Well folks, that's all.

I sincerely hope that you aren't reading this right now but I know you are. Quit. This should be the last time you are here. You don't get to have little glimpses into my life while so effectively shutting me out of yours. Yes, I know. You still want to be friends. But that's not good enough for me and you know it.

So you should leave.

Still here? Well goddamnit. I'm mad at you and I'm writing this out of anger. You hurt me and you didn't want this to end like this. Well maybe next time you will think things through before you go for what you want in the moment and then do a 180 less than 4 hours later. Because that's not fucking fair. You said you feel guilty. Well try giving a part of yourself to someone and then while they are still tangled around you and their kisses still on your neck, listen to the words, "I think we should just be friends." That's not guilt you feel. That's an irrational anger and an outright hurt that you are feeling.

No, I don't want to be friends with you. Clearly. I'm not going to be friends with you. As much as it hurts me right now to say that and as much as I will miss you, it won't make up for the hurt of having to listen to you talk about other girls and dates and all that.

So this should be the last post you read here. I won't be hurt like this again.