You Decide....

What word will you allow to describe your day today? As we wake, we have a choice in the narrative we create for ourselves. Will it be “grief”, “contentment”, “anger”, “love”, “peace”, “jealously”? Will we allow our day to be defined by the worst in us or by the very best? And when we are faltering in big ways will we be able to pull ourselves back into a lighter, healthier mindset? 
Throughout the years of unexplainable affliction, I’ve struggled with staying the course. Whether the struggles were internal from my own insecurities, doubt, grief, path of enlightenment or whether they originated from external circumstances such as loss; I’ve had to constantly decide if I was going to put one foot in front of the other with a smile or with a frown on my face. 
Years have passed since I experienced the first few chapters of my book, but the challenges I’ve learned from continue to present themselves in new forms. That’s life. It continues and within every ten incredible moments lies one that challenges us to carry on with optimism. 
My own challenges of today are much to do with raising our daughter with special needs. She is aging physically, but seemingly regressing cognitively. I am often overwhelmed, isolated and afraid with anger percolating the surface. Finding a personal balance is increasingly difficult. Her condition, her life and her future are disappointingly not in my control— but what is in my grasp of control is my outlook, perception, reaction and remembrance of perspective. Often, that is really all we have, and it can be a powerful tool of survival. 
In the dim light of today are the shadows of yesterday’s affliction and the hope of tomorrow’s gifts. May each of us allow only the best narrative for ourselves.