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I Loved You First

3.44  ·  Rating details ·  121 ratings  ·  54 reviews
My best friend was more than just a best friend to me. Three words summed it up: I heart him. I’d never tell him though. I wasn’t stupid. Besides, what he’d told no one, but me, was a little something I wished I could forget… or ignore. He was gay. I guess gay wouldn’t be bad if I wasn’t so in love with him. Now it was just cruel.

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Paperback, 212 pages
Published July 29th 2011 by Reena Createspace
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Sep 29, 2011 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: first-reads
I won this book in the Goodreads giveaway section (Yay) and I have to say I am glad I entered.

First of all I would like to start off by WARNING potential readers to make sure you have spare time before starting this one because it hooked me in from beginning till the end.

Alexandria (Alex) Carmichael and Seth Richards have been best friends since elementary school, now at College the two are still inseparable Seth is a social butterfly always attending parties. While Seth is good looking and a g
Aug 12, 2011 rated it it was amazing
I first found out about I Loved You First by Reena Jacobs from a fellow book blogger - aobibliosphere
The description enticed me and after reading the first chapter I was totally hooked.
The story centers around two college freshmen who have been best friends since elementary school, Alex and Seth. Alex is the only person in the world who knows Seth has a secret. Seth is gay and doesn't want anyone to know. Alex has no problem keeping the secret, the only problem is he's not only
Jul 30, 2011 rated it really liked it
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The expectations I had after first reading the description of I Loved You First did not at all prepare me for what I got out of this story. I thought I Loved You First would explore friendship, but it explores more aspects of friendship than I expected. I expected a story where one friend had fallen in love with the other friend and a story where one friend was hiding his true self from the world. I was surprised to see the story explore a friendship where one friend lost her sense
Sarika Patkotwar
Nov 24, 2011 rated it really liked it
I Loved You First by Reena Jacobs is a very sweet read. By that, I mean the story is very different, something that I had not read before and I thouroughly enjoyed every page of it!
The book is a stroy of two best friends, Seth and Alexandria, who have been BFFs since first grade. Alex is deeply in love with her best friend, however, the tiny problem here is that seth is gay. Both of them keep their secrets to themselves. Alex is the only one who knows Seth's secret and Seth realises hers eventu
Aug 03, 2011 rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Puppy love, first love, and unrequited love, all seem to be the central theme in I LOVED YOU FIRST by Reena Jacobs.

Alexandra (Alex) and Seth have been best friends since elementary school. They are now both freshmen in college. Alex's entire social life revolves around Seth and his needs. Although Seth has recently revealed to her that he is gay. She vacillates between understanding and accepting that her love will never be returned in a romantic fashion and thinking that she knows what is best
Jul 18, 2011 rated it really liked it
We have been friends together In sunshine and in shade. - Caroline Sheridan Norton

Alexandria Carmichael and her BFF Seth have known each other since first grade. Alex, though, has fallen in love with Seth over the years and secretly pines for him. it would have been less complicated or perhaps simpler for her to deal with her feelings if Seth were not gay but he is.
author Reena Jacobs has written a beautiful and bittersweet young adult coming-of-age story that deals with friendship, love, bigotr
Aug 07, 2011 rated it liked it
I don't understand unrequited love at all, probably because I never experienced it. If I liked a guy growing up and he didn't like me back, I got over it and moved on pretty quick. What I especially don't understand is Alex's unrequited love for Seth. She thought that he was awesome, but why couldn't friendship be enough for her? It's not like he was going to have a serious relationship with another woman. That bothered me about this novella, but I admit that maybe I just don't understand becaus ...more
Aug 15, 2011 rated it really liked it
Alex is used to being in the shadow of her best friend Seth. He's out-going and popular. Seth is the kind of guy all the girls fall for, including Alex. There's just one huge problem. Seth is gay. Alex knows this, but no one else does. She is about to learn how hard it is to keep someone's secret, and how hard it is when you fall for the wrong person. Can Alex learn to be her own person and step out of Seth's shadow? Also, can she learn to deal with her feeling about Seth?

This book is a very mod
Alexis Villery
Feb 18, 2012 rated it liked it
Alex has found herself in the most difficult situation of her life. Not only is she in love with her best friend who happens to be gay, but she has allowed herself to disappear in a crowd and she doesn't even know how to stand up for herself anymore. Both Seth and Alex face difficult issue but they've always had each other. This time, it looks like even a best friend can't set things right.

I really enjoyed this book. The premise drew me in and I was not disappointed. Not only is Alex in love wit
Jul 18, 2011 rated it really liked it
NOT the Political Correctness You Were Expecting,

One could be forgiven for assuming this novel would be the worst sort of politically correct garbage based upon the premise: girl secretly in love with her BFF who just happens to be gay -- yeah, yeah, cue the sad violins. However, very much to Ms. Jacobs' credit, it is not. In fact this is a thoughtful (and thought provoking) novel about the timeless problem of unrequited love, its costs, its consequences, and the necessity of finally dealing wit
Jamie Kline
Jul 26, 2011 rated it really liked it
Review: I couldn't wait to read this book! It sounded like a fun, interesting, and probably emotional read; plus, I felt like I could relate to Alex on some level. It happened in high school; instead of the guy being just my best friend though, he was also my boyfriend. I was delighted of course, but I always felt like something was really off about the relationship. We broke up after about a year and I was crushed. Fast forward to a couple of years later, after we had graduated high school, and ...more
Richard Ninnim
May 23, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Leanne please do not just close this, if you see it read quick please.
What i said to you was wrong very wrong of me and i am very sorry, Its basis was a promise i made to you when we first got together, if you havent the love to let me explain, please think of the promise that i broke on the wednesday night.

I picked this book because we got together around this time and i made that promise to you. I should of listened to you that saturday night, i wish i had so much. I truelly and honestly with
Originally posted at Butterfly-o-Meter Books on Jan 24 2012:

Ok, wow!! On all accounts, wow. I dunno where to begin with my fangirlism! xDDD

First things first, I applaud the brave plot the author developed, and I will say I especially applaud her end notes of the novel (at least the way I read them in the ARC), and I cannot speak highly enough of her thoughts and considerations on the topic of the relationship between some Christians and the LGBT community. I subscribe the her points of view and
Alex and Seth have been best friends since primary school, when Alex saved Seth from being bullied. Ever since then, Alex has been Seth’s shadow and sidekick, fighting his battles for him and being his rock of support. All that while, Alex has silently yearned for Seth’s attention and love- as more than a friend. Unfortunately, Seth has confessed to Alex that he is gay. So, she sits silently by while he parades girl after girl before her to maintain his popular image and not let anyone know that ...more
Jul 19, 2011 rated it liked it
And you thought high school was tough? In this YA story it's the first year of college that's rocky for two long-time friends. For star athlete Seth it's the truth about his sexuality and the consequences of his forced 'coming out' that leads to a rift with his very best friend Alex. For Alex it's her shadow-like existence and her deep love of Seth, even knowing the truth about him, that puts her life in turmoil. Once all these truths come to light it's time for these young people to make some h ...more
Jul 13, 2012 rated it liked it
Shelves: ebooks, for-review
I Loved You First by Reena Jacobs was about a girl in love with her best friend. The problem of this situation? Her best friend is gay. This isn’t your everyday unrequited love story.

Alex - the best friend anyone could have

To be honest, I didn’t quite connect with Alex until later on in the book. I sympathized with her because I know the pain and heartache she felt. To be in love with someone who doesn’t love you back is really hard. I liked Alex’s tough exterior and how she can hide her pain w
Tara Calaby
I Loved You First is an easy, enjoyable read with a positive underlying message. Its stand-out feature is the strong character voice of Alex, which remains consistent and appealing throughout the book. The first person narrative quickly draws the reader into Alex's world and encourages them to empathise with her situation.

Alex herself is a likeable character. While, at times, her choices were frustrating, I never resented her for making them. She is flawed, certainly, but this is the story of h
Aug 25, 2011 rated it liked it
I normally don't read YA so when the author approached about being part of her blog tour, I figured I'd give it a try. After reading the blurb, I was intrigued. I love stories about unrequited love.

Seth and Alex (Alexandria) have been best friends since elementary school. The novella starts off with both Alex and Seth being freshmen at the same college. Seth is the All-American Boy. He's good looking, excels at baseball and all the girls want him. But he's hiding a secret that only his BFF knows
Kim (Sliced Open Reviews)
Ok I loved the synop for this book, for me it’s all about the relationship that is totally unrealistic that drew me in. Beyond that I really didn’t know what to expect. I was pleasantly surprised with how much beyond just that aspect of the book that totally kept me reading. This is a true must read for our generation. It’s a powerful story of love and overcoming. More importantly it’s a story of hate and angst. Hate. Hate is such a strong thing and there were parts of this book (that I will not ...more
Courtney (Fuzzy.Coffee.Books)
What I didn't expect when I first started reading was the emotional turmoil that the characters have to face.

What I liked: 1) The concept. I really appreciate unrequited love, because I've had many unrequited crushes in my life. Not any that are as long-lived as Alex's for Seth, but still. I'm totally able to empathize, and it's clear that Miz Jacobs knows how to write those emotions clearly and concisely. 2) Alex 2.0. I liked Alex a lot near the end, when she finally was figuring out what she w
I Loved You First hooked me from the very beginning and never let me down.

Alex really loved her friend Seth. She wanted to be more than friends, but he was gay. Yes, he was still in the closet. He covered up by dating different girls and then dropping them for one reason or another.

Here is a quote from when they were on the motorcycle:

"I took off with a jerk. Seth hated when I did that, but it forced him to grip me even tighter. He scooted forward with his thighs encasing mine, and his groin pre
Sara (sarabara081)
Jul 06, 2012 rated it liked it
You can find more of my reviews at Forever 17 Books!

When I first saw the premise behind I Loved You First, I immediately was intrigued. A story about a girl in love with someone who could never love her back in the same way, an almost forbidden love? I needed to know more!

What I didn’t expect was how the story felt like more than just a heartbreaking ‘love’ story, but instead a coming of age story about a girl, Alex, who was afraid to come out of her shell, meet new people, and separate from wha
Tracey (Life and Literature)
I Loved You First is the story of Alex and Seth. It's a story of friendship, love, personal struggles and growth. It's a story of getting lost in the shadows of someone else. It's a story of rediscovering the person that you are.

Alex is desperately in love with her best friend Seth. She will do anything for him. Even to the extent of relegating herself to the backburner. But it doesn't matter how much she loves him, or what she does to make him happy. Seth will never return her feelings. For Set
Jul 17, 2012 rated it liked it
Shelves: indie-author
Thank you to author Reena Jacobs for this e-book. This was a quick, interesting read that deals with relevant issues. The characters are well developed and I enjoyed the friendship aspect of Alex and Seth's relationship but struggled with her unrelenting feelings for him. When we meet them, they're at the point where she's known for quite sometime, years in fact, that he will never be able to love her the way she wants him too yet she still pines in secret. We don't always fall in love with the ...more
Meg - A Bookish Affair
Jul 27, 2011 rated it liked it
Shelves: 2011, fiction
I Loved You First is a pretty quick read with a good message. Alex and Seth have been best friends since they were little. Alex wishes that they could be more than more than friends but Seth is gay. Being the good friend that she is, Alex is charged with keeping Seth's secret so he won't arouse suspicion on their college campus; he wants to try to maintain as normal of a life as possible. So while he woos the female co-eds to cover his sexual preference and maintains his reputation as a college ...more
J.H. Kingsley
Oct 14, 2011 rated it really liked it
I Loved You First follows Alex, a freshman in college who has a thing for her gay best friend. It details her difficulties and discoveries as she explores her emotions and deals with how to find herself within them. Helping her along her journey book are Seth (the gay best friend), Dink (a football player), and Trinity (a classmate).

This book was difficult to read, but it was well written. The characters were strongly written and the pacing of the book moved nicely. There was a lack of a typical
Aug 01, 2012 rated it liked it
I received my eBook copy of I Loved You first from the author as part of the blog tour to celebrate the first anniversary of it's release. I had never heard of it before but I was intrigued to read it because of the LGBT storyline, it's not something that I have come across before in any book I've read.

I enjoyed reading ILYF. I thought it was probably quite an accurate portrayal of how a gay young man, in this case Seth, would feel about being gay within a college environment and not knowing how
Mickey Reed
I received this book from the author. Here is my honest review.

The blog tour is coming up, so here's my review for the novella! It is a very quick, easy read. It flows pretty well, too. It wasn't predictable for me, so the whole time I was reading I was never quite sure where the novella was going to take me. I had a couple ideas, but none of them really came about. That was okay, because by the end I suppose I was pretty satisfied.

I have to say, though.. I didn't like the relationship Alex has
Paula  Phillips
Sep 28, 2011 rated it really liked it
Wanting to check out a really good LGBTQ novel ? One that is aimed at Teenagers and in both African and Caucasian Viewpoints ? I Loved You First tells the story of two college students Seth Richards and Alex Carmichael. One is gay and the other straight , One male and the other female , One Black and one White. Alex and Seth have been friends forever and now reaching college-aged Alex is in love with her best friend Seth , though of course she knows that she can never be with him that way and th ...more
Jun 12, 2012 rated it liked it
Shelves: ebook
Alex believes herself to be invisible, living in the shadow of her best friend Seth. Seth is athletic and sociable, and is in the closet that however, doesn't stop Alex from being in love with him. Still, she doesn't feel that she needs anyone else in her life. Of course, that all changes with Seth's secret is let out of the bag. Alex finds that she isn't as invisible as she thinks she is, and that maybe he isn't the only person she needs.

I didn't think I was going to read this so quickly. Once
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Reena Jacobs is just your typical writer who loves to see her words in print. As an avid reader, she’s known to hoard books and begs her husband regularly for “just one more purchase.” Her home life is filled with days chasing her preschooler and nights harassing her husband. Between it all, she squeezes in time for writing and growling at the dog.

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