My hurts turn livid upon me as I lean on a cane and observe.
Having tendonitis is my own personal hell. In the past week, I've written less than a paragraph. I wrote way more than that (and more often) on my honeymoon! For those of you who don't know, pen and paper is my preferred method of writing, and with the tendonitis, I can hardly hold a pen. I can type somewhat, but with two fingers taped together I make an insane amount of mistakes. At this point in the blog entry, 5 minutes have already passed. 5 minutes!!! For 5-6 sentences!!! I've been trying to do Danny Marble revisions on the computer but it's taking for-friggin-ever. :(
I've also noticed that I'm just not a pleasant person to be around when I'm not writing. I'm depressed and irritable and very short-tempered. Some of that is because I have deadlines to make and every day I don't write, I'm basically losing 10-20 pages and much more on weekends. But during all of this, I have to go to work where I do repetitive motions and HAVE to do some writing, which pisses me off because I think "if I HAVE to write, I should be writing MY stuff." I know it's illogical because I'm getting paid at work, but I can't help the way it makes me feel. Also, I'm SOOOO tired of people suggesting I get dictation software. Maybe some people can perfectly tell a story aloud without any revisions or roadblocks, but that's not the way I work, and I don't know any other writers who work that way. Besides, do you really think dictation software is going to recognize all of my made-up words in the Tales of Dominhydor. You really think that's not going to frustrate me even more?! UGH!!!! I know people are just trying to be helpful and the first few times I've heard it, I just smiled and shrugged off the fact that they couldn't possibly understand my routine and style, but after hearing it about 10 times a day for the past two weeks, I've got some serious rage about it. Basically there isn't much I can do to fix the problem except rest my hand and deal with it, but it's just really hard.
It's been a non-stop Jess Torture Fest, but Dave has been super supportive, and seeing friends this past weekend took my mind off it for a while. Also, Fools call it Fate opening night is this Friday and I am really excited about it. I just wish that hearing my words didn't remind me that I haven't written anything in what seems like forever. In truth, it's only been about a week, but for someone who writes as much as I do, it might as well be a year. :(
