Letting Go…

I haven’t felt this broken
Since a long long time.
I wasn’t ever healed;
But so hidden were my wounds,
That I forgot how it felt
To be broken again.

But then life couldn’t leave me alone
And brought its struggle along.
I strived and strived and strived:
To fight, to resist, to heal;
Nothing worked,
For a lost battle it was.

And so here I am
Broken, once again.
But this time,
I am numbed by the pain.
I don’t feel it as I felt before…
Is this healing?
No, it’s just letting go.