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Whether I'll Live or Die
“It sounded so simple in theory; ready... aim... fire... but what actually transpired was so much more.”
Officer Nicole Nolan holds the gun steady in her hands, knowing that life will be forever altered once she pulls the trigger. Her position as a small town police officer is to protect those who cannot protect themselves. It is her job, her career and her life.
Amanda stands where protection does not exist. With several failed relationships behind her, Amanda turns a blind eye to the possessiveness Josh displays in order to sooth her desperate need to be loved. As the mental abuse turns violent, Amanda must deal with the denial and embarrassment of being a victim once again. With her emotional and physical health siting on the edge, she must fight to regain control of her life.
A gripping story with one final destination, but will it be life or death?
Officer Nicole Nolan holds the gun steady in her hands, knowing that life will be forever altered once she pulls the trigger. Her position as a small town police officer is to protect those who cannot protect themselves. It is her job, her career and her life.
Amanda stands where protection does not exist. With several failed relationships behind her, Amanda turns a blind eye to the possessiveness Josh displays in order to sooth her desperate need to be loved. As the mental abuse turns violent, Amanda must deal with the denial and embarrassment of being a victim once again. With her emotional and physical health siting on the edge, she must fight to regain control of her life.
A gripping story with one final destination, but will it be life or death?
254 pages, Paperback
First published July 1, 2012
About the author
Stacy Eaton
162 books603 followersStacy Eaton is a USA Today Best Selling author and began her writing career in October of 2010. Stacy took an early retirement from law enforcement after over fifteen years of service in 2016, with her last three years in investigations and crime scene investigation to write full time.
Stacy resides in southeastern Pennsylvania with her husband, who works in law enforcement, and her teen daughter. She also has a son who is currently serving in the United States Navy.
Stacy is very involved in Domestic Violence Awareness and served on the Board of Directors for her local Domestic Violence Center for three years.
Visit her website: www.stacyeaton.com
Stacy resides in southeastern Pennsylvania with her husband, who works in law enforcement, and her teen daughter. She also has a son who is currently serving in the United States Navy.
Stacy is very involved in Domestic Violence Awareness and served on the Board of Directors for her local Domestic Violence Center for three years.
Visit her website: www.stacyeaton.com
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July 6, 2012
This book is raw and real. It takes you through the lives of two very different women; one who is abused, and one who puts away those who abuse others. The emotions are raw, and at times I wanted to smack the main character for not walking away--but then I drew back and realized--recognized--that the woman portrayed is very, very real. The emotions portrayed are very real. Abuse is not pretty, it is not understandable or forgivable. I think sometimes we hear about abused women, and tend to think the victims are "stupid" for staying--they are in control after all, they can walk away. We forget how victims are drawn deeper into the relationship with each abusive event--the emotional torture and devaluing, the push-pull of wanting to be valued in the abuser's eyes. The author does a great job of painting that for us, and helping the reader see into the darker side of this character's abusive relationship. Great job of tackling a difficult subject.
January 28, 2013
This was a great book offered for a free review by the author. This book follows the story of Amanda a young girl who is abused time and again. We also learn through this book read about Nicole Nolan a cop who tries to help the battered and abused. This is a raw journey of Amanda learning that she can stand up for herself and the abuse.
She starts out in one dangerous relationship with a guy named Steve and runs from him to another guy who uses her, from there she runs into Josh who is the epitome of an abusive husband. With the help of her parents she leaves.
This book is told from two points of view and in the end narrow to one persons point of view. I really felt myself get dragged into the story. Ms. Eaton has an exceptional ability to tell a great story. I really enjoyed it!
She starts out in one dangerous relationship with a guy named Steve and runs from him to another guy who uses her, from there she runs into Josh who is the epitome of an abusive husband. With the help of her parents she leaves.
This book is told from two points of view and in the end narrow to one persons point of view. I really felt myself get dragged into the story. Ms. Eaton has an exceptional ability to tell a great story. I really enjoyed it!
December 6, 2012
Wow! Heavy subject matter! I got so frustrated with Amanda for the choices she made. I also felt sorry for her, life was so hard on her. As I was reading, I was wondering how the two girls lives were going to be connected, then when I read that page I got chills! I almost couldn't read the last chapter, then chills again! I am usually pretty good at guessing the endings of books, but not this time!
Abusive stories are always hard to read, but this one was very well written. The last two chapters alone made this a book that I would recommend to friends. I think I have read all the books by the author, I hope she writes more soon.
Abusive stories are always hard to read, but this one was very well written. The last two chapters alone made this a book that I would recommend to friends. I think I have read all the books by the author, I hope she writes more soon.
August 3, 2012
I could not put this book down until I finished reading it. Whether or not you have ever gone through mental, verbal or physical abuse, this book will strike the cord somewhere deep inside, it will make you feel the pain and anguish of the people brought to life in the story. The book will also give hope. Hope that no matter what the circumstances are, life does not have to stay this bad. It can change and be different. This book helps to learn to protect ourselves (whether you are a man, a woman or a child) against the situations anyone can come across when they expect it the least.
October 31, 2012
MY REVIEW
I downloaded this book from Amazon with the intention to read and review it on my blog.
The cover shows the main character of Amanda in a vulnerable position on the floor almost cowering away from a rather large shadow of a man with his fists clenched. I think this image fits the book well as it is about Domestic Violence.
The book covers the subject of domestic violence very well and in a thought out, thoughtful way.
I enjoyed reading this book even though the subject is not a pleasant one. The book describes the events in the book in detail and I have to say really realistically (coming from myself who has been through this problem) You see the domestic violence from the side of the victim as well as the side of a police officer dealing with the fall out and after math of the attacks who deal with both the attacker and the victim.
I loved the characters in the book, you cannot help but get attached to them. You feel the frustration Nicole has when returning to Rebecca's house on numerous occasions for the ever increasingly worsening abuse she is suffering at the hands of her husband.
The book has quite a twist at the end, and it also has a quite shock ending. this book had me remembering past troubles and gave me teary eyes and a lump in the throat aand a tightness in my chest on many occasions. Perhaps a sad thing for me to say but it is great that there are books out there like this one publicizing the issue of Domestic Violence. These books also help victims and survivors speak out the issue and make them feel that they are not alone. It is extremely easy to say, "her husband hits her why doesn't she leave?" until you have been there you cannot truly understand how the abuser gets into your mind, they isolate you from friends etc and make you feel it is all your fault.
So did I enjoy the book? Yes if "enjoy" is the correct word. The book is brilliant at getting the message out. If one victim reads it and then has the courage to leave their abuser it is well worth it. The takes you on a roller coaster of emotions throughout it. You also get to read about the times when the abuser is attentive and loving and "sorry" for their actions. They suck the victim back in and then the whole cycle begins again.Would I recommend it? Yes definitely its a great read and for a every book sold a donation is given to a domestic violence charity. Would I read more by Stacy Eaton? Yes I have more books by her ready to read! Would I read more books like this, if it was a series for example? Yes, though it brings up sad awful memories I would read more...
I downloaded this book from Amazon with the intention to read and review it on my blog.
The cover shows the main character of Amanda in a vulnerable position on the floor almost cowering away from a rather large shadow of a man with his fists clenched. I think this image fits the book well as it is about Domestic Violence.
The book covers the subject of domestic violence very well and in a thought out, thoughtful way.
I enjoyed reading this book even though the subject is not a pleasant one. The book describes the events in the book in detail and I have to say really realistically (coming from myself who has been through this problem) You see the domestic violence from the side of the victim as well as the side of a police officer dealing with the fall out and after math of the attacks who deal with both the attacker and the victim.
I loved the characters in the book, you cannot help but get attached to them. You feel the frustration Nicole has when returning to Rebecca's house on numerous occasions for the ever increasingly worsening abuse she is suffering at the hands of her husband.
The book has quite a twist at the end, and it also has a quite shock ending. this book had me remembering past troubles and gave me teary eyes and a lump in the throat aand a tightness in my chest on many occasions. Perhaps a sad thing for me to say but it is great that there are books out there like this one publicizing the issue of Domestic Violence. These books also help victims and survivors speak out the issue and make them feel that they are not alone. It is extremely easy to say, "her husband hits her why doesn't she leave?" until you have been there you cannot truly understand how the abuser gets into your mind, they isolate you from friends etc and make you feel it is all your fault.
So did I enjoy the book? Yes if "enjoy" is the correct word. The book is brilliant at getting the message out. If one victim reads it and then has the courage to leave their abuser it is well worth it. The takes you on a roller coaster of emotions throughout it. You also get to read about the times when the abuser is attentive and loving and "sorry" for their actions. They suck the victim back in and then the whole cycle begins again.Would I recommend it? Yes definitely its a great read and for a every book sold a donation is given to a domestic violence charity. Would I read more by Stacy Eaton? Yes I have more books by her ready to read! Would I read more books like this, if it was a series for example? Yes, though it brings up sad awful memories I would read more...
December 24, 2012
An emotional roller coaster, spiritually uplifting transformation.
This book takes you into the soul of an abused woman and explains why the victim so often tolerates and even defends and stands by her abuser. The story is told through the lives of Amanda and Nicole, one a victim struggling to find enough self-worth to climb out of the pit, and the other sworn to serve and protect the public against villains and abusers.
Through double first person POV, I got to know both Amanda and Nicole. I felt Amanda's fears, depression, wish to be loved, insecurities and despair when she could not understand why the men in her life treated her the way they did. She continually blamed herself and wondered what she did to deserve such horrid treatment. Meanwhile, I was proud of Nicole as she graduated from the police academy and swore to uphold the law. I was nervous with her when she made her first arrest, and sickened at the scenes of abuse she encounters in her job.
Throughout the book, I kept wishing Amanda and Nicole would meet, that Nicole would take Amanda under her wing and inspire her to be stronger. As Amanda moved through different states toward Pennsylvania (where Nicole was), I was more and more excited thinking Nicole would rescue Amanda from her stalker husband. But... the surprise awaiting me was even more thrilling and uplifting. It made me SO-O very proud and happy that I got to know these two wonderful characters. I can definitely say I didn't see that one coming and boy am I glad I didn't. After reflecting on the story, it made the story so much deeper and more meaningful.
My favorite quote:
Some little voice inside my head, just a tiny little voice that could barely be heard over the rushing of the blood in my ears and the pounding of the pain in my mind, said to me, “You might not think you are worth it, but I do.”
Eaton, Stacy (2012-07-01). Whether I'll Live or Die (pp. 161-162). Nitewolf Novels. Kindle Edition.
And you know what? It was God's still small voice. The same voice that ministered to Elijah at his great moment of depression, after he had killed 450 prophets of Baal, and evil queen Jezebel had put a price on his head. He went into hiding and wished to die, but... the still small voice spoke to him, just like he would speak to Amanda at her lowest point. Hallelujah! Somehow I can relate to Amanda more than Elijah and it is so good to know that God still speaks to us with that still small voice.
1 Kings 19:12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.
This book takes you into the soul of an abused woman and explains why the victim so often tolerates and even defends and stands by her abuser. The story is told through the lives of Amanda and Nicole, one a victim struggling to find enough self-worth to climb out of the pit, and the other sworn to serve and protect the public against villains and abusers.
Through double first person POV, I got to know both Amanda and Nicole. I felt Amanda's fears, depression, wish to be loved, insecurities and despair when she could not understand why the men in her life treated her the way they did. She continually blamed herself and wondered what she did to deserve such horrid treatment. Meanwhile, I was proud of Nicole as she graduated from the police academy and swore to uphold the law. I was nervous with her when she made her first arrest, and sickened at the scenes of abuse she encounters in her job.
Throughout the book, I kept wishing Amanda and Nicole would meet, that Nicole would take Amanda under her wing and inspire her to be stronger. As Amanda moved through different states toward Pennsylvania (where Nicole was), I was more and more excited thinking Nicole would rescue Amanda from her stalker husband. But... the surprise awaiting me was even more thrilling and uplifting. It made me SO-O very proud and happy that I got to know these two wonderful characters. I can definitely say I didn't see that one coming and boy am I glad I didn't. After reflecting on the story, it made the story so much deeper and more meaningful.
My favorite quote:
Some little voice inside my head, just a tiny little voice that could barely be heard over the rushing of the blood in my ears and the pounding of the pain in my mind, said to me, “You might not think you are worth it, but I do.”
Eaton, Stacy (2012-07-01). Whether I'll Live or Die (pp. 161-162). Nitewolf Novels. Kindle Edition.
And you know what? It was God's still small voice. The same voice that ministered to Elijah at his great moment of depression, after he had killed 450 prophets of Baal, and evil queen Jezebel had put a price on his head. He went into hiding and wished to die, but... the still small voice spoke to him, just like he would speak to Amanda at her lowest point. Hallelujah! Somehow I can relate to Amanda more than Elijah and it is so good to know that God still speaks to us with that still small voice.
1 Kings 19:12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.
September 5, 2012
I could not put down WHETHER I’LL OR DIE, and when I had to stop, I kept thinking about it. Stacy Eaton tackles the topic of domestic violence head-on, from the acknowledgements at the beginning of the book to the last page. The journey of her two female characters shows the issues from both sides of the spectrum: Amanda is at tentative 21 year-old body-builder who’s involved with a controlling abuser; Nicole is a police officer who has to respond to domestic violence and child abuse calls as part of her daily routine.
The chapters in WHETHER I’LL LIVE OR DIE alternate between the stories of the two women. Through the lens of Amanda, Stacy Eaton shows us all facets of domestic violence: the abuser’s domination; the victim’s isolation, both imposed by the abuser and self-imposed; the terrifying physical and mental abuse; the shame; the denial. Most importantly, we see how easily it can happen, how the tangled web of a relationship can get out of control and how the abused longs to explain it away and forgive. From Nicole’s perspective, we see how a police officer responds to abuse calls, how these cases wind their way through the legal system, and how the cycle will inevitably escalate. Amanda and Nicole’s stories do intersect, in a brilliant and shocking way that is guaranteed to take you by surprise.
Stacy Eaton’s writing is riveting and electric. Her direct and fluid style does not flinch away from the tough stuff or gloss over anything. As a reader, you long for Amanda to grow and change. You feel proud when Nicole responds as she does. Read it. Urge your friends to read it. It’s one of those novels that reaches into society and surfaces issues that are confrontational, messy, and terrifying. But it’s worth reading. This novel will stay with you long after you finish it.
The chapters in WHETHER I’LL LIVE OR DIE alternate between the stories of the two women. Through the lens of Amanda, Stacy Eaton shows us all facets of domestic violence: the abuser’s domination; the victim’s isolation, both imposed by the abuser and self-imposed; the terrifying physical and mental abuse; the shame; the denial. Most importantly, we see how easily it can happen, how the tangled web of a relationship can get out of control and how the abused longs to explain it away and forgive. From Nicole’s perspective, we see how a police officer responds to abuse calls, how these cases wind their way through the legal system, and how the cycle will inevitably escalate. Amanda and Nicole’s stories do intersect, in a brilliant and shocking way that is guaranteed to take you by surprise.
Stacy Eaton’s writing is riveting and electric. Her direct and fluid style does not flinch away from the tough stuff or gloss over anything. As a reader, you long for Amanda to grow and change. You feel proud when Nicole responds as she does. Read it. Urge your friends to read it. It’s one of those novels that reaches into society and surfaces issues that are confrontational, messy, and terrifying. But it’s worth reading. This novel will stay with you long after you finish it.
July 17, 2012
This novel was submitted to me for an honest review by the author.
This third novel by Stacy Eaton has received excellent reviews. Many use the words, “compelling”, “gripping”, and “heart wrenching”. They are all very good descriptions of this novel. I can only say this book grabbed my heart from page one.
We meet Amanda, an attractive young woman, with a good job, a best friend named Angela, and what seems at first glance to be a normal, happy life. She is drawn into a relationship with a very attractive man, who seemingly has the same interests, and cares for her. As the relationship continues, small things creep in to make her uncomfortable. He is verbally abusive and belittling, which escalates to physical abuse. Amanda leaves. She is protected by a friend from the gym she goes to, and their relationship moves to sex, and living together. This relationship spirals down the same sad road of abuse, ending with a decision that breaks Amanda’s heart, and her spirit. She leaves again.
Next we meet Nicole, a recent graduate of the Police Academy, in a small town in Pennsylvania. Nicole sees a bright future, she has many friends, and a thirst for justice. We follow her as she grows into a respected officer in the community, and with her fellow police officers. She finds love and security with Colton, an officer in another division. These two women come together in a startling conclusion.
Ms. Eaton has brought the sadness of abuse in our society to us, in a fictionalized version , looking at two different women who seem to have no connection. The abuse to women, men, children and even innocent animals is not fiction.
Thank you Ms. Eaton for this excellent story of a very heartbreaking fact of life.
September 16, 2012
Stacy Eaton has created a tale of domestic abuse as seen from the perspectives of two different women. Amanda is a victim and Nicole a law enforcement officer who often deals with abuse victims and perpetrators. The tale is constructed of two interweaving first person narratives that convey the action, thoughts, and emotions of the contrasting characters. Amanda begins her story as a nineteen year old in a relationship with a violent and controlling man. She breaks off the relationship, is soon involved with another man, and breaks that one off when he proves himself a jerk. She moves on, meets a man on a blind date who treats her well, and marries him. Their marriage starts well, but as time passes he mistreats her in an escalating pattern of mental and physical abuse. Amanda soon shows the classic signs, making excuses and blaming herself for her situation, repeatedly forgiving her abuser, unwilling or unable to escape. Eventually they separate, but the husband remains a threat.
Nicole's story begins with her proud graduation from police academy. Soon her job takes her to many scenes of domestic violence in which she exhibits understanding of, and compassion for, the parties involved, especially the victims. She is the type of cop you would like to have on your side in a dispute. Where did this understanding and compassion originate? It takes more than police academy.
Inasmuch as the action unfolds in separate chapters of an abused woman and a cop, one may expect the pair eventually to meet. Do they? Answering the question would be a spoiler, verboten in a book review. You'll have to read the book to find out. If you do, you'll find a surprise in the final chapter.
Nicole's story begins with her proud graduation from police academy. Soon her job takes her to many scenes of domestic violence in which she exhibits understanding of, and compassion for, the parties involved, especially the victims. She is the type of cop you would like to have on your side in a dispute. Where did this understanding and compassion originate? It takes more than police academy.
Inasmuch as the action unfolds in separate chapters of an abused woman and a cop, one may expect the pair eventually to meet. Do they? Answering the question would be a spoiler, verboten in a book review. You'll have to read the book to find out. If you do, you'll find a surprise in the final chapter.
July 4, 2012
"Whether I'll Live or Die" is a riveting read that evokes several emotional responses as you read. The book details the lives of "Amanda" and "Nicole", two women who appear to be very different from the beginning of the book, but who become inextricably tied together by the end in a surprising and poignant twist. From beginning to end, both of their stories are raw and real, one trying to cope with an ongoing cycle of domestic abuse, the other dealing with life as a police officer inevitably drawn into violent crime. If you have an aversion to graphic violence or abuse, this is not the book for you. You will find traces of fairy tale love and romance, but it serves more as intermittent relief from an ongoing theme of brutality throughout the entire novel rather than hold a place as a prominent theme of its own. I repeat - this novel is raw and REAL, not for the squeamish.
Don't get me wrong. The violence is not gratuitous in any way. It is the essence of the experiences of these two women - experiences that will make you angry, sad, afraid, and even resolute in your pursuit of the final pages in order to see how it all ends. I will not give away spoilers, but I can say that there will be vindication by the end of the story. However, how you arrive at the ultimate resolution is a brilliantly crafted journey that engages the reader both emotionally and psychologically. The author teaches us that ultimately, destiny is in our own hands and we decide whether our spirits will live or die in this lifetime.
Don't get me wrong. The violence is not gratuitous in any way. It is the essence of the experiences of these two women - experiences that will make you angry, sad, afraid, and even resolute in your pursuit of the final pages in order to see how it all ends. I will not give away spoilers, but I can say that there will be vindication by the end of the story. However, how you arrive at the ultimate resolution is a brilliantly crafted journey that engages the reader both emotionally and psychologically. The author teaches us that ultimately, destiny is in our own hands and we decide whether our spirits will live or die in this lifetime.
September 28, 2012
This was an incredible book that looked at domestic violence from several different angles. It was full of emotion and heartache, bravery, and choices. There were times I wanted to crawl through the book and hit someone. That, to me, is what makes a story so wonderful, when you want to become a part of it and take action.
The two main characters in this book were such opposite sides of the same coin, and Eaton did a marvelous job of blending their stories together. I'll admit, it was a bit difficult at parts to turn the page and see that we would have to wait to get back to one storyline as another began, but it was very easy to get into that other one, and vice versa.
I can't say enough about this book. Whether you've been a vicitim of domestic violence or not, this book will speak to you and touch your heart and soul.
I had the pleasure of hosting Stacy on my blog earlier this month when the book made its debut, and introduce her to my readers. If you still have not checked out Stacy's books, start with this one. You'll be hooked!
The two main characters in this book were such opposite sides of the same coin, and Eaton did a marvelous job of blending their stories together. I'll admit, it was a bit difficult at parts to turn the page and see that we would have to wait to get back to one storyline as another began, but it was very easy to get into that other one, and vice versa.
I can't say enough about this book. Whether you've been a vicitim of domestic violence or not, this book will speak to you and touch your heart and soul.
I had the pleasure of hosting Stacy on my blog earlier this month when the book made its debut, and introduce her to my readers. If you still have not checked out Stacy's books, start with this one. You'll be hooked!
April 15, 2014
I bought this book as I have been beta reading for Stacy ..I had no knowledge of the topic..I just wanted to read her previous works ..
Emotional, true to life, thought provoking ..feelings of anger , bewilderment.. al this my mind went through whilst reading
The topic ..Domestic violence, the mental and physical..
Amanda has 3 relationships in this book ..all her men are what I'd refer to as 'asses', the type of guy who likes to rule ..with a fist or forked tongue
Nicole , we meet as she passes out of Police academy, we follow her day to day ..meeting 'Rebecca' a victim of domestic abuse..
We've all heard of the stories where the woman blames herself ..if she'd not burnt the tea, if she'd ironed the shirt,if she hadn't asked where he had been?
I don't want to go into detail .. but I didn't see the 'twist' in the story at all .. I'm usually quite perceptive ..
Amazing job Stacy ...
the beta in me squirmed once or twice ..but then thats who I am
Emotional, true to life, thought provoking ..feelings of anger , bewilderment.. al this my mind went through whilst reading
The topic ..Domestic violence, the mental and physical..
Amanda has 3 relationships in this book ..all her men are what I'd refer to as 'asses', the type of guy who likes to rule ..with a fist or forked tongue
Nicole , we meet as she passes out of Police academy, we follow her day to day ..meeting 'Rebecca' a victim of domestic abuse..
We've all heard of the stories where the woman blames herself ..if she'd not burnt the tea, if she'd ironed the shirt,if she hadn't asked where he had been?
I don't want to go into detail .. but I didn't see the 'twist' in the story at all .. I'm usually quite perceptive ..
Amazing job Stacy ...
the beta in me squirmed once or twice ..but then thats who I am
July 23, 2012
Whether I'll Live or Die isn't for the light-hearted. It takes the emotional journey of a woman who is being physically, mentally and emotionally abused and brings it to light. You also see that journey through the eyes of a female police officer who deals with domestic abuse.
Reading this story made me pray that I would never be in a situation like this. This story definitely needs to be read to show us how tough it is for women who are abused. We also need to read it to learn to protect ourselves, both men and women, from domestic violence.
The story is phenomenal and beautiful in an emotion way. You will find yourself praying that Amanda, the women being abused, has a happy ending. And there is a surprise twist that you will never see coming. Pick this book up and read it! You won't regret it!
Reading this story made me pray that I would never be in a situation like this. This story definitely needs to be read to show us how tough it is for women who are abused. We also need to read it to learn to protect ourselves, both men and women, from domestic violence.
The story is phenomenal and beautiful in an emotion way. You will find yourself praying that Amanda, the women being abused, has a happy ending. And there is a surprise twist that you will never see coming. Pick this book up and read it! You won't regret it!
July 6, 2012
Life changing, compelling and heartbreaking are just a few of the words I would use to describe author Stacy Eaton's novel, Whether I'll Live or Die. The author takes us on a compelling and life changing journey with characters Nicole and Amanda, two women whose lives are at complete opposites and yet inextricably intertwined. Whether I'll Live or Die focuses on the realities of Domestic Abuse, something that is all too prevalent in this day and age. It also takes us through life as a police officer and the violent crimes they face on a daily basis. Nothing about this story is sugar coated.
This book is absolutely riveting, taking you on a kaleidoscope of emotions while you quickly turn pages to reach the climatic ending, an ending that won't disappoint. A highly recommended read.
This book is absolutely riveting, taking you on a kaleidoscope of emotions while you quickly turn pages to reach the climatic ending, an ending that won't disappoint. A highly recommended read.
September 24, 2012
From the first chapter I was hooked when it came to reading this book. I kept reading because I want to know when and how the two stories ran into each other. I thought that Amanda was a total idiot through out most of the book because she kept going back and dating total losers. I really liked Nicole because she seemed to have her stuff together. I was shocked at how the two stories did come together though. I really didn't like the ending of the book but I would still read it again if I had to.
November 15, 2012
From the time I started reading this book, I couldn't put it down. I stayed up too late a couple of nights because I was so involved with the story. The author has given us a very realistic view of what it's like to be the victim of abuse and then a realistic view of what it is to be a female police officer. I love how the ending had a nice twist that I was not expecting and left me wondering. As a survivor of emotional abuse, this book certainly touched my heart, and I hope others will read it and begin to do something about the violence in our world.
September 9, 2014
This is a story of two women, one a cop who sees the worst of people, and one, a young woman who falls for abusive men. In a turn of events, their lives cross leaving the reader with mixed feelings of hope and despair. A good, quick read from an author who knows and well describes the life of a cop and knows how to hold tension in a story!
August 1, 2012
If you have never been in an abusive relationship, you probably know someone who either is or has been. If you have never been a cop, you can relate. Stacy Eaton does a masterful job weaving a story that you won't want to put down. If it were possible to give it more than 5 stars, I would. It's worth the time.
Patrick Jones
Author "The Wolf's Moon"
Patrick Jones
Author "The Wolf's Moon"
November 6, 2012
This story is brilliantly crafted to reflect the lives of two women, one of whom is repeatedly abused by the men she loves; the other is strong, confident and involved in a relationship with a caring man.
Without revealing too much, I loved the way the author wove their two stories together to the shocking ending. I would definitely read other books by this author.
Without revealing too much, I loved the way the author wove their two stories together to the shocking ending. I would definitely read other books by this author.
April 20, 2013
I thought this was a good book. I couldn't put it down once I started reading it. I just didn't feel connected to the character although I sympathized with her. The writing was good but didn't get me feeling emotionally involved with the character.
November 28, 2012
This book was amazing, I couldn't put it down. I had to read it all the way, needed to know what was going to happen next. I really enjoy a book that has different POVs.
May 9, 2019
Stacy Eaton delivers a powerful book with Whether I'll Live or Die. We follow two women. Nicole is a police officer, sworn to protect and serve those in need and Amanda, a woman in need of protection. Though their paths never cross, their stories are strong. We mostly hear Amanda's story. From the time she finds love, her choice of men tends to be those that are abusive. Always loving in the beginning, their continual physical and emotional mistreatment leads Amanda to really believe that she is the problem. Eaton takes us on a very emotional journey of the hows and whys abused people will take the blame and support the abuser. As a listener, it's heart breaking and completely frustrating how this happens. Amanda's husband Josh truly is the epitome of horrible and as she goes back and makes excuses for him, it is disheartening. Nicole's journey takes us on the other side, letting us see from the perspective of the officer how to deal with the abuser and help the abused. She is so good with the victims and truly helps them find a new normal. The story is a tough one, very raw and realistic and makes you think. The message is evident, and to find that strength to get the help is an uphill battle. It's a powerfully written story, well worth the listen.
Julie Walters gives a fine performance. She makes us feel that desperation for acceptance that Amanda is seeking. She helps to build the emotions and brings it to the forefront. As Nicole, she gives us a confident woman and when making the difficult choices, we are privy to her feelings. This is a must listen book!
Julie Walters gives a fine performance. She makes us feel that desperation for acceptance that Amanda is seeking. She helps to build the emotions and brings it to the forefront. As Nicole, she gives us a confident woman and when making the difficult choices, we are privy to her feelings. This is a must listen book!
July 2, 2020
This at time heart wrenching, and heartbreaking audiobook is not for the faint at heart.
That said, it’s one of the best I’ve listened to this year.
The subject of the story is the reality of domestic abuse seen from two points of view. One the abused individual, in this case, Amanda, and one from the law enforcement side, officer Nicole Nolan.
As we become engaged in the plot, we realize that the fears of the abused individual are real and that the not so merry go round, is one difficult to get off from. Especially when the person has been crushed not only physicially but primarily psychologically, and emotionally. The isolation and the fears of retaliation makes it even harder to seek help.
We see the two sides , the abused and the law enforcement and the decisions both end up making.
But the shocking surprises in the story, will make you see Amanda rise from the ashes like the Phoenix.
Kudos to the author for bringing this awareness to the forefront.
The narration was excellent, making the story even more real.
That said, it’s one of the best I’ve listened to this year.
The subject of the story is the reality of domestic abuse seen from two points of view. One the abused individual, in this case, Amanda, and one from the law enforcement side, officer Nicole Nolan.
As we become engaged in the plot, we realize that the fears of the abused individual are real and that the not so merry go round, is one difficult to get off from. Especially when the person has been crushed not only physicially but primarily psychologically, and emotionally. The isolation and the fears of retaliation makes it even harder to seek help.
We see the two sides , the abused and the law enforcement and the decisions both end up making.
But the shocking surprises in the story, will make you see Amanda rise from the ashes like the Phoenix.
Kudos to the author for bringing this awareness to the forefront.
The narration was excellent, making the story even more real.
May 8, 2019
This is a book that both sexes could learn a lot from. Not only does it show the difference that self esteem issues can make in a person's life, it also highlights that you are the one in charge of your life.
Yes, good friends and family can help, or hinder, a person's ability to navigate life's potholes. However, it is the individual's PMA (positive mental attitude) that empowers them to have a good life.
There are enough people in the world that will treat you as their personal doormat, if you let them! Yes it takes strength of character and an ability to say "No, I won't stay and put up with this, because I am worth more than this!"
There's places to go, people will help, if you are willing to ask for assistance.
I enjoyed listening to the audiobook and the twist at the end was surprising, as the voice characteristics of the two characters came across as completely different in attitude to life, and that individuals ability to cope with what is thrown their way.
Yes, good friends and family can help, or hinder, a person's ability to navigate life's potholes. However, it is the individual's PMA (positive mental attitude) that empowers them to have a good life.
There are enough people in the world that will treat you as their personal doormat, if you let them! Yes it takes strength of character and an ability to say "No, I won't stay and put up with this, because I am worth more than this!"
There's places to go, people will help, if you are willing to ask for assistance.
I enjoyed listening to the audiobook and the twist at the end was surprising, as the voice characteristics of the two characters came across as completely different in attitude to life, and that individuals ability to cope with what is thrown their way.
March 10, 2020
An incredible book that's must read for everyone
“Would I forever be in relationships where pain and fear were a constant? Would I ever feel like someone would love me enough to die for me? Those so-called fairy tale happy endings didn’t seem to be part of my life.”
“Somewhere inside of me, I knew that I was worthy of being loved and that I deserved it. I just didn’t know where or how to find that love.”
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* A MUST-READ FOR HUMANITY *
"You never know til you walk in someone else's shoes," has never been more applicable!!
—But, that ending... OMG!!!
I am speechless, crying & grateful for this journey... can't even begin to explain my emotions & feelings… I SO LOVE THIS BOOK!!!!
Its outstanding excellence in putting into words the unexplainable & the unfathomable that's immersive & informative for those who haven't been exposed to &/or experienced this personally in their lives.
“Would I forever be in relationships where pain and fear were a constant? Would I ever feel like someone would love me enough to die for me? Those so-called fairy tale happy endings didn’t seem to be part of my life.”
“Somewhere inside of me, I knew that I was worthy of being loved and that I deserved it. I just didn’t know where or how to find that love.”
+ • + • + • +
* A MUST-READ FOR HUMANITY *
"You never know til you walk in someone else's shoes," has never been more applicable!!
—But, that ending... OMG!!!
I am speechless, crying & grateful for this journey... can't even begin to explain my emotions & feelings… I SO LOVE THIS BOOK!!!!
Its outstanding excellence in putting into words the unexplainable & the unfathomable that's immersive & informative for those who haven't been exposed to &/or experienced this personally in their lives.
October 9, 2019
Whether I'll Live or Die
By: Stacy Eaton
This novel is about domestic violence. A serious subject that many victims try to hide because they feel it is their own fault. The author brings this story to the listener in a way an outsider might understand. I was captured from the very beginning, until the last word. I found myself holding my breather as some of these characters went through their trials.
The narration was well done. The characters were well portrayed. Julie Walters was awesome!!!
I was given this free review copy audiobook at my request and have voluntarily left this review.
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By: Stacy Eaton
This novel is about domestic violence. A serious subject that many victims try to hide because they feel it is their own fault. The author brings this story to the listener in a way an outsider might understand. I was captured from the very beginning, until the last word. I found myself holding my breather as some of these characters went through their trials.
The narration was well done. The characters were well portrayed. Julie Walters was awesome!!!
I was given this free review copy audiobook at my request and have voluntarily left this review.
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July 27, 2019
Wow, what a book. It does a great job of shedding light on domestic abuse and how it affects people, seen from both the perspectives of people inside and outside of the home. It is extremely convincing.
I recommend this book to help others understand abuse and how it affects people in the long term. Some of the content resonated deeply with me because of my own family's abusive nature.
I received this audiobook from the author/publisher/narrator in exchange for an honest review via Audiobook Boom.
Karson Lee, author of Lost In Thought: Memories of an Abused Child.
I recommend this book to help others understand abuse and how it affects people in the long term. Some of the content resonated deeply with me because of my own family's abusive nature.
I received this audiobook from the author/publisher/narrator in exchange for an honest review via Audiobook Boom.
Karson Lee, author of Lost In Thought: Memories of an Abused Child.
May 9, 2019
Whether I'll Live or Die was another great read by Stacy Eaton. Nicole is an officer who knows that her life can be forever altered when she pulls the trigger. She knows that her job is to protect people who can't protect themselves. Amanda has had several relationships that lead her to marry a man who turns violent on her. I absolutely loved reading Nicole and Amanda's story and the huge twist. I can't wait to read more by Stacy Eaton.
September 19, 2018
I could not put this down and read it in one day. Amanda is a new to adulthood woman that gets sucked in to the vicious cycle of Domestic Abuse. This is a story that spans over a twelve year period that has an amazing ending. Even though I got frustrated with Amanda this is well worth reading. I cannot wait to read more of this authors work.
May 13, 2019
This is a dynamic story of Nicole and Amanda. The subject matter of domestic violence is quite difficult to read/ listen to. It makes it even more difficult because everyone wants to see themselves as empowered women who stand up for themselves. Unfortunately, that is not always the case, and watching Amanda continually in difficult relationships is frustrating. Very well done.
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