invisible me III

KODAK Digital Still Camera

healing through comics. you betcha.
originally, i left it blank where “i” would be. but then i thought an outline would look cool.
& i do like the way it turned out.

so i keep doing the work on losing my invisibility
letting go of something that is so raveled up in who i am.
being invisible kept me safe. but also, i used invisibility to help myself feel better too. when my mother couldn’t be bothered with me, i decided not to dignify her neglect by being loud & demanding like my sister (more power to her!)
instead, i became even more quiet. more invisible. if they weren’t going to bother to notice me, i would disappear.
little monster me…if i could not inspire love….
sigh.
so i am working on rewiring all that programming. it might take awhile. in fact, it probably should take awhile. i don’t want to get whiplash…or freak out & run back to the safety of my shadow life.
baby steps….