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Suicide Watch

4.25  ·  Rating details ·  1,706 ratings  ·  308 reviews
18-year-old Vincent Hazelwood has spent his entire life being shuffled from one foster home to the next. His grades sucked. Making friends? Out of the question thanks to his nervous breakdowns and unpredictable moods. Still, Vince thought when Maggie Atkins took him in, he might’ve finally found a place to get his life—and his issues—in order.

But then Maggie keels over fro
Paperback, 220 pages
Published December 20th 2012 by CreateSpace (first published December 18th 2012)
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Rio Trying not to spoil, but no I don't think so. When the romance does occur, there is still quite a bit left in the book (at least 30+ pages, so it's no…moreTrying not to spoil, but no I don't think so. When the romance does occur, there is still quite a bit left in the book (at least 30+ pages, so it's not like "the end happy ending"). At that point, the main character is trying to figure out what he wants to do now and gets very upset and stressed. He also has a talk with someone else besides his partner about his feelings and that convo kinda drives the story more than the romance imo. (less)

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Jan 12, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: lgbtq, young-adult
More heartbreaking than I was expecting. 💔

To my lovely marshmallows friends, 🥰

only read this if you are in a good place and if you're confident you can take the hit about everything the title of this book implies.

I liked it a lot. It is sad without being melodramatic.
If it weren't for a few loose ends, I would have splashed five stars.

Feb 26, 2014 rated it it was amazing
My advice...don't read my review. Go make your own opinion of this book...before my review SPOILS it for you.

**4.6 Touching and Heart-rending Stars**
I need you, I need you. I need something.

Suicide Watch equals, sadness, extremely emotional thoughts and feelings, a need for oblivion, madness and heart breaking circumstances, where suicide is the answer.
A book that will deeply affect you, have your heart aching and push you to the edge of your comfort.
A realistic story, 
when surrounded b
Julio Genao
not bad.

two stars—as per goodreads ratings guidelines—because it was okay.

i found the first person present tense distracting, as i did the parentheticals. some characters served no function that i could detect, and some were drawn far too clumsily to be effective. the bit with (view spoiler) annoyed me three different ways.

but the thing that drew me to this story and into a totally coincidental buddy-read with author Alexis Hall was pretty well-represen
Reading_ Tam_ Ishly
May 27, 2020 rated it it was amazing
"Once Upon a time, I lost everything and I was so alone. The sadness,the hurt, it all seemed so infinite. When you're wandering alone in a storm, you can't see the end, or if there even is one , and how close it might be.
I'm still wandering, but maybe I don't feel so lost now. I'll keep trying. I promise."

This is just the book I needed. Casper, Vincent and Adam. I owe you big. You give me hope.

The story is just sad and beautiful. The ending is just the most hopeful thing I have ever wanted.

I w
Trisha Harrington
This book stomped on my heart and tore me in half. It left me feeling extremely emotional, and it's definitely a book that will make some people cry.

I read this book and fell in love with the character Vince. He was someone who could appear unsympathetic and cruel. His life had not been easy and loss seemed to be all he knew. I found it hard to imagine a life where he was so unwanted. It was a heartbreaking way to start off the book. He sees suicide from the beginning, it's always there and beco
Irina Elena
I honestly cannot write a review for this book. Not now, probably not ever. Also, I'm choking up again.

So I'm not going to talk about plot/characters or anything of the sort. I just want to mention a couple things.

This book is the kind of book that makes you want to change all your other ratings to one star because there is just so much distance between those books and this one, the kind of book that instantly enters your list of favourites and starts kicking the others in the balls just for the
Emma Sea
I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. That was beautiful and heartbreaking and poignant and hopeful and . . . just so marvellous.

Huge thanks to Jenn for naming this author as a best of 2012 for her: would never have tried it otherwise.
Kaje Harper
Jan 02, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: intense, m-m, ya
4.5 stars. This is a well written book about three teenagers who all have reasons to find life bleak and hopeless, and who come together first online and then in person, to discover that sometimes human contact can ease that bleakness. And sometimes it can't.

I thought the author did an admirable job of taking the reader into the mind of a near-suicidal teen, and particularly of finding ways to express his emotions clearly and vividly, but without overwrought angst. Vince has good reasons for his

“He’s like you. Broken, but fixable.”

I knew that, only basing on the cover and the title, the book wouldn’t be for the faint of the heart. But the question was: would it be just about the topic or due to the ability of the author to make our hearts wrench? Because it’s one thing using a delicate theme and another thing altogether to manage to make something from it. The subject can be tough but if the form is not convincing, it’s just an empty shell for me.

I have a future in which I’ll look
♥Laddie♥ (Lee Lee)
I Could Not Sleep Until I Wrote This

About fifteen minutes ago I wrote a status update where I said that I wanted to sleep on my feelings for this book before I reviewed it. The problem is that it's so heavy on my mind that I can't sleep.

This book is so sad, poignant, and beautiful that it's indescribable and there is no way I'm going to do it any justice. I started this book after it was recommended to me. I'd just finished a book that left a bad taste in my mouth and I was looking for one that
Read in December 2012.

Suicide Watch is surely one of those books that stay with you for a long time. It’s about a friendship of three broken and forgotten teenagers. Casper, a girl in the last stages of cancer, Adam a boy whose mother doesn’t seem to know he even exists and Vincent, a lonely boy suffering from panic attacks. All three of them are toying with the idea of committing suicide.

The characters are so pained and hurt, but still the story provides hope and love for the sick, lonely and f
Jan 07, 2013 rated it really liked it
Shelves: kindle-archive, mm
Beautifully stark, and haunting. I love that the author has pulled no punches, but still didn't fall into melodrama. The characters are the kind that stay with you, and I love the process they have to go through to come out the other side. There is no magic cure, no one person that makes everything better, they have to reach out to others to heal. ...more
Alexis Hall
So I accidentally read this at the same time as Julio. Review comes with trigger warnings for suicide, suicidal ideation and the occasional glancing reference to sexual abuse. It also contains spoilers which are likely to comprise a significant chunk of my musings, so while I won’t be able to stick them in a tag, I will let you know when they’re about to hove into view.

Okay, are we sitting comfortably?

I think I was more positively disposed towards this than Julio. It was well-written, well-chara
MsMiz (Tina)
Jan 01, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: ya
This book just was...


There is not a soul who cannot identify with at least someone or something in this book.

Warning: There are some intensely personal thoughts and feelings in this review. Read it and I’m sure you’ll know a few more things about me than maybe you wished to. I thought about editing them down or out, but in the end I decided I wanted people and maybe especially the author to know how much this book touched me. God this book touched me so much. I know those kids, I was one of those kids everyday struggling, wondering if anyone would notice or care if I wasn’t here anymore. If I hadn’t ha
Dec 21, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: ya, lgbtqia, favorites
I don’t understand how this book isn’t more popular. More people need to read this, dammit!

This... this is the book The Fault in Our Stars, All the Bright Places, and Me and Earl and the Dying Girl should’ve been. Seriously, it has opened my eyes to looking past overhyped nonsense. I even went and changed a few ratings of the aforementioned, because I realize I was too lax in my reviews.

Suicide Watch is a quiet and honest (without being preachy) novel about dealing with (and coping with) life wh
Jun 02, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: Everyone
Recommended to Maria by: Trisha Harrington
Once upon a time, I lost everything and I was so alone. The sadness, the hurt, it all seemed so infinite. When you're wandering alone in a storm, you can't see the end, or if there is one, and how close it might be.
I'm still wandering, but maybe I don't feel so lost now.
I'll keep trying. I promise.

It's hard being alone. I've been there, I still am actually. This book really hit me square in the chest. There are just so many things on here that I could relate to. I don't have cancer.
18-year-old Vincent Hazelwood earns his high school diploma after years of moving from foster home to foster home, dealing with bullies, and feeling apart from the rest of his peers in general. His guardian, Maggie Atkins, made it all possible: she understood him and cared for him in a way no one else could. When Maggie passes away, Vince drops to rock bottom, and he only finds solace in a website called Suicide Watch. Amidst the desperate and depressed souls on this site he meets Casper, a girl ...more
Jul 06, 2013 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Gina by: Tina
Shelves: m-m, favorites
This is an outstanding, take my breath away, make me stare off into space not knowing how to express my feelings kinda book! This was about a friendship of 3 broken and forgotten people. People that some of society do their best to brush off and ignore. If you are looking for an m/m romance this is not what this book is about. This story is much deeper than that, and I have to say I stayed up all night to finish it. When i looked at my clock and it said 3:30 am, I got a glass of water and just k ...more
Awilk -never sleeps-
I am sitting here at my computer trying to decide what to write. How can my feeble words express how this book touched me. How this book made me cry. How at the end it took my broken heart and started to put it back together again.

I don't have enough talent with words to express how this book affected me. All I can say is that this was one of the most powerful, most emotional things I have ever read, and these characters will now and for always have a special place in my heart.
May 10, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Recommends it for: fellow loners
Recommended to April by: Emma Sea
Shelves: loved, romance
“But living is getting to be far too lonely.”

Gorgeous, painfully relatable. Loved Vince, Casper, Adam. Cried all the way through. I'm the female equivalent of Vincent Hazelwood and this is something I’m still coming to terms with.

“Once upon a time, I lost everything and I was so alone. The sadness, the hurt, it all seemed so infinite. When you're wandering alone in a storm, you can't see the end, or if there even is one, and how close it might be. I'm still wandering, but maybe I don't feel so
Oh, this book. It broke my heart and then taped it back together. Dark, moving, and hopeful. Beautifully written.
Jamie Manning
Dec 04, 2012 rated it it was amazing
I honestly don't even know where to begin with this review. I had every intention when I began reading this one to sit down right after and write up a review for it, but by the time I reached the end, that notion was long forgotten, buried beneath the pain and hurt and ultimate happiness York's words left me with. I can honestly say that it's been a while since I've stayed up really late to finish a book, and even longer than that since one grabbed me like this one did. I finished it at about 3a ...more
Nyrae Dawn
Dec 04, 2012 rated it it was amazing
A beautiful and heartbreaking, yet hopeful book with characters who take up residence in your heart.
Vincent has a hard life. A product of the foster system, he’s moved from home to home and never been able to find the right fit. So when he lands with Maggie and she takes care of him in the best possible ways--not by smothering him with emotion or with unreasonable strictness--but in ways that cater to Vince’s personality and his story. With Maggie, it seems, things might actually work out for the best.

So it’s fairly easy to see why Maggie’s death nearly destroys the fragile facade of Vince’s
Jan 02, 2015 rated it it was amazing
Recommended to *Nan* by: Calila
WOW!!! I have had this book on my TBR list for a while and am asking why I waited so long to read it. If you aren't into books that are full on angst then this book is not for you.Once I started this book I couldn't out it down until I was finished.

Vince and Adam are emotionally damaged in their own way and Casper has Cancer . The three young people meet on a site called Suicide Watch which is for people contemplating suicide. This book was so amazing and it is a book that is definitely a keeper
I really don't have the words to write an adequate review. This book slayed me. So many tears, so much heartache. And yet, so hopeful too.

Read this, I beg you. It's not a fluffy romance, and it will hurt, but read it anyway. It's beyond beautiful.
Jan 27, 2013 rated it really liked it
I have always liked Kelley York's writing style, since Hushed, with its simplicity, practicality and sincerity. It is truly fitting and effective to portray vividly and realistically the harsh life in general, as well as ones of Vincent, Adam and Casper. It easily went to my mind, my heart with a powerful strength in which I breathed and felt with the characters's emotions, especially Vincent's. Sad, lonely, desperate, suicidal Vincent.

There wasn't a book before that made me tear up as much as t
Feb 08, 2014 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favorites
Wow I can't review this accept to say it was heartbreaking, sad and beautiful so I'll say this...

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
Jan 02, 2013 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: mm, mm-favorites, lgbt
I wasn't sure what to expect when I started this book but wow the writing pulled me in right away. It was a hard read at times because it touches on a sensitive topic but it also made me laugh and cry. I related to the main characters, Vince, Casper and Adam even though the story is told from Vince point of view. Casper, I loved her, so full of life and strong even though she is dying of cancer. It was emotional, heartbreaking and so full of hope. Recommended!
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Kelley resides off the coast of Northern California with her wife, teenager, a German Shepherd, a handful of cats and rats. In addition to writing, she has her A.S. in Anthropology, and is a graphic designer with a specialty in book cover design. She spends her spare time playing video games and tabletop games like the nerd she is. Her specialty is LGBT+ fiction, usually with a dark twist.

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