What’s Up? Is this . . . me?

Okay, granted this is a personal post
I wanted to let my friends know what was happening . . .

I’m down 60 pounds with 73 pounds to go.
This being said, all sorts of stuff is hitting the fan.
First, same old problem of getting my 80 grams of protein down. But I have found a GNC product that I am able to tolerate pretty well, GNC Lean Shake. It tastes at the very least, tolerable and it’s chuck full of protein with only 170 calories.
Now, I have been saved by my friend in my Gastric Bypass Support group, she has given me a truck load of clothes that I can wear since I have gone from a size 30 to 18.  My other clothes were hanging off of me.  With the new and stylish clothes, I have a renewed a fashion interest.
I have begun to put on wear contact and put on makeup everyday and dress in her beautiful donated clothes.  When I get to little for them.  I will donate them to another person in my group.
However, with that being said, I have now come to the ugly part of this process.

fat . . .
and never going to be able to lose that image.
The one, I still see in the mirror.
That particular feeling sucks because you put your body through hell to make yourself healthy, but your MIND is still unhealthy.
Not only is your mind saying, “NEVER will you be healthy, pretty, happy with yourself.”
It still wants all the things that your body will never be able to tolerate!  For instance, I will never be able to tolerate sitting on a Sunday afternoon watching NFL Football and enjoy beer and my famous ‘Death by Nachos’!
OR Drink a gallon of coffee before going to work to wake me up after writing all night. (That was the only way I wrote Seditious and Ransom  . . . coffee infusions)
OR tolerate making my wonderful homemade spaghetti or chocolate chip cookies.
Never on a snowy day will I be able to make my infamous ‘Sizzlin’ Hot Chocolate’ with chunks of melted Swiss chocolate.

Either stick with the program or get sick.  NO more if’s and or but’s!
NO more deals I made with myself that I would diet tomorrow, if I cheated today. No . . . nothing . . . just compliance and that’s FINAL! I will check in every once in while with you all and let you know how it is going.
With all my bitching, I do thank God that I had this done.  I’m no longer diabetic.
I no longer am sure that I was going to have a heart attack before I was 60.
I can now live without the fear or dying of being morbidly obese.
Take care and lots of love to you all. I thank God for my friends and fellow bloggers who are my support everyday.
I will be there for you too. I support you and care about my friends.  This video is for you my loves.
HAPPY SUNDAY!!!
PEACE AND LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!

Filed under: Uncategorized Tagged: Bad Body Image, Being Happy, Body Dis-morphic Disorder, Body Image, Clothing, Diabetes, Dressing up, Eating, Gastric Bypass, Gastric bypass surgery, GNC, Happiness, Health, Love, Make up, Morbid Obesity, Obesity, Pride, Surgery, Weight, Weight loss