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This Star Won't Go Out: The Life and Words of Esther Grace Earl

4.15  ·  Rating details ·  15,688 ratings  ·  2,080 reviews
A collection of the journals, fiction, letters, and sketches of the late Esther Grace Earl, who passed away in 2010 at the age of 16. Photographs and essays by family and friends will help to tell Esther’s story along with an introduction by award-winning author John Green who dedicated his #1 bestselling novel The Fault in Our Stars to her.
Hardcover, 448 pages
Published January 28th 2014 by Dutton Books for Young Readers
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ellie pasquale I would say no. I really enjoyed this story as something that Esther wrote, as well as her family and friends. It is a truly fun, silly, but sad journ…moreI would say no. I really enjoyed this story as something that Esther wrote, as well as her family and friends. It is a truly fun, silly, but sad journey that I greatly enjoyed(even though it hurt a lot). I voted for it in the GoodReads Awards because I loved the writer in Esther, not because she knew John Green. (less)
ellie pasquale Yes, I absolutely agree! I am finding that there are a lot of people who didn't really enjoy this book like I did, so I'm happy to finally find someon…moreYes, I absolutely agree! I am finding that there are a lot of people who didn't really enjoy this book like I did, so I'm happy to finally find someone else!(less)

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Lori Earl
Apr 03, 2013 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favorites
What can I say? Esther, your writing is wonderful, funny, sad, poignant, silly, and more…Reading your words is like listening to you. Hearing your voice would be better, but having your words is good too. To your "I love you" I respond the way we did many nights as I tucked you into bed: "I love you more." ...more
Melissa ♥ Dog/Wolf Lover ♥ Martin
I have sat here forever trying to figure out what to say. This book made me cry in places and smile in others. But mostly it's just sad.

I have had this book and hundreds of books on my shelves forever. I still do. I have been trying to read as many as possible before my own fight against cancer begins in a week. I started getting mad and just grabbing a lot of books for mom to sell Monday before we go in the afternoon to get a mold of my pelvis. And... I came across this book on my shelf. I hav
Dear Esther,
I just finished reading your published book. Yeah, that's right! Your dream of becoming an author has come true. I feel so honored to be a part of that goal. I woke up at 8:30 this morning to buy this book. I went in and bought the book as soon as the doors opened. (They hadn't even put the book out on display yet!) I felt honored to be one of the first to hold this in my hand.
I am amazed at your outlook on life and death. I've never been spiritual or religious, so death is kinda fe
Feb 14, 2014 rated it it was amazing
3 August 1994 - 25 August 2010
[16 years]

Many readers have had the pleasure of reading The Fault in Our Stars by the very talented author, John Green. John actually dedicated his book
and in his acknowledgments stated
"Esther Earl, whose life was a gift to me and many."
After reading both the dedication and acknowledgement, I was intrigued to find out just who Esther Earl was. It did not take me long to learn that Esther (meaning "Star") was a phenomenal young
Mar 18, 2014 rated it it was ok

Time for me to be a douche about the "girl with cancer book." I'm not actually, but some will think so from my opinion.

The thing is, this book isn't quite what I expected, and something wasn't sitting right with me about the book as a symbol. Halfway through I formed my opinion as to why. I'll explain.

This states most of my case:

The gripes of the above reviewer mirror most of my concerns but there's more to it than that. I have another beef with the pub
Farah 🌈
Apr 03, 2013 marked it as to-read
Recommends it for: Nerdfighters

I just know that this book will be beautiful, exceptional, and of course, awesome!
It's sad to mention that I didn't actually know Esther when she was alive. I discovered all the Nerdfighter awesomeness when I read The Fault in Our Stars in September of 2012. It has been an amazing experience to be a nerdfighter!
Like I said, I didn't actually know her but when I read about her and saw some of her uploaded videos, I couldn't help but feel the immense loss that everyone who knew her felt when she d
Jun 29, 2014 rated it it was amazing Okay, this is going to be difficult.

I mean I'm sure no one is going to see this anyway, because who honestly reads Review #3469, but I'm going to do this anyway.

The thing is, for a very brief time, I was the cancer girl. I was the one with a scarf instead of hair, I was the one with a skinny, chemo-ravaged body, I was the one who was bedridden. And as I start to tell my own story on paper, I gradually start to reach out for other people. People who understand what it feels like to be dy
Jan 07, 2014 rated it it was amazing
I know it’s cliché to say this, but I truly have never been more thrilled to receive a book in the mail. Esther is up there with J. K. Rowling and Evanna Lynch on my list of supreme role models. I’ve never spoken to Esther, but the way her friends, family, and even those like me speak about her is inspiring. She passed away from thyroid cancer when she was my age, sixteen. In those sixteen years, she left a legacy of a loving, caring, and empathetic person. In the words of her friend Teryn, “Est ...more
May 04, 2014 rated it did not like it
Shelves: book-club-reads
I have been a Nerdfighter since almost the beginning (mid-2007), and so it makes sense that I would read this book that John Green has mentioned multiple times and for which he wrote the introduction. But I would not have finished it if it weren't a book club read, and even then I almost abandoned it.

This is not so much a "book" as it is a giant collection of everything related to Esther Earl -- her diary entries, her family's CaringBridge updates, transcripts of some of her videos, reflections
Apr 13, 2014 rated it it was amazing
This really was a beautiful book. Esther Earl is so real and talented in her entries, letting the reader see what she is really going through. Of course she isn't perfect, but that's the great thing. No one in this book said that Esther was infallible, just a good person. ...more
Laurence R.
Jun 22, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Dear Esther,

I do not know you, and you certainly don't know me. I mean, I was born four years later than you were and during all our lives, we've been separated by miles and miles, even by borders. I wasn't part of Nerdfighteria when you were and I don't even know if I had a Facebook account when you were still alive, let alone a Youtube account. However, your story touched me so, so, so much.

Life is unfair, we all know it. Some of us, like me, have been blessed enough to have a relatively easy
C.S. Daley
Jul 14, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: non-fiction
My sister died when I was a sophomore in high school. She was only a few years older than me and her battle with cancer took up much of her young life. Her loss left a hole in the hearts of my brothers and sisters that we still feel to this day. She was the bravest person I know and I truly believe that every ounce of bravery and compassion I have in my body I learned from her. I miss her terribly.

I was afraid to read this book. I read the introduction by John Green and started crying. 30 years
Apr 05, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: own, 2013
This will forever be so surreal. Gratitude and sadhappiness always. I love you Esther.
Feb 04, 2014 rated it really liked it
I don't think any words will do justice for how powerful, emotional and important this book is. I might do a review once I calm down. ...more
Feb 15, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: read-in-english
As this is a non-fiction book that deals with a very serious topic, I don't want to write too much about it. I'm not in a position to judge Esther's life.

All I can say is that she was an amazing and inspiring girl, something that gets very clear when you read her story.
The book is lovely crafted, it definitely honours her in every way.
I got through it very quickly and did shed some tears in the end.
Apr 29, 2014 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2014
Prepare to shed some tears with this one.
The story of Esther Grace Earl's too-short life is beautifully contained with these pages. There are journal entries, transcripts of some internet conversations, commentary from her parents and friends, drawings.
What struck me as a reader is that Esther sounds like just an ordinary girl, musing about the things teenage girls think about coupled with some very deep thoughts about life or the loss of her life and what she has and possibly will miss out on
Dec 16, 2013 rated it it was amazing
I have to admit that I'm biased, but I thought this book was fantastic. I wish so badly that I still had the option of talking to Esther whenever I wanted, but at least I can read her beautiful words at any time. ...more
Natalie Monroe
Aug 08, 2014 marked it as i-m-not-a-bitch-i-m-disinterested
I feel for Esther, honestly. It sucks to have cancer and the sky is blue. But full disclosure: my heart cried more listening to Taylor Swift's Ronan than it did reading The Fault in Our Stars. I heard more packets of tissues opening and sniffles midway through How To Train your Dragon 2 than The Fault in Our Stars movie.

I highly doubt this book will change my opinion.
Hailey (Hailey in Bookland)
Feb 19, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: owned
A heartbreakingly beautiful story that everyone should read. Truly inspiring.

Rest in paradise beautiful
Jan 31, 2014 rated it it was amazing
I rarely take the time to review books, mostly because I don't tend to have super interesting things to say, but this is different. I had the pleasure of meeting Esther via Skype at Infinitus 2010 and it is something that I will never forget. Cancer is a tough subject for me, as my dad passed away from cancer in April 2010. Meeting Esther just a couple of months later was both hard and touching but I was immensely impressed with how well she dealt with her illness. A year after Esther passed awa ...more
Gypsy White
Just a note: I won this in a Goodreads Giveaway. Thanks Penguin!
"But even in her final days, Esther was wholly alive, as alive as anyone else, and so even though everyone who loved her understood she was dying, her death was still a terrible shock to me. She did not leave slowly, but all at once, because even when she could not get out of bed, she found ways to be fully alive: to play with her friends, to crack jokes, to love and to be loved. And then she was gone, all at once." -John Green's i
Stella Wenny
Jan 03, 2016 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
4.5 stars.

Does having terminal illness somehow makes people stronger? I wonder a lot about this throughout the book. Having both my parents suffered cancer (specifically my mother who had the same trouble breathing without oxygen nasal cannula like Esther) and having so many friends in net world, I can relate to this book so much. Perhaps that's one of the reasons why I wanted to read this book, to remember my parents, to remember their suffering, so that I still remember to honor and respect th
Allegra S
It feels weird to review this book. What Esther wrote she wrote for own eyes, it wasn't something she originally meant to have published. It wouldn't be right to critique her thoughts. In fact, I really enjoyed reading her thoughts. I will be mainly critiquing the organization and presentation of these thoughts as a book.

People who will enjoy this book are: people who knew Esther either personally or through her online presence, people who want to see the connection between her and John Green's
♠ Tabi⁷ ♠
Aug 06, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorites, non-fic
This is the story of an amazing girl who faced death with a smile on her face and a twinkle in her eye. It's a story about a girl who lived, was real; loved and was loved back.

This isn't a story to hate, only to read. As you read, you will see just how bright of a light Esther was, and no amount of celebrity friends or popularity made her that or changed her. She was a girl, she lived, and then sadly she died. It's not a glamorous story, nor is it a unique one.

The only unique thing about this,
"But reading the unedited diary entries of a teenager, even a teenager with cancer, makes me want to go burn all my old diaries." — from a review by someone on Goodreads named Jessica. Couldn't have said it better myself. ...more
Jennifer Girard
Aug 16, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: read-in-2017, 4-stars, own
This was pretty good! I didn't know what to expect and I was quite surprised! I really love Harry Potter and John Green and I learned a lot about these fandoms! ...more
PinkAmy loves books, cats and naps

This is one of the hardest reviews I've ever written. Esther seem like she a great kid, creative, articulate, and kindhearted. I'd give Esther the person 5 stars. But I'm not rating what the I think of Esther, I'm rating the book her family put together after her death. THIS STAR WON'T GO OUT (TSWGO) includes Esther's drawings, a few poems, parts of short stories, instant messages, and portions of her journals and also comments by her family, friends, and writer John Green, who use Esther as ins
Jan 16, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: my-library
I haven’t cried like this for a book in a long time, possibly ever. This hit me personally so hard and feels so relevant to my current life I had to pick it up. I’ll elaborate more later in the review, but now for the book itself.

It’s so hard to capture the essence of someone’s life, but through family, friends and even Esther’s own telling of her life, you fully get an understanding of the wonderful person she was. How many lives she touched in her short time here. She did fully live her life,
Charlotte Jones
Jan 21, 2014 rated it it was amazing
This book is the story and experiences of Esther Earl, a girl that John knew and was a huge part of the online Nerdfighter community, who unfortunately died of cancer at just 16 in 2010. I can’t claim to have known her but her story is one that I think everyone in the community knows a little about and I just wanted to read her story in her own words, as well as from the viewpoint of the people around her.

I couldn’t review this book in the way I usually would because you cannot put a non-fiction
Jan 16, 2014 rated it liked it
I'm left not really knowing what to say about this book, if I'm being completely honest. I am going to keep this review as simple as I can, while still giving my opinion on the book itself not the topic of the book.

Like a lot of other readers, I picked this up after reading The Fault in Our Stars. I wasn't entirely sure what to expect. I'm not a part of the Nerdfighter community, so I had little to no information about Esther prior to this book's release. When I realized what the story was abou
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