Trying To Keep You For Myself

I watch you struggle, helpless

sugar-coating your reality with laughter

trying to keep you for myself

You tell me the news from the ICU as I watch a muted documentary on Highgrove

A royal garden visited in my darkest days. I am shocked by how selfish I am

trying to keep you for myself

You mention Buddha and I try to laser beam the loogie inside your head

with the white-hot light of my third eye, with my heart, my love

trying to keep you for myself

I want you to have the freedom to allow what comes to come

I want to tell you to fight, to embrace life, to not give up

trying to keep you for myself

You are my sister, my best friend and I don’t know how to make you better, comfort you, hold you in your fear

when all I want to do is keep you for myself.