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Anguish was the status quo, until she walked in.
Breaker James Collins is confined in a prison of his own making. Scarred doesn’t begin to define his hell since finding out his girlfriend had cheated, stolen, and lied two years ago. It led to a single event—one that would blacken his days and his nights from then on. Since then, he hasn’t left his house, crippled by fear of
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Published June 11th 2013
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Jun 01, 2013 rated it really liked it
Recommends it for: Ya lovers :D
“That’s the best kind. The love you didn’t plan on.”


Another fabulously sweet YA read by the talented Lila Felix!

AnguiSH is about two people- Breaker James and Ashland. Breaker has some issues. After a crazy debacle with a psycho ex- girlfriend, which led to him having a massive panic attack, Breaker James hasn’t left the house in over two years. Not at all.
If I were a regular person, I could actually walk out of this prison- house, it’s a house.

Ashland ‘Ash’ Cormeir is a college student
Amy | Foxy Blogs
***3.5 AnguiSH stars***

This book is a change of pace from the normal books about anxiety where it has the main character be a girl who suffers from panic attacks. This is a story of a guy, Breaker, who after a traumatic event begins to suffer from panic attacks. To deal with his anxiety he locks himself up in his house and pushes the world away.

Ash is hired to be his 'live in maid' and in the process they develop a friendship. Through their friendship he learns to deal with reality.

Macklemore &
Jun 13, 2013 rated it really liked it
This read more like a YA even though the 2 main characters were 21 but It was a nice sweet story.

Breaker James is agoraphobic and at the insistence of his mother he ends up getting a live in maid. Enter Ashton, a self confessed babbler. Known to be a bit clingy and a tad annoying she doesn't have many friends but has a heart of gold and befriends Breaker, even though he's a bit of a grump.

They become very close and she helps him to make baby steps in recovering from his fears of going out but al
Mandy (I Read Indie) Anderson
Breaker James (adorable name right?) has been living in a constant state of anguish for 2 years...ever since he found out his girlfriend had been cheating on him and cleaning him out of his money. After that horrible revealing news, Breaker had a break down and can't leave his house. He found solitude there and has no reason to leave. In the comforts of his home he can't be used, he can't be made a fool, and he can't have his heart broken. Or can he?

Enter Ashland. She is like a wild fire that ha
Aug 31, 2015 rated it liked it
The story started out very interesting to me. The hero may be submissive to his ex-girlfriend. The ex was using the hero's money and paying for her lover's rent, etc. When he saw his ex having sex with this guy, he lost it and became a hermit for 2 years. That is until Ashland is hired by Breaker's mother as a live-in maid.

I usually do not care for submissive heroes but I found this story interesting. The hero was suffering from panic attacks and I just wanted to know how things would progress a
Jun 18, 2013 rated it really liked it
Sweet romance.

Breaker hasn't been outside for over 2 years. He was betrayed by his ex-girlfriend and had a massive panic attack which left him terrified to leave the house. Ashland is a college student who finds it hard to make friends because she has a constant case of verbal diarrhoea mouth and a squeaky voice. Breaker's mother decides to hire a live in maid due to Breaker's disgustingly messy ways and Ashland get the job.

The pair slowly get to know each other and become friend. For Breaker, A
***ARC provided by Author in exchange for an honest review**

I was given the great honor of reading AnguiSH from Lila. I love all her books and this one was no different. I loved the story line in this book. It was great to see a male character be the one who was the one with the issues. Breaker James was a great male lead character. Even though he was messed up he was still lovable and totally swoon worthy. I enjoyed watching him grow through the course of the story. Ashland was such a strong fe
Jun 12, 2013 rated it really liked it
What I liked about this book:
1. Fast read
2. Short lived drama
3. No outside forces to jack with the couple
4. Dual POV
5. The sweet things Breaker would say to Ashland
6. Ashland was a strong heroine
7. Pretty clean read
8. Kept me interested the whole time
9. Kissing scenes
10. Ashland and Breaker tried to be brutally honest with each other pretty much the whole time. The honesty is my favorite part about these two.
11. Their playful fun times and banter
Jun 13, 2013 rated it it was amazing
First of all I love the play on letters with the title.

When I opened up the book, I had absolutely no idea what I was getting into. I had read a couple of teasers but never read the synopsis or anything. The title alone made me want to read this. I tend to like the ‘squeeze my heart that it hurts but I love this book’ kind of reads. Right from the first words, this book with its quirky dialogue, witty sarcasm and poetic descriptions captivated me. This was one of the things I most noticed about
Kendall {Book Crazy}
Jul 13, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorites, blog-tours
“That’s the best kind. The love you didn’t plan on.”

I cannot believe that this was my first book by Lila Felix! I devoured this book! It was absolutely amazing! I wasn't really sure about it before I started reading it, but I soon discovered to never judge a book before you have read it! I thought that the plot of this book was quite unique! I haven't read another book where one of the main characters doesn't leave the house before! I found it really interesting to go inside someone's head like
Jun 19, 2013 rated it really liked it
AnguiSH is a wonderfully written, witty story about a relationship between a guy hurt and ridiculed so badly by a former girlfriend it results in him becoming afraid to be outside in public for fear of panic attacks. His mother hires a female student (who doesn't have much faith in herself or her social skills) to clean and cook for him and secretly to try and get him out of the house and gain back his self confidence. The story is the two of them developing a relationship, her helping him and h ...more
Mick Loves Books
Jan 15, 2014 rated it it was amazing
This is a fantastic book! I felt for the characters and went through everything right along with them. The storyline is fresh and pulls you in from the beginning. I love that the main girl character was strong from facing her own demons. I honestly kept putting it off and I have no idea why. I wish I had read it sooner. I highly recommend!
Jun 10, 2013 rated it it was amazing
ARC Review:

This is one of the most powerful, beautiful life lessons disguised as a story that I have ever read! Lila Felix is ever the master storyteller. She skillfully & purposefully weaves the lives of realistic characters you can't help but fall in love with & carry with you long after the story is done. Now let's discuss Lila's latest, sexy male lead Breaker James Collins (love that name).

Breaker is a wounded soul, trapped in a self induced prison bound by fear. Two years ago, Breaker disco
A pretty YA Romance with uniqueness.

After Breaker Collins experiences his worst panic attack ever, he caught his non-loving, money-using, lying girlfriend cheating on him. Breaker is scarred. He confines himself to a life of solitude. For two years he has been housebound, he's refused to leave, he panics if he sets foot outside his home, he's wasting away, he says he's crippled by fear of people and any social interaction.

Ashland has lived her life hating herself, she knows she talks too much, h
Anne Eliot
Jun 17, 2013 rated it it was amazing

This is one of the books I've started by peeking at the beginning before I should have. The images left in my mind of a broken hearted Breaker James are the images that are ruining my goals for my laundry, my kitchen, my bills, my own work, and I'm about to resort to feeding my kid Cheerios for dinner to get to the next few chapters!

Breaker James and Ash... I love how Lila can figure out just the right combination of people and make us all see how they are perfect for each o
Dec 02, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorites
This was a wonderful surprise! I couldn't help but just adore Breaker. Even though you are reminded throughout the book of his condition, it isn't shoved in your face. It isn't like "poor me, pity me. eye-roll". No, it was just like you wanted to wrap him and bring him outside and never let him go.

Then there's Ash. Geez, that girl. I can't imagine some Minnie Mouse non-stop talking girl in your face and actually liking her. Because in other stories, a character like that really is annoying. BUT
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Whyever did I wait so long tomread this book?  

Maybe it's because the title speaks of sadness and I'm really not up for that. However, this novel didn't really have anguish in it (in my opinion). It had struggles, challenges, drastic changes, determination and promise.  

I am so happy because I got to read about he kind of hero that I don't normally see in novels nowadays. This hero is between the softer kind and the alpha kind. Imagine a hero that loves gardening, simulation games, and still c
Natalee Grimaldi
Jul 05, 2013 rated it really liked it

Lila Feliz delivers again! With an angsty love story that’ll sure to have all your hearts melting.

This book is told in alternating POVs of Breaker and Ashland. It tells the story of how the broken, beaten-down Breaker comes back to life with the help of loud and outspoken, Ashland. It was incredibly well-written.

The main reason why I loved this book is because the roles are reversed. Let me explain, there are so many books out there right now about the broken girl who meets a great guy then
♥♡¢σσкιє♥♡ (Krystle)
Anguish was a bit different than the other books I've read by this author, it was darker in a lot of ways.
The darkness in this book made sense though, because of the more serious content in the form of Breaker's anxiety disorder, and because it was a very well done retake on Beauty and the Beast.
I could go on and on about all of the things I loved about the main characters and their relationship with one another, but since Beauty and the Beast is my favorite fairytale of all time, and I'm always
Jun 11, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Lila Felix + a keyboard= literary magic! There are authors and books that will stay with a reader. Books that will cause a reader to have thoughts and memories at any given moment. AnguiSH is one of those books and Lila is one of those authors.

Breaker James is a loving, giving and adorable and a hot man! ;) Breaker went through a tragic heart break and his trust in others and himself, causes him to have a break down, that is a cause for his life to spiral out of his control.

Ashland Cormeir is a
Shelly Crane
Jun 13, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: best-books

Emerge is still my favorite Lila Felix book, but Anguish is a seriously close second.

Ash and Breaker were both so broken and sweet. Everything was tied nicely together and the ending was good and finished, but everything wasn't as honky-dory and peaches and cream as some endings. There were still things going on that needed to be worked on and it was a nice change of pace to have a happy ending that still showed that things were real and weren't going to be perfect.

Lila's writing gets be
Aug 16, 2013 rated it really liked it
Shelves: favorites
I can see why everyone has been telling me to read this book. While it tackles some pretty serious issues, it is a sweet love story and does not dwell in darkness too long, as many books that deal with these kinds of topics do. Ash and Breaker were both easy to like and quirky. There are a couple of things about the way the author handled the topic that made me super happy, but would be spoilery if I shared them. I will say that she could have taken the insta love fixes all route and made a much ...more
Jenna Roads
Jun 12, 2013 rated it it was amazing
I absolutely love Anguish. I never thought I would say those words!lol
I loved everything about this book. It grabbed me from the start of the book and captivated me with intrigue and laughter. I loved the broken character of Breaker James and how even though he was so pathetic, the author had you rooting for his success every step of the way. Ashland was a total Joy and her character reminded me of my favorite character, Pippi Longstocking, that I read as a child. I loved every unconventional th
Jun 05, 2013 rated it liked it
Shelves: my-reads-2013
2.3-3 stars

I liked the story concept but what i found lacking was the execution. I found it too rushed most of the times, which made it hard to connect with Ash n Breaker.

Maybe with a lil more editing n polishing, the story would have turned out great.

Though its my first book of this author, looking forward to reading her other works.
Wild Wordy
Jun 20, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: arc
Jillian - I have to start by saying I have never instantly wanted to jump through my kindle and cuddle a character as much as Breaker. My heart broke for him.

Saffron - Honestly, given all the books we've read lately I thought this was gonna be all about sex and hot sex and it so wasn't! It was such a good romantic story about two people really trying to feel things out.

Noemi - It was a wonderful romantic read. Lila Fox really can write a good romance with depth.

Jillian - There was so much emoti
Ariana *mommy's late night book-up*
4.5 Stars!!!

I first heard of this book through another blog who posted that anyone who suffers from panic attacks HAD to read this book. Being that I get frequent panic attacks, I decided to bump this up to the top of my TBR list. I was a little unsure of how I felt about this book when I first started reading it. In the beginning, the writing seemed a little “basic” for a lack of a better description. But the further I read, the more I realized that my first impression was wrong! As you read, y
Jun 04, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: e-books, for-review, won
I really enjoyed this book and more importantly, I enjoy these types of books. The type of books where the girl comes into the guy's life and makes it better. I love the message this book brings and I realized what the message was from the beginning. The message is that even though no matter how bad things can get, there is always hope out there that things will get better. This story is about a guy named Breaker and in the prologue, you see what happens to him that makes him stay in the house f ...more
Tee loves Kyle Jacobson
Lila Felix has done it again! Man she never ceases to amaze me by her writing. I swear with each book she gets better and better because I open up to the first page and I am instantly HOOKED! My heart starts pumping fast the adrenaline kicking into over drive because I know I am in for one hell of a roller coaster ride! In AngiSH we get to see a love story unfold right before your eyes. You get the good the bad and the ugly and then the ultimate is the ending which I will not say because HOLY BR ...more
Holly Baker
Jul 16, 2013 rated it it was amazing
********ARC received in exchange for an honest review********

What! A! Book! Lila Felix has found a new fan in me after reading this and hopefully in all of you too. I loved this book so hard that it has instantly worked it’s way on to my list of favourite reads of 2013 and without a doubt I will be reading this again. My plan when I started reading AnguiSH was to split it over two days but I just couldn’t put it down and was finished in one sitting, left desperate for more.

I want to point out th
Donna ~ The Romance Cover
Jul 03, 2013 rated it really liked it
AnguiSH by Lila Felix

4 stars!!

I love Lila’s writing and this book is no exception. I beg anyone to read this book and NOT fall in love with Breaker James…he is just….adorable….broken….romantic….I could go on. I felt so sorry for him, I just wanted to give him a cuddle, hold him close and say there there it will all be OK. I could not understand how a perceivably strong man could get himself into that state to begin with over some old trollop, but illness is never something we can ever foresee or
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