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Don't Kill Him! The Story of My Life with Bhagwan Rajneesh

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As His personal secretary between 1981 and 1985, and the second-in-command of His organization, Ma Anand Sheela enjoyed an enviably close relationship with Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh.

Bhagwan called upon her when He wanted to discuss personal issues, crucial administrative matters, run minor errands, and to even place an order for a new Rolls-Royce. Ma Sheela was His confidante
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Published January 1st 2013 by Fingerprint
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Jul 27, 2019 rated it liked it
Many years back, during his lifetime, be it India or the US, Osho Rajneesh & his teachings created stress and suspicion among the local population. Today, I think, many people view his legacy with more openness and accept that he explored new methods & his teachings had value. I have been curious about what made him popular as well as the events which led to his exit from the US. I picked up this book (a biography by Ma Anand Sheela, who was his personal secretary) on impulse expecting to learn ...more
Bernie Gourley
Sep 29, 2013 rated it liked it
There are some nonfiction books that one reads because one wants the objective, unvarnished truth about events. This is NOT that book. Some books you read knowing they are going to contain a mix of truth and falsehood--fact and fiction--and you read them believing you can gain insight from both the truth and the falsehood--if you consider the words analytically in light of known facts. This is that kind of book.

Don’t Kill Him is an autobiographical account of Ma Anand Sheela’s (a.k.a. Sheela Am
Prashanth Bhat
Dec 10, 2019 rated it really liked it
Don't Kill Him! The Story of My Life with Bhagwan Rajneesh : a Memoir - ma Anand sheela

ಆಚಾರ್ಯ ರಜನೀಶ್,ಓಶೋ,ಭಗವಾನ್ ಇತ್ಯಾದಿ ಹಲವಾರು ಹೆಸರುಗಳಿಂದ ಕರೆಯಲ್ಪಡುವ ರಜನೀಶ್ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಎಷ್ಟು ಗೊತ್ತು ನಿಮಗೆ? ಹೆಚ್ಚೆಂದರೆ 'ಸೆಕ್ಸ್ ಗುರು' ಎಂಬ ಉಪಾಧಿ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಕೇಳಿರಬಹುದು. ಅವರ ಆಶ್ರಮದಲ್ಲಿ ಡ್ರಗ್ಸ್ ಎಲ್ಲ ಬಳಸ್ತಾ ಇದಾರಂತೆ ಅಂತ ಯಾರೋ ಹೇಳಿದ್ದನ್ನ ನೀವು ಕೇಳಿರಬಹುದು. ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಸಂಖ್ಯಾತ ‌ಪ್ರಕಟಣೆಗಳ ಕಂಡ ಓಶೋ ಪುಸ್ತಕಗಳ ಒಂದು ಝಲಕ್ ನಿಮಗೆ ಸಿಕ್ಕಿರಬಹುದು. ಅದೂ ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂದರೆ ಅವರ ಮಾತಿನ ವೀಡಿಯೋಗಳ ನೀವು ನೋಡಿರಬಹುದು.
ಸರಿಸುಮಾರು ಆರು ನೂರಕ್ಕೂ ಹೆಚ್ಚಿನ ಪುಸ್ತಕ, ಎಷ್ಟೋ ಸಾವಿರ ಗಂಟೆಗಳ ಮಾತಿನ
Amanda Mae
Apr 30, 2018 rated it liked it
Shelves: memoir, religion
I wanted to read this after watching Wild, Wild Country on Netflix, and I think that helped me understand the context of much of Sheela's story. Sheela starts the book with leaving Rajneeshpuram and Bhagwan, and subsequent prison stint, before backtracking in the second half to how she met Bhagwan and how Rajneeshpuram came to be. If I hadn't seen the documentary on Netflix, I think I would have been very confused, but I already had a timeline and context in place for her version of events.

Sep 28, 2018 rated it it was amazing
One of the most facinating books I read so far. After watching Wild Wild Country, I became so fanatic about Osho that I happened to watch all of his fucking videos (I mean where he is barking like an orator), his secretary videos and lot more. I would recommend this to all who has seen the series because this book is beyond that and covers up the entire story in the words of MA Anand Sheela. I find this lady quite sincere because Osho made her an epitome of his so fake fucking commune and later ...more
Kasturi  Dadhe
Aug 02, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Fantastic book by Ma Anand Sheela. Reveal-er not only of Osho as a human being with normal emotions but also of the workings of larger-than-self godman and his profound philosophy. My respect only grew for his devout follower also the author of the book. A must read!
Sep 09, 2018 rated it did not like it
Shelves: true-crime
i didnt even finish this. i hate it so much.
The  Conch
Nov 30, 2020 rated it liked it
The book can fall into autobiography category. The writing of book is quite good to drag readers into atmosphere of Rajneeshpuram. The book gives a glimpse of journey of simple professor to Acharya Rajneesh and then Bhagawan Rajneesh and then dissolution of the empire.

This book can be considered very important in this age of all cool gurus and all type of yogas for e.g beer yoga, hot yoga, naked yoga etc. Readers must choose their guide of spirituality with caution, otherwise one will stand now
Jun 05, 2019 rated it really liked it
Okay. So where should I start! This book has introduced me to this world of which I had the faintest idea. I mean I saw the teaser of Wild Wild Country on Netflix. But who knew this man and his confidante can make the western land dance to their tunes. I also at certain points empathised with Sheela as she narrated her experiences. But then there is something that makes me think she was equally a fanatic as she reigned but got tired of the overwhelming responses she faced. So, yeah this book is ...more
Priyanka Dey
Jan 20, 2013 rated it really liked it
A complete eye-opener. Once you pick this book up, you cannot put it off. It is the kind of book that haunts you till you are done with it. I would recommend this to anyone with an open mind to look at Osho.
Oct 24, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
A must read for every Osho fan. He was simply a man but he made wrong use of his power.
Alfredo Gayou
Sep 07, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Fills lots of blanks

Chronologically it first tells the story after leaving the commune, mainly because that.would have been less appealing to read at the end.
At certain points it feels too apologetic or justifying lots; but ii is amazing and comforting how Sheela’s love for Bhagwan was and still is. You can read true love in her words, yet I understood more reading how Sherpa lacked also the love for meditation. The book doesn’t explain again what is on “wild wild country” so It is a very good
Vimal Kumar
May 01, 2020 rated it liked it
This book pulled me towards because of my continuous quest to know more about Osho. Since Sheela has seen the other side of the Osho, It was credible read.

I would prefer not to comment on content depicting the life of Osho; however, I would certainly convey that this read was colourful in its own. Well organised and great depiction.
Mar 29, 2020 rated it liked it
I really enjoyed this book, but felt there was a lot being held back or I would’ve liked more of Sheela’s experience in day to day life on the ranch. Of course I was expecting commentary on the “terrorist attack” but there was little to no mention of it.
Srijana Khatiwada
Jan 19, 2021 rated it liked it
Loved it!
Sahib Khan
Jan 06, 2021 rated it really liked it
Shelves: wisdom
Memoir of a fraud, religious deception, and exploitation. A notorious cult to learn from.
Suri Choudhary
Jul 06, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: suri
Antonio Vargas
Jul 18, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Is Ma Anand Sheela, Crazy?! Like a Fox! An insiders perspective on the Rajneesh community.
May 03, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Positives: Many inspiring stories from Oshos and some humanly parts of osho. Also about Rajaneeshpuram project

Negatives: Attempts of coming out clean of all the allegations. She backs some of them by quoting Osho from his discourse and books and some of them are from her personal accounts. Some are clear lies which you realize after watching Netflix series and by watching other videos coming up these days in internet.

Personal opinion: Well, it is obvious that this is an attempt of Ma Anand Sheel
Sanjeev Kotnala
Feb 06, 2013 rated it liked it
DON'T KILL HIM .. The Story of My life with Bhagwan rajneesh. Ma Anand Sheela


I have been deeply influenced by Bhagwan Rajneeshes books and sermons. His hypnotic voice and the rationally ( at least it seems so at that point of time) driven logical analysis of learning’s – or interpretation are legendary. It was very easy for people to fall in love with him- respect him and take on him as their master. BUT THE COMMUNE
The Book Outline
Jun 18, 2013 rated it really liked it
Don't Kill Him! is not an endorsement of teachings and philosophy of Bhagwan Rajneesh, instead it is Ma Anand Sheela's version of what had happened. Divided in two distinct parts, the first part begins on the day Ma Sheela decides to resign as Bhagwan's secretary while the second part begins from when she joined Bhagwan's movement around 1972.

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Bodhisatva Zen
Jan 30, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: ALL
Recommended to Bodhisatva by: None
This is a wonderful book, by a wonderful, honest and hardworking, loving person. Ma Anand Sheela narrates the truth behind the Rajneeshpuram episode in Osho and Her life. She is one of the greatest lovers of Osho and honestly brings the truth out of the mystery surrounding the Rajneeshpuram episode. A must read for all those who truly want to find the truth and not go by what others say about Osho or Ma Anand Sheela.
Swarna Pawar
Feb 02, 2016 rated it did not like it
It's all about her contradictions. She talks of osho and vivek's and their relationship. She gets personal. She herself admits of having numerous relationships and sometimes multiple relationships at a time. Nevertheless people can read between lines. ...more
Jan 09, 2016 rated it really liked it
For someone who did not know the entire story, it was shocking to see what power can do to someone who ironically preached giving it up.
Akshay Anand
Apr 02, 2019 rated it did not like it
I don't think author in this tell all book actually told anything of sort. Just one sided story and narrative. ...more
Anuradha Goyal
Mar 17, 2013 rated it really liked it
A very interesting read by someone who lead an unusual life ...more
Aug 23, 2014 rated it really liked it
Worth Reading For All OSHO Fans...
Manish Vohra
Apr 03, 2015 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
good book
Saurabh Pahuja
Jan 28, 2014 rated it really liked it
a nice book
Ma Sheela give her real life story about her times with Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh.

A good book to learn the other side of the teachings of Osho.

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