I FEEL LIKE A FOOL

Have you ever been told

Something you loved

Believed in and cherished

Wasn’t special anymore

That you had ruined it

That the words you wrote

That the words they wrote

Weren’t anything

Never really were

You’ve been roped in

To believing

It wasn’t fiction

But…

The secret wasn’t hiding

It was my creation

An illusion

For my eyes only

Apparently

They kept me afloat

They gave me hope

Fueled my dreams

Helped me cope

I read them all again

One more time

But now they laugh

Every word I embraced

I feel like a fool

One last time

Before the flames

Of deception

Consumed me

Overwhelming me

Destroying me

Once holding my hand

Now left without a head

I erase the words

And start over again

Only my words this time

Only my words this time

Only my voice…

Oh God save me

I feel like a fool