"I’m addicted to things that will only ever lead to self destruction. That’s okay, it’s worth the..."

“I’m addicted to things that will only ever lead to self destruction. That’s okay, it’s worth the risk and worth the pain. When I say that out loud I am called crazy, seen as a walking sign of danger, as a bomb that is ready to explode at any given moment. But I know that when my time has come that I will be the one in control. That I will be the one who is faced with my own fate, and sometimes knowing that excites me. No one should be afraid of me. I am not an example of what happens to a person when you live your life on the edge. Because I have taken on the edge and the height and trust me, it’s nothing compared to what I have once come against. Pain is not enough sometimes, and I even see it as a way of passing the time by. I’m afraid that one day doing things that most fear won’t be enough, and that maybe it never will be.”

- "I’m addicted to my own self-infliction," - Colleen Brown