I’m scared

lovelydagger:

I’m sorry ahead of time everyone, but I’ve been needing to vent some for a while now. Wall of text incoming. I personally prefer to keep things as private as possible, but it’s not always the best option. I’ve also been incredibly scared. Scared of what might happen if I spoke my half. I left Andrew because he was an angry individual obsessed with his internet status, and not with our relationship. I tried for years to make him happy and was unable to before I realized that you cannot make someone happy who is unwilling or unable to BE happy on their own. He claims I never introduced him to my friends, but whenever I tried he shrugged it off with absolutely no interest. He claims he supported me every step of the way, but all he did was treat me like a personal maid and cook. The whole ordeal with my computer breaking down was fixed for me by close friends while Andy claimed he was buying me a new one personally. He argued with me about which one he would buy and told me that I had to pay him back as soon as possible. He was emotionally, and occasionally physically abusive when he didn’t get his way. Our personalities were just not compatible even though I tried my best. Once when I was cowering in a corner crying after he threw things across the house, he stopped to tell me how cute I was in this position. After I had decided it was in my best interest to get out of the relationship, I told him that we were breaking up and that I would be leaving as soon as I could, which was within the week. During that week, I awoke to him on top of me groping me, dry humping me, and ejaculating on my face and chest while repeating “Sorry…” over and over before he left for work. I was too scared to contact police and had nobody I could trust nearby. Even after I left, when he would contact me he was brash and hurtful, placing all of the blame in his life on me, including multiple suicide threats, and I couldn’t handle it anymore. I even requested that he not bother any of my friends, which he promised me he wouldn’t and then… https://docs.google.com/document/d/1N0y4V4MjTwrQE0-c1xm8UXx3G3v6r6RGQBYB30U0aDg/edit?usp=sharing . THIS is why I decided to block him from all forms of contact with me. And for the record, I do not want him to use any of my characters, or any likeness to my characters. He has explicitly stated that he would not use my characters if I expressed I did not approve.