How I Got Here (Part 5… apparently)
It has apparently been forever since I posted anything of any nature on this blog. There are a number of reasons and a few excuses for that. None of which I will bother going into.
But I will take the time to tell a little story. One that I will call, “I make no claims”, and it may explain why I say that.
A few years ago I was part of a series of prophetic training classes. One evening, there was a planned worship and ministry evening planned at the church where the classes were being held. Those of us in the series of classes were expected to participate as part of two person ministry teams.
This was the first time I had ever been “on the ministry side” of something like that. In spite of being admonished to “trust God and remember it is Holy Spirit, not you,” I was nervous. Scared, actually.
The evening came and progressed and soon it was ministry time.
Among those in the line that came up for ministry was a tough looking gentleman with long hair who obviously had been “through it”, and it showed. We were supposed to give whoever came up “a word”. So after the guy I was teamed with (who was a School of Supernatural Ministry graduate and alumni and leader) gave his “word for the man”, it was my turn.
So I gave him “a word” that included something about him wandering away from God and being out ‘in sin’ for some time and him being on his way back and that God was going to use his experiences while being “astray” in the “season of ministry” that was ahead of him.
He received the word, or at least said he did.
About half a year or so went by. One day I saw something online, probably Facebook or something, about a pastor in a church in a nearby town. Of course there was a picture of this pastor and behold, it was the same man.
Or so I thought. (Never mind, for the moment that I found out about a year and a half later, it wasn’t him at all. Never mind for the moment that I found out that the pastor had never been to this particular church. Never mind for the moment that in all probability the “word” was probably pin point accurate. )
I mentally reviewed what I vaguely remembered of the “word” I gave to the man in the ministry line, and cringed. I had told a PASTOR that he has wandered from God, and that he had gone out into sin and that he was on his way back… and it wasn’t that way at all.
What I said to him was not true at all. I was convinced I had “blown it” beyond big time.
I slowly began to shut down any belief in the idea that “I can hear from God”. I had been told I was “overbearing” before. I had been told that I had spiritually abused someone in my attempts to walk out this supposed “hearing from God”before. I had been told that I came across as if I thought I was a spiritual giant before.
That did it. I was done claiming that I could “hear from God”.
(to be continued)
