The Biggest Heartbreak of All!

  As most of you probably know by now, it has been my dream to teach at Eubank Elementary since I began my training several years ago. I live right down the street, my daughter attends there and has 4 friends, the same age as her, whose parents work there. Right now, I am very fortunate to be there as a substitute teacher. However, a full time position did become available and I did receive an interview. Can you imagine how ecstatic I was at the prospect of being hired at my dream school? Unfortunately, I did not receive the position. Yes, I was heartbroken, but right now that seems as nothing. I am literally in tears at the prospect of picking my daughter up in just a few minutes, looking into that sweet, innocent, trusting face and telling her I failed. Yes, she will be supportive and not want me to feel bad, but I can't help it. I feel like such a failure and for the first time in my life I almost don't want to see my baby. I just can't stand that I have let her down. Maybe, it wouldn't be so bad if so many of her friends parents didn't already work there, but they do. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I were settled in a job somewhere by age 40. Maybe, maybe, maybe. The truth is this is one of the hardest things I have ever done and I honestly don't know right now, how I can even tell her.