VLOG ATTACK

I may bring it back… I should have eased into it but every time I see me…talking on the screen, I want to cry and I can’t explain why but for now I need to breathe and soon I will bring it back when the panic subsides.

i couldn’t do it

i freaked out

panic attack

it’s like a monster

it looks like one

it talks like one

it’s different

in frozen stills

more maneageable

but put a voice to it

and i can’t

well…

you saw it

and you’ll never

be able to unsee

my face moving

for the world to see

i wanted to be brave

to put the real me

on display

but it’s too much

and too horrible

and i like you

and i want you

to like me back

i hope it’s not too late

to lie…and say

what you saw

what you see

what you heard

what you hear

it isn’t me

damn…this insecurity