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356 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 30, 2013
How do you review a book you can't say anything about? Where every single thing is a spoiler and you don't want to ruin the experience for anyone by saying too much? Because, seriously, I went into The Lonely knowing next to nothing… and I'm very glad. It was a wild, emotional, topsy-turvy ride and I couldn't put it down and I didn't want it to stop! I stayed up till nearly two in the morning to finish this and it was completely worth the lack of sleep.
So. What to say, what to say…
Our wonderful, quirky and emotionally damaged heroine is Emalyn Spicer. When the story opens, she's moving into her dorm with her best friend Michelle. New school, new state, and (she hopes) a new Emalyn. Which would be easy enough for the average girl, but Emalyn is anything but average. She suffers from a near-crippling OCD. Things must be neat, they must be clean. It's simply a way for her to cope with the stress, the… fears from her past. Cleaning. Disinfecting. There's no such thing as mental bleach but there is hand sanitizer and Lysol.
Emalyn also comes with a mysterious benefactor, who Michelle lovingly refers to as Mr. Uncle Daddy Weirdo. Her benefactor cares for her, protects her. Guides her. Shelters her. Pays for everything--and I do mean everything. He only requires she keep in constant contact with him via texts and regular phone calls. Not a bad deal for an orphan who previously had no one in her corner. And even though her benefactor is a tad controlling and, yeah, he can come across insensitive at times… He captivated me. Enthralled me. I had a major crush on the voice at the other end of the line. The whole time I wanted Emalyn to meet him, find out who he is, why he's doing what he's doing. (Okay, yes, and fall in love. I am a hardcore romantic after all.)
Also there to protect and care for her is Michelle, who is pretty much a sister to Emalyn. Michelle tries to gently nudge her. Help her grow and turn over a new leaf. Gets her to occasionally do things outside of her comfort zone and is also there to help her cope if it goes too far outside of her comfort zone. I adored Michelle. She's an awesome friend and I loved the way the two girls interacted and leaned on each other. I love seeing strong female friendships and this was the epitome of a great friendship.
Michelle and Emalyn's new college life doesn't go quite as they had planned or hoped though. The ever-present wall in Emalyn's mind, the barrier shielding her from a past she can't and doesn't want to remember, is starting to show cracks. And, when her past becomes her present… again… Emalyn is forced to confront all of the darkest parts inside of her. Also known as the lonely.
The Lonely is amazing. Such a surprise. The mystery, never knowing where the story was going, what would happen next, why things were happening… Miz Brown has written a powerful and provocative story here. Don't miss this book. Especially if you're a fan of dark romances (ala C.J. Robert's Dark Duets series), where the heroines and heroes are beautifully broken. Where you see all of their cracks and imperfections. And, because of those imperfections, they are dark and delightfully depraved.
The hero of this book (who I refuse to name because it's a spoiler, in my opinion) is oh so delightfully depraved. The man gives me the shivers. I am so beyond happy we get more of him in the next book, a companion novel, The Lost Boy. Bring on the paddles and the blindfolds!
The silence isn’t awkward anymore. It’s full of sexual tension. He grabs my hand and places it over his beating heart and holds it there. It’s like he’s giving it to me maybe. I pull off my shirt and do the same with his hand over my sports bra. My gesture might not mean the same to him but it means a lot to me.
They don’t really know him, not the dark and scary parts, but then again they don’t know those places in me. Only he does. Only he has seen the darkness. Only he embraces the darkness inside of me and turns it into love and light.
The dark is a quiet place. Reflection and contemplation are the only things to do in it. Well that, and imagine the worst things possible. I don’t have to reflect or contemplate or any of those things. I know what the worst things possible are. I know about the things that hide in the dark. Insanity is the least of them.
He smiles and the world is okay. It feels like it grew a tiny bit. Like I let him into the small corner where I live.
This is probably the hardest book I've ever had to rate. The first half the book I was confused but interested in what was happening. The last half of this book was a mess and gave me whip lash. It was like someone threw 2 different books together to make one. Separate these stories would have been phenomenal but put together it was confusing and frustrating.
There were a lot of things about this book that I enjoyed. I really liked Stuart and Michelle. Michelle was funny and a loyal best friend when most people would have left Emalyn and ran as fast as they could. I also enjoyed the intensity between Emalyn and Eli. They definitely were made for one another and even though they were both hot messes I really wanted them to find their happily ever after. Unfortunately the road to get there was painful for the reader as well as the characters.
If I were rating this book strictly on the first half of the book I would give it 4 stars. Unfortunately the last half of the book was not what I expected and I really contemplated quitting this book a couple of times. The biggest thing I hated was the love triangle. Every synopsis and review I read on this book is so vague that I really didn't know what to expect. This love triangle (I hate them to begin with.) really frustrated me. Emalyn went back and forth from Eli to Sebastian so many times that it made my head spin. I don't like love triangles but I can tolerate them if I have too and they are done right. This one was definitely everything that is wrong with love triangles.
Another pet peeve that I had with this book was the overusage of the word "DUDE." Are we in the eighties again? Why would everyone in this book use that term in every other sentence? It really annoyed me. The term dude or dudes was used 40 times in this book!
So you get the picture on my dude annoyance. I am not even going to name who said those quotes because every character in the book overused the word dude and it just annoyed me.
This book reminded me of a Fifty Shades of Gray meets Captive in the Dark with a little bit of something else I can't even begin to name thrown in. It wasn't at all what I expected but my favorite part would have to be Eli. I liked Sebastian but you could just tell that he was not cut out to be in the damaged world that Emalyn lived in. Eli had a roughness and edginess about him that really sucked me into the story. I was rooting for him even before I knew who he was.
This book is not for everyone. It has some very dark parts but it was worth the read. Very frustrating and a little messy but it kept me interested. I would say if you like Captive in the Dark but would like something not quite as dark this might be the read for you.
"You can't fix me, Sebastian. I'm not broken. I'm ruined."
"They don't really know him, not the dark and scary parts, but then again they don't know those places in me. Only he does. Only he has seen the darkness. Only he embraces the darkness inside of me and turns it in to love and light."
"Thank you. You always will be the hands in the dark that saved me from the lonely."