Goodreads helps you keep track of books you want to read.
Start by marking “So Much It Hurts (So Much It Hurts, #1)” as Want to Read:
So Much It Hurts (So Much It Hurts, #1)
Enlarge cover
Rate this book
Clear rating
Open Preview

So Much It Hurts (So Much It Hurts #1)

3.96  ·  Rating details ·  946 Ratings  ·  195 Reviews
Life is full of uncertainty, so what happens when a what-if from your past collides with your present?

Kaitlyn Thomas, a weary wife and mother, is taking a much needed getaway with her friends. All she wants to do is relax and rejuvenate on her weekend escape to the beach. Having a drink at the bar with the girls sounds like the perfect way to unwind. That is, until Kaitlyn
Paperback, 342 pages
Published August 29th 2013 by Createspace
More Details... edit details

Friend Reviews

To see what your friends thought of this book, please sign up.

Reader Q&A

To ask other readers questions about So Much It Hurts, please sign up.

Be the first to ask a question about So Much It Hurts

Collide by Gail McHughThe Forgotten Ones by Laura  HowardWait for You by J. LynnBreathe into Me by Amanda  StoneRunning on Empty by L.B. Simmons
Lucky '13s
215 books — 1,400 voters
Real by Katy EvansDriven by K. BrombergBully by Penelope DouglasCollide by Gail McHughBeautiful Bastard by Christina Lauren
Romance Debuts 2013
441 books — 4,026 voters

More lists with this book...

Community Reviews

(showing 1-30)
Rating details
Sort: Default
J *deep in the heart of Texas*
Mar 22, 2013 rated it did not like it
Shelves: i-m-a-quitter

I tried, I really did! But I have to bail on this one....DNF at 32%!

It's just...

It's the same thing over and over and over again.

The story starts off with Kaitlyn on a weekend getaway with the girls. She is a stay-at-home mom, who married Michael when she found out she was pregnant. Michael works all of the time and Kaitlyn doesn't appear to be happy. On the getaway, Kaitlyn sees Chris who she knew in high school.

The story then flashes back to the past. Kaitlyn is in high school and is in an ab
  KAT ⚛ Kitty Kat's Crazy About Books ⚛
Temptation photo: temptation Temptation.jpg

MARRIAGE vows are sacred, but TEMPTATION is a powerful thing..
Image and video hosting by TinyPic

This is such a mind fuck of a book!! A truly emotional heart wrenching story, "SO MUCH IT HURTS" is a story of love, loss, redemption and hope!!

have hope photo: have hope 6xv7b0g.jpg

So many taboo subjects were broached in this, rape, abuse, drugs, unfaithfulness, small town closed mindedness god and that's only half of it!!
tear drop photo: tear drop tear.jpg

Reading this I felt like I was in a love triangle and on a roller coaster of an emotional ride from start to finish..Times I had to turn off the
Rebecca Shea
Mar 06, 2013 rated it it was amazing
I just finished reading "So Much It Hurts" and am left a little hollow, a little empty--in a good way. This is a story of true first love, of forgiveness, redemption. It's sad, heartbreaking and uplifting. My heart physically hurt for Kaitlyn, for the choices she had to make, for the choices she DID make, and for the healing that had to take place. I wanted to nut punch Trevor, and I found a little piece of my heart belongs to Chris King. Congratulations on your debut novel Melanie Dawn.
Aug 21, 2013 rated it did not like it
I tried, I made it to 62%. But it was just so cheeseball. Kaitlyn was raking on my nerves. (Made it to 100%)

The book starts out in present time. Kaitlyn is unhappily married to Michael with a 5 year old. She's on a girls beach trip and runs into Chris. I cant even classify him as a "high school sweetheart" or "high school first love" because when the book jumps into the past, he wasnt either of those things.
In highschool she dated Trevor who was a major ASSHOLE. But she always went back for more
Kim Person
Jan 16, 2013 rated it it was amazing
So Much It Hurts was a So Much It had me SCREAMING, FREAKING OUT, HAPPY DANCE, WTH MOMENTS type of book! I received an ARC of this book in exchange for my honest opinion ~ I HONESTLY adore this book so much it became a MUST OWN so I purchased it but when I started this book I knew, just had that gut feeling, it wouldn't be long until I started...

Kaitlyn is on vacation with the girls ~ time away from her doldrums marriage and wonderful little boy. She needed this time ~ I thought perhaps it could
Jul 23, 2013 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
*I received an eARC from the author in exchange for an honest review*

Well, where to start? Oh yes, this should sum it up…. THIS BOOK BROKE ME. Completely broke me.

Why? I can’t put my finger on it. I have read lots of books that were emotional, and I shed a tear or two, but this book? This book had me sobbing; I went to sleep crying, with the tears actually soaking my pillow.

Perhaps it’s because I can relate to Kaitlyn, maybe a lot of women will relate to her. She’s a stay at home mom, looking af
Aug 26, 2013 rated it it was ok
Shelves: romance
I wish this story was more then just ordinary, but it wasn't. The beginning started out with the typical cliches of, "my breath hitched", "butterflies in my stomach" and a heroine who, of course, has no idea how pretty she is. Ugh...

As a reader/reviewer, I liked to be challenged...I read a TON of books. Unfortunately, I knew exactly what was going to happen before most of it did. Make me work...make me wonder, make me want to throw my Kindle across the room because of my raw emotions. Please don
Abby McCarthy
Aug 13, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Sometimes you read a book that just resonates so much with you personally. So Much It Hurts, touched me and I am sure that it will touch so many women. This book had a lot of things that were extremely relatable to me. I think that is something that can really make a book a home run, when the author can connect with the audience so effortlessly.

This story begins with Kaitlin going on a girls weekend with her girlfriends and she comes face to face with someone from her past. We are catapulted int
Lauren ♥ Inked in Chapters
Aug 10, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favs
Please excuse me for a moment while I pick up the shattered pieces of what was once my heart. I swear to you that they are strewn throughout my house; little tiny fragments, just everywhere. So Much It Hurts is the perfect title for this book, because honestly, this was painful. I think it might have been one of the most difficult books I’ve ever read. Not because it was poorly written or the story line was lacking, but because it just tore me up. It was painful to read. I loved it So Much It Hu ...more
Kathy Ann
Aug 13, 2013 rated it really liked it
This is a hard review for me to write. I almost don't know what to say about this book. Let me start out by saying that Melanie Dawn has created a character in Kaitlyn that you can most definitely empathize with. You really FEEL what she feels. Kaitlyn is an unhappy wife and mother who needs a break. I really sympathized with Kaitlyn when she said "Do you know how depressing it is when your daily goal in life is to sweep up crackers off the floor and dig rocks out of pants pockets before throwin ...more
Alicia at Mean Girls Luv Books
Sep 06, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2013-faves, mglb
So Much It Hurts is a beautifully written book about living life. It’s about all the things that happen in life and living through it. Live life is full of pain, regret, fear, mistakes, happiness, and love and we see all of that and more in this book. This is a book about taking a chance to be with someone you have loved your whole life, but they slipped through your fingers because life just got in the way. Would you take that chance and risk the ones you love or would you walk away with more r ...more
Aug 23, 2013 rated it liked it
This book made me feel exactly what the title says.. it made me feel so many bittersweet emotions "so much it hurts."

(view spoiler)
Scandalous Book Blog
This is one of those books that you either love it or hate it.
I'm going to be completely honest right now. At the beginning I knew there was just something different and that I was either going to love it or hate it. By the end I was not sure what to make of it, I had to take a day just to think but that was when I realize that, that's the beauty if this book it makes you think and reflect it leaves you slumber it's not your pretty hearts and flowers but it IS REAL. In fact one of the realist I
Tiffany Readz
Aug 25, 2013 rated it really liked it
While reading this book I had so many mixed emotions which stuck around even after I finished it. I am just not too sure how I feel about certain parts of the story.

Kaitlyn Thomas as an adult is married (not happily at the moment) with a five-year old son. She is a stay at home mom who needs a few days to herself to unwind and just get away from her everyday household duties. We moms have all been there. She is married to Michael who is a good guy, bit of a workaholic while Kaitlyn craves his at
Erika Ashby
Mar 23, 2013 rated it it was amazing
This book pulled me in instantly! I loved ever moment of it. I loved Chris King hard and hated the other douchebag. The part I loved most about this book is that we all can find ourselves in a state of contentment in our own personal marriages. When you are in that point in life and are smacked with a blast from the past, how do you react? No one can possibly answer that until it happens to them. This book is about life and all it's obstacles. No one is perfect, but it's how you deal with shit t ...more
Sheyla ✎
Aug 24, 2013 rated it it was ok
Kaitlyn falls in love in high school. Trevor is the one guy everyone likes and wants around. She should be lucky to be his girlfriend. Soon, he shows his true colors. Kaitlyn lives a life in fear. This is until she meets Chris King. A new kid who comes straight out of juvie. He is mysterious but they share a connection. Chris helps her whenever she needs him.
Years later they meet again. Now, Chris is part of a band. They never forgot each other but now Kaitlyn is married and has a kid. Can she l
Feb 02, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Once in a while, a book comes along and not only does it take you on a journey but it also teaches you important life lessons. Well, this is that book.

I received and advanced reader copy and from the moment I opened it up, I was memorized by the beautiful writing. There are many emotional and thought provoking scenarios of "what ifs" like the blurb mentions but it was so much more than that. I felt like this character was literally telling me HER story and I LOVED the ending, but won't give it a
Chrissy Fernandes
Aug 22, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Wow.....we need more Chris please. Fantastic read and an emotional roller coaster couldn't put it down.
Bookhooking (Tanya Childress)
What happens when you fall in love with someone you can't be with, someone who saves you, when you have reached a point in your life, a life you pretty much want to just end?

So Much It Hurts is a story of exactly that. It is full of so much emotion with difficult and real, life altering decisions.

Kaitlyn is a married woman, but I must say not a very happy one, and she has a son, Eli, that is pretty much her life. What she so desperately wants and needs though, is a break. Most of us have been wh

Sep 14, 2013 rated it it was amazing

Wow!!! I am speechless, I am needing to gather my thoughts just so I can know how to explain the book. It was a great story And it is jam packed with so much I'm not sure shower to begin first. I guess the best place to start is with Kaytlin an Trevor.

So at first Trevor seems to be the hot, popular, sweet and respectful young man. The first date he took her on was so sweet, you are in awe of him. But beware of sheeps in wolves clothing. Their relationship is okay for a little while, the summer
Aug 24, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Ok...So from the start I didn't like Michael, didn't think he was right for Kaitlyn. Then we take a stroll down memory lane and get the story of Kaitlyn, Trevor, Chris, Michael. Ugh. Trevor was a complete and utter douche bag!! I'm happy in the long run he got what he deserved. I really wish Kaitlyn would of stepped up when that happened to her, she could of saved poor Eva. Also I feel I must say that Kaitlyn shouldn't of taken that crap and did something or leave. But I think all women have bee ...more
May 29, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: arc, first-reads
Melanie Dawn delivers an emotional page-turner in her debut novel So Much it Hurts. It’s unique, it’s fresh, and it is a welcomed departure from the typical “cookie-cutter” romance.

Kaitlyn Thomas has reached a plateau in her marriage and life. Day after day, she’s going through the motions wearing herself thin taking care of her children and doing everything she can to be an exemplary stay-at-home mom. Michael, her husband, feels more like a roommate than the once romantic man who swept her off
Lucinda Claire
Aug 31, 2013 rated it really liked it
Shelves: angsty, bad-boys
I was offered an ARC of "So Much It Hurts" in exchange for an honest review. This is one of those instances where the synopsis did not aptly prepare me for what I would experience. I believed I was getting a contemporary romance book. However, I was surprised that about 50% of the book was really Young Adult, as it flashes back to the heroine’s experiences in high school to give significant back story for what is occurring in the present.

Kaitlyn’s relationship with her over-protective boyfriend
Mar 04, 2014 rated it it was amazing
WOW! This book has been on my TBR list for months. (Sorry, Melanie) And what a HUGE mistake (although, I must admit, given the ending; I’m glad I waited). I read this in preparation for Then There Was You.

How does one fall in the love at first glance? First penetrating stare? Like the kind that goes so deep, your soul cries because finally, finally your life’s match has been found and it can’t help but be overwhelmed with joy. I still don’t know the answer to this, but Melanie does an excellent
Mar 04, 2014 rated it it was amazing
I'm hollow right now. This book was such an emotional journey through a love triangle of sorts.

The first part of the book I was appalled and could not believe what was happening to her and how it could go unnoticed or ignored by everyone else. I cried for her and shared her feeling of the hopeless situation that she felt trapped in. I was so happy when Chris intervened and was there for her in whatever capacity she would let him be.

The night before Chris went back to juvie they expressed a swe
Mar 06, 2013 rated it it was amazing
What a flipping fantastic book !!! I can not tell you what this book did to me ! My emotions were all over the place. I laughed , cried, wanted to kill people (ok so just one person in particular ), and I swooned oh did I swoon ! This should be on everyone's Must Read List !! This is the type of story that will keep you up at night because you ..just..can't ...put.. it....down !!!! The story is about love, life, growing up, unexpected journeys (sometimes not always the kind you want ) and making ...more
Aug 18, 2013 rated it really liked it
I found myself at times highly frustrated with this story...not in a horribly bad way, just annoyed with the Character's and their behavior, during the past tense storyline.. I wish we had gotten to see more of Chris & Kaitlyn's relationship developed, during the past tense and a little less of that ass half Trevor! I am not thrilled with the ending....what about when their old and grey? I want them to find each other... do they later in life 20, 30 years down the road? I enjoyed this, just ...more
Teri Beth
Mar 17, 2013 added it
Shelves: beta
So Much It Hurts is a wonderful debut novel of young love, making choices, forgiving, and moving forward. It had me invested it Kaitlyn's life and story, both past and present. It kept me wondering what was going to happen next when it came to her future. It's also a story that is thought provoking, it made me wonder what choices I would make in a situations like Kaitlyn's. I thoroughly enjoyed the emotional ride it took me on! Melanie Dawn is a talented writer and I'm looking forward to what st ...more
Aug 23, 2013 rated it really liked it
Soooooo unfair, i couldn't put this book down and now that it's finished i want it to keep going.
I was so sure of the ending, the whole time i was excited about it but no, Melanie had other ideas and now i am gutted, heart broken and really.... sad. But i have hope great hope that if we forward until retirement home time i will get the ending i was so sure i would get. Shit i am again crying my eyes out writing this..........
« previous 1 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 next »
topics  posts  views  last activity   
Some Like It Hot!: GIVEAWAY - $25 Amazon Gift Card and 8 ebooks (NA/Romance) 2 32 Sep 07, 2013 02:31PM  
  • Distractions
  • Save Me from Me (Timing is Everything, #3)
  • Before the Storm (Storms of Life, #2)
  • Love Square (Love Square, #1)
  • I Breathe You
  • Ending a Broken Journey (Journey, #1)
  • Skipping Stones
  • Angel of Mine
  • Rock Bottom (Bullet, #2)
  • Two Roads
  • Relinquishing Liberty (Second Chances, #1)
  • Breaking the Rules (Back to Brooklyn, #2)
  • Searching for Tomorrow (Tomorrows #1)
  • A Brutal Tenderness (A Terrible Love, #2)
  • Resplendent (A Second Chance, #2)
  • A Graceful Mess
  • Fighting Back (Mercy's Angels, #2)
  • Misjudged (Misjudged, #1)
Melanie Dawn is a thinker, a dreamer, and a hopeless romantic. When her head isn't in the clouds, she spends her time as a jack of all trades to her family. Melanie resides in the hills of North Carolina with her husband, her three children, and her cat. She enjoys lazy summer afternoons cruising around the lake on the pontoon boat with her family.
Melanie graduated from UNC-Chapel Hill with a BA
More about Melanie Dawn

Other books in the series

So Much It Hurts (3 books)
  • Then There Was You (So Much It Hurts, #2)
  • Sweet Sound of Silence (So Much It Hurts, #3)

Romance Deals

  • Wild Kisses (Wildwood, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • A Dangerous Engagement (The Regency Spies of London, #3)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Bad Boys After Dark: Carson (Bad Boys After Dark, #3; Billionaires After Dark #7; Love in Bloom #49)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Trouble in Paradise
    $4.49 $1.99
  • Staying For Good (Most Likely To, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Miss Fortune (Lear Family Trilogy #3)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Almost Like Love
    $4.49 $1.99
  • Party Girl
    $4.49 $1.99
  • Cross My Heart
    $3.99 $1.99
  • Her Grave Secrets (Rogue River #3)
    $3.99 $1.99
  • Married by Monday (The Weekday Brides, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • If I Didn't Know Better (The Callaways #9)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Beauty Queen (Lear Family Trilogy, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Life After Wife (Three Magic Words Trilogy, #3)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Incentive
    $3.99 $1.99
  • It Started With a Kiss (Sequoia Lake, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Fiancé by Friday (The Weekday Brides, #3)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Savage Urges (The Phoenix Pack, #5)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • The Color of Water in July
    $4.49 $1.99
  • Knight Avenged (Circle of Seven, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Taken by Tuesday (The Weekday Brides, #5)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Kushiel's Dart (Phèdre's Trilogy, #1)
    $9.99 $2.99
  • A Forever Thing (Three Magic Words Trilogy, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Dead in Her Tracks (Rogue Winter, #2)
    $3.99 $1.99
  • Flirting with Felicity
    $3.99 $1.99
  • Long, Hot Texas Summer
    $4.49 $1.99
  • You'll Think of Me
    $8.99 $1.99
  • Lily Love
    $1.99 $0.99
  • Forever is the Worst Long Time
    $4.99 $1.99
  • True to the Highlander (Loch Moigh #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Sweet as Sin (Bad Habit, #1)
    $3.49 $0.99
  • The Dollmaker (The Forgotten Files, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Fifth Grave Past the Light (Charley Davidson, #5)
    $8.99 $2.99
  • The Heart of Betrayal (The Remnant Chronicles, #2)
    $7.80 $2.99
  • Shameless (White Lies Duet #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Burn for You (Slow Burn, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Be Mine Forever (St. Helena Vineyard, #4)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Playing It Safe
    $3.99 $1.99
  • Sweet Lake (Sweet Lake #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • The Barefoot Summer
    $4.49 $1.99
  • Smart Girl (The Girl's #3)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Falling Together
    $10.74 $1.99
  • Warrior's Revenge
    $4.49 $1.99
  • Lily's White Lace
    $4.49 $1.99
  • A Viscount's Proposal (The Regency Spies of London, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Fear For Me: A Novel of the Bayou Butcher (For Me, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • The Hangman (The Forgotten Files #3)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Stone Walls (True Heroes, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Things I Can't Forget (Hundred Oaks, #3)
    $9.99 $2.99
  • Flashpoint (Troubleshooters, #7)
    $7.99 $1.99
  • Break Me (Corrupted Hearts, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • The Shark (Forgotten Files, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Black and Green (The Ghost Bird, #11)
    $4.99 $1.49
  • The Wager
    $3.99 $1.99
  • Enrage (Eagle Elite )
    $2.99 $1.49
  • Spiral of Need (The Mercury Pack, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Treasured by Thursday (The Weekday Brides, #7)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Infraction (Players Game, #2)
    $3.99 $1.99
  • Fated (Dark Protectors, #1)
    $9.99 $2.99
  • Material Girl (The Fancy Lives of the Lear Sisters, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • The Beauty of Darkness (The Remnant Chronicles, #3)
    $7.80 $2.99
  • Summer in Napa (St. Helena Vineyard, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • The Devil's Daughter (Hidden Sins #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Fraternize (Players Game, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • P.S. from Paris
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Love, Lucas
    $9.99 $1.99
  • The Rules of Regret
    $3.99 $1.99
  • In Shining Whatever (Three Magic Words Trilogy, #2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • By Your Side
    $9.99 $1.99
  • Follow Me (Corrupted Hearts, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Sweet Girl (The Girl's Series Book 2)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Lost and Found Sisters (Wildstone, #1)
    $7.99 $1.99
  • Kulti
    $3.99 $1.49
  • The Trouble with Tomboys (Tommy Creek #1)
    $3.99 $0.99
  • All There Is (Juniper Hills, #1)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • Soul and Blade (Blood and Bone, #3)
    $3.49 $0.99
  • To Win Her Favor (Belle Meade Plantation #2)
    $7.99 $1.99
  • In The Flesh
    $7.99 $1.99
  • Nobody's Baby But Mine (Chicago Stars, #3)
    $4.74 $1.99
  • Delta: Redemption (Delta, #3)
    $4.99 $1.99
  • The Curiosity
    $7.99 $1.99
  • Dealing Double (Heartbreaker, #2)
    $3.99 $1.99
  • Spin (Spin, #1)
    $7.74 $0.99
  • On Her Father's Grave (Rogue River #1)
    $3.99 $1.99