment happend a lot to me) Not only that, it also was the reason of her downfall.
I don't judge Saskia of her obsession. I care about her. In fact, I'm very fiercely protective her. I'm not in a position where I can judge her for some of her actions. She's obsessed with Jahleel. She cannot live without him. And I will never understand that. I think it's unhealthy. It's unhealthy to not be whole without someone. You need to stand on your own. Learn to love yourself. Treat yourself better. These are my mottos. But then again who am I, to judge Saskia? I have never fallen in love. I have never felt an all consuming need to be with someone. To breathe someone. But I've lived in Saskia's head for more than a few intense hours and in those intense hours, half of her emotions were mine. I felt what she felt. I felt elated when she was on Jahleel's bike with him, I felt her high when they had sex. I felt betrayed when he cheated on her. I felt her.
Jahleel Kingston. Well he's definitely an arsehole he kept on claiming he was. With this guy, I'm not sure what to feel about him. He's got good sides, not gonna lie. But he's also an asshole. I think it was unfair and selfish of him to keep Saskia on a tight leash when he didn't even want to reciprocate Sas's feelings. I felt like he's toying with her, like she's a spare part or something. Don't get me started on his mood swings. How when he's conflicted, he revert to an asshole. Yes, I am aware he explained / apologized his actions in the end but I cannot find it in me to forgive him. I'm sorry.
The author's writing style is A-plus! It flows smoothly and not once when I was frustrated with Saskia and Jahleel that I thought about DNFing this book.
S. Ann Cole said something about this book being based on a true story and that these two people are together for 8 years and still strong. That's amazing! Even if I think their relationship was built on an unhealthy foundation, I wish them nothing but the best.
I'm not sure how I feel about this book. I'm torn between hating it so much I could rip my hair off and loving it so much I just want to re-read it over and over again. It all started with an obsession. Intense obsession. I cannot stress over how unhealthy that is -- the whole time I was reading this book, I was like, You have got to be kidding me! But alas, I was hooked. From start to finish. And if it weren't for the fact that I have basic needs to attend to, I would have finished this one in one sitting.
I have a love-hate relationship towards Saskia and Jahleel -- love the names -- and I went back and forth throughout the books.
Saskia, well, she lived up to her nickname Sassy that Jahleel gave her. She's sassy, unapologetic and driven. Once she set out to do something, she got it fucking done! That's what I loved about her the most. She started out as nothing -- with two drunkards as parents and two siblings to care for -- and now she's this huge singer and I couldn't be more proud of her. Even if one of the motivations was Jahleel Kingston. Still, she gets it done.
One of the things I'm just blergh about her:
How selfish she was most of the time. She didn't think before she acted and most of her actions affected other but NO. She didn't care. and I hated how she made Ferbie felt inferior. I have an autistic brother and I'd rather kill myself than make him feel that way. Real talk.
Her obsession on Jahleel. I know, I know. I should have seen that coming -- it's the main theme after all. And it's also the reason why I I picked up this book. I was curious. At first I just laughed at Saskia's obsession on JK. I thought it was cute and entertaining and I didn't think much of it. But as the book progressed, I began to realize the depth of her obsession on Jahleel. Saskia Day was batshit obsessed with Jahleel Kingston. And she embarrassed herself a lot because of this obsession. (second-hand embarrassment happend a lot to me) Not only that, it also was the reason of her downfall.
I don't judge Saskia of her obsession. I care about her. In fact, I'm very fiercely protective her. I'm not in a position where I can judge her for some of her actions. She's obsessed with Jahleel. She cannot live without him. And I will never understand that. I think it's unhealthy. It's unhealthy to not be whole without someone. You need to stand on your own. Learn to love yourself. Treat yourself better. These are my mottos. But then again who am I, to judge Saskia? I have never fallen in love. I have never felt an all consuming need to be with someone. To breathe someone. But I've lived in Saskia's head for more than a few intense hours and in those intense hours, half of her emotions were mine. I felt what she felt. I felt elated when she was on Jahleel's bike with him, I felt her high when they had sex. I felt betrayed when he cheated on her. I felt her.
Jahleel Kingston. Well he's definitely an arsehole he kept on claiming he was. With this guy, I'm not sure what to feel about him. He's got good sides, not gonna lie. But he's also an asshole. I think it was unfair and selfish of him to keep Saskia on a tight leash when he didn't even want to reciprocate Sas's feelings. I felt like he's toying with her, like she's a spare part or something. Don't get me started on his mood swings. How when he's conflicted, he revert to an asshole. Yes, I am aware he explained / apologized his actions in the end but I cannot find it in me to forgive him. I'm sorry.
The author's writing style is A-plus! It flows smoothly and not once when I was frustrated with Saskia and Jahleel that I thought about DNFing this book.
S. Ann Cole said something about this book being based on a true story and that these two people are together for 8 years and still strong. That's amazing! Even if I think their relationship was built on an unhealthy foundation, I wish them nothing but the best.
June 26, 2014
The summary isn't a great summary. The only reason I started this book was because of the good comments it had. Well it's about Saskia Day (what kind of a name is "Saskia" anyway???) a girl whose life changes the day she meets Jahleel Kingston (the same goes for this name as well) she instantely falls in love with him and follows him all the way to America just to make him notice her.
For the whole book (except the last 10 pages) I thought Jahleel was an asshole (or as Saskia would say an "arsehole") a man-whore, rude, intimidating and utterly selfish kind of guy. He wasn't likeable at any point. He even had sex with 2 of Saskia's groopie-"friends" (not even she can decide) at the same time HUGE spoiler alert , he made her promise him she wouldn't as much as kiss another man but he kept pinning for a girl who never really cared about him (even if he explains it at the end I was so mad at him) . I don't cope very well with long term break-ups, I can stand cheatings but not this straight-forward (because I read this part in "I choose you" and it is a real cheating not some kissing scene) . The language at the beginning of the book wasn't so well (some phrases are really hard to get) although it kept getting better and by the end I think I liked Chad most of all of them.
For the whole book (except the last 10 pages) I thought Jahleel was an asshole (or as Saskia would say an "arsehole") a man-whore, rude, intimidating and utterly selfish kind of guy. He wasn't likeable at any point. He even had sex with 2 of Saskia's groopie-"friends" (not even she can decide) at the same time HUGE spoiler alert , he made her promise him she wouldn't as much as kiss another man but he kept pinning for a girl who never really cared about him (even if he explains it at the end I was so mad at him) . I don't cope very well with long term break-ups, I can stand cheatings but not this straight-forward (because I read this part in "I choose you" and it is a real cheating not some kissing scene) . The language at the beginning of the book wasn't so well (some phrases are really hard to get) although it kept getting better and by the end I think I liked Chad most of all of them.
May 22, 2014
I would love to give this book more than five stars, because a five star rating system doesn't do it justice. Although on a one hundred point rating system I would want to give it more than 100!
I can't say enough great things about this book, I loved the main characters something Fierce!! I may not be able to totally identify with them but S. Ann's writing is so perfectly flawless that she completely pulled me into the book on the first page. I saw this book completely come alive in my head and every scene was brilliantly enacted in technicolor detail.
Adversely I wanted to devour the book but on the other hand wanted to read it slowly to enjoy every single word. S Ann is totally my new favorite author!!!! I can't wait to read everything else she has written and will be writing!
I can't say enough great things about this book, I loved the main characters something Fierce!! I may not be able to totally identify with them but S. Ann's writing is so perfectly flawless that she completely pulled me into the book on the first page. I saw this book completely come alive in my head and every scene was brilliantly enacted in technicolor detail.
Adversely I wanted to devour the book but on the other hand wanted to read it slowly to enjoy every single word. S Ann is totally my new favorite author!!!! I can't wait to read everything else she has written and will be writing!
May 3, 2014
Jahleel by S. Ann Cole
I'm not a huge fan of writing reviews for other authors in my genre or close to my genre BUT I read the note at the end of this one regarding reviews so, S. Ann Cole - I'm making an exception for you.
First let me start off by saying I have a soft spot for rock stars and dancers. Secondly, I love asshole men - another huge soft spot - not just alphas or bad boys but real, true, unapologetic assholes. (As characters - not such a fan when it comes to real life)
So Jahleel - Perfect. Brilliant and heartbreaking - maddening and funny. Read it in one sitting. Not looking forward to the book hangover I know is coming. Bravo!
I'm not a huge fan of writing reviews for other authors in my genre or close to my genre BUT I read the note at the end of this one regarding reviews so, S. Ann Cole - I'm making an exception for you.
First let me start off by saying I have a soft spot for rock stars and dancers. Secondly, I love asshole men - another huge soft spot - not just alphas or bad boys but real, true, unapologetic assholes. (As characters - not such a fan when it comes to real life)
So Jahleel - Perfect. Brilliant and heartbreaking - maddening and funny. Read it in one sitting. Not looking forward to the book hangover I know is coming. Bravo!
December 10, 2015
Love and Hate
It's fitting that I loved and hated this book, the h and H are not my normal preference and wow so many of my book "no goes" we're ticked while reading it! But despite that I kept going... the writing, the characters they dragged me kicking and screaming along for the journey that is Jahleel. It's not a safe read, it's angsty as all hell and so not my normal read but my gosh did it hold me riveted. I came out feeling bruised, confused and totally feeling an incredible love/hate for this book and I have no idea why I loved it because I really shouldn't have but I DID!
Which once you read it ...you will understand why it's so fitting that I feel that way ;)
It's fitting that I loved and hated this book, the h and H are not my normal preference and wow so many of my book "no goes" we're ticked while reading it! But despite that I kept going... the writing, the characters they dragged me kicking and screaming along for the journey that is Jahleel. It's not a safe read, it's angsty as all hell and so not my normal read but my gosh did it hold me riveted. I came out feeling bruised, confused and totally feeling an incredible love/hate for this book and I have no idea why I loved it because I really shouldn't have but I DID!
Which once you read it ...you will understand why it's so fitting that I feel that way ;)
April 11, 2014
Fucked up but damn good!
Most of us can understand the obsession saskia is feeling, that insane want and need to be love by that special someone, to imagine how good..how awesome it will finally be ..when that want and dream become reality.
So as expected I root for saskia and that's saying a lot about me cause the way she was obsessed of wanting JK is definitely unhealthy but then who can resist a man like JK..and so..I too become obsess of wanting JK, that arsehole who keep on making her want him more but not being where and what she wants her to be.
I want more of them!
Most of us can understand the obsession saskia is feeling, that insane want and need to be love by that special someone, to imagine how good..how awesome it will finally be ..when that want and dream become reality.
So as expected I root for saskia and that's saying a lot about me cause the way she was obsessed of wanting JK is definitely unhealthy but then who can resist a man like JK..and so..I too become obsess of wanting JK, that arsehole who keep on making her want him more but not being where and what she wants her to be.
I want more of them!
February 1, 2015
Oh Jahleel, Saskia...read this while standing in the subway train, crammed with people, and crying silently, people around looking at me like I'm about to loose it, and am feeling like I just want to step out onto the next stop just to control my emo, you know? Urrgghh, guess I'm not that strong huh? Nevertheless, it's the best book so far, I mean it! But really, read it at your own risk...
April 16, 2014
3 stars for the first bit of this book. EVEN DNF It... But wow I'm so glad I picked it back up because it turn out to be a really great book. **4.5 stars** Felt the ending was a bit rush...but I guess the novella will give me more. Love love love...Can't wait to read more from this author. **MUST READ**
April 11, 2014
I freakin' love this book. The characters are great, Jahleel's definite an arse (don't worry he's VERY hot, maybe hotter than magma *wink*). I can't wait to read the next book, especially Chad's story :)
It's a fun journey reading this book..
It's a fun journey reading this book..
August 27, 2016
4.5 stars. I loved this book because of the feels that it gave me. I was torn between loving and hating the hero, Jahleel. The ending was a bit rushed, but I'm glad there's gonna be a followup novella to this. I'm definitely a fan of the author now!
April 9, 2014
4.5 stars!
I have to take a minute before I review this one, because...what the HELL did I just read??????
I have to take a minute before I review this one, because...what the HELL did I just read??????
April 8, 2014
Fuck. Yeah.
April 14, 2014
I am totally speechless. This.Book.Is.Amazing.
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