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Memoirs Aren't Fairytales: A Story of Addiction

(The Memoir #1)

4.15  ·  Rating details ·  1,992 ratings  ·  275 reviews
"I could feel my chin falling toward my chest, my back hunching forward. My body was acting on its own, and my mind was empty, like all my memories had been erased. There was scenery behind my lids. Aqua-colored water and powdery sand that extended for miles. I was never going back to coke. I wanted more heroin. And I wanted it now."

Leaving behind a nightmarish college
Paperback, 256 pages
Published December 13th 2011 by Booktrope Editions (first published January 1st 2011)
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Jennifer Kyle
Aug 05, 2016 rated it really liked it
Shelves: cry-baby-books

”I love to chase the dragon.”

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Thanks to my reading pal Donna for gifting me this heartbreakingly hopeless story of a young girl's fall into drugs over the course of several years. It was a very realistic and excruciatingly hard read.


Nicole heads to Boston with her best friend Eric. They are excited to get away from their hometown of Bangor and want to try life on their own terms. Sadly they go from using weed to very heavy drug use. Nicole’s parents and brother continue to
M.R. Merrick
Dec 20, 2011 rated it it was amazing
Memoirs Aren't Fairytales. I'm almost at a loss for words before I begin.





I'll never think, or read these words again, without thinking about this book. If you can't tell, it touched me. Actually, that isn't fair. It did more than that. It imbedded itself on my soul.

Maybe it's because I related to this book on a personal level, but I don't believe there is a person out there that could read this book, and not feel torn up inside. You don't need to have been an
Shabby  -BookBistroBlog
Books are supposed to be fun, educative, make you dream about hero's and rainbows and glitter.
Certain books slap you hard till your teeth rattle and them squeeze hold your throat. THIS is that type of book !!
A pair of innocent high schoolers- Eric and Nicole drive away from their restrictive parents in New Hampshire to Freedom of Boston Massachussets. And why ? they don't have to study or have curfew time or be accountable or choose a path in life other than just bumming it out in front of
Mark Matthews
Aug 20, 2012 rated it it was amazing
As a recovering addict, substance abuse therapist, and author of the addiction-based novel Stray, I looked at this novel through a unique lense.

So many addiction stories are either trite, cliche, or oozing with melo-drama. This novel had none of that, and comes highly recommended by this reader.

The main character Nicole is a realistic portrayal of how a recreational drug-user slowly slips deep into heroin addiction. And she gets to enjoy all the lovely side-dishes served with living a life
T.M. Frazier
Apr 18, 2012 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favs
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“But heroin was my air. It had a hold of me like we were chained together. And those shackles weren't just around my wrists, they were tied around my brain too.” -NICOLE

This has to be, by far, one of my favorite books of all time. And for those who know me, especially my crew here on Goodreads, you know I do not say that lightly. I read it a while ago, but it still creeps up into my mind all the time. It was face paced and I couldn't catch my breath the entire time. I'd never read anything
Di Covey/TwistedBookReviews
A poignant story of addiction. I couldn't turn the pages fast enough, nothing good comes out of losing your soul, yet I couldn't look away.

"Everyone in my life had split, and I was in the middle, standing still. But I didn’t need anyone, and I wasn’t lonely. Smack was my dream-maker. It was my constant. It was my true love."

This story gutted me. I knew going in it was going to be tough to get through. Anyone who's ever seen the aftermath of drugs, the damage, will relate to this story. I
Donna ~ The Romance Cover
May 28, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Memoirs Aren’t Fairytales: A Story of Addiction (The Memoir #1)
Scars from a Memoir (The Memoirs #2) by Marni Mann
5 stars!!!!

“Am I a runaway train, or am I the track?”

This was a duet that I needed to review straightaway, I just feel that if I get my thoughts and emotions down while I am still coming to terms with what I have just read it will have more of an emotional impact. These books seriously touched me, having never been around drugs or even having an inclination to try any I have never
Laura Lee
Jul 31, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Well, I did it...I popped my Marni Mann Cherry with this wonderfully written book about addiction and the price you pay for it, when constantly searching for that feeling you experienced with your first hit.

Eric and Nicole friends since Kindergarten have decided to move from the looser town they have grown up in, to become bigger and better than anyone who ever stays in their little town... Boston it is.

This story is a very emotional ride that will totally make you understand the battles that
Troy Ratliff
Jan 05, 2012 rated it it was amazing
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Feb 20, 2012 rated it it was amazing
I won this book from GoodReads First Reads.This book had me drugged just like the characters in this book.I couldn't put the book down even though the book is not about a happy fairytale I loved it. I felt sad, weaken, ugly, high, pain, cravings, withdrawals. I felt bad for her but at the same time I didn't. Just wished she would have stopped using drugs and get straight before so many horrible things happened. It was a perfect book to teach people not to trust no one. People say there are your ...more
Sep 04, 2016 rated it it was amazing
I wish I could rate this book more than 5 stars because 5 stars just isn't enough. Memoirs is a hard book to read. It is powerful, raw, emotional and can't be taken lightly. You will feel all the feels! It's about Nicole- a girl who had a lot going for her, who lost her way due to a past event. She sadly turned to drugs, leading her to becoming a heroin addict. You get the harsh, rough, painful truth about addiction and the lengths you go to, to get your next "fix." If anyone doesn't understand ...more
M.B. Mulhall
Jan 06, 2012 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This book was a no holds barred description of a girl and her spiral downward thanks to an ever growing drug addiction. It was vividly detailed and Mann doesn't pull any punches in telling the reality of what happens to addicts and how they go from thinking they are better than the junkies and how they end up doing things they never thought they would in order to get their fix. I like that while things were on their way to improving, Mann doesn't leave us with a happy "everything will be rosy ...more
Dusti Hanrahan
Apr 16, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This was an extremely hard read. If you've ever known anyone who's life has been taken over by drug addiction, this book will "hit home" in an uncomfortably accurate way.
The writing isn't the best, the sentences/story told rather matter of fact but the overall message is loud and clear.
Drugs are the fucking devil- in this case it starts w the "softer" drugs and progresses into heroin.
The way this addiction progresses and the lengths gone to in order to get drugs- the way she thought of herself
Lynne White
Aug 24, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Wow. Wow. Wow. I felt like I was a fly on the wall while reading about Nicole Brown. I know this story is fictional, but it's so real. I cursed Nicole, yelled at her, shook my kindle, and at times, wanted to throw it across the room. "Heroin is a terrorist." Truer words were never written. Nicole frustrated me at every turn. I both loved her and hated her. Drugs ruin everything and Marni Mann opened my eyes and taught me so much. This will stay with me for a very long time.
Michael Flanagan
Jul 08, 2014 rated it really liked it
Marni Mann is not the usual type of author that I read. But this book caught my attention and I was compelled to read it. I have to admit with a red face that it was not until 3/4 of the way through the book that I realised it was fiction, but this says a lot about the great story that it tells.

This book is a tale of a young woman slowly sucked into a downward spiral of drug addiction in which heroin reigns supreme. The development or should I say deconstruction of the characters in this book is
AJ's book-reMarks
Fairytales or nightmares

Marin Mann has written a book that every young person, teacher, mom, dad, this is a must read for every person. It's real life, her accounts are real. Yes, it's depressing and the scenario is happening everyday, the epidemic is real so are the nightmares. Thank you ,Marni, for your words, powerful as a punch or a shot in the chest. AJM
Feb 24, 2017 rated it it was amazing
I'm kind of at a loss for words. This was probably one of the grittiest, most difficult books I've read. Watching Nicole's gut wrenching downward spiral into drugs was like watching a train wreck. And just when you think things can't get much worse...they do. I need to take a break before reading the sequel. I really hope that Nicole gets her life back on track. In the meantime, I feel like I need to scrub myself from the inside out because this book made me feel all kinds of icky!
Steven Luna
Feb 19, 2012 rated it it was amazing
Up-and-coming indie author Marni Mann has crafted a gritty, compelling tale in MEMOIRS AREN'T FAIRYTALES, the fictional account of a young girl's descent into heroin addiction. It's a graphic and haunting story, as much a confession as a cautionary tale, and one that defies any genre label I can think of, aside from "literary fiction" - and in the most exalted, award-worthy sense of the term.

Nicole Brown begins as a college drop-out who flees hometown life in Bangor with her best friend Eric,
Dec 30, 2016 rated it really liked it
The title is lying to you. This book is FAR from a fairytale. It's the most gut wrenching, jaw dropping, and uncomfortable book I have probably read this year. Probably read to date, actually.

"I love to chase the dragon."

I liked this book because of the structure. I liked how everything was laid out for the reader, nothing was hidden or disguised or sugar coated. While reading, you got to experience all of Nicole's struggles right along side with her. You slid right on down the rabbit hole
Michelle 🦂
May 09, 2014 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2014, addiction
This novel isn't a true story, but honestly, I thought Nicole Brown was someone I could have known personally. That's how well it was written.

Marni Mann will blow you away with her ability to reach out and grab you from the very first chapter, until the last page of the book. I was up WAY past my normal bed time every night, struggling to stay awake but craving more of this story.

Nicole Brown and her friend Eric decide one day that they are heading to Boston after spending their entire lives
Dear Nicole,

I don’t know how to begin to thank you for telling your story. It was one of the most honest things I have ever read. It was real, ugly and raw. You took me on unforgettable journey. I was able to witness the inside view of addiction. I cried with you. I hurt with you. I wanted to wrap you in my arms and keep you safe. I read every day to check on you, but some days I just couldn’t. I was worried if you were hungry or cold. Did you make it home? Have you been to sleep? I just needed
Jun 02, 2012 rated it it was ok
Okay... I admit I didn't read any liner notes, I just started reading. I made the assumption -because of the word Memoir in the title- that it was a self published author, writing what I refer to a "...and then this happened to me, and then this happened to me..." book. I call them that, because the writing itself is nothing special- more descriptive and reporting. There's opportunity for character development and the sort of prose that expands on the senses and draws your consciousness into the ...more
Tina Ryan Ryan
Jan 02, 2012 rated it it was amazing
With one taste, the love that once flowed through Nicole's veins turns into cravings. Tracks mark the passing of time, and heroin's grip gets tighter. It holds her hand through deaths and prostitution, but her addiction keeps her in the darkness. When her family tries to strike a match to help light her way, Nicole must choose between a life she can hardly remember, or a love for heroin she'll never forget. This caught my eye,before I bought n read this book.An Awesome book for all teens & ...more
Aug 19, 2016 rated it it was amazing
This is a crazy story about a girl spiraling into heroin addiction. This is probably the most detailed account and an addict's life I've ever read. It is absolutely disgusting what this drug does to people. I couldn't stop reading. Just when you think Nicole has hit rock bottom, nope… way more horrible things happen. There is a book 2, so I'm anxious to see what the next chapter in her life holds. (If you're an Amazon Prime primary member, you can borrow this book for free from your kindle by ...more
Mar 15, 2012 rated it it was amazing
Stunning, intense and utterly raw story of one girl's descent into the hell of addiction. Anyone close to an addict or alcoholic needs to read this ASAP for an up-close and brutally open account of how addiction makes people do and say things they would never, ever otherwise do. Anyone with an addiction will see themselves in every page and, I believe, better understand the disease. Gritty and not necessarily appropriate for younger readers. I give this book my highest recommendation.
Julie T.
Jan 02, 2012 rated it really liked it
A sad story of addiction. I would have liked a bit more follow up at the end about how she is currently doing. Very engaging and realistic journey through addictive behavior.
Kim BookJunkie
When I was in my early teens, I read a book called, "Go Ask Alice", a diary of a teenager who had experimented with drugs. That book had a profound impact on me and since I read it (maybe 30 years ago), I've been looking for books similar to it. I've read many books about drugs and addiction in my search and MEMOIRS AREN'T FAIRYTALES is by far the most intense, compelling book I've EVER read about drug use/abuse! This book is absolutely fantastic!!! I was absolutely glued to each and every page ...more
Jen from Quebec :0)
A NOVEL, not a memoir. Still tho, it was good enough for me to go out and get the sequel! --Jen from Quebec :0)
Jenn of Rave and Rant about Raunch
This is a review for those of you who like to step outside your gooey romance genre books from time to time. There are no “meet cutes”, or white knights to save the princess, and the only butterflies in this story are the one an addict gets while prepping their fix; forever chasing that first high over and over again. This story is gritty, sad, and emotional. It’s a work of fiction that rings true for many in this world.

Nicole is an addict who has things under control. She’s too smart to
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