Mommy, Thank You For Not Aborting Me
“Mommy, thank you for not aborting me, and for choosing to give me life.”
...Some of the most heart-wrenching words I may ever hear. I was young and unmarried when I became pregnant with my daughter. Despite the shame of my illegitimate pregnancy, God spoke to me that He was about to do something New—to make Beauty arise from my ashes. And (before even the gender of my child was revealed), He gave me her name—Ennaya—“The ABUNDANT Blessing, Grace, and Gift of God!” Then He told me to have faith for that child, and to refuse to embrace the negative messages of our culture and society.
The day that my baby was born my life was forever changed. It became much more challenging and complicated, that is true—but that was not what changed. I changed, because for the first time, I was no longer living solely for myself. My heart exploded with the immensity of the love I felt for this tiny, fragile little life, completely dependent on me for absolutely everything that she needed to survive. I knew that the road ahead would be long and difficult, and I knew that I would have to become a Fighter. But I knew that I would fight for her without hesitation. And I also knew that God would be with me, and that somehow He would make a way.
Over the many long years I spent as a struggling single mother, my daughter became my greatest joy and source of comfort. And throughout my (seemingly endless) battle of working through the trauma and the crippling affects of Complex PTSD, my daughter has been my greatest delight and source of strength. She is strong, courageous, resilient, compassionate, and tender-hearted. She’s beautiful, talented, and highly intelligent. She loves Jesus, and lets His love flow out of her to everyone around her. Her laughter has lit up dark days, with her killer sense of humor that has always had me in stitches! She has been WORTH EVERY SINGLE STRUGGLING STEP FORWARD—and I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.
For any unmarried pregnant young woman out there, who is afraid and uncertain of what the future holds, I would say this:
Will it be hard? Yes—painfully so, at times. Will it be frightening? Yes, very much so. Will there be tears? Yes... many of them... Will it be worth it? YES. ❤️ Will God provide? Yes, He will—in ways and miracles you couldn’t even imagine! ❤️ Will it be the greatest adventure of your life? YES—beyond anything you have ever experienced! ❤️ Will that child become the greatest gift of love you could possibly imagine? ABSOLUTELY and without question! ❤️ ...So be encouraged. God is far from finished with you—on the other side of your fear there is an unimaginably Precious Gift waiting! ❤️
Someday, you will get to look back and see how God made you strong through your present struggles, and how He turned your tears into incredible Triumph. And someday, when your child is old enough to understand the enormous choice that stands before you today—the choice to take the easy way out, or the choice to instead step up, be courageous, and to choose LOVE—someday, you will hear the same words:
“Mommy, thank you for not aborting me—thank you for choosing to let me live.”
“Behold: I make ALL things New!” —JESUS
...Some of the most heart-wrenching words I may ever hear. I was young and unmarried when I became pregnant with my daughter. Despite the shame of my illegitimate pregnancy, God spoke to me that He was about to do something New—to make Beauty arise from my ashes. And (before even the gender of my child was revealed), He gave me her name—Ennaya—“The ABUNDANT Blessing, Grace, and Gift of God!” Then He told me to have faith for that child, and to refuse to embrace the negative messages of our culture and society.
The day that my baby was born my life was forever changed. It became much more challenging and complicated, that is true—but that was not what changed. I changed, because for the first time, I was no longer living solely for myself. My heart exploded with the immensity of the love I felt for this tiny, fragile little life, completely dependent on me for absolutely everything that she needed to survive. I knew that the road ahead would be long and difficult, and I knew that I would have to become a Fighter. But I knew that I would fight for her without hesitation. And I also knew that God would be with me, and that somehow He would make a way.
Over the many long years I spent as a struggling single mother, my daughter became my greatest joy and source of comfort. And throughout my (seemingly endless) battle of working through the trauma and the crippling affects of Complex PTSD, my daughter has been my greatest delight and source of strength. She is strong, courageous, resilient, compassionate, and tender-hearted. She’s beautiful, talented, and highly intelligent. She loves Jesus, and lets His love flow out of her to everyone around her. Her laughter has lit up dark days, with her killer sense of humor that has always had me in stitches! She has been WORTH EVERY SINGLE STRUGGLING STEP FORWARD—and I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.
For any unmarried pregnant young woman out there, who is afraid and uncertain of what the future holds, I would say this:
Will it be hard? Yes—painfully so, at times. Will it be frightening? Yes, very much so. Will there be tears? Yes... many of them... Will it be worth it? YES. ❤️ Will God provide? Yes, He will—in ways and miracles you couldn’t even imagine! ❤️ Will it be the greatest adventure of your life? YES—beyond anything you have ever experienced! ❤️ Will that child become the greatest gift of love you could possibly imagine? ABSOLUTELY and without question! ❤️ ...So be encouraged. God is far from finished with you—on the other side of your fear there is an unimaginably Precious Gift waiting! ❤️
Someday, you will get to look back and see how God made you strong through your present struggles, and how He turned your tears into incredible Triumph. And someday, when your child is old enough to understand the enormous choice that stands before you today—the choice to take the easy way out, or the choice to instead step up, be courageous, and to choose LOVE—someday, you will hear the same words:
“Mommy, thank you for not aborting me—thank you for choosing to let me live.”
“Behold: I make ALL things New!” —JESUS
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