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Don't Kill Him! The Story of My Life with Bhagwan Rajneesh

Ma Anand Sheela

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As His personal secretary between 1981 and 1985, and the second-in-command of His organization, Ma Anand Sheela enjoyed an enviably close relationship with Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh.

Bhagwan called upon her when He wanted to discuss personal issues, crucial administrative matters, run minor errands, and to even place an order for a new Rolls-Royce. Ma Sheela was His ...more

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Jul 27, 2019 Bharath rated it liked it

Many years back, during his lifetime, be it India or the US, Osho Rajneesh & his teachings created stress and suspicion among the local population. Today, I think, many people view his legacy with more openness and accept that he explored new methods & his teachings had value. I have been curious about what made him popular as well as the events which led to his exit from the US. I picked up this book (a biography by Ma Anand Sheela, who was his personal secretary) on impulse expecting Many years back, during his lifetime, be it India or the US, Osho Rajneesh & his teachings created stress and suspicion among the local population. Today, I think, many people view his legacy with more openness and accept that he explored new methods & his teachings had value. I have been curious about what made him popular as well as the events which led to his exit from the US. I picked up this book (a biography by Ma Anand Sheela, who was his personal secretary) on impulse expecting to learn more about Osho’s life. This book addressed my expectations partly with some new material not in the public domain. However, since Sheela devotes considerable space to clearing up her own image, it does not come across as being entirely forthright.

The book is divided into two parts – the first dealing with Sheela’s arrest and the judicial process culminating in her sentencing. The second part covers the early part of her life, her first meeting with Rajneesh, her rise among his followers, his teachings and the establishment of the commune in the US.

Sheela refers to Rajneesh respectfully throughout the book. The first half of the book is pretty bland, where she writes about her decision to leave the commune as she was getting disillusioned and wanted a change. Rajneesh reacts with anger at her leaving, accusing her of many serious crimes. She makes the point that the commune at Oregon had been in conflict with local residents for some time, and this allowed the authorities the opportunity they had wanted since long to shut down the commune. She was extradited from Germany and claimed that she accepted a few charges to bring an end to the episode. While it is entirely possible that the authorities had the goal of shutting down the commune based on the controversies and the anger of local residents, Sheela makes no attempt to explain any of the charges against her.

The second part of the book is more interesting – covering her initial meeting with Rajneesh and the rise of his popularity. His dynamic meditation technique gained popularity quickly as also his discourses. While, she refers to Rajneesh respectively throughout, she also writes about his never-ending desires and ability to manipulate others to get what he wanted. For instance, he encouraged followers who had more money, getting them to contribute more. This led to a drastic reduction in his Indian following, by design. This approach continued in the commune in the US, with Rajneesh acquiring nearly 100 Rolls Royces. This portion of the book explores Osho’s complex personality well – a person with many human failings, who did have valuable lessons to offer.

A book worth a read for Sheela’s version of events and some new material on Osho, not found in the public domain.

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Jan 16, 2013 Vivek Tejuja rated it liked it

It isn’t easy to write a book about a public figure. It isn’t easy to also write a book about your life spent with the public figure and having loved him and done everything as per his wish and command. “Don’t Kill Him! The Story of my Life with Bhagwan Rajneesh” by Ma Anand Sheela is a short chronicle of Ma Sheela’s life with Bhagwan (self-proclaimed) Rajneesh from the time she met him, worked with him in setting up the commune at Poona and Oregon to the time she resigned from the post of his It isn’t easy to write a book about a public figure. It isn’t easy to also write a book about your life spent with the public figure and having loved him and done everything as per his wish and command. “Don’t Kill Him! The Story of my Life with Bhagwan Rajneesh” by Ma Anand Sheela is a short chronicle of Ma Sheela’s life with Bhagwan (self-proclaimed) Rajneesh from the time she met him, worked with him in setting up the commune at Poona and Oregon to the time she resigned from the post of his secretary, was behind bars for thirty-nine months, to what she did after.

The book is divided into two parts. The first part speaks of the accusations on Ma Sheela and how she dealt with them. It also takes a turn to the years spent in prison by her and her so-called courage and persistence that kept her going. The second part is about how she joined the Rajneesh and her ways of working around the ashram and the setting of the Oregon commune.

That in short, is the plot of the book. I think that for memoirs to make an impact, it needs to be honest and more so strongly backed by facts (if they are imperative to the book like in this one). There are a lot of inconsistencies in the book. On one hand Ma Sheela talks about how Rajneesh was different and how she still loves him and on the other she talks of how he falsely accused her and she had lost all respect for the man (implies it in the book). The so-called Bhagwan moved about in close to 100 Rolls Royce and owned watches by the dozens, while his disciples did not have money to pay for his meditation courses. For me, that was the biggest indication of a lie of a man who claimed to combine capitalism with spirituality.

To read the book in its singularity and not judge Rajneesh is very difficult. For most parts, right before I reached the end, I also judged him. I had also begun to think that maybe that was the idea of the book. The writing is sketchy in bits and parts. My favourite part was about Rajneesh’s thoughts on education and that made the most sense to me. One would also sense that it must have been quite difficult for Ma Sheela to have written this book, considering her closeness to Rajneesh.

I read the book because the contents somehow interested me. I would recommend the book only to someone who wants a fast read and be done with it in a day or so. You will not get to know a lot about Rajneesh and how he was as a leader (well no other term came to mind) of a large commune or almost a religion, however you will see a lot of details in the way he dealt with his people, more so with Ma Sheela. “Don’t Kill Him Now!” By Ma Anand Sheela reads like a thriller and disappoints as a memoirs to a large extent. I give it a 3 only because of some of the parts that were written well and a little that I got to know about the person.
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Sep 29, 2013 Bernie Gourley rated it liked it

There are some nonfiction books that one reads because one wants the objective, unvarnished truth about events. This is NOT that book. Some books you read knowing they are going to contain a mix of truth and falsehood--fact and fiction--and you read them believing you can gain insight from both the truth and the falsehood--if you consider the words analytically in light of known facts. This is that kind of book.

Don’t Kill Him is an autobiographical account of Ma Anand Sheela’s (a.k.a. Sheela There are some nonfiction books that one reads because one wants the objective, unvarnished truth about events. This is NOT that book. Some books you read knowing they are going to contain a mix of truth and falsehood--fact and fiction--and you read them believing you can gain insight from both the truth and the falsehood--if you consider the words analytically in light of known facts. This is that kind of book.

Don’t Kill Him is an autobiographical account of Ma Anand Sheela’s (a.k.a. Sheela Ambalal Patel’s) life as the secretary / spokeswoman / project manager / Pepper Potts for Bhagwan Rajneesh (a.k.a. Osho.) As such, while it is about the life of Sheela, the central character is the Bhagwan Rajneesh. This is indicative of the narcissistic but charismatic cult leader—who must be the center of attention—and the infatuated cult member for whom the “guru” is everything. What one really gets in this book is insight into the mind of a person prone to join a cult.

Chances are you know of the Bhagwan Rajneesh in one of two very different ways. As Osho, he’s an enlightened guru who penned over 600 books on spiritual topics from Taoism to Tantric sex, who attracted a vast following of wisdom seekers, and who to this day has a centers globally in his name—despite having died in 1990. As the Bhagwan Rajneesh you may know of him as a petty narcissist who built a stunningly successful cult of personality, and who in all likelihood green-lighted a salmonella attack on a rural populace in Oregon in an attempt to sway a local election so that certain dodgy practices could be carried out at his commune.

Sheela comes across as quite reasonable in the book. Gone are the days when she made replies to questions such as “tough titties” or a horrifying Holocaust joke. She claims that her former outlandishness was part of a role that she played on behalf and at the behest of the Bhagwan, but playing the victim in the face of entire world that conspired against her in her selfless virtuousness is a prevailing theme throughout the book.

Read carefully, there is plenty of evidence that all is not right with the author’s mind. She barely addresses criminal charges for which she was given sentences in total of 64 years (though, because they were to be served concurrently, the most she would have served would have been 20—and in reality she served less than two-and-a-half.) She talks more about the least of the charges--visa fraud then the attempted murder and assault convictions. She merely asserts that there was a vast conspiracy involving the German government (who extradited her), the U.S. criminal system (which indicted her), and at least two different factions of the Rajneeshee cult (one being exemplified by the Bhagwan, himself, and the other by David Berry Knapp, the mayor of Rajneeshpuram (the incorporation of the cult compound) who not only dropped a dime on Sheela but also implicated the Bhagwan)

While it’s fair to say mistakes are made in the American criminal justice system now and again, the scale of conspiracy that would have to be involved in Sheela’s case strains credulity. Her suggestion that a criminal justice system that protects defendants as much as anywhere in world is completely corrupt comes off as a bit sad and pathetic. Here and there she points out that there were one or two good people in the jail or justice system, but one soon suspects that these are just other deluded cult-prone individuals ready to drink the Kool-Aid themselves. Interestingly, while she claims there was not a shred of evidence against her, she made an Alford plea. (You’ll be forgiven for not knowing what an Alford Plea is, as it’s something only the mind of a lawyer could come up with. One pleads guilty while asserting one’s innocence. In essence, one says, “I’m really not guilty, but there’s enough evidence to convict me so I want to make a deal to get less prison time.” Of course, she makes paranoid-sounding claims that the American criminal justice system as justification for not standing up for her own innocence.

The only bad decision of any note that the author ever admits to making is slapping one of the followers, an act for which she claims both Bhagwan Rajneesh and the commune forgave her. These repeated claims that while her life was falling apart it was because almost everyone else was wicked while she was a victim wear a little thin. She claims that all the accusations against her resulted from her decision to leave because of her guru’s latest decision to bilk wealthy followers to pay for more Rolls-Royces. There may be a seed of truth in this. The Bhagwan also claimed that she embezzled money, a charge that was not covered in the charges for which Sheela was convicted. It’s as likely as not that any shortage of funds resulted from the Bhagwan’s own materialistic addictions. Whether his accusations about the bioterror attack were spurred by being spurned by this assistant cannot be known. Of course, it could also be that he wanted to separate himself from the felony indictments that were becoming increasingly inevitable.

The title, Don’t Kill Him, comes from Sheela’s repeated suggestion that, while the Bhagwan was a madman, one shouldn’t destroy the legacy. It’s this back and forth between deifying and castigating the Bhagwan that gives one insight into the mind of a cultist—but also leaves one scratching one’s head at what the author’s point is. When she suggests that he was a petty, narcissistic, greedy drug addict who should be exalted, it’s a bit dumbfounding for the average individual. It seems to be a textbook case of infatuation with the charisma of an otherwise deplorable human being. There is this widespread confusion of charisma with enlightenment that is intriguing. Early in Chapter 4 and later in Chapter 5, the author suggests that the Bhagwan set up her imprisonment as part of her education. That level of delusion is astounding.

There are those who’ll say that Sheela is right and others who’ll tell you that she is just trying to bash the Bhagwan—albeit in a very ambivalent way. I’m here to tell you that this book leaves the reader with one logical conclusion, and that’s that both Sheela and the Bhagwan were coo-coo for Coco-Puffs.
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Mar 01, 2019 Anuradha Gandhy rated it liked it

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Ma Anand Sheela was the personal secretary of Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh from 1981 through 1985, managed the Rajneeshpuram ashram in Wasco County, Oregon, United States.It was she who convinced him to leave India and establish an ashram in the United States ... When she left the ashram the allegations levelled against her — were - bio-terrorism, assassination attempts, and wire-tapping...
This book is about the years that she spent with him, helping Osho set up Rajneeshpuram, a commune in Oregon, ...more

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Don't Kill Him! The Story of My Life with Bhagwan Rajneesh : a Memoir - ma Anand sheela

ಆಚಾರಯ ರಜನೀಶ,ಓಶೋ,ಭಗವಾನ ಇತಯಾದಿ ಹಲವಾರು ಹೆಸರುಗಳಿಂದ ಕರೆಯಲಪಡುವ ರಜನೀಶ ಬಗಗೆ ಎಷಟು ಗೊತತು ನಿಮಗೆ? ಹೆಚಚೆಂದರೆ 'ಸೆಕಸ ಗುರು' ಎಂಬ ಉಪಾಧಿ ಬಗಗೆ ಕೇಳಿರಬಹುದು. ಅವರ ಆಶರಮದಲಲಿ ಡರಗಸ ಎಲಲ ಬಳಸತಾ ಇದಾರಂತೆ ಅಂತ ಯಾರೋ ಹೇಳಿದದನನ ನೀವು ಕೇಳಿರಬಹುದು. ಇಲಲ ಅಸಂಖಯಾತ ಪರಕಟಣೆಗಳ ಕಂಡ ಓಶೋ ಪುಸತಕಗಳ ಒಂದು ಝಲಕ ನಿಮಗೆ ಸಿಕಕಿರಬಹುದು. ಅದೂ ಇಲಲ ಅಂದರೆ ಅವರ ಮಾತಿನ ವೀಡಿಯೋಗಳ ನೀವು ನೋಡಿರಬಹುದು.
ಸರಿಸುಮಾರು ಆರು ನೂರಕಕೂ ಹೆಚಚಿನ ಪುಸತಕ, ಎಷಟೋ ಸಾವಿರ ಗಂಟೆಗಳ ಮಾತಿನ ವೀಡಿಯೋ 1990ರಲಲಿ ಕಾಲವಾದರೂ ಈಗಲೂ ಜನ Don't Kill Him! The Story of My Life with Bhagwan Rajneesh : a Memoir - ma Anand sheela

ಆಚಾರ್ಯ ರಜನೀಶ್,ಓಶೋ,ಭಗವಾನ್ ಇತ್ಯಾದಿ ಹಲವಾರು ಹೆಸರುಗಳಿಂದ ಕರೆಯಲ್ಪಡುವ ರಜನೀಶ್ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಎಷ್ಟು ಗೊತ್ತು ನಿಮಗೆ? ಹೆಚ್ಚೆಂದರೆ 'ಸೆಕ್ಸ್ ಗುರು' ಎಂಬ ಉಪಾಧಿ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಕೇಳಿರಬಹುದು. ಅವರ ಆಶ್ರಮದಲ್ಲಿ ಡ್ರಗ್ಸ್ ಎಲ್ಲ ಬಳಸ್ತಾ ಇದಾರಂತೆ ಅಂತ ಯಾರೋ ಹೇಳಿದ್ದನ್ನ ನೀವು ಕೇಳಿರಬಹುದು. ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಸಂಖ್ಯಾತ ‌ಪ್ರಕಟಣೆಗಳ ಕಂಡ ಓಶೋ ಪುಸ್ತಕಗಳ ಒಂದು ಝಲಕ್ ನಿಮಗೆ ಸಿಕ್ಕಿರಬಹುದು. ಅದೂ ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂದರೆ ಅವರ ಮಾತಿನ ವೀಡಿಯೋಗಳ ನೀವು ನೋಡಿರಬಹುದು.
ಸರಿಸುಮಾರು ಆರು ನೂರಕ್ಕೂ ಹೆಚ್ಚಿನ ಪುಸ್ತಕ, ಎಷ್ಟೋ ಸಾವಿರ ಗಂಟೆಗಳ ಮಾತಿನ ವೀಡಿಯೋ 1990ರಲ್ಲಿ ಕಾಲವಾದರೂ ಈಗಲೂ ಜನ ಹುಚ್ಚೆದ್ದು ನೆಮ್ಮದಿ ಅರಸುವುದು ಓಶೋ ಮಾತುಗಳಲ್ಲಿ ಅಂದರೆ ನೀವು ನಂಬಬೇಕು.
ಇಂತಹ ಓಶೋ‌ ಬಗ್ಗೆ Netflix ' wild wild country' ಅಂತ ಒಂದು ಟಿವಿ ಡಾಕ್ಯುಮೆಂಟರಿ ತಂದಿತು. ಅದರ ಏಕಮುಖೀ ನಿರೂಪಣೆ ಬೇಸರ ಹುಟ್ಟಿಸಿದರೂ ಮೇಲ್ನೋಟಕ್ಕೆ ಕಾಣದ ಹಲಮುಖಗಳ ಅದು ಪರಿಚಯಿಸಿತ್ತು. ಪುಣೆಯ ಆಶ್ರಮದಿಂದ ಒರೆಗಾನ್‌ಗೆ ಹೋದ ಓಶೋ ಮತ್ತು ಇತರರ ವಿವರಗಳು ಅದರಲ್ಲಿತ್ತು.
ಈಗ ಈ ಪುಸ್ತಕ ಅದೇ ಡಾಕ್ಯುಮೆಂಟರಿಯ ಇನ್ನೊಂದು ಆವೃತ್ತಿಯಂತಿದೆ.
ಓಶೋ ಅವರ ನಂತರದ ಪ್ರಬಲ ಸ್ಥಾನವನ್ನು ಹೊಂದಿ ಅವರ ಸಾಮ್ರಾಜ್ಯವನ್ನು ನಿಯಂತ್ರಿಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದ ಮಾ ಆನಂದ್ ಶೀಲಾ ಏತಕ್ಕಾಗಿ ಆ ಸಂಗ ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಬಂದರು. ಏನಾಗುತ್ತಿತ್ತು ಅಲ್ಲಿ ? ಅವರ ಬೆನ್ನು ಬಿದ್ದ ‌ಓಶೋ‌ ಮತ್ತು ಇತರರು ಕೊಟ್ಟ ಕಿರುಕುಳ ಏನು ಎಂಬುದನ್ನೆಲ್ಲ ತನ್ನದೇ 'ಅಂತಿಮಸತ್ಯ' ದ ಧಾಟಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಶೀಲಾ ಬರೆದರು.

ಓಶೋ ಎಂಬ ಧಾರ್ಮಿಕ ಗುರುವಿಗಿದ್ದ ಭ್ರಮೆಗಳು, ರೋಲ್ಸ್ ರಾಯ್ಸ್ ಕಾರುಗಳ,ದುಬಾರಿ ವಾಚುಗಳ ಹುಚ್ಚು ಇವನ್ನೆಲ್ಲ ಬರೆದ ಆಕೆ, ತನ್ನ ವೈಯಕ್ತಿಕ ಜೀವನದ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಬರೆವಾಗ ಮೃದುವಾಗುತ್ತಾರೆ. ನನಗಿದು ಪ್ರಾಮಾಣಿಕ ಬರಹ ಅನಿಸಲಿಲ್ಲ.

ಏನಾಗುತ್ತದೆ ಗೊತ್ತಾ? ಪಾಶ್ಚಿಮಾತ್ಯ ದೇಶಗಳಲ್ಲಿ ಒಂದು ಹಣ ಮಾಡುವ ವಿಧಾನವಿದೆ. ಯಾರಾದರೂ ಸರಣಿ ಹಂತಕನೋ, ಕೊಲೆಗಾರನೋ,ಕಳ್ಳನೋ,ದರೋಡೆಕೋರನೋ, ಡ್ರಗ್ ಅಡಿಕ್ಟೋ ಸಿಕ್ಕಿ‌ಬಿದ್ದು ಜೈಲು ಸೇರಿದೊಡನೆ ಪ್ರಖ್ಯಾತ ಪ್ರಕಾಶನ ಸಂಸ್ಥೆಗಳು ‌ನಾ ಮುಂದೋ ತಾ ಮುಂದೋ‌ ಎಂಬಂತೆ ಅವರ ಬೆನ್ನು ಬಿದ್ದು ವ್ಯಾಪಾರ ಕುದುರಿಸಿಕೊಳ್ಳುತ್ತವೆ. ಅವರ ಅನುಭವಗಳ ಆಧಾರದ ಮೇಲೆ ಮಸಾಲೆ ಸೇರಿಸಿ‌ ಅವರೋ,ಇನ್ಯಾರೋ ಬರೆದು ಅವರ ಹೆಸರು ಹಾಕಿ ಪುಸ್ತಕ ಪ್ರಕಟಿಸುತ್ತಾರೆ. ನಮಗೆಲ್ಲ ಬೇಡಂಗಟ್ಟೆ ಮೇಲೆ ಆಸಕ್ತಿ ಜಾಸ್ತಿ ನೋಡಿ. ಕೊಲೆಗಾರನ ಮನಸಲ್ಲಿ ಕೊಲೆ ಮಾಡುವಾಗ ಏನಿದೆ ಅಂತ ತಿಳಿವ ಕುತೂಹಲ. ಮುಗಿಬಿದ್ದು ಕೊಳ್ಳುತ್ತೇವೆ. ಒಳಗಿನ ಹೂರಣ ಏನಿಲ್ಲ ಅಂತ ಅರಿವಾದಾಗ ಪ್ರಕಾಶಕ,ಬರಹಗಾರ ಕಿಸೆ ತುಂಬಿಸಿ ಗಾಡಿ ಖಾಲಿ ಮಾಡಿ ಆಗಿರುತ್ತದೆ.

ಇದೇ ದಾರಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಬಂದ ಪುಸ್ತಕ ಇದು. ಹಾಗಾಗಿ ತುಂಬಾ ಒಳ್ಳೆಯ ಬರವಣಿಗೆ ಅಲ್ಲ. ಆದರೆ ಓಶೋ ಎಂಬ ನಾಣ್ಯದ ಇನ್ನೊಂದು ಮಗ್ಗುಲಿನ ಕಿಂಚಿತ್ ದರ್ಶನ ಇದು ಮಾಡಿಸುತ್ತದೆ.
ಆಧ್ಯಾತ್ಮಿಕ ದಾರಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಹೋಗುವವರಿಗೆ ಗುರುವಿನ ಚಡ್ಡಿಯೊಳಗೆ ನೋಡುವ ಆಸಕ್ತಿ ಇರುವುದಿಲ್ಲ. ಹಾಗೆ ಹೋಗ್ತಾ ಇದೇವೆ ಅಂತ ನಟಿಸುವವರು ಗುರುವಿನ ಕೆಟ್ಟ ಮುಖವನ್ನು ಕಂಡು ತಮ್ಮ ಪಥ ಬದಲಿಸಿ ಅದರಿಂದ ವಿಮುಖರಾಗುತ್ತಾರೆ ಯಾಕೆಂದರೆ ಅವರಿಗೆ ವಾಪಸ್ ಬರಲು ನೆಪ ಬೇಕು ಅಷ್ಟೇ. ಓಶೋ ಹಾದಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಹೊರಟವರಿಗೆ ಇದು ಆ ನೆಪವಾಗಿ ಸಿಗುತ್ತದೆ ಅಷ್ಟೇ!

ಪುಸ್ತಕ ಓದಲು ಬೋರು ಅನ್ನುವವರು wild wild country ನೋಡಿ. ಸಾಕು.
ಸತ್ಯ ಹೇಳುವುದಾದರೆ ಇವೆರಡೂ ಕೆಲಸಕ್ಕಿಂತ ಓಶೋ ಬರೆದ ಪುಸ್ತಕಗಳ ಓದಿ‌. ಅದು ಮಾನಸಿಕ ಆರೋಗ್ಯಕ್ಕೂ ಒಳ್ಳೆಯದು. 1990ರಲ್ಲಿ ಸತ್ತ ಬರೆದವ ಹೇಗಿದ್ದ ಅನ್ನುವುದನ್ನು ಕಟ್ಟಿಕೊಂಡು ಏನು ಮಾಡೋಣ?
ಅಲ್ಲವೇ? ...more

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Apr 30, 2018 Amanda Mae rated it liked it

Shelves: memoir, religion

I wanted to read this after watching Wild, Wild Country on Netflix, and I think that helped me understand the context of much of Sheela's story. Sheela starts the book with leaving Rajneeshpuram and Bhagwan, and subsequent prison stint, before backtracking in the second half to how she met Bhagwan and how Rajneeshpuram came to be. If I hadn't seen the documentary on Netflix, I think I would have been very confused, but I already had a timeline and context in place for her version of events.

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Sep 09, 2018 Andy rated it did not like it

Shelves: true-crime

i didnt even finish this. i hate it so much.

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Jun 05, 2019 Divya rated it really liked it

Okay. So where should I start! This book has introduced me to this world of which I had the faintest idea. I mean I saw the teaser of Wild Wild Country on Netflix. But who knew this man and his confidante can make the western land dance to their tunes. I also at certain points empathised with Sheela as she narrated her experiences. But then there is something that makes me think she was equally a fanatic as she reigned but got tired of the overwhelming responses she faced. So, yeah this book is ...more

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Sep 28, 2018 Gurpreet rated it it was amazing

One of the most facinating books I read so far. After watching Wild Wild Country, I became so fanatic about Osho that I happened to watch all of his fucking videos (I mean where he is barking like an orator), his secretary videos and lot more. I would recommend this to all who has seen the series because this book is beyond that and covers up the entire story in the words of MA Anand Sheela. I find this lady quite sincere because Osho made her an epitome of his so fake fucking commune and later ...more

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Aug 02, 2016 Kasturi Dadhe rated it it was amazing

Fantastic book by Ma Anand Sheela. Reveal-er not only of Osho as a human being with normal emotions but also of the workings of larger-than-self godman and his profound philosophy. My respect only grew for his devout follower also the author of the book. A must read!

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Jan 20, 2013 Priyanka Dey rated it really liked it

A complete eye-opener. Once you pick this book up, you cannot put it off. It is the kind of book that haunts you till you are done with it. I would recommend this to anyone with an open mind to look at Osho.

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Oct 24, 2018 Khushnuma rated it really liked it · review of another edition

A must read for every Osho fan. He was simply a man but he made wrong use of his power.

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Sep 07, 2019 Alfredo Gayou rated it really liked it · review of another edition

Fills lots of blanks

Chronologically it first tells the story after leaving the commune, mainly because that.would have been less appealing to read at the end.
At certain points it feels too apologetic or justifying lots; but ii is amazing and comforting how Sheela’s love for Bhagwan was and still is. You can read true love in her words, yet I understood more reading how Sherpa lacked also the love for meditation. The book doesn’t explain again what is on “wild wild country” so It is a very good ...more

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Jul 18, 2019 Antonio Vargas rated it really liked it · review of another edition

Is Ma Anand Sheela, Crazy?! Like a Fox! An insiders perspective on the Rajneesh community.

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May 03, 2018 Random rated it liked it · review of another edition

Positives: Many inspiring stories from Oshos and some humanly parts of osho. Also about Rajaneeshpuram project

Negatives: Attempts of coming out clean of all the allegations. She backs some of them by quoting Osho from his discourse and books and some of them are from her personal accounts. Some are clear lies which you realize after watching Netflix series and by watching other videos coming up these days in internet.

Personal opinion: Well, it is obvious that this is an attempt of Ma Anand ...more

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Feb 06, 2013 Sanjeev Kotnala rated it liked it

DON'T KILL HIM .. The Story of My life with Bhagwan rajneesh. Ma Anand Sheela

READ IT. I FOUND THIS A GOOD WORK AND AN INTERESTING FACE OF BHAGWAN RAJNEESH.

I have been deeply influenced by Bhagwan Rajneeshes books and sermons. His hypnotic voice and the rationally ( at least it seems so at that point of time) driven logical analysis of learning’s – or interpretation are legendary. It was very easy for people to fall in love with him- respect him and take on him as their master. BUT THE COMMUNE ...more

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Jun 18, 2013 The Book Outline rated it really liked it

Don't Kill Him! is not an endorsement of teachings and philosophy of Bhagwan Rajneesh, instead it is Ma Anand Sheela's version of what had happened. Divided in two distinct parts, the first part begins on the day Ma Sheela decides to resign as Bhagwan's secretary while the second part begins from when she joined Bhagwan's movement around 1972.

Read the complete review of Don't Kill Him! at http://www.thebookoutline.com/2013/06...

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Jan 30, 2013 Bodhisatva Zen rated it it was amazing

Recommends it for: ALL

Recommended to Bodhisatva by: None

This is a wonderful book, by a wonderful, honest and hardworking, loving person. Ma Anand Sheela narrates the truth behind the Rajneeshpuram episode in Osho and Her life. She is one of the greatest lovers of Osho and honestly brings the truth out of the mystery surrounding the Rajneeshpuram episode. A must read for all those who truly want to find the truth and not go by what others say about Osho or Ma Anand Sheela.

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Feb 02, 2016 Swarna Pawar rated it did not like it

It's all about her contradictions. She talks of osho and vivek's and their relationship. She gets personal. She herself admits of having numerous relationships and sometimes multiple relationships at a time. Nevertheless people can read between lines.

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Mar 03, 2013 Rajat Bansal rated it it was amazing

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Jan 09, 2016 Nikesh rated it really liked it

For someone who did not know the entire story, it was shocking to see what power can do to someone who ironically preached giving it up.

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Apr 02, 2019 Akshay Anand rated it did not like it

I don't think author in this tell all book actually told anything of sort. Just one sided story and narrative.

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Mar 17, 2013 Anuradha Goyal rated it really liked it

A very interesting read by someone who lead an unusual life http://www.anureviews.com/dont-kill-h...

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Aug 23, 2014 Darsha18 rated it really liked it

Worth Reading For All OSHO Fans...

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Apr 03, 2015 Manish Vohra rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

good book

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Jan 28, 2014 Saurabh Pahuja rated it really liked it

a nice book
Ma Sheela give her real life story about her times with Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh.

A good book to learn the other side of the teachings of Osho.

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