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Nicole Lee, a young wife and new mother, steps out of the mall, squinting against the glare of the midday sun, completely unaware that her life is about to change forever.

In a matter of seconds, she is steeped in fear as the world she knows and the life she loves fades away.

As the panic sets in and the terror takes hold, Nicole tries to keep calm, though she's now in a fra
Kindle Edition, 204 pages
Published March 31st 2012 by Case Publishing
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Shelby *trains flying monkeys*
I recently read another book by this author Rage or as I like to call it, "the book that kicked my ass."
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So when my little book pushing friend Jahy tells me I need to read this one. What do I do?
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Nicole has been shopping for some discounted jeans, she steps into the parking lot ready to go home to her one year old son and her husband. Fate has different plans though. She is approached by a man that has a gun shoved into her ribs. He tells her to get in her car and then takes her to his hou
Jennifer Kyle
Apr 30, 2014 rated it really liked it

”Crazy people don’t know they’re crazy.”

This book is the most disturbing novel I have read to date. You will be shocked, repulsed, appalled and completely traumatized by each and every page.


On the other hand, it was a good book. I really enjoyed the author’s writing style and found that even though she had the whole shock and awe aspect down the story was still very well written and captivating. Nicole was a stellar main character…

”Do you not want to be here?”

“Of co
Oct 22, 2017 rated it liked it
Recommended to Selene by: Honey~psychopaths&stalkers
Nicole is a twenty-eight year-old homemaker, wife, and devoted mother to her young son. She's abducted by Ron while running some errands and he introduces her to his twisted horror show of a lifestyle. The vile acts she witnesses and is subjected to lead to a most interesting outcome!

This story was so odd! The first half of this book felt like a parody that makes fun of all captor/captive stories but this one added a dash of affection towards the male captor! The intensity was also weakest for t
JaHy☝Hold the Fairy Dust

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Why do you ask?.W-E-L-LLLLLL..... I'm not telling you Jack (actually his name is Ron) You my friend must find out for yourself. Don't be mad, you'll thank me or curse me out later <--- I can live with either.... MWAH!!

A special THANKS to Kimberly Bettes for filling my every mind fuck desire.. ... Oh'Dear Lord, I need a stiff drink or two ....fuck,,just give me the damn bottle(s).
Alex ✰ Comets and Comments ✰
"When the pee finally started coming, I wondered if all kidnappings went this way."

DNF at 5%

This book unnerved me.

I feel bad. I really do, because this was one of the recco's that the ever so lovely honey-psychopaths gave me, and she loved it to absolute bits. I honestly wish I could have gone further than Chapter 5, but even after Chapter 1 - I was on a constant bug eyed - cringe faced look.

There were just so many wtf aspects

Let me explain myself.

The Main Character
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Kelly (and the Book Boar)

I think I might need a bottle of Courvoisier to help me bleach my brain of this. FOUR STARS!

P.S. JaHy I missssssss you! Come baaaaaack : (
Apr 08, 2014 rated it really liked it
BR with Jennifer <3

We got this ;)

Oh, how naive I was. This book kicked my ass. It's BRUTAL. I think it's possibly the most twisted, violent, disturbing book I have ever read. I don't even know what to say.

Held begins with a young wife and mother, Nicole being kidnapped leaving the mall.

Even if I could somehow manage to escape him at some point, everything was going to be different. Assuming he didn't kill me first, life as I knew it was over and gone forever.

Finding herself in the clutche
Dec 17, 2014 rated it really liked it
Shelves: dark-romance
“Held” tells the story of Ron, a psychopath serial killer. Ron is a writer, but not really a successful one. He’s determined to write a bestselling book, but he also needs some real life inspiration so he abducts our heroine, Nicole in a grocery store parking lot. He takes her home. He is really nice to her, he wants to feed her, to take care of her and to know about her life.At first..

“He had a calm side, which allowed him to seem friendly and normal. Then, he had a dark side, full of
Carol (StarAngel's Reviews) Allen
5 Heart Stopping Stars!! I keep blinking really really fast with my head tilted to the side....I wonder what the fuck did I just experience!

Wow..what a heart pounding, breath holding ride - I have reads some really DARK books before, but this one takes the cake!

I had to keep taking breaks everytime that Ron would go down the basement because my psyche just couldn't take it anymore.

Haha...I think to myself that I must be really fucked up too if I can't wait to see what the auth
Mercy Cortez
Apr 29, 2013 rated it it was amazing

' This guy was nuttier than a squirrel turd'

A sick and twisted 5 stars!

This was me throughout this book

My mind is so confused right now. I couldn't stop reading this, my kindle battery died and only then did i stop.

This was unlike anything I've ever read and i have read a lot of kidnap and sexual sadist/violent books at this point.

This is like Comfort Food but a LOT worse. This isn't BDSM or Romantic notions of rape and physical abuse. The male lead, Ron; he isn't someone you want to understand
Nenia ✨ I yeet my books back and forth ✨ Campbell

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The early 2010s were dark times. FIFTY SHADES OF GREY was a best-seller and everyone wanted to write the Next Big Thing. It didn't take long for people to go from writing about tortured porn to torture porn, and pretty soon we ended up with, well, a lot of books like these. HELD has been on my radar for a while because it frequently appears on the "Readers Also Enjoyed" tab for my Horrorscape series. Naturally, curiosity took over and ma
Feb 25, 2015 rated it really liked it
Shelves: dark-reads



What should I say for this kind of reads?? That I enjoyed the book?? That I liked it? lol..It feels wrong in so many ways, but this book was intriguing and extremely sick..and I really enjoyed it.

If you love dark reads and don't mind about the lack of romance, go ahead and read it.

This is one of the craziest books I've ever read. It was twisted, disgusting, insane..

Nicole is in the grocery store parking lot and she's heading to her car. She believes that it's just a normal day, she went
Amber Rose
5 dark, mind blowing, this shit is twisted stars.

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I got this book recommended to me from a friend, the lovely Miss actually. Read the blurb and got it right then and thought I would read it one day soon. Well, I started it today and finished it the same day. I needed something dark, I mean really dark, and I heard it's fucking dark. It lived up to every fucking darkness I had in me at the moment and went beyond that.

This book is for sure not for the faint of heart. This is not a romance b
Jul 05, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: on-the-dark-side
5 STARS of Terrifying, Disturbing, Twisted, Nail biting, Heart beating, Scary, Speechless..Should stop reading but can't... story

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Where do I start, Nicole is abducted on her way home from the shops, she's married and a mummy.
Ron has kidnapped her. He takes her back to his home and treats her very well.
The reason being...........
He wants her to help him to write a book...a best seller..
Simple enough!!!

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Hell no...
Nicole realises that her nightmare is about to start.
My thoughts
This is a very
Carla ☺Did I Say That☺
This was the most sick..twisted and violent story I have every read!!! No amount of words will do this book Justice!! That's all I have to say right..I'll probably come back in a few days and edit this...once I process everything.. ...more
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**** 4.5 Be A Good Girl Stars ****

“If you left out the sadistic serial killer part of him, he was a great guy. He was clean and orderly. He was kind. He catered to the woman he loved. He was a great cook. He had high hopes for his career. He didn’t plop down in front of the television for hours at a time. He enjoyed playing games and great conversation. His sexual stamina was impressive. And he was a handsome man. It’s just that pesky habit of his where he raped, tortured, killed, and dismemb
Adriana Noir
Aug 02, 2013 rated it it was amazing
4.5 Congratulations, you just shattered my psyche stars!

Well, slap my ass and call me silly. This book…this book. I have no words. My mind is officially blown.

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The author wastes no time. Right away, she propelled me from the comfort of my home, headlong into the depths of my very worst nightmare. Forget propel. It was a like a rocket launch. Zero to three-million in ten pages flat, and yes, I was screaming.

This book is like Misery meets The Devil’s Rejects, with a dash of Jack Ketchum’s The Girl
Jul 05, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorites
Wow WTF did I just read

Honestly I thought I'd read the sickest books out there but this just creeped into the top spot without warning.

I don't normally write reviews (cos I suck at them) but I just wanted to say a few things here based some reviews I've read.

Comfort Food this is not, this book is in a case all on its own and there's no stockholm syndrome in here either, this book is sick and twisted from the get go and although I did agree with one review (as in I didnt feel Nicole's fear much)
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According to PSYCHOLOGY TODAY, Jeffrey Dahmer, Ted Bundy and Hannibal Lecter were all “charming” psychopaths – go ahead and mark that down as another reason NOT to leave a public place to get better acquainted with a handsome and charismatic “man of your dreams” – it might just turn into your biggest nightmare!

Nicole Lee, a happily married, young mother is snatched from the life she once knew in a parking lot in broad daylight. Her captor, Ron is a struggling writer and somewhat charming… in the
Apr 29, 2013 rated it liked it
FINISHED! yay me! I grew a pair (not literally) and finished. What a workout that was.

I'm honestly curious about book 2 now. Will I read it? I have no clue. I guess that depends how much torture there is. I don't think I can handle that again.

DNF 62%

I really wasn't sure what to expect when I first picked this book up, as it was the first time I've ever read a thriller/horror type book of this nature.

Sep 18, 2015 rated it liked it
I really don't know what to say about this book it warns you it has adult content but for me this was a twisted dark thriller which i was not sure if i would finish due to the barbaric way the Protagonist Ron treated women in this book.

I was nearly sick with the graphic content of butchery dismemberment & the sadistic way Ron treated all his victims including Nicole to me it was belittling women I found myself wondering as the story progressed why am i reading this but just wanted to see how it
Lady Vigilante (Feifei)
This sounds like my thing!!! Now if I could find the time to read it...
May 03, 2014 rated it really liked it
Shelves: dark-and-twisted
*Minor spoilers ahead*

This is undeniably the most disturbing story I've ever read. Painfully descriptive, brutal and appalling.

This story takes you way beyond your comfort zone. This is not a tale about kidnapper turned knight in shining armor. There will be no falling for the abductor. This is some serious shit.

“It’s going to be fun having you here. You’re so unlike the others.”

It starts off a bit bizarre. Don’t let the beginning discourage you.

When Ron kidnaps Natalie, he uses he
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Well I couldn't sleep after reading Opaque Mirrors, so I thought well might as well read another book... I don't know what I was thinking

Me when he approached Nicole at the grocery store parking lot then kiddnapped her
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Me when Nicole realized she wasn't the only woman in the house as another captive came running up from a basement screaming her head off looking beat down and I mean beat down and was naked
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Me when Nicole had her first taste of what the basement life was like when she displ
Di Covey/TwistedBookReviews

4.5 Stars!

I should warn you. This is not a dark romance. There's isn't an HEA, where the heroine falls madly in love with her captor, there's isn't Stockholm Syndrome. This story is DARK, disturbing, gritty, and at times sickening. So, with all that being said, read at your own risk.

Nicole stops at the mall to buy jeans and the next thing that happens, will forever change her life. Ron is a writer of dark, his first attempt at writing a best seller failed. How can Ron make his gruesom
David Church
Mar 07, 2014 rated it it was amazing
A warning if you are faint of heart or a fan of horror “light” novels stay far away from Held by Kimberly A. Bettes. This novel takes you to the places you do not want to go and show you things you wish you could forget. This book has the oh shit this could really happen feel to it. It really had me dreading to see what was going to happen next but couldn’t stop reading to find out what happens next. A great read if you are brave enough to give the book a try. Right up there with Jack Ketchum’s ...more
Cap'n Heather.....Aarrrrrrr
What a fucked up....demented.....twisted.....mind fuck.

Good Lord......I loved it....
KitReads (a.k.a. nd)
*****5 "WTF??" Crazy Stars*****

This was some of the craziest stuff I've ever read! WOW!

This book. Oh. My. God. What in the hell did I just read? Seriously. I'm in shock. Shocked that I couldn't put it down. Shocked that I sat and read it in one day (along with book two Pushed). Shocked that I woke up at three in the morning and reached over to pick it up and read some more of the total mind-fuckery that was this book.

I have *never*.. I repeat NEVER read anything like this before. Not Com
Ari Reavis
Aug 11, 2015 rated it really liked it
This book was so disturbingly good. At first, you're like "Well he's ok, as far as kidnappers go." That is until you're introduced to the basement and s*** hits the fan in a big way. The things he did were horrifying, so much so that you want to look away while reading. There was definitely a lot of cringing and gasping on my part. But you keep reading because you want to know if Nicole escapes and how or if she doesn't make it out of the psycho's clutches. The only thing lacking for me was the ...more
This is the most fucked up and disturbing book I've ever read. This book is sick, twisted, disgusting, horrifying and completely genius! It was well written, suspenseful, and graphic....
An interesting story of a psychopath serial killer and his victim Nicole.
The ending just shook me!! I have to read the second book!!
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