Goodreads helps you keep track of books you want to read.
Start by marking “Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia” as Want to Read:
Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia
Enlarge cover
Rate this book
Clear rating
Open Preview

Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

3.99  ·  Rating details ·  27,525 Ratings  ·  1,177 Reviews
Why would a talented young woman enter into a torrid affair with hunger, drugs, sex, and death? Through five lengthy hospital stays, endless therapy, and the loss of family, friends, jobs, and all sense of what it means to be "normal," Marya Hornbacher lovingly embraced her anorexia and bulimia -- until a particularly horrifying bout with the disease in college put the rom ...more
ebook, 320 pages
Published March 17th 2009 by HarperCollins e-books (first published December 29th 1997)
More Details... edit details

Friend Reviews

To see what your friends thought of this book, please sign up.

Reader Q&A

To ask other readers questions about Wasted, please sign up.

Be the first to ask a question about Wasted

This book is not yet featured on Listopia. Add this book to your favorite list »

Community Reviews

(showing 1-30)
Rating details
Sort: Default
|
Filter
Esmeralda Rupp-Spangle
Jan 21, 2008 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Mature readers
Shelves: auto-biography
Possibly the finest auto-biography I have ever read. People who have suffered from EDs will complain that this book is packed full of triggers, but so is America's Next Top Model, and I can't say anything about the quality of THAT writing.

This book is a genuine, gripping story of a youth literally thrown away in favor of madness.

For anyone who has not suffered from some incarnation of disordered eating, it will seem surreal, and at times, utterly unbelievable.
The book is effortlessly fluid. T
...more
stephanie
eta: i think it's important to note that this book was first published in 1998 - when things like tumblr did not exist. for a generation that learned to get all information from books, this book was the key to tricks and tips for anorexia. not that you couldn't figure them out for yourself, but if you were on the edge or something, this gave you ways. i don't actually say that this book should be censored, i say i wish there was a way to put warnings on it. i say i think it's an important book f ...more
Elyse
May 04, 2014 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
I read this book when it was first released ---(its 'very' disturbing). I wouldn't know how many stars to give it actually. I never like to 'rate' memoirs in the first place.

I can't give it 5 stars --I can't give it 1 star ---(so I went for 3) ----but I'll never forget the story.

Eating disorders are a disease. Marya Hornbacher does not sugar-coat 'anything'. People who have suffered anorexic --(or been a parent of a child) --'lived' this life deeply may 'not' want to read this book. NO SOLID a
...more
sara
Sep 02, 2007 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
It would be tacky to put this on my "food" shelf, wouldn't it? But I did get so hungry while reading it that I got up and made spaghetti carbonara. It was delicious.

So this is a memoir of the author's ten-year struggle with bulimia and anorexia. I found it different from other works I've read on eating disorders, in that the author doesn't go for easy explanations of why she almost killed herself. She wasn't trying to be pretty or perfect or to control her world, at least not solely. She was rea
...more
Thomas
3.5 stars

I once had an eating disorder several years ago, so I appreciate Marya Hornbacher's unflinching honesty in Wasted. She holds nothing back in this memoir, sharing the immense pain that accompanies anorexia and bulimia: the preoccupation with calories that takes over your life, the obsession with food that steals your energy from your passions, and the shame and guilt that comes with not feeling strong enough to resist your disorder. Published in 1997, Wasted may have very well served as
...more
Michael
Oct 03, 2009 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Marya is a fantastic fucking memoirist. There are a couple reasons this is all the more incredible: First, that she'd found such a voice and command of prose at 23, and second, that a 23 year-old would have lived a life worth writing about. The language is appropriately jagged, with short, sharp sentences, embodying a sparse, terrifying narrative of the scattered moments recalling her gradual and deliberate self-destruction.

She spares no one, including herself, in her examination of the causes a
...more
Lisa
Mar 02, 2008 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: mental health practitioners
I'm ambivalent about this book. Certainly, at times, she pulled no punches...yet at other times, still a bit under the sway of her disorder, she seemed to be bragging about her "successes" in the extremes of her eating disorder. She wasn't really healthy yet, and that came through in ways she probably never intended. In many ways, it helped me understand how eating disorders work. In other ways (again, I'm sure unintentional on the author's part), I began to understand how eating disorders and p ...more
Sara Batkie
God, there is nothing more tedious than a personal narrative that just goes on and on and on. I admire Ms. Hornbacher's willingness to put everything out there, but I find much of what she writes terribly suspect. Reading it from a non-eating-disordered perspective, I had to wonder if people who had been through this picked it up and thought "wow, that's just what I went through" or "hey, what a good idea, I never thought of doing that". Plus I'm not sure if the fact she's not yet over her illne ...more
Tima
Edited to add disclaimer. PLEASE err on the side of extreme caution if you are recovering from ED or were planning to share this book with a young person who may be in a vulnerable position. As someone who has struggled from an ED myself, I can say that this book contains many things that could trigger you. It also contains graphic detail of how to hide food, how to get rid of food, how to trick people, etc.

Basic Summary: Well, I think the title sort of covers it. It's a memoir of the author's
...more
Ashley
May 22, 2010 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: people who have no risk of developing an eating disorder
Shelves: memior, pschology
My relationship with this book is love/hate. It kind of reminds me of Prozac Nation in the sense that the first couple chapters about her average middle-class childhood are pretty boring and pointless. She tries to describe every little bad thing that happened to her like she is the only one in the world who ever received less than perfect parenting. However keep reading because unlike Prozac Nation this book actually gets pretty good as time goes on and you get into the shocking rock-bottom det ...more
Angie crosby
Aug 19, 2008 rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: non-fiction
Although I can see why so many like this book, I found it to be dangerous. As an anorexic I found the book great because it had tips in it. This is dangerous though also can be good to read for people trying to live with an anorexic or people who don't have this disease.

Definatly not a book for someone in the throes of an ED to read.


Savina M.
4.5 stars.

I scrolled through some of the reviews, and most of the two-three star reviews complained about this book being triggering, dangerous, etc. They said it contained "tips" and should not be read by people with an ED.

First of all, people with an ED figure out the "tips" by themselves sooner or later. A simple google search, pro ED websites, all offer the same "tips". For non ED sufferers, these tips might seem new and absurd, but most people with an ED would have already known about them
...more
Nicholas
Jan 03, 2009 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: biography-memoir
This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here.
Twxitbetwixt
Okay... what to say about THIS... LOL

I was expected a story about this woman's struggle with ED.
And yeah, it kind of was, but then it kind of wasn't.

Only a very small portion of the book is her actually owning up to her own personal issues & experiences. There is not very much of HER story (i.e. "I did this, I went here, I said that... etc) Not very much "I" at all.

Instead we have a book full of her being totally dissociated from the entire ED. Instead of "I" it's all "You".... "You will do
...more
Sara
May 22, 2007 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Everybody
Ok, I read this a long time ago, but it's still quite possibly the best book on eating disorders -- or even on adolescent mental illness -- that I've ever read. Hornbacher is intelligent, avoids cliches and above all, avoids making herself sound good when she can tell the truth instead. A bracing departure from the "girls can't help starving themselves to death when they see all those models in those glossy magazines" line of thinking about eating disorders -- a line of thinking that treats thos ...more
Nora|KnyguDama
May 11, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
MARYA HORNBACHER "IŠŠVAISTYTAS GYVENIMAS"

Ši mano recenzija bus kitokia. Galbūt labiau minėsiu ne tai apie ką ši knyga, kas ten parašyta, kokios baisybės kamavo Marya, o aplamai apie šias ligas. Anoreksiją ir bulimiją. Nes viskas ką siaubingiausio gali "padovanoti" šie sutrikimai - knygos autorei "padovanota" ir buvo.

Greičiausiai visi daugmaž žinom kas ir apie ką yra šios ligos. Anoreksija - liga, kurios dėka žmogus savanoriškai atsisako maisto ar kardinaliai sumažina jo normą, intensyviai sportu
...more
Kirsty
Mar 12, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Marya Hornbacher's Wasted, a memoir of the author's struggles with bulimia and anorexia, was March's choice for the Mad Woman's Book Club which I run on Goodreads. I was quite interested to see firsthand what coping with an eating disorder is like, particularly over such a prolonged period, having never read a book which deals with the issue.

Hornbacher begins with some startling admissions: 'I became bulimic at the age of nine, anorexic at the age of fifteen'. Her introduction is insightful; she
...more
luna
just a little reminder:

you're beautiful.
you're worth it.
you're more than your body, your weight, your thoughts.
you're allowed to eat.
you deserve to eat.

[TRIGGER WARNING FUCKING TRIGGER WARNING]

as someone who is currently struggling to kick my eating disorder ass, i can say that this book triggered me a lot. made me realize how fucked up i am. but it also made me feel less alone and misunderstood. marya did not enjoy writing this book. i did not enjoy reading it. because it hurts. writing and rea
...more
Paola
Anorexia: mancanza di appetito. Una malattia che comporta una fame cronica, assordante, chiamata mancanza di appetito. Sembra una presa in giro.
Sprecata, tutto sta già nel titolo, che comunque é un giudizio che solo la Hornbacher ha il diritto di dare alla propria, fin qui, breve vita.
Rispetto al suo, posteriore, "Una vita bipolare", questa sua testimonianza mostra tutta l'urgenza dello scrivere, del mettere per iscritto quanto avvenuto e quanto compreso rispetto alla propria malattia. A volte r
...more
Rachel
Apr 28, 2010 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This was such a difficult and painful book to read that it took me well over a month to finish it! Hornbacher in no way tried to sugarcoat her illness or attempt to make the reader feel sorry for her. And I have to say I both appreciated and admired her honest recount of her actions. She goes so far as to acknowledge that she still doesn't have a full grasp of understanding her disorder nor does she leave you with a false sense of well-being in the end. She ends her memoir telling you she was no ...more
Gustine

This book is unquestionably very well-written and fascinating, yet I struggled with how many stars to give it.
The author is, quite simply, a rather unlikable person. I hate looking at her photo on the cover, I’m glad I don’t know her, and I don’t really wish her well. This was troubling to me because it seems one should like (or at least have empathy for) the character one is reading about, particularly if the book is a memoir. Should feeling empathy for the author of a memoir be a prerequisite
...more
Julia
Nov 07, 2007 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: anyone who wants to learn about a well-written, first hand account of an eating disorder progression
Recommended to Julia by: either Amazon or Powells
This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here.
Ugnė
Nov 18, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: jav
Šiurpi ir pobjaurė knyga, kaip ir visos kitos kūniškos knygos apie ligas. Nėra nei malonu, nei lengva skaityti apie panieką savo kūnui, silpnumą, svaigstančią galvą, permatomą odą, paukščio kaulus ir t.t., ir pan. Apie žaidimą su maistu iš viso tyliu.

Užtat labai svarbu perskaityti ir suprasti, kad valgymo sutrikimai, nors ir labai paveikti dabartinės kultūros, neprasideda nuo noro patikti konkrečiam berniukui/vaikinui/vyrui ar nuo nevilties, kad konkrečiam berniukui/vaikinui/vyrui nepatinki, kad
...more
Peacegal
WASTED is one of those books that will have you shaking your head and mumbling to yourself, "oh my god, that is insane." As detailed in this book, eating disorders are indeed a type of mental illness. People with anorexia or bulimia struggle so hard to get better because their brains are preventing them from thinking in a normal fashion. Just as you cannot tell a person with schizophrenia or bipolar disorder to "just get over it," the same with eating disorders.

The ending of this book was rathe
...more
Jennifer
Given Wasted’s veritable glut of intimate details, Marya Hornbacher’s tone was curiously detached and impersonal for me, which meant I had a bit of a difficult time really getting into this one. Hornbacher seems at least a little cognizant of this: in one footnote, she insinuates that she suffers from alexithymia, and is thus unable to verbalize her emotional state, despite being otherwise ‘exceptionally verbal’. Humorously, Hornbacher neglects to address why, if this is so, she thought that wri ...more
Bookwyrm
Jan 01, 2009 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This book will haunt you, I promise you. I still think about it often, though I read it for the first time I think about 4 years ago. The author chronicles her struggle with anorexia and bulimia (which she calls a combined disorder of "bulimarexia") but her language is captivating. It is also apparent that Marya has done her research; as she narrates her own experience she also includes passages from research on anorexia and bulimia to help show how she came to be afflicted and where she fits in ...more
Kate O'Hanlon
I gave this book five stars because it's a fantastic book. Beautifully written, honest and rich with insight.

When I read Wasted I was 16/17 and obsessed with my weight. I knew the book had critics who said that it shouldn't be read by people with eating disorders because it was filled with tips and because Hornbacher was equivocal when it came to getting better. I scoffed at them.

I'm older now and if not better, then at least different, and I do have a more troubled view of the book. Is this a
...more
Adriana
Mar 27, 2011 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Although I don't have an eating disorder, I could identify with some of the things Marya says here. She's very honest and doesn't try to sugar-coat anorexia or bulimia. In truth, you never fully recover from these conditions, and you can see her struggle with her past and her future in every page. I recommend this book to people wanting to understand eating disorders, to relatives of someone with anorexia, and to pepple who want a good, real read. This gets very Painful to read at times.
Rebecca McNutt
This book was interesting and gives readers a glimpse into a disease (disorder?) that nearly killed Marya until she got control of her life again. Genuine and realistic, Wasted is really worth reading.
tee
Apr 14, 2008 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I read this the other day and could . not . put . it . down. I was sucked into it's nasty, vortex of destruction from the very first page. Having also just finished reading 'Madness', I can honestly say that my brain feels like tender, pulsating, minced meat right now. I have been on a Hornbacher bender and it feels quite like the time I dealt with alcohol poisoning and an acid come-down all in one evening. This shit is painful to read. And I'm stunned to think that I started reading with cautio ...more
« previous 1 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 next »
There are no discussion topics on this book yet. Be the first to start one »
  • Thin
  • Fasting Girls: The History of Anorexia Nervosa
  • Going Hungry: Writers on Desire, Self-Denial, and Overcoming Anorexia
  • Gaining: The Truth about Life After Eating Disorders
  • Purge: Rehab Diaries
  • Stick Figure
  • Slim to None: A Journey Through the Wasteland of Anorexia Treatment
  • Appetites: Why Women Want
  • Perfect: Anorexia & Me
  • Thin
  • The Best Little Girl in the World
  • Biting Anorexia: A Firsthand Account of an Internal War
  • Life-Size
  • Get Me Out of Here: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder
  • More Than You Can Chew
  • A Bright Red Scream: Self-Mutilation and the Language of Pain
  • Loud in the House of Myself: Memoir of a Strange Girl
  • Brave Girl Eating: A Family's Struggle with Anorexia
766 followers
Marya Hornbacher published her first book, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia (HarperCollins Publishers, Inc.), in 1998, when she was twenty-three. What started as a crazy idea suggested by a writer friend became the classic book that has been published in fourteen languages, is taught in universities and writing programs all over the world, and has, according to the thousands of letters Mar ...more
More about Marya Hornbacher

Nonfiction Deals

  • Hope and Other Luxuries: A Mother's Life with a Daughter's Anorexia
    $19.99 $2.99
  • Manic: A Memoir
    $12.99 $1.99
  • Who Gets What — and Why: The New Economics of Matchmaking and Market Design
    $9.99 $2.99
  • The Card Catalog: Books, Cards, and Literary Treasures
    $19.99 $1.99
  • Without a Doubt
    $5.99 $2.49
  • The Trip to Echo Spring: On Writers and Drinking
    $9.99 $3.99
  • Paris Letters
    $14.99 $2.99
  • Fear: Essential Wisdom for Getting Through the Storm
    $13.74 $1.99
  • My Cross to Bear
    $11.24 $1.99
  • The Warrior Ethos
    $6.99 $1.99
  • A Chance in this world
    $5.99 $0.99
  • It's Easier Than You Think: The Buddhist Way to Happiness
    $13.99 $1.99
  • A Deadly Game: The Untold Story of the Scott Peterson Investigation
    $14.99 $1.99
  • Everyday Zen
    $11.24 $1.99
  • In Harm's Way: The Sinking of the U.S.S. Indianapolis and the Extraordinary Story of Its Survivors
    $9.99 $2.99
  • Somebody Else's Kids
    $7.99 $1.99
  • Maude
    $2.99 $1.49
  • Here Is Where: Discovering America's Great Forgotten History
    $10.99 $1.99
  • Mindful Eating: A Guide to Rediscovering a Healthy and Joyful Relationship with Food (Revised Edition)
    $13.99 $1.99
  • The Rational Optimist (P.S.)
    $14.49 $2.99
  • Bored and Brilliant: How Spacing Out Can Unlock Your Most Productive & Creative Self
    $13.99 $2.99
  • Of Wolves and Men (Scribner Classics)
    $9.99 $1.99
  • God: A Story of Revelation
    $8.74 $1.99
  • Ben & Jerry's Homemade Ice Cream & Dessert Book
    $10.95 $1.99
  • The Story of the Jews: Finding the Words, 1000 BC - 1492 AD
    $13.99 $2.99
  • I'm Your Man: The Life of Leonard Cohen
    $11.74 $1.99
  • Unseen: The Gift of Being Hidden in a World That Loves to Be Noticed
    $9.99 $2.99
  • I'd Like to Apologize to Every Teacher I Ever Had: My Year as a Rookie Teacher at Northeast High
    $11.99 $1.99
  • The Imaginary Girlfriend
    $14.99 $1.99
  • Things I've Been Silent About
    $4.99 $1.99
  • GI Brides: The Wartime Girls Who Crossed the Atlantic for Love
    $8.49 $2.99
  • The Romanov Sisters: The Lost Lives of the Daughters of Nicholas and Alexandra
    $9.99 $2.99
  • Dharma Punx: A Memoir
    $11.49 $1.99
  • Princesses Behaving Badly: Real Stories from History Without the Fairy-Tale Endings
    $10.99 $1.99
  • Queens Consort: England's Medieval Queens from Eleanor of Aquitaine to Elizabeth of York
    $9.99 $1.99
  • This Life I Live: One Man's Extraordinary, Ordinary Life and the Woman Who Changed It Forever
    $9.99 $2.99
  • As I Walked Out One Midsummer Morning: A Memoir (The Autobiographical Trilogy Book 2)
    $9.99 $2.99
  • An Appeal to the World: The Way to Peace in a Time of Division
    $9.99 $1.99
  • How to Have a Good Day: Harness the Power of Behavioral Science to Transform Your Working Life
    $13.99 $1.99
“You never come back, not all the way. Always there is an odd distance between you and the people you love and the people you meet, a barrier thin as the glass of a mirror, you never come all the way out of the mirror; you stand, for the rest of your life, with one foot in this world and no one in another, where everything is upside down and backward and sad.” 662 likes
“We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need.” 492 likes
More quotes…