How I Thought My Dad Was Dying, and Loving Him More

This weekend changed my life out of fear that my dad was dying. . .
My whole life with my dad flashed before my eyes during the weekend as my mom took him to ER for possible stroke.
He couldn't use his right hand and he was dragging his right foot.
She didn't have time to talk to me and she sounded worried.
Immediately, I stopped thinking about myself, which is transformative in itself, and I saw how much I actually loved him. I realized how short life can be and I felt I hadn't had enough loving times with him, don't we all?
I had a panic attack around my parents six years ago, and Ive been nervous around them ever since. Anxiety has hampered with the most beautiful times with them and I call this Satan's best trick. Satan doesn't want us to express love freely and enjoy our life. He wants us to live in fear, which then causes us to hide behind addictions, which eventually destroys us.
This isn't a religious article though, so keep reading.
Eventually, my mom gave me updates from the hospital, and realized he had fallin a month before and maybe just had old blood on his brain.
Sure enough, the doctors drained the blood and he felt great.
Now, I am seeing my parents in 3 weeks. I haven't seen them for two years. I always think of how I will act when they get here and get totally nervous, see, thinking about myself again.
But, since my dad has nearly died and his life with mine flashed before my eyes, I will cherish every second with him when i see him and have no anxiety. because, this life is short and not about me.
Here's a little more about my dad and I and overcoming anxiety:
Overcoming Anxiety with Dad